Here's chapter 5!
Jeremy, once again, got in trouble. So, I had to help him. I really could try and explain everything that went down, but, really, all you need to know is that another sweet, innocent and stupid girl died because Jeremy couldn't control himself. Dumbass.
"She had sweet blood."
"Nobody cares." I replied, smoking my last cigarette. Damn, I needed to buy more, or I'd go crazy. "You're bad, Jeremy. Stop it."
He sighed, frustrated.
"Fine. I'll try."
No, he wouldn't. It was always the same chit-chat.
"I gotta go now, okay? Behave, please." I asked him politely.
"Are you going to see your girl?" He teased me. I rolled my eyes and asked him to shut the hell up, it wasn't his business. "Oh, if she's hot, I want it to be."
I growled at him before running in vampire speed.
I actually hadn't seen Evelina in a while and, honestly, I missed her company. I felt good around her, as if I wasn't actual a monster. She made my deep secrets disappear for a while. And, sometimes, I really wished they did go away. That they had never existed before, actually.
But they exist, so shut up, will you?, I demanded.
If she knew everything, she would hate me. So yeah, better enjoy it as long as it lasts because, since the beginning, it was obvious this wouldn't last. She was too good. God, everyone is always too good for me, I realized.
I wandered around for a bit, went to the town to get some cigarettes, and returned to the woods, smoking.
I don't know what I was expecting, honestly. Did I want to find Evelina? Did I not want to? What should I do? Should I get away as soon as I heard someone near? But I missed her. Couldn't I have my five happy minutes with her and then leave? Actually, I did have to leave… I had to go to work in two hours and I still wasn't ready for it.
I closed my eyes and took unnecessary deep breaths. If she knew… Only if she knew… She would hate me and that way I wouldn't have any reason to go look for her. Unless I wanted someone to hate me, but I did that on my own just fine, so yeah.
Then, it happened. I heard someone. I opened my eyes and saw her, laying by a lake, playing with the water.
Leave, leave, leave!, my rational side begged me. But my frozen heart… It wanted to stay, to talk to her, to say to her everything that she deserved to hear… I was falling for her. God, I was falling deeply and I had only met her a few times. But, when you know, you know, right? And I knew… I knew I was going to get my heart broken by her.
Suddenly, her head turned around and she saw me. A beautiful smiled spread on her face as she sat up, ready to greet me. And I let myself go meet her. I fell on the grass next to her and kissed her passionately. I missed her, I missed her so much.
"Hey there, stranger." She giggled. I smiled back. "Where have you been? I haven't seen you in a while and I missed you."
I kept smiling.
"Yeah, me too…"
"What have you been doing to be away for so long?" She asked, curious, playing with my hair.
Doing things that would make you hate me if you knew them, I thought. But, to her, I flashed another smile and shrugged.
"Just stuff, really. And you?"
She giggled and kneed in front of me, wrapping her arms around me.
"Same."
Without a warning, she kissed me passionately, pulling me closer till our bodies were pressed against each other. I kissed back, my frozen heart loving each moment, my brain saying it was too stupid to lead her on.
My tongue caressed hers softly, my hands rubbed her back gently and my body started to beg for more. But I couldn't. Not yet. Not until she knew the truth…
"Evelina, no…" I pulled back completely. "I… I can't. You don't know everything about me."
"But I love you. That's enough!" She replied, dead serious.
I sighed. I wanted to say it back, I really did, but not yet.
"You don't know the truth." I replied.
"Then, tell me. Trust me, I can handle, Nathan. I've handled with worse." She said, her voice changing tone with every emotion she felt.
I closed my eyes, remembering how some sick bastards dared to hurt her in ways that no man should hurt, or touch a woman. If it's a no, it's a no. I learnt that with my mom and I thanked God every day for her to teach me how to be a gentleman. At least, I have some good traits among this monstrosity.
"Evelina… I don't think I can tell you."
"Write it down, then."
I chuckled and looked away from her beauty. I tried telling myself that if I told her now, she'd leave me before my feelings went too deep and the pain would become too much for me to handle it. On the other hand, I wanted to enjoy her as much as I could…
But if you keep telling her no, how will you enjoy?, I asked myself and closed my eyes, knowing exactly what I had to do. I had to end things now before it hurt too much for both of us. I had to tell her the truth.
I opened my eyes. I can do it. I can lose the best thing I have ever had in my life… I…
"Nathan?" She called softly, worried. I stared at her. She smiled. "I'll be here no matter what."
No, she wouldn't.
"I… I want you to know the truth." I repeated. She nodded and remained in silence, giving me time to calm down and speak. "I... Evelina, I... My dad...was changed into a vampire to fight in some vampire war. When he was done, he came home to change my mom and I, but ended up killing her and changing just me." I gulped. Her hand touched mine. "We spent a few months together until I killed him... On his last moments, he told me... He had been with...human women and they had got pregnant." I started to freaking, coming closer to the truth. Evelina's eyes were wide-opened in shock. She couldn't accept the rest… She…
"Tell me, Nathan. It's okay." She said.
I nodded.
"He had had three kids." I told her and scratched my arm, buying time. "One of them... She's...sick. She's very sick, Evelina. And I don't know why, but she's stuck at the age of eight and she needs treatment... The best kind of treatment... And I'm the only one around for her… I have to pay for it. And, to do so, I..." I closed my eyes and counted to ten. "I kind of sell... my body to crazy, human women." I opened them and stared at her, almost sure that my frozen heart was beating fast in fear.
She stared at me for god knows how long till her mouth opened to speak. And I was sure I wasn't ready to hear her.
Hope you enjoyed it.