Disclaimer: I own nothing. You hear me? NOTHING. It's actually quite obvious.
Warnings: You know that already, but... guyxguy and swearing and there's some blood in this chapter. I don't know if it's count as gore... Nah, I don't think so.

A/N: There won't be any Taito's POV after this since he isn't really a main character, but I wanted to add this flashback thingy, so in this chapter there's some Taito's POV just during the flashback since the flashback is important. I think.

Chapter 14: Angst and Flashbacks

TAITO'S POV
FLASHBACK

I was sitting next to Kikaito in the car. It had been so long since I met them, or even talked to them, since I had now my own apartment and job. It was my birthday, and mom and Hisao, my 'father' were going to buy me a present, even though I didn't want one.

Hisao, Kikaito and Nigaito weren't actually my relatives. My former father was always beating the crap out of me and mom, so when I was 15, mom finally left him and married Hisao, who was much better parent than my real father. But even though I liked Hisao a lot and even wanted someone like him to be my dad, I never really accepted him as father. I really did like him, he was nice and would even make me smile. But still, I couldn't call him 'dad', not even 'father'. He was just Hisao.

At that time, when we were in the car, I was still happy and carefree, unlike now, after the accident. I could smile and laugh, I could talk normally with my two 'brothers' and I could love. That time was so precious to me, and now, I wish that I would've spend more time with them before that happened. But I quess that can't be changed anymore.

Anyways, it was really crowded and we were the end of a long line of cars. Mom, Hisao, Kikaito and Nigaito didn't care though. They were talking about some movie and I joined them, not knowing what would happen next. And what happened next?

Some drunk bastard driving a truck hit our car and hundreds of feelings hit me. Everything went black for a while, I didn't know what was happening around me. And then I felt pain everywhere. In my back, in my eye, in my arm, in my head - yes, especially head. Red, thick liquid flowed from every place I mentioned. I was scared. I put my hand that didn't hurt that much on the eye that was bleeding and felt something sharp. A piece of glass. I took a deep breath and then took the glass out. I screamed. It hurt so-fucking-much I wanted to die.

When I recovered from the eye-thing, I looked at my family. Kikaito's legs were broken and I could even see bone. He was crying, begging Kami-sama to save us. When I looked at Nigaito, I saw that he was unconcious. His eyes were closed and somewhere around his head was dripping blood. From his mouth, there was flowing blood. I tried to move, but I couldn't. I was stuck somewhere, I didn't know where.

I still could see to the front seats if I tried to, so I did. And it was horrible. In the driver's seat, Hisao was bleeding and a large piece of metal was sticking from his stomach. Blood was coming out of his mouth and I gasped when I saw that his neck was broken. I turned my gaze to mom, and immediately regretted it. Her soft, black hair was now messed up because of the blood and she had several injuries in her back, stomach, chest and legs. Even though she was in worse condition than me, she was awake.

"Taito... Th- they're your brothers... Take care of th- " she started, but suddenly vomited blood and fell unconcious. "Mom!" I screamed. It hurt to scream. Actually, everything I had done hurt like hell. But I didn't realize it. I was too terrified. Then, everything was black again and mom's scream from when the truck hit our car ringed in my head. And it still does.

END OF FLASHBACK

As I woke up, I was sweaty and panting. I reached my hand to get the blade that usually was on my night stand, but I didn't feel anything sharp. I opened my eyes and looked around the room, remembering finally that I was in Shion living room. I glanced at a clock on the wall to see that it was 3AM. Just perfect... I thought and tried to get comfy again, but failed. I couldn't sleep after that dream. I never could.

I heard some noises from Kaito's room upstairs. He probably couldn't sleep either. I really liked him, as a brother. He reminded me of him, the one brother I really had. But the ones I cared about got hurt, just like him and Yutaka-kun, my only childhood friend, and my first love. Yutaka-kun...

Sighing, I got up from the couch and to the kitchen. If I was going to stay up, I would need a lot of black coffee.

KAITO'S POV

At monday morning, I didn't want to go to school, but mom made me. Even though I didn't want to go to school, I left as early as possible; I had to talk to Gakupo. I had to talk to someone.

When I stepped into the history class, Gakupo wasn't there yet, so I sat behind a desk next to the door and waited for him. He usually wasn't this late... Well, actually I wasn't usually this early.

It didn't take long for Gakupo to arrive with cup of coffee in his hand. When he saw me, he was first surprised, but then smiled as usual and said: "You keep coming earlier and earlier." (That's what she said!) "Is something wrong?"
I shaked my head and said I was fine, but my expression told him everything he had to know.

"You're not fine. What happened?" he asked and sat next to me.

"Well... I found out I have two cousins... And their parents died and they have to live on their own. One of them is working but they can't live with the amount of money he makes so they're living with us now. And yesterday, I was talking to the oldest one - Taito - and Akaito heard our conversation and he's now really mad at me... he probably hates me", I explained, trying to not cry again. I cried too much anyway.

"What were you talking about?" he asked and I blushed deeply. Maybe I shouldn't have told him... but Taito's words were ringing in my head. Maybe I did like him? No... I couldn't. But why do I feel like this then?

"It's nothing important", I said and shaked my head. I wasn't going to tell him. No way in hell I would tell him!

"I don't believe you, but fine. Don't you think you should apologize your brother?" he suggested and took a sip of his coffee. I've always wondered this... If students can't drink coffee in school, then why teachers can? I didn't ask, even though I wanted to. Instead I said: "It's not something you can apologize for."

"Hmm... This Taito. What does he look like?" Gakupo suddenly asked.

"Why do you want to know?"

