Emily's Nightmare_38
Emily's POV
Somehow, probably through the work of some deity, I managed to get back to my room without incident. I wasn't able to apologize to Edward, the door to the room he shared with Bella was closed and I knew better than to walk in when a door was closed.
I didn't actually sleep much though. I tossed and I turned, falling under a couple minutes at a night before paranoia set in and I woke up again. I kept seeing the eyes though. Those creepy red eyes. Every time they made me shudder.
By the time my alarm clock rang at six, I'd had already given up hope hours earlier on getting any sleep. Instead, I was in a long debate with myself, in French of course, on whether or not I should tell my siblings about the pictures. And the words. And the eyes. I dressed out for school, my uniform already laid out hours earlier.
When I donned Matthew's gray Dartmouth sweatshirt, smelling Matthew's sweet and piney scent still on it, I knew I couldn't tell them. Telling them would just make them worry. Worry more. They'd have me under watch all the time. Eventually I would just stop going to school and we'd be forced to move away from this place. Away from Matthew. I couldn't do it. I just couldn't. I wasn't Edward. I wasn't as strong as him to sacrifice my love to keep them safe. No, I was much worse. I was selfish.
I'm pretty sure being selfish is a sin. It was only a matter of time before God would pass judgment on me.
Matthew's POV
Something was definitely up with Emily today. She was wearing that smile that said she acting fine, but she really wasn't. Emily was distracted; her beautiful hazel eyes kept having that distant look to them during class. Apparently she was telling anyone what was wrong. Not her brothers and sisters. Not her best friends. Not even me.
"Come on," I said, pulling her once more out of her trance as the bell rang. "You have gym next. Coach Swinggly is going to make you run laps if your late," I told her teasingly, pulling on hair to get her attention. Emily laughed and smiled her sweet angelic smile at me.
"I see you're eager to get rid of me," Emily teased back, placing her head on my shoulder as we walked down the hall to our lockers. I held her hand, our fingers entwined. I still remembered Emmett's early warning to make sure she never left my side, in case she decided to run away.
"You know I'd keep you by my side forever if I could," I told her, smiling down at her. "I just don't want to give your brother's an excuse for beating me up. Making you late for class, I'm sure, is an offense."
Her eyes darkened slightly at the mention of her brothers and I wondered how rocky their relationship was at the moment. She sighed, twirling the dial of her lock with an ease that said she had all the time in the world. In a way, she did.
"I'm sorry," Emily apologized for the third time today. "About my family and their interrogation. I told them that next time they wanted to know something, they should ask me, not go beat the answers out of my boyfriend."
"And I keep telling you to stop apologizing," I told her, exchanging my books and binders. "I'm fine. There wasn't any actual beating up and I didn't tell them anything they already didn't know. Besides, as a werewolf, I'm sure I could have held them off," I whispered the last part so only she would be able to hear me. "So don't count me out."
Emily smiled up at me. "I would never," she told me. She brought her sweet lips up to mine and gave me a soft, quick kiss. "I'm sure you could have taken on all six vampires all by yourself."
"You bet," I grinned, closing my locker. "Now go hit Allie Newman with a ball a couple times for me." Emily just laughed and headed towards the girl's locker rooms. I watched her go and meet up with Liana, the smile on her face a little more real and genuine this time. I just hoped it got better by the end of the day.
Emily's POV
Gym hadn't been as exciting as I had hoped it would be. Sadly it was fitness testing month, so now balls wouldn't be flying at Allie Newman's head for a while. On the bright side, I got to see if I could purposely fail at being fit. Last year I had just skipped the fitness tests all together, Carlisle had given me some excuse. But today, I felt I was up for the challenge.
I was feeling lighter, like the secret's burden I had been carrying was lifted a little from my shoulders. Of course, I actually hadn't said anything about it, but just talking to Matthew had made me feel a better. He made me laugh in a way my brother's just couldn't. I knew that made Emmett upset, but hey, he couldn't be the only guy in my life that made me laugh.
We got let out of gym late, which made me rush into the locker room and change back into my uniform quickly. It wasn't until I was at lunch, sitting next to Matthew, his arm around my shoulders, did I notice I wasn't wearing my cross. I'd taken to wearing it every day since Edward and I had found it in the box, kind of like a reminder of the great day I had. I only took it off for gym, but I always put it back on. Thinking back, I couldn't even remember actually seeing it hang on the small hooks inside the locker. No one could have taken it; there was a lock on the locker.
"Something wrong?" Matthew asked me, whispering in my ear. I looked at him and shook my head.
"No, nothing I can't handle," I told him instead, smiling. I knew I had him, like the rest of my family, worrying. I didn't want to give them another reason to worry about me. "Promise."
