Bella:
It's been three weeks. Three very, very, long weeks, since I broke off things between Edward and I. It's not all bad, though. Edward's stutter is improving, and we've become good friends. Alice and Cowboy are still going strong, and while his parents weren't happy with the unexpected pregnancy, they've spoken to Carlisle and Esme regularly about it.
Right now, I'm sat at lunch, where Cowboy is carefully watching Alice to make sure she's ok. I think it's sweet how protective he's being, she says it can get annoying. Hormones.
"Jazz, I'm fine," Alice insists, rolling her eyes at him. Cowboy just huffs, going back to his food.
"At least Emmett i-isn't here," Edward jokes. After Emmett's initial annoyance and hatred towards Cowboy for the pregnancy, he's been visiting almost every weekend, almost being as protective as Cowboy is. It's quite funny and a little cute.
"Apparently Queeny's now getting all maternal after seeing Em be protective," Alice sniggers.
"I can't picture her being a mother," I chuckle along with Alice.
Soon the bell goes, so I walk with Edward to biology. Thankfully, things aren't awkward between us anymore. Well, things could be better, but Edward seems to have got over me breaking things off. I haven't got over it; I'm just getting better at hiding it.
As we sit in biology, I doddle on my notebook since it's a fairly boring lesson.
"Bella? Can you tell us the answer?" Oh man. I should probably be listening to the teacher right now. I have no idea what he's even on about.
"DNA," Edward whispers to me.
"DNA?" I answer. The look on Mr Banner's face is priceless. He mumbles something before returning to his lecture. "Thanks," I whisper to Edward.
I'm not called on for the rest of the lesson, another thing I need to thank Edward for. After biology I walk with Edward out to the car park, since my truck has been parked next to Alice's. Jacob managed to fix my car, at least for now.
"Hey Edward!" Jessica smiles, walking up to Edward in the hallway.
"Um, hey?" he mumbles, looking a little overwhelmed.
"Are you free tonight? I was thinking maybe we could go out and watch a film or something?" Jessica suggests, lightly touching Edward's arm.
"Yeah, o-ok then," Edward smiles. They quickly exchange numbers and arrange a time to meet before we start walking again.
Wait, this isn't a…date, is it? I hope not. Though, the way Jessica was touching his arm was quite suggestive. I never knew she liked him like that. I never knew Edward liked her. I thought it was good that I decided to wait before Edward had a girlfriend, and now he's going on a date with Jessica?
"Bella, wanna come round to mine tonight? I'm gonna go baby shopping!" Alice squeals. I hadn't even realised we'd reached the car park.
"Oh…Isn't it a bit soon?" I mumble.
"I'm only going to have a look…Jazz said he was busy tonight though," Alice pouts. Yeah, busy.
"Alright then," I nod, getting in to my car. I glance at Edward, who looks to be in deep conversation with Cowboy. I should have known a girl would have asked him out, he's attractive, sweet and kind. I just never thought he'd say yes.
I follow Alice's car back to her house, though we make a detour to drop off Cowboy. When we arrive at the Cullen house, Edward heads straight to his room while Esme questions Alice on how she's coping.
"I'm fine, mum, honestly. Bella and I are going baby shopping tonight," Alice tells Esme.
"Well, have fun you too," Esme grins. "Oh, the papers for adoption came today, so I'm going to fill them in when your father gets home," Esme adds excitedly.
"Awww, that's awesome!" Alice kisses her mother's cheek before dragging me out to her car. "What's up?" Alice asks as soon as the doors are shut.
"What? I'm fine," I nod, as if that emphasizes my feelings.
"Is it Edward?" Alice huffs, glancing at me as we begin the journey to Port Angeles.
"No, there's nothing wrong. Honestly." I'm happy for Edward. I'm glad that he's progressed so that he's ready to date. Does a part of me wish it were me he was going to go out with? Maybe. But that doesn't mean I'm jealous.
"I thought you were over him," Alice pushes.
"I was never over him!" I half shout, then I feel bad for taking out on Alice. "I'm sorry, I'm honestly fine."
"The first week after you ended things you seemed sad, but then you seemed happier when you and Edward became friends again," Alice tells me.
"I never got over it. I just got better at hiding it," I admit to her.
"Then why don't you tell him?" Alice asks gently.
