Chapter 6- Fallen
Heaven bend to take my hand and lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer to a long and painful fight
Truth be told I tried my best
But somewhere along the way, I got caught up in all there was to offer
But the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried,
I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come 'round here and
Tell me I told you so
We all begin with good intent
When love was raw and young
We believe that we can change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our back the burdens time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I've held so dear
Fallen by Sarah Mclachlan
I walked through the halls of St Thomas, I was here for an interview to get a job, I hadn't resigned from St Joseph's yet but I was just keeping my options open. I stopped by an office and knocked on the door.
"Excuse me, I'm looking for Magaret Murphy's office?" I asked the woman
She looked up at me, she had pale skin, brown hair and blue eyes.
"It's just down the hall, why do you want to see her?" She asked
"I have an interview with her" I replied
"Oh, you're the doctor from St Josephs, I'm Tara Knowles" she said
"Layla Allen, I better go, wouldn't want to be late for the interview, it was nice meeting you" I said before walking down the hall to Magaret Murphys office.
"Excuse me, I'm here for an interview" I said
"You must be Layla Allen, I'm Magaret Murphy, take a seat" she said
"Well your references are good, we have a spot open so you can start next week, on Monday" she said
"I still have to give my notice of resignation to St Joseph's, can I get back to you in a week?" I asked
"Yes, of course I understand" she said nodding "What brought you to Charming?" She asked curiously
"Family" I said, not wanting to tell her about my affiliation with the Sons
"Thank you for the job" I said before walking out the door
I was walking down the hallway when I heard my name being called, I turned around to see Jax walking towards me.
"What are you doing here?" He asked
"Job interview" I replied
"So your planning on staying here long term, guess you and Happy made up" he said
"Just keeping my options open, moving to Charming makes sense" I said "What are you doing here?" I asked, avoiding talking about Happy with Jax
"Visiting Abel, you want to meet him?" He asked
"Yeah sure" I said, following Jax to the room where Abel was sleeping in an incubator. I laid my hand on top of the incubator.
"He's gorgeous, he'll be a real heartbreaker when he's older I'll bet" I said
"The Teller charm baby" Jax said laying his hand on top of mind
We stood there in silence, he was standing so close I could feel his breath on the back of my neck. He nuzzled his nose into the crook of my neck, causing me to breathe in sharply. He turned me around before pressing his lips against mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck, kissing Jax was different to kissing Happy. Happy's kiss was filled with passion, lust and some degree of anger. Jax's kiss was gentler, less emotion filled. I finally pulled away and stared into Jax's eyes.
"I shouldn't be here, we shouldn't have done that" I said
"How could something wrong feel so right" he whispered, leaning forward
"I've got to go" I said moving out if his grasp
I walked out of the Hospital and drove back to Oliver's house. I definitely couldn't see Jax anymore, I couldn't trust myself to even be in the same room alone with him without kissing him.
I had finally been able to fall asleep after laying awake for hours. Oliver wasn't at the house in the morning, he had probably stayed at the clubhouse, I wasn't sure where Roxy was but she wasn't here. I heard a knock on the door, when I opened the door Jax was standing on the other side.
"Can I cash in on that rain check now?" He asked wearily
"Sure, come in" I said moving out of the way for him to walk in then shutting the door behind him
He went and sat down at the table, I sat next to him.
"What's wrong?" I asked
"Can't I just want to see a beautiful girl without there being an ulterior motive" he said smoothly causing me to blush
"Seriously Jax, what's wrong?"
"I just had to come see you" he said
He was obviously drunk, I could smell the alcohol on him.
"Jax your drunk, I think you should go home" I said trying to guide him towards the door
"No, I'm not leaving until you listen to me" he said
"Okay, I'm listening" I said, somewhat scared if what he was going to say
"I just killed someone for Tara, and then we slept together. But I couldn't stop thinking about you. I want you" he said
"Jax, we can't do this" I whispered
"No, don't tell me that" he said
Jax pulled me into a kiss, I'm not sure why, if it was just a spur of the moment thing, feeling sorry for Jax, but I kissed him back. We somehow made it into my bedroom.
I laid down on Jax's chest, he was asleep, his breathing heavy. I had just cheated on Happy with Jax, well not really seeing how Happy and I were technically together, besides, it's not like he wasn't screwing the croweaters at the clubhouse. I slowly got up and put my clothes back on.
"Isn't it normally the guy that sneaks out" said Jax
"I thought you were asleep" I said looking away from him
"What's wrong?" He asked
"What's wrong" I asked in mock indignation "I just slept with you that's what's wrong"
"Why?" He asked confused "We're two consenting adults, you aren't with Happy, I don't see the problem"
"How could you not see the problem?" I asked "You come here drunk, after you've just killed a man for Tara and slept with her then you slept with me. Trust me it's a major problem"
"So, maybe it's not the smartest move, was it?" He asked
"Not really"
"I won't say anything, to anyone, Tara or Happy" he offered
"That would be best, for everyone involved" I said scratching my head "You should go, you should probably talk to Tara"
"Yeah, probably, you should talk to Happy" he said walking to the door
"Yeah, right, I should, I'll see you later" I said
Jax walked out of the house, getting on his bike and riding away. I walked out of the house soon after, getting in the car and driving away from the house. I didn't know where I was headed, I just drove. I had almost left charming when a car ran a red light at the intersection, hitting me. The last thing I saw before I blacked out was people rushing forward to help, then nothing but darkness.
