Okie dokie , so I updated early in the last chapter because you guys are amazing! My update day is Thursday but every once in a while I'll give you guys a special treat of an early update! (PS. in the last chapter the song was concrete angel by martina mcbride, my computer fucked it up) So yeah, thats about it, thanks guys =).

Oh the years fly by for the ones who survive

Till they look like grown ups, and nobody hears them

Nobody hears them cry

Please don't believe me when I say I'm ok

Look a little deeper for the words that I can't say

I'm too small to stand alone, I sure could use a friend

Help me learn to trust someone again

Don't leave me

Please don't believe me

Please Don't Believe - Sue Crawford

I had his words ringing around my head all day long.

"You don't have to tell me anything you know..." His concerned eyes were burn into my memory at that very moment. "Just say the word and I swear I'll leave you alone..." I don't understand why hes being so nice, surly its just an act... Right?

Right.

He has no reason to be so wonderful towards me! I did nothing to deserve it, but I still couldn't help but feel that he wasn't lying; that somehow he managed to care. Then again; he knew nothing about me. he didn't know the memories, the bruises, the scars and most importantly all the damage I've caused... Yet I could find it in my self to tell him go away, no matter how selfish and selfcentered I was being. For god's sake! I could be putting him in danger, but I guess people don't lie when they say the past repeats its self...

I shook my head, attemping to clear it as I walked over to my car, watching my feet, as always. From under the shade of hair I could see a figure leaning against my truck and I could my self starting to panic. Slowly and as calmly as I could muster I moved my hair to look at what was waiting for me.

"Hi Bella." I breathed out a sigh of relief... Not James... I gave a slight nod to the blue eyed boy who seemed to be invading my mind.

"How are you doing?" He asked but I knew there was some sort of double meaning, I had to remind myself that he didn't know, chanting it, hoping I was right.

"I'm just fine." I gave him the same answer I give every one who is stupid enough to try and be my friend, but for some reason I could feel myself slightly hoping he wouldn't believe me, that he would see right though my 'I'm fine'.

"Alright... So, Have you thought about what I said?" I couldn't help but feel slightly disapointed, but I stopped myself as soon as I realized it. This is why hope is stupid! Its nieve and idiotic and leads to nothing but disapointment, hurt, and heartbreak.

I slowly and caustiously made my way to the drivers side, giving him a slight nod before hurridly climbing in and rapidly shoved the keys in the ignition. Out of he corner of my eye I could see him simper again.

"Bye, bye Bella." He took a couple steps away from my car, and I gave him a another nod before pulling out of the parking lot and speeding off towards home.

I was distracted the entire ride home nearly taking the life of a disease ridden rat with I even realized where I was I had pulled into the drive way. I hopped out of my truck, walking up the two steps to the front door, taking a deep breathe and walked inside.

"Hey Vic?" I called out causiously.

"I'm in the room." Her voice was raspy and harsh. Slowly I peeked my head thru the door before walking in. I took that time to truly take in her apearence, she had a black eye and bruises covering the entire right side of her face. Her body was randomly covered with cuts along with black and blue blotches. I could feel my heart break for her een more.

"Come on over here Darlin'." I cautiously made my way over to my bed and took a seat in the spot i occupied last night. I took a look over at her empty tray.

"You ate..." I felt the corner of my lips turn up, but I knew it wasn't only for the fact she ate so much, but it was the fact that those blue eyes found their way back into my mind.

"Yeah, I was rather famished." She said with a real crappy british accent. Oddly, the corners of my lips turned up a bit more.

"Remind me to never let you watch Sherlock marathons ever again?" I said making her laugh.

"I can't help it! Its the most amazing seriese on TV lately!" She threw right back earning a chuckle in responce.

"For god's sake, are they even British?" The puzzled, hard thinking face she had on made me throw my head back laughing, I liked this, when James wasn't around, how easy it seemed to be.

"O-M-G! I don't even know!" Vic screamed like a crazy woman throwing us into another fit of laughter, yet every time we sobered up we would end up laughing again.

After a while Vic fell asleep, most likely being awake then entire time I was at school. I let my mind wander back to the strange blue eyed boy. He was so much like... no. No, no, no! I tried to get any thoughs about... him... out of my mind. Willing myself to think back to blonie, but slowly his deep blue eyes faded to hazel, his blonde locks turned into a messy brown fo-hawk, and i found myself supressing a sob.