"No, I can't. I said to him that I'd wait for him, whenever he's ready. Clearly I'm not the one he wants," I mutter bitterly.
"You're jealous of Jessica?" Alice confirms.
"What? No. I'm happy for them. They'll be a good couple. I understand why Edward said yes. Some people find fake tan and make up attractive, I guess," I tell Alice, who just starts laughing.
"Sorry. You're so jealous, though," Alice giggles.
"Oh, whatever. Just because I didn't sleep with Edward as soon as I met him," I tease Alice.
"But Jazz was my soulmate!" Alice protests, rolling her eyes at me.
"What if Edward's my soulmate? Then am I allowed to sleep with him?" I chuckle.
"Bella, you need to tell him how you feel," Alice says.
"No. I'm fine. It's just a crush. It's clear he doesn't feel the same way, anyway." Alice huffs a bit, but doesn't say anymore on the matter.
In Port Angeles, I'm dragged around so many baby shops. I didn't realise they had so many. Alice cries several times over baby clothes, or tiny shoes, or just anything. Her hormones have been pretty badly affected by the pregnancy.
Just as we're walking through Port Angeles, we walk past the cinema where I see Edward and Jessica.
"Don't look over at the cinema," Alice warns me.
"Too late," I mumble.
Both of them are laughing at something Jessica said, and suddenly she's leaning up and kissing him. What? No…I…
"Come on, Bella," Alice tugs on my arm, pulling me into the car. She hands me a tissue, so I wipe off the tears I hadn't realised had fallen.
"I'm fine, really," I mumble pathetically. I really am bad at lying.
"You need to tell Edward," Alice says firmly.
"I can't. He seems…happy, with her. I can't ruin that for him, I've already messed him around enough," I whine, sobbing into the tissue. Alice leans over and wraps her arm around me, before starting the drive back to Forks.
When we get back to her house, Alice says she's going to give me a manicure to cheer me up. I agree, mostly due to her pouting, and so we head up to her room. Alice spends about ten minutes carefully selecting what colour nail varnish, until she finally decides on green.
I hold my hand out for her, and she begins sorting out my nails. I never have the patience to paint my nails; I always find that it takes too long.
Suddenly, the door opens and Edward enters the room. "Alice! The d-date went well! I b-barely stuttered," Edward grins down at his sister.
"Great, I'm happy for you," Alice pauses in doing my nails to stand up and hug her brother. I just stay, sat on the floor, not looking at him.
"Jessica even as-asked if she c-could be my g-g-girlfriend," Edward adds.
"I have to leave now," I announce, standing up and beginning to walk out of the room.
"But I haven't finished your nails!" Alice protests. I give her a quick, pleading look, to which she just nods, letting me go. I run down the stairs and get into my car, driving back home.
Edward's going out with Jessica? Right now I can't see why I ever thought it was a good idea to end things with him. I thought after maybe a month of two he'd be feeling better, and maybe we could start dating again. Never did I think he would start dating Jessica.
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At school the next day I avoid Edward and Jessica as much as possible. During lunch I hide away in the library, because when I glanced in the cafeteria Jessica was sat practically on Edward's lap.
I consider skipping biology, as I can't completely ignore him in that lesson. He sits right next to me; he'd know something was up.
I hate Jessica. Please come down to lunch :) ~Alice xxx
I chuckle as I read the text, though I'm still not convinced to go down there.
No, thanks. What's she doing? Or do I not want to know :S I'm considering skipping bio, though :O ~Bella xxx
I discretely text under the table, so that the elderly librarian doesn't see.
She's all over Edward! I want to vomit! She's even worse than queeny. Yuck. And, she clearly doesn't like Jazz, as she keeps being really rude to him! Don't skip bio, then Edward will definitely know something is up. He's already suspicious ~Alice xxx
I'm pretty glad I decided to hide out in the library, then.
Why are you hidin', Miss Bella? ~Cowboy ;)
How did he get my number? Alice, probably.
Did you give Cowboy my number? How can I handle sitting next to him in bio though? ~Bella xxx
I text Alice first, before deciding what to text back to Cowboy.
Three guesses ~Miss Bella
If I'm as clear to read as Alice says, Cowboy will probably be able to guess.
Um, not guilty? ;) He asked for it, though! Just don't speak to him or something! ~Alice xxx
Alice would do anything Cowboy asked. Dammit.
