The day was pretty awesome! We all played in the pool. The girls had all teamed up against the boys and pushed them all in the pool. This of course led to all the girls running away from their boyfriends. About five we all went inside and were sitting around all laughing and talking. I looked around the room. Hannah and Lance were cuddled together on the couch beside Kendall and I. Logan had Jill sitting on his lap in the chair, Heather and Carlos were together on the bean bag chair and James and Gracie were laying together on the floor. This reminded me so much of being back home with Will. I looked up at Kendall, I was laying against his chest. He smiled down at me and gave me a sweet kiss. Guilt started flooding my brain, I gave him a weak smile but went almost completely quiet as the rest of the group kept chattering. I am replacing Will. How could I do that? My mind was running constantly.

"Lacy, are you okay?" I heard Hannah ask, I looked over a her. My eyes shining with tears. I knew she saw them because her face changed immediately. She stood from where she was and grabbed my hand, "Excuse us." She said before pulling me away from Kendall and up the stairs. I looked back to see everyone looking at us. Kendall staring dead in my eyes with concern which just caused the tears to escape from my eyes. We got to where Kendall's room was and I told her to go in there and we shut the door behind us.

"Okay, what is going on?" She asked as we sat on the bed.

"Am I cheating on Will?"

"Oh Lacy. No, sweetie! You are not! Listen. I know you love Will, and I know how much he loved you. But he would want you to be happy."

"But how is it that he would want me to be with someone else?" I cried.

"Honey, I was there for almost your whole relationship with Will. He adored you. He would have given you the whole world if you asked. He wouldn't want you to be sad for the rest of your life. He loved seeing you smile. He would want to look down on you and watch you happy, smiling, and being your true self. That was how much he loved you. And listen, I have watched you with Kendall. He makes you smile more than I have seen in years. I have also seen the way he looks at you and the way he holds you. You guys are so cute together and seem so right for each other. I know you feel it too. You're just scared, I don't blame you but don't screw this up because of guilt that is unfounded or because your afraid."

I wrapped her in a hug. That is why she was my absolute best friend on the planet. I let her words sink in as I continued to crush her. She didn't complain just hugged me back. "Thank you, Hannah!" We held each other for a few minutes more before we broke apart. "I know you're right but I think I know what I need to do to be able to fully concentrate on my relationship with Kendall."

Just then there was a knock on the door then it opened just enough for him to poke his head in. "Hey, everything okay?"

Hannah looked at me, I gave her a small nod, she turned back to Kendall and smiled, "Yeah. We just needed a girl minute. I'm gonna go back downstairs with Lance. You two talk." With that she patted my hand then walked past Kendall as he fully opened the door.

Kendall watched her walk down the hall before turning to me, he closed his door and came to sit down next to me on the bed. "What's wrong? Did I do something? I thought we were having a good day?"

"We are! Kendall, you did nothing wrong! I didn't mean to make you feel that way! I just, you know us girls sometimes we just need to have a breakdown."

He wrapped his arm around my shoulder pulling me to him and took his other hand and interlaced our fingers together, I let my head fall onto his shoulder and his came down to rest gently on mine. "Wanna talk about it?"

I sighed, "I was feeling a little guilty about being with you. Being down there with all our friends, it just made me think about back in Georgia with Will and I had that feeling that I was cheating on Will." I spoke carefully hoping that I wouldn't upset him.

"I wish I could tell you that I understand how you feel but I don't."

"I know, Hannah talked me down. But I still have a couple things rolling around in my head that I need to work out. Kendall, I really do care about you. You know that right?"

Kendall moved from resting on my head and his hand came up and with his hand he lifted my chin so I was looking in his mesmerizing eyes, "I knew that the second you agreed to my crazy ass idea of you being my face girlfriend. I care about you. More than you probably can imagine. I will do anything to make you comfortable and make you know that this was more than just a way to get my dumb ass friends off my back."

I smiled and leaned up and kissed his lips softly, "You are too sweet. Um...there is something that I think I need to do but..." I paused, not really sure how to approach this.

"Lacy, you can tell me anything, whatever it is, we can do it together if you want to. I promise that I will always be there for you."

Damn, why did he have to be so sweet. This makes this even harder, I am terrified of hurting him, shit! "Kendall, you really are such a gentleman and so loving, but I am terrified that what I have to say is going to hurt you or scare you off." Honesty is the best policy, right?

"If this is something that will make you feel better then it won't hurt me. You definitely won't scare me off, your stuck with me because like I told you the other day I don't want to let you go. Now, what is it?"

I pressed my lips against his once again, I couldn't help it. He was just being so great. I pressed harder, intensifying the kiss. He immediately kissed back, letting his tongue sneak past my lips and met mine. I gently pushed his shoulders back so he was laying on the bed and I laid down completely on top of him. I broke our kiss and started trailing kissed along his amazing jaw line. The noises he was making made me feel good to know that he liked what I was doing. However, I knew that this needed to stop. He flipped us around so he was laying over me, his hands on either side of my head. He smirked at me before we capturing my lips for a fiery kiss. He pulled away and stared in my eyes,

His breathing was uneven as he began to speak, "As much fun as that is, I really want you to talk to me. Please." I brought my hand up to gently caress his face and we both smiled. He moved so he was laying on his side facing me, I moved so I was also facing him on my side.

"I want to go back to Georgia."

His eyes widened, "Like move back?" There was panic in his voice.

"No, as much as I love it there and miss it I could never live there again. But I haven't been back in a long time. I miss my family. I haven't seen them since they came for Christmas and God this will make me sound like a horrible person."

"Nothing could do that, what is it, baby?"

"I never saw Will's grave, or atleast not since the funeral. When I left the stone still hadn't been put up and I was thinking that maybe going there and seeing his grave would give me some closure. Does that make sense?"

"That makes all the sense in the world, baby. I promise. Would you want me to come with you?"

"I don't think that I would have the strength to go without you, Kendall." He smiled and captured my lips once again. I swear I could get lost in his kisses, they were always perfect for the moment. I have no clue how the cheeky bastard does it but I hope that never changes.

"I will make the arrangements, do you want to tell Hannah and Lance?"

"No, lets not. We'll surprise them whenever we can get there. It doesn't have to be immediately but within the next couple months." He nodded then stood from the bed, I sat on the edge and he pulled me up and into his body.

"Lets go back down there before they think we are doing something dirty up here." I slapped his chest as we both chuckled.

"My friends know I wouldn't do that. Yours however are probably thinking it." I smiled as we held hands and headed back to join the fun, now feeling much better however nerves were already starting to build up at the thought of going back home.