A/N: Hiyaaa! It's the same old me, but I changed my penname and piccie for a brighter look on my profile, rather than everything black and white.

Also, this chapter does involve some darker topics such as rape, but not in full detail.

Chapter 4: Evelina POV-Equality and Secrets.

~Enjoy the little things in life because one day you'll look back at them and realise, they were the big things.~ Robert Brault.

I was wondering the forests, slowly taking in the air and kicking the leaves around absentmindedly. I was watching the ground as my vampire senses made everything completely HD. I chuckled slightly.

Looking up slowly, I saw Nathan. Finally, I was able to see the man that was keeping me on my toes; the most gorgeous boy I have ever seen. I giggled and ran up to him, jumping eargerly onto his back.

He dropped the cigarette he had in his hand and turned me so I had my legs wrapped around his torso. "Hello." I said, giggling.

"Hello there to you." He chuckled and wrapped his arms around my waist. At that, I giggled again. I wrapped my arms around his nek for support and then gave him a heated look. I was stuck between wanting to kiss him and letting myself down and then pushing him over onto the floor; neither happened.

"How about we go for a walk?" He looked away from me, I new at that point he didn't want what I wanted, which made me sad.

"Ookay." I said, frowning. I began to kick the leaves around under my feet.

"Let's go." He grabbed my hand, which made me wince.

"OUCH!" I squealed out.

The tallest guy grabbed my hand, pulling me eargerly toward the motel. Now my hands were literally tied.

He frowned at me, "What's wrong?" I simply returned the frown, shaking my hand out of the grip.

"W-What's g-going o-on?" I was able to stutter out.

He stares at me and then looked away, obviously either embarrassed or angry at me. "Nothing's wrong." At that point, I gave up. He was completely lying to me, like everyone has done my entire life.

I began to walk away, feeling upset and tired of being lied to.

"Whatever." He ran up to me in human speed, holding me back from running away from him.

"What's wrong, Evelina?" I looked down at the floor, in rage.

He began to do the most horrific things to me, making me feel helpless and lonely.

I then looked up with completely stressed and upset eyes, "Everyone bloody lying to me! I missed you... A week, I missed you, and I get this side of you?!" My angry side coming through, there it was. "I...I." I stuttered out, covering my head with my hands and hyperventilating.

"Sorry, okay? I'm just... Not used to this." I looked down at the floor, sighing. I couldn't look back up at him after that horrible outrage. But I had to, didn't I? Hell yes.

At that sudden moment, with him least expecting it, I walked over to him and kissed him, pulling him closer and closer by the soft fabric of his shirt. He kissed me back passionately, holding me by the waist.

I'd never felt this before. Almost a tingling feeling in my stomach, like butterflies. I giggled quite loudly and wrapped my arms around his neck: it both pulled him closer and made me more unlikely to fall over.

He began to kiss my face, which made me giggle: I never knew how ticklish my face was ! "Sorry." He said between kisses, which made me chuckle, then turn into a giggle. "Don't be." I said between small, quiet giggles.

You'll need to give me time, okay? I'm sure I'll be... A bit bipolar." I nodded and smiled, agreeing that was the best solution. "I won't hurt you..." I said, looking up into his eyes cutely. He just repeated what he'd said before, which made me have ANOTHER outburst.

"You don't need to be sorry, Nath," I looked down at the floor, "as a human, I had really bad anger issues that I couldn't control and... I seem to have them now." I looked up into his eyes with a dreamy expression. "That doesn't stop me from loving you too much, Nathan," I looked down at the floor, biting my bottom lip. "that won't change, Nathan. I don't care who you think you are. That doesn't stop me... From me believing who you are to me because I bet I can find some amazing things about you that you would not find."

He looked at me with wide eyes, which obviously meant he was speechless. "I... I... You're amazing. You scare the crap out of me, I swear. And in a good way, okay? I just..." He looke at the floor for a few moments before looking back at me. "I'm a bit of an idiot when I want to be... And you're too good for me, I suppose."

"Too good for you? I'm the girl who falls over at the sight of you, the girl who has a go at someone because I love them too much. I fall in love, so easily. When it's with you, it's not falling in love, it's like finding my soul mate. The one I can't live without." I sighed, breathing out heavily and then returning back to my usual breathing pattern.

He began to play with my nose, which made me giggle. "Don't scare me like that, Evelina. Soul mate... Sounds too much. Let's go with boyfriend, for now, eh?" I nodded, smiling. Nathan was my boyfriend. There was meaning behind it, which made me happy. I then froze.

"You've been hurt before, Nathan. I won't let anyone, anything hurt you." I sighed, toying with his shirt again.

"It's complicated." He mumbled, making me feel not worthy of knowing the thing I have needed to know the most.

"Only tell me if you want to, Nathan. I'm not going to force you." I touched his face delicately with my hands, stroking the sides of his face slowly.

"Give me time... Please?" I nodded, smiling.

I bit the inside of my mouth and decided not to say anything. "Mhm."I nodded and then sat in front of a tree, leaning my head against it. I began to twirl my hair around my fingers, which made me giggle. Damn did I look ditzy.

He sat down next to me and wrapped an arm around my shoulders, pulling me close. "Please?" I smiled and hen began to nod. "Yes, yes..." My smile began to widen, looking up into his eyes. He returned the smile and kissed me softly. I began to giggle again, making me look even more stupid.

From a distance, I heard a twig crack. I panicked and nestled into Nathan's chest, which startled him slightly, I think. "What's wrong love?" He held me tightly, making me shudder lightly.

"They're not back... They're not back." I whispered loud enough for him to hear me.

"Who?" He whispered lightly, holding me close, still.

"T..them. There were 3 guys.. A black van and... A large dog." I whispered, nestling further and wrapping my arms around his waist for more comfort. "What did they do to you?" he asked me, concerned.

"They were the ones who changed me because I was about to die after they...r.." I stopped right there, burying my face in his chest.

I could feel him freeze, then his hold got stronger. "What... What did they do, Evelina?"

I shook my head vigorously and then decided it was easier to tell me. "They raped me," My eyes began to feel cold and justified, "but I got my revenge after they changed me, though." I smirked. I could feel him almost shaking with anger but he was able to keep it in. He was perfect... "But it's more horrible because I was human... There was nothing I could do or say. Each time I struggled," I coughed up the most digusting fear ever, "you're the remedy to the scars I've been left..."

He looked at me with confused eyes. "How can I be the remedy if I'm full of bad things as well, Evelina?" He shook his head. "I'm telling you... You won't like my bad parts." I stood up and decided to say something I thought would ruin everything for us. I looked down on him. He had a distant look on his face which made me grin.

"If they're that bad, I need to know."

He looked at me, then down at the floor. "They are." He murmured.

"I've been through... So much. I can handle this, I promise." I smiled comfortingly.

He grabbed both my hands and pulled me into his lap and hugged me tightly. "But I'm not ready to tell you."

I began to realise he wasn't going to tell me, so gave up.

Third Person.

Put it this way, a girl with a knowingly scary past, and a boy who is... Too afraid to speak of his? Never going to happen. But there's just that special something, that makes it okay.

Its never going to be perfect, but so what? That's simply Evelina and Nathan in a nutshell. Too lovers destined to be together. One willing enough to survive with the other, the other is not so sure. She'll convince him, eventually...