So, I got a PM asking 'What is your deal with eyes ?' and it'll be clear later in the story. OMFG- I SAW JACKSON RATHBONE IN CONCERT! I was in the 3rd/2nd row =D. Sorry, fan girl moment, but it was AMAZING. Any-who, I had written this chapter before, but, sadly, i forgot to save it, now I'm all depressed about that so, here we go... again -.-

Build them up,
So you'll never have to hurt too long
Put them up,
There's no real you left to be found
Hold it up,
No fear of hope or trust or love
Close it up,
Wait until it's time to finally close it down

Afraid This Time . Celldweller

"My names Alice!" It was Jasper's sister, the pixie looking girl, she was practically bouncing in her seat. She has soft brown eyes, and short hair down to her chin that suck out in every direction. I gave her a nod in acknowledgement, praying she wouldn't speak to me.

"So... You're Bella?" I don't answer rhetorical questions. "I like you shirt?" She tried again although it sounded more like a question.

"Yeah..." I said back awkwardly, tugging on my green sleeves.

"So... I didn't see you yesterday." She stated. Damn it; why wont she wont just leave me be? I just ignored her sitting forward. I don't answer obvious things.

"Hmpf," Finally! She shut the fu- "You like my brother." I froze, my body went stiff and my breathing caught in my throat, "As a friend- I mean!" She added so fast I could barely understand. I tried to get control over my own body as she gave me worried looks.

"You should tell him to stay away from me." My voice was cold and stone, it was Tinkerbell's turn to freeze up. Slowly she composed her self and then looked pissed. She opened her mouth to, what I assumed, rant at me. Thankfully Mr. Mason interrupted.

"Hello class," He sneered, "I assume you all have started your essays on Romeo and Juliet!" Every one groaned.

"OH WAH! Hurry up and finish it!" He yelled, fixing glares at each individual student.

The class went by painfully slow, I could feel Tinkerbell's glare burning into the side of my head as she furiously scribbled down the rest of her essay.

"Well Bella, maybe you should realize it is possible for someone to care for you!" She whispered furiously as she shoved her notebooks into her bag and storming out of the room just as the bell rang, and I just sat there.

Slowly I got up and the day was passing in a blur, it was hard to focus when Tink's words were ringing in my ears and I saw images of Blue Eyes every time I blinked.

I closed my eyes for a moment to calm myself but I only thought of him; his blonde ringlets tousled around, his blue eyes staring back at me, sweetened by the amusement that danced around in them. The his smile- or- smirk, I would call it, one corner of his lips turning up and his soft lips looked so- no. No, no, no. No feelings, no hope, no hurt. Right?

Right.

I had one period left before lunch, which I, oh so luckily, had with Lauren. I could hear her heals tapping their was towards me as I took my seat. I felt her hand glide across my shoulder and I went stiff. She put her swollen, gunkie lips to my ear.

"Jasper- is- mine." This made me angry for reasons I didn't understand. "Its quite amusing how you think you have a chance with him, theres no way the Cullens would every accept you." And I believed her, with every fiber of my being I knew I didn't belong with them, I didn't need someone rubbing it in. No. No feelings, no hope, no hurt...

"Jasper will never want someone as plain as you." My heart clenched as I tried to ignore her, staring straight ahead.

"You're no good for him." Her statement was cold, hard, and solid- no room for arguments, but the worst part? The worst part was I knew it was true- all of it.

"Well Bella, maybe you should realize it is possible for someone to care for you!" My frown just grew, and my brows pressed together. All to soon, being lost in my own thoughts, lunch came around as I quickly made my way outside.

I jumped straight out of my skin when I felt a hand encircle my wrist and lead me toward the forest, my throat constricted once again and I couldn't breathe. We came to a stop once we were right by the first line of scattered trees.

"Uh... Bella?" I felt like I was gonna die from joy the second I hear Blue Eye's voice, my heart beat calmed down immensely and I could finally breathe again. My body stayed rigid and my fists stayed clenched, still waiting for the worst.

"Oh god Bella- I- I'm sorry! I didn't know you would freak out!" His voice was hoarse and laced with worry, I opened one eye to peak at him, still waiting for the impact.

"Hey..." His voice was still hoarse, yet oddly soft, like a singer, one who would sing songs you could get lost into and never have to come back to reality. "I'm really sorry..."

Slowly I let my body become slightly at ease. "Are you alright?" I nodded.

"Listen, I was trying to get away from- uh- Lauren? Yeah... And I saw you out here and I figured we would hang out?" He made it sound like a question, silly boy.

"Right." I said back, and I wanted to feel joy, but I couldn't... Why? I have no clue...

"Any ways... Alice said you had to tell me something?" I froze.

