A/N: I wish you a lovely Sunday or what's left of it! Enjoy the chapter!
The ride back to the hotel was eerily quiet while both women tried to deal with the emotions and the things they just heard and remembered. Again, Maura leaned into Jane and closed her eyes. She was terribly tired; her eyes heavy with sleep and the tears not even dried on her face yet.
Maybe she'd be prepared for tomorrow. She would go back to see Abby and probably everyone else too; she was glad that she took Jane there tonight. Finding all these things while everyone else was watching her was something she wouldn't have wanted. Now she had a bit of time to let it all sink in and mentally try to prepare herself for tomorrow. She knew that the worst was over and that everything that was yet to come was just a personal thing; a matter of facing and dealing with it. She'd been through so many things by now that everything else shouldn't be a problem.
There were still things Jane needed to know, things she might be curious about and Maura was willing to tell her everything. She thought that the details of her faked death, which she didn't quite know herself, and the fact that she'd been a Secret Service Agent once were too much for just one night. There'd be lots of time to talk about this.
Jane kept her arm around Maura and looked out of the window in silence. She hadn't expected this; only a couple of weeks ago, she hadn't expected any of this to happen. Just like she had never even dreamed of falling in love with the woman in her arms one day. She looked out of the window into the darkness of the night; the street lamps passing quickly. She thought of the things that she knew about Maura now. She'd been a Special Agent for the NCIS and for some reason had been forced to make everyone believe that she was dead; at one point in her life she'd been awarded with the Presidential Medal of Freedom which was, along with the Congressional Gold Medal, the highest Civilian Award in the United States. Jane knew that it is awarded to people who have made a great contribution to the security or national interests of the United States, world peace and a few other things that Jane didn't remember now. She wondered what Maura did to receive it; she had no idea and she just realized that there were many possibilities and she'd just have to wait for Maura to tell her the reason.
She tried to imagine the relationship between Kate and Tony; she wasn't sure if she knew them both well enough to get a reasonable imagination of how it might've been. For the moment, she just didn't want to think about it and what might've happened between them. She almost smiled at herself when she felt a hint of jealousy flashing up. She instantly leaned into Maura a little and took her hand; she had already fallen asleep. Jane looked at the sleeping woman in her arms and could only see a part of her beautiful face in the semi-darkness of the car. She didn't move since she didn't want to wake her. She couldn't take her eyes off her and suddenly she saw the picture again and she felt the pain and anger flaming up. She saw the image of a beaten up woman; the very one that was sleeping so peacefully right now. Again she couldn't handle the thought of someone doing that to Maura; she didn't know how she would react if someone ever touched her again. For a second, the light of the street lamps blurred in front of her eyes and she blinked the tears away before someone noticed.
"Maur," Jane whispered softly when the car stopped in front of the hotel entrance. She kissed her softly on her forehead. "Maura, wake up," she said again and her eyelids slowly fluttered open. She looked up and saw Jane watching her from above.
"What?" she said and slowly got up. "Are we there already?" she asked quietly and got out of their semi-embrace.
"Yes, sleepyhead," Jane said and smiled at Maura. She got out of the taxi first and held her hand out for Maura to take. Only a few minutes later, they walked into the hotel that was calmer by now. Most guests had retreated to their rooms already.
"Sorry," Maura said and laid her arm around Jane's hip; leaning into her while they walked toward the elevators. Jane was holding the box with Maura's belongings.
"It's okay," Jane said and pushed the button to the fourth floor when they walked into the elevator.
"How do you know where my room is?" Maura asked and turned a bit to stand in front of Jane, laying her arms around her neck. She was glad she was wearing high heels; without her shoes that was always a little bit difficult. She took the box from Jane, put it on the floor for now and her arms back where they'd been only seconds ago.
"I'm a detective..." Jane whispered against Maura's lips and smiled; she gave in and bent forward a little; she found warm and waiting lips, slowly deepening the kiss. She moaned softly into the kiss when Maura opened her lips; her hands in Jane's neck. Jane wrapped her arms around Maura's hips and pulled her closer just before they reached the fourth floor.
Maura turned around when the doors opened, taking her hand while she walked ahead. She felt a little light headed by the emotions running through her body, the fatigue and the lack of oxygen due to the kiss. All she wanted was collapse into bed with Jane's slender arms holding her. Everything else could wait, she told herself and wasn't sure if she'd be able to let it all wait.