"What is that Isa?" His eyes were filled with inocent curiosity and worry. I glanced to where his eyes were glued, studdenly I couldn't seem to tear my eyes away either. Slowly his finger, unconciously, traced the black and blue, hand shaped bruise and I fliched back violently.

"I-It's nothing!" My small voice sounded broken as I tugged at the hem of my dress sleeve.

"...Isa?" His eyes shot to mind and he looked so sad, it broke my heart even more knowing what I had pulled him into.

"Riles... Lets play pretend? You never saw it, alright?" I asked, we always played pretend, surly this could work.

"I know what I saw Isa... I-I..." Tears started to rim his eyes.

"Riley... Peas!" I said, trying to get him to cheer up, his smile always made everything better.

"-And carrots?" He asked, using his tiny, little hands to violently wipe away his tears.

"And carrots." Slowly I reached up, moving one of his hand from his face and held it tightly in mine.

We were so young, so innocent, but i pulled him into my world and when he was final fed up with the silence it slowly drove us both mad...

I couldn't think back to that now, and I knew I couldn't do this to Blue eyes. I knew I would have to end everything, end what exactly... I wasn't sure.

A soft, sweet know brought me violently out of my thoughts.

"Isabella? Vicky? Guess what I won?" His voice was gentel and calming, but I knew better.

"One moment James... I'll get Victoria up right now." I said, as calmly and sweetly as I could muster up.

"Thank you, Hun." With that, I heard the tapping of his feet as he retreated from the door. I gently shook Vic's shoulder and she stirred, slowly opening her eyes.

"He won?" Her voice was hopeful... Always hopeful...

"Yeah, Love... He won." I gave her a small smile knowing it would make her happy to think that I was happy.

"Really?" She sounded so happy, I gave her a small nod, "Well? Help me up!"

I slowly helped her sit up and get off the best, doing my best to avoid the bruises. Slowly I let her go to stand by herself and to get her some clothing. I helped her change out of her stiff clothing, cleaning up her cuts a bit better.

"Victoria? You almost done, Babe?" I slowly helped her to the door.

"Yeah, be out in a sec." She called back. I opened the door and causiously walked out of my room. James was instantly at my side taking Vic and carring her to the couch.

"Come sit down Isabella, I put on a movie!" I walked over and tentevly sat in the arm chair. Gentaly Victoria cuddled into James's side. It was n't like this often, this onky happened when James won something, or did something to make him emesily happy, but it never lasted. Victoria always had so much pride in him that one day he would stop. She was so blinded by love that she couldn't see the events that were constantly taking place.

The movie was playing but I didn't give it my slightest attention, the sounds faded, images blurred, but two sets of eyes stared at me... One set blue... One set hazel... "Bye, bye Isa/Bella." My two nicknames blurred over eachother. One voice child like and secure, the other raspy and wild. Both so comforting, so warm, so inviting...

I heard soft snoring, signaling to me that the movie was over, I hurridly stood up and snached an extra blanket from the pantry, gentely placing it over James and Victoria. I sprinted to my own room and darkness surrounded me as soon as my head hit the pillow.

I woke up at the sound of beeping, it hurt my ears from bein so close and my eyes squinted in protest from the oddly bright day.

"Wake up Hun," My eyes shot to Vic's voice and I calmed down imedently once I noticed it was only her, "Wouldn't want to be late now would we?"

I hurridly hopped out of bed and started getting ready the second she shut the door. Once I was done I went into the kitchen and made James's favorite, wishing it would make him happy, which in return would make Vic happy. If it weren't for her, this fuck-wad would have starved a long time ago. After setting up the table with their food I called them and then headed out the door. I unlocked my rust bucket and hopped in, speeding up to school.

When I arrived at school, I sat in my car for about five minutes befor buillding up the courag to get out. I ran to my first period, despretly trying to avoid Mr. Blue Eyes. As I walked into Mr. Masen's class room I was met by a set of eyes I wasn't expecting to see in the seat next to mine...

So! How was that? There wasn't to much of Jasper in this one and I'm sorry *tear* I miss him too... Any-who! You got a small look into Bella's past; YAY !

So, I have realized... It's hard to write a long chapter... I will try to make the next one longer but you guys don't even know, I swear I though this one was longer than the others! Blehhhh.

It would be awesome if you guys reviewed, it helps a lot, and if you do I might give you a sneakpeek into next chapter ;D (If you want the sneak peek put a * in my little review box!)

Scritto con amore ,

Isabel P.