"Did she now?" I responded automatically, the tensed up even more, he made my guard fall, because if it were james, I would be as good as dead.

He chuckles and my muscles instantly tightened. "Yes ma'am." My heart sank at his slight accent, I wish he would use it more often. I could now tell he had been covering it up.

"Well..." I said, pacing a little, "Tink must have been mistaken." He raised a brow and smirked at me. My stomach seemed to twist when he smirked.

"Well then, shouldn't pay much attention to the pixie, eh?" He smirked again- I think he knew when it did to me.

Slowly he sat down on the grass of the forest floor, crossing his legs beneath him, and leaned back on his hands. Slowly, but surly, I copied his actions, slightly afraid of the consequences. I tried to remind my self that I could get comfortable but I couldn't seem to keep my mind on track.

He smiled, trying to act nonchalant.

"Sooo... Where in your mind did you find it a good idea to drag some random girl into the forest without a warning, cowboy?"He cocked his head to the side.

"Well! I was just trying to help a damsel in distress." He said with a wink, "That is what cowboys do, right ma'am." He said letting out his accent a bit, I bit my lip and looked away slyly. He just chuckled at me.

"Oh Jasper!" Lauren. Then I remembered what she had told me "You're no good for him." In that instant I was shot back to reality, I jumped up and took off towards the school, easily dodging Lauren and Jessica as they lamely wandered around look for my cowboy.

No. Not mine...

I walked back into the school, heading for the cafeteria, but Tink and some guy blocked my way. My sadistic, evil mind figured that nothing good could come from his but I kept strong; no one could hurt me with other eyes and ears around. Right?

"I'm Edward." His voice was velvety and his sent was too sweet, like too much honey in your tea. His copper colored hair was disarray and his voice bugged me a bit, I missed Jasper's voi- no. No feelings, no hope- no hurt. I chanted desperately in my head before meeting Penny Head's eyes. Giant green orbs burning into mine.

"Have you talked to Jasper?" Tink asked, looking slightly worried.

"No thanks to you," I murmured, trying to walk past them, "Might want to help him- the bimbos are on the hunt." They gave me a weird look before glance out the hallway windows to see Lauren and Jessica searching for Blue Eyes. When they turned to look back me, I was already gone.

I waited for the bell to ring then bolted to biology, realizing a little to late that I had this class with no other than the one and only Blue Eyes. Slowly I took my seat next to him, being cautious, afraid of what he do because I ran off like that...

"Bella..." He sounded like he had been holding his breathe up until that moment. I refused to acknowledge him.

"Bellaaaa?" He said drawing out my name.

"Bellerinaaaaahhhhhhhhh!" He whispered quite loudly, the ends of my lips twitched the slightest bit.

"You know you wannnaaa smiiiileeeee!" He said, drawing out some more words. I glanced at him from the corner of my to see him wiggling his eyebrows at me.

"Come on Bella, we were just laughing and talking in a freaky ass forest- but you can't even spare me a glance in public?" He gave me a pleading look and I broke.

"I- I just... I just can't..." I looked down; I didn't want to see his face- I feared knowing the emotion that it might hold.

"Why do I feel like, with you, its one step forward two steps back?" But he wasn't asking me; he was more asking himself.

"I'm sorry..." I said quietly.

"Just tell me you want me to leave you alone an-and I will..." I took that chance to look at his face, his eyes were filled with so much pain and sorrow. Yet I couldn't find myself to say it, so I opted for saying quiet.

"Bella I d-" He was cut off mid-sentence by the teacher talking some crap about cells and I was grateful.

After half an hour in class, non stop glances from a pair of sad blue eyes, I felt a piece of paper being pushed against my hand.

Beeellleerrriiinnnnaaa.

I just glared at the piece of paper until he took it back and scribbled something else down.

Now, now, the paper didn't do anything to you.

I just looked away and glared at the board behind Mr. Banner until I felt the paper against my hand again.

Come on Bella, the white board seems very nice. I don't think it should be getting glared at now do you?

I moved my eyes to the floor in front of our desk, glaring at it with an enormous amount of anger, feeling the paper being shoved against my hand once more.

Now the floor is understandable, I have seen it trip you more than a gillian times ;).

This time I fixed my glare at him and he raised his hands in defeat, smirking his usual cocky smirk.

"Now, now Bellerina. I'm just stating facts." He said, his smirk growing.

"Now, now Bellerina. I'm just stating facts." I said, trying to mimic his voice, just making his laugh hysterically, earning us both weird looks from everyone.

He smirked, "Now Bellerina, I think we should talk."

BLAM. How was that? You guys should review ;D .

It's really short, sorry, I know I said I was gonna make it longer but there was crap going on at school, so yeah- this all for now.

Scritto con amore ,

XoXo. Isabel P.