Edward and Jessica's new partnership? ~Cowboy
How did you know? ;O And how come it's not Miss Jessica? ~ Miss Bella
She doesn't deserve a 'Miss'. Don't you like Jessica? Is that why you're hidin'? ~Cowboy
That's partly the reason ~Miss Bella
I'm trying to be vague with Cowboy, so that he doesn't tell Edward about my feelings.
You love Edward? ~Cowboy
I guess Cowboy's smarter than I thought, then. But love? No, I wouldn't say I'm in love with Edward. Just a tiny bit jealous.
Not love. But, I am jealous. DON'T YOU DARE TELL HIM THOUGH! I'll set Emmett on you if you do ;) ~Miss Bella
The bell goes, so I slowly make my way towards biology. Procrastinating isn't going to make things better, though.
When I enter the classroom I keep my focus on the floor, quickly taking my seat.
"Where w-were you at lunch?" Edward asks. Mr Banner hasn't walked in yet, so all the students are talking to each other.
"I had work to catch up on in the library." Wow, my lying skills are improving.
"It wasn't because of m-me?" Edward asks.
"No, of course not," I add a smile, though it's more of a grimace probably.
"Last night, y-you left pretty quickly," Edward questions, looking at me suspiciously.
"I had to go home. And, um, make tea. And stuff." The lying skills have now gone.
"I t-thought we were friends?" Edward mumbles, looking down sadly.
"We are!" I quickly tell him. I still want to be friends with him, just…more than friends.
"Look, I un-understand if you, um, don't l-like me. J-Just tell me," Edward says, looking up at me.
"I do like you!" More than you can ever know.
Edward looks away from me, looking a mixture of annoyed and upset. Maybe it's better if we're not friends?
Who am I kidding? Of course I want to be at least friends with him.
The following few days, I go back to sitting in the cafeteria with Alice and Cowboy. Edward and Jessica, however, sit with the other cheerleaders. It seems that I'm not the only one getting more and more distanced from Edward.
"Bella, just tell him how you feel!" Alice whines one lunch. She filled Cowboy in on all my feelings, and so now every day I sit through them trying to talk me into confessing to Edward.
"He doesn't even like me as a friend anymore!" I protest, glancing over to see Edward and Jessica engrossed in each other. Or should I say, engrossed in each other's mouths. Lovely.
"Maybe if he knew how you really felt for him, though?" Cowboy suggests.
"Well, I would tell him if he could take his mouth away from Jessica's for just a minute," I whine, not at all bitter. Or sarcastic.
"You need to talk sense into him!" Alice tells me.
"Why don't you talk sense into him? You're his sister!" Both Alice and Cowboy have tried to talk to Edward, but he barely seems to have time for them anymore.
"We should get Emmett on the case!" Alice squeals happily.
"No, Queeny will love Jessica," I tell her.
Alice nods sadly in agreement, going back to eating her lunch.
"Bella, can I have a word with you?" I turn around to see Jessica standing behind me, a hand on her hip. Her and Edward managed to part from each other?
"Go ahead," I tell her.
"In private," she huffs.
"Fine," I huff back, rolling my eyes at Alice – who sniggers – before following Jessica out of cafeteria. She leads me into the girl's bathroom, checking to make sure it's empty before speaking.
What is she going to say to me that needs to be so private?
"So, um, what was it you wanted to say?" I ask. So far she's just been doing her make up in the mirror. It doesn't take much to distract her.
"Oh, right," Jessica says, turning to face me. "What's your deal with Edward?" She asks, hand on hip.
"He's my best friend's brother?" I answer.
"There's something more between you two," Jessica says.
"You're his girlfriend, you tell me." She doesn't seem too happy with that.
"Yes, that's right. I'm his girlfriend. So don't even think about trying to steal him away from me, like you did with Mike," Jessica warns me.
"Um, Jessica, Mike was my boyfriend, and I caught you two making out together," I roll my eyes at her.
"Whatever." Great come back. "Stay away from Edward." Jessica then storms out of the bathroom, forgetting about her school bag. I pick it up and walk out into the hallway, speed walking to catch up with her to give her the bag. "You better not have looked through it."
That's gratitude for you.
"You're welcome!" I shout sarcastically at her.
She just turns around and glares.
A/N: What do you think of Edward and Jessica? :O
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