I woke up to the sound of beeping. I opened my eyes groggily, I was in a hospital. Happy was sitting in the chair next to me bed.
"Hap" I croaked out
His eyes shot up at the sound of my voice, he grabbed my hand and squeezed it.
"Layla" he said
"Hey, what happened?" I asked groggily
"Car crash, guy ran a red light" he said
"How long have I been out?" I asked
"Not long, few hours"
Tara walked in and smiled at me, she wouldn't be smiling at me if she found out what I had done just a few hours ago, it felt like days ago.
"Your awake, that's good. You seem to be fine, no injuries" she said
"That's good, when can I get out of here?" I asked
"Tommorow probably" she said
"Then what's wrong" i asked
"Were you aware that you are 6 weeks pregnant" she said
My heart almost stopped beating when she said that.
"Pregnant" I said in disbelief
"We need to do an ultrasound to make sure everything's alright, I'll give you a minute while I get the equipment" she said before walking off
"Pregnant" said Happy whom I had forgotten was in the room
"Happy, please say something" I pleaded
"What am I supposed to say?" he asked walking back to me and grabbing my hand
"How do you feel? Do you want it?" I asked nervously
"Course I do, what you think I would make you get rid of our kid?" He asked angrily
"Of course not" I lied, the thought had crossed my mind, that maybe he didn't want the child and I would have to raise it myself.
Tara walked back into the room with all the equipment. She rubbed gel onto my stomach before placing the equipment on top of my stomach. We waited and suddenly I heard a heartbeat.
"There's your baby" said Tara
There were tears in my eyes as I watched my baby on the screen, our baby. I looked up at Happy, he was staring at the screen in awe. He looked down at me and kissed my head.
"That's our baby" he whispered to me
Every bad thing that had happened since I the fight back in Tacoma was forgotten. All the harsh and angry words dissapeared from my memory. Right now nothing else mattered to me but Happy and our baby. We could deal with everything else.
I was packing my clothes in my bag, ready to be released, as I heard a knock on the door, Jax stood there.
"Come in" I said
"I was visiting Abel when Tara told me you were here, thought I should come and see you" He said
"Thanks, I guess" I said awkwardly
"So you couldn't get enough attention, had to go and crash your car" he joked
"I'm not desperate" I replied
"I'm glad your okay, heard you have some news" he said
"Yeah, I'm pregnant, six weeks" I said, I couldn't help the smile that spread across my face when I said it
"That makes everything worse" he said
"How so?" I asked confused
"I slept with a brothers pregnant Old Lady, that is bad" he said
"Jax, Happy can't ever find out" I pleaded, if he found out he would probably leave me and our child, then kill Jax. Neither of which I wanted to happen
"I know, no one else will ever find out. I've gotta go, so I'll see you around" he said before walking off
I walked out of the Hospital, Happy was leaning against his bike waiting to take me home.
"Why did you come down, I could have come and got you" he said
"Happy, I can walk out a Hospital without any help, now lets just get home, I need to get out of here" I said, climbing on the back of his bike and wrapping my arms around him.
When we got home there were cars parked outside.
"What's going on?" I asked
"Since your an Old Lady Gemma wanted to do something for you, thought it'd be good time to meet everyone" he said before walking towards the house, me following behind him.
I was nervous to meet everyone, I was nervous about what they were going to think of me. As we walked through the door I saw that everyone was in Oliver's living room. The first person to step forward was a women. She was tall, tanned skin, she had dark hair with blonde streaks.
"I'm Gemma Teller-Morrow, Jax's mother and Clay's wife" she said shaking my hand
This was Jax's mother, I wonder what she would think of me if she found out what Hax and I did.
After being introduced to everyone we mingled. I was standing with Roxy, Chibbs and Donna, Opie's Old Lady.
"Want a beer?" Asked Chibbs
"No thanks" I said, Roxy looked at me in surprise, I had never turned down a beer before
"I can't, I'm pregnant, six weeks, we found out yesterday" I said smiling
"Congratulations" said Chibbs
"Why does my sister need congratulating on not dying" Oliver asked
"Because the lass is pregnant" said Chibbs
"What'd you knock up my sister for Hap?" He shouted out, thanks for announcing it to everyone Oliver
Everyone erupted in cheers as they started congratulating me and Happy.
"There's something else I want to announce" said Tig
Tig pulled Roxy into a kiss, shocking everyone in the room besides me.
"I know you will probably beat me up for this Oliver but I can't hide my Old Lady anymore" he said while pulling Roxy to his side
"Well Tig, I think this goes without saying but if you hurt her your dead. Though I'm pretty sure that Layla would kill you first" he threatened
The night went on without a hitch, everyone got on well even after Roxy's and mine announcements. After everyone left, Oliver went back to the Clubhouse, Roxy was with Tig which left Happy and I alone to celebrate the good news.