"Oh gosh you two," I heard Liana say. I turned around to face her.
"What?" I asked her.
"Get a room." I raised an eyebrow at her comment and she laughed. "No seriously though, stop being so…so…" she said with difficulty.
"Together?" Marco supplied.
"Yeah, together," Liana agreed.
"Like the two of you?" Matthew asked, grinning. For a moment, Liana turned red before composing herself. It really wasn't a secret that over the weekend, Liana and Marco, after many years, had finally gotten together. I'd missed her twenty million excited calls and emails due to everything that went on.
"Oh just get back to your girlfriend," Liana sighed, defeated.
I couldn't help but grin throughout the rest of lunch. The necklace didn't seem so important at the moment. I most likely had left it at home since I couldn't actually remember if I took it off or not. As lunch passed by, I couldn't help but shake the feeling that we were being watched, which of course wasn't so hard to believe since people still hadn't gotten over the fact that Matthew and I were going out.
"So, what are your plans for this weekend?" Matthew asked me as we walked down the hall together to our next class. I thought about it.
"Nothing," I told him. "I'll most likely be placed under house arrest or something," I told him.
"You think you could convince your family your safe enough with me around?" Matthew asked. "The Fall Carnival is this weekend and I was hoping we could go." I stopped and looked at him. He looked back at him a confused look on his face. "What?"
"Did you just ask me out on a date?" I asked him, excited. Matthew just laughed at my question, but that did not dampen my spirits.
"Yes. Yes I did." My smiled widened at his words and I couldn't help but give a little excited shriek.
"Yes! I'd love to go to the carnival with you," I told him, giving him a hug. "Don't worry about my family. I'll talk them around." I assured him as we started off again to class.
"I don't want it to be a problem with them though," He told me, and I smiled. He was so cute, worrying about them too. Of course, he shouldn't, especially not after they keep trying to interrogate him.
"Not one bit."
The rest of class I spent trying to think what it would be like, our carnival date. I'd be our first one, if you didn't count Alice's Greek project. Then I got nervous, what would I wear? It dawned on me that Alice was going to flip out when she heard and so would Rosalie. They'd want to pre-plan everything. From what I would wear to probably what rides we should go on. Somehow, it would be okay. I'd have to get Emmett and Jasper to help me deal with them, but I'm sure they'd be more than likely to do so.
Jasper's POV
Someone was extremely happy as they got into the car after school today. I didn't need to use my ability or Edward's to know that Emily was feeling much better than she had been this morning.
"How was your day Emi?" Alice asked her from the passenger seat as Emily buckled up in the back. "Don't just go good. Give me the details! I couldn't see anything because you're always around Matthew these days."
At first, I didn't know if she would even respond. Lately, there hadn't been much sharing within the family circle. Unfortunately, things are as what they seem. Edward had told me once that Emily sometimes thought of our family as us and her, usually only when we keep her out of meetings. In a way though, that's how it has always been. First, it was us vampires and her human. Then it became us vampires and her halfling. I couldn't help but wonder if this isolation feeling she got was actually more serious than I could tell; if maybe we were the cause of all of this. If so, Emily would have been bound to keep secrets from us, and possibly start to lie.
"Isn't that great Jasper?" Alice asked me, her cheery voice abruptly breaking through my thoughts.
"Sorry," I apologized. "I was not paying much attention. What's so great?" I could sense confusion on Emily's part, probably coming from all the lines me not paying attention for once. There was something else coming from Alice though, but at the moment I just couldn't but my finger on it.
"Emi's going on her first date this weekend!" Alice squealed. "She's going to the Fall Carnival with Matthew on Friday or Saturday. Most likely Saturday, it's supposed to rain to rain on Friday."
I forced myself to smile as I kept my feelings in check, keeping them from emitting them to the two. "That's great," I said, hoping it didn't sound too forceful. "I'm sure you two will have a lot of fun." Apparently those two had been waiting for my blessing or something, because they immediately started talking about clothes and hair and other things. For a moment, it seemed like I had just agreed to let them get married, as Alice brought up something about a church and a dress. It felt a little like it too. As I looked through the rearview mirror of the car, I couldn't help but see my little Emi all grown up. She no longer needed me to lull her to sleep, or to make her happy when she was sad, to help her up when she fell.
This made me realize, that whatever it was she was keeping, Emily would be able to handle on her own.
B/N: so here you go, chp. 38! I'm making a comeback guys! Now my main goal will be at least two chapters a month. I know that seems like not a lot, but considering there hasn't been an upload in months, I think its decent.
Also, this would go alot faster if 1) there were more reviews to motivate me to write faster and/or 2) I had a beta reader.
So not much action going on here, more like a plot mover. The good stuff is to come.
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