"I had a childhood friend called Taito." Well that was unexpected. I described Taito and found out he indeed was Gakupo's childhood friend.

"What's his last name?" Gakupo asked.

"Shion, of course", I answered.

"But his name was Ito... But I'm sure you described him and besides, there's not many people called Taito. Could you ask him if his name happened to be Ito in the past?" he asked. I nodded, not really understanding how his name could be Ito if he was my cousin. Luckily, Gakupo explained this to me.

"Long time ago, when me and Taito were kids, we lived next to each other. I was his only friend because in school, he was always beaten up and no one wanted to be his friend. His father was monsterious and always hurt his wife and kids. When we first time met, I was ten years old. At that time, he couldn't pronouce my name right, so he just called me Yutaka-kun because my family was so rich. We were together for years. For years, I treated his wounds his father gave to him and for years, we grew closer and closer. But when he started the high school, his mother had found another man and they moved away, leaving me alone. We were in touch for few more years, but when I started to study, we kind of just... Stopped talking to each other. I still have his phone number, though."

One thing bugged me. "You said 'kids', right? Did he have brothers? Kikaito and Nigaito?" I asked, but he shaked his head.

"He only had one brother, Mokaito, whom he loved very much. But Mokaito- "

Before Gakupo could say what happened to Mokaito, the bells ringed and class started. He told me to ask more from Taito and started the class. I was really shocked. It was just too much information for me.

After school, I immdeately dragged Taito into my room, closed the door behind us and asked: "Do you know Kamui Gakupo?"

First, he was really surprised, but then nodded.

"He told you, didn't he?" he said quietly.

"Yeah. And he also said you had a brother", I answered, but I regretted it as I saw Taito's expression change from calm to I-wanna-kill-myself- expression. He started to shake as he stared at his feet, and I saw many tears dropping on my room's floor. I quickly apologized, but he didn't respond. Instead, he told me what excactly happened to his brother.

"Mokaito was my one and only little brother. I loved him more than anything and adored him. He was perfect and he was so innocent... One day, when I got home from school - I was eleven, he was ten - my father was really drunk and Mokaito was alone at home. And for some reason, father had obtained a gun and as I said, he was really drunk... and shot him. When I stepped into the living room, I could only see my father holding a gun and Mokaito falling down on the floor, all bloody and dead. I couldn't do anything. He was already dead. And when I was crying and holding his body, dad said 'clean this mess, I'm going to a bar' and dropped his gun on the floor and left. I stayed on the floor, hugging Mokaito and begging him to come back. At that time, the only friend who helped and suported me was Yutaka-kun. You know Yutaka-kun as Kamui Gakupo, your history teacher."

Again, I was shocked, and even more shocked than when Gakupo told me about Taito.

"Didn't the police arrest your father?" I asked in shaky voice. I had sinked on my bed and tears were coming from my eyes too. I couldn't believe Taito had such a rough past and I made him remember all that and even talk about it.

Taito shaked his head and said: "The police never found out. Actually, only ones who know are Yutaka-kun, father, me and now that I told you, you too. Even Kikaito and Nigaito don't know."

I stood up, even though it was hard to stay steady, and hugged Taito. I never thought some people really do have this kind of hard life. I muttered: "I'm so sorry for you..."

"You don't know half of it", he whispered, but I didn't care. I didn't want to know if there was something worse, this was already bad enough.

At that time, I really didn't know half of it. And it was much worse, especially for me.

A/N:

Hi guys! Sorry for not updating for a while ^^ (You thought you were gonna get rid of me huh? YOU WERE WRONG *evil laugh*) I hope you had a nice Christmas and New Year! I... Well, let's say I only stalked the GazettE. (Well, if you can count that as stalking.)

So, lots of things happened in this chapter, huh? Taito is emo, plot gets more angst, TAITO LIKES GAKUPO. (Hahaa, you didn't expect that to happen, didn't ya :D) I don't know why, but I feel like Gakupo and Taito would look good together. You know, like chibis? Like Usagi and Hiroki in Junjo Romantica (those two were so cute when they were little!) I'm not really sure if it WAS Hiroki... I haven't read/watched Junjo Romantica in a while and tend to forget names :D

ANYWAYS what do you think? I think Taito is really cute emo uke... Oh, and here's some spoilers for next chapter: More angst and more flashbacks. And Gakupo as Kaito's mom. (You didn't expect that to happen either, didn't ya :D)

I quess it's time to end this chapter here.

Kaito: The chapter already ended, idiot
Me: Oh, I haven't seen you in a while!
Gakupo: He was afraid me and GreatFangirlOfYaoi would talk about perverted things.
Taito: Why am I in Author's Note? And why do I look like a main character in this chapter?
Me: Because shut up.
Mikuo: That was mean!
Me: How did you get in here?
Mikuo: You said you might write a fanfic of me and Akaito OwO
Me: You're not supposed to tell that here! And I just MIGHT start that fic...
Akaito: Why didn't I know anything? And will it be rated M?
Me: IF I write it, it will be rated M. And yes, you will be very sexy in it.
Kaito's mom: Hey, everyone, the pie is ready!
Kaito, Taito, Akaito and Mikuo: *runs to Kaito's house to eat pie*
Gakupo: So can we now talk pervy things about Kaito?
Me; Sorry, but the A/N is already too long... Maybe next time?
Gakupo: Fine... Remember to review!
Me: You don't have to say that.
Gakupo: Sorry...

Sorry for the extra long A/N and the really short chapter... *bows*

I hope you enjoyed, I'll see you in teh next chapter (Seriously, why do I always say this ^^')