Jane watched the other woman entering the room first; kicking off her heels just like she did a few hours ago when she returned from the conference. Jane smiled at how tiny Maura suddenly seemed; compared to herself. It would be so easy to snuggle up to her from behind and lay her chin on Maura's shoulder. Jane put the box on the table and sat down on the edge of the bed and watched Maura walking through the room; switching lights on here and there. Jane took off her shows as well; suppressing a yawn, her eyes on Maura as she walked toward her. She parted her legs a little to let Maura step a little closer as she cupped Jane's face with her hands and smiled down at her; again she met soft lips with a gentle kiss.
"Caitlin," Jane whispered with a smile and looked up at Maura; their lips only inches apart. "That's... that's beautiful," she whispered and wrapped her arms around her. Maura smiled and pushed Jane a little until she laid flat on her back with Maura on top of her.
"You like it?" she asked without looking up from Jane's lips.
"I like it," Jane said and kissed Maura again; she placed both forearms on either side of Jane's face and propped herself up above her.
"Special Agent..." Jane whispered during another gentle kiss.
"Not anymore," Maura reminded her.
"Can I call you that?" Jane asked and wrapped her legs around Maura's body. "I think it's kinda sexy," she said and smirked at the woman above her.
"Only when we're alone," Maura said and laughed.
They looked at each other for a couple of seconds; their eyes locked. Jane looked deep into her eyes, her own heart beating against Maura's. She liked the feeling of Maura's body on top of her, softly pressing her onto the bed. She could get used to that and was certain she'd never let her go again. She knew details about her former life now, but what did it change?
Did it make her feel happier or did it change anything? She couldn't tell but what she knew was that the the only the only thing that made her happy was the fact that she was here with Maura at this moment.
"Do I get to call you babe then?" Maura asked without breaking the eye contact.
"I think we should get some sleep," Jane suggested and slowly got up; keeping Maura on her lap for now.
"You don't like it?" she asks and keeps her arms around Jane's neck.
Jane didn't say anything but didn't look to happy with Maura's choice of her nickname.
"I got some sleeping clothes for you," Maura said and got up. Jane immediately let herself fall back onto the bed and sighed. This woman would drive her crazy one day; she closed her eyes and tried not to think all the things Maura might have in store for her; or all the things she wanted to do to her. Her suitcase was still hidden in that cupboard at the end of the hallway. She was too lazy to go and get it now; whatever Maura had for her would do.
"I thought these would be good for something," Maura said and Jane opened her eyes to take the clothes; much to her surprise it was a simple blue shirt and a pair of black sweatpants.
"Wow," Jane said with faked surprise.
"What?"
"I expected something more fancy," she said and got up from the bed.
"You want something?" Maura asked with a smile.
"No," Jane answered immediately. "That's just perfect," she said and went to the bathroom to change. By the time she left the bathroom she spotted Maura laying on the bed already; her right arm was wrapped around the pillow, her head resting on it. She didn't look up when Jane closed the door to the adjoining bathroom and she guessed that Maura had fallen asleep again. She couldn't blame her; she was dead tired herself and switched off the lights as quiet as possible. She sat down on the edge of the bed and watched Maura in adoring silence. For the time being she wouldn't want to be anywhere else. She was so hurt and disappointed by the time she found out the truth that she couldn't imagine letting it all go so soon. She knew herself and she knew how stubborn she could be but when she watched Maura sleeping soundly she couldn't be mad now. There was no reason to dwell on the past any longer when everything that lay ahead suddenly looked so promising and simply wonderful.
She knew it may not be easy and a part of her had no idea how a relationship with Maura might be; she hadn't been in a relationship for ages for that matter and certainly had to get used to it. She didn't want to think of her colleagues and her family and everyone else and what they might think or say. That was the last thing she wanted to deal with now and as long as she had Maura around, she was sure she'll manage somehow.
She slid under the blanket and turned on her side; just like Maura she wrapped her arm around the pillow and watched her in the darkness. Though sleeping next to Maura would certainly never be the same again, she smiled at the fact that her face would be the first thing to see when she opened her eyes in the morning.
The next time she was aware of her surroundings must've been in the early morning hours. She woke up but kept her eyes closed. Jane felt something heavy on her own body and it took her just a second to recognize the smell that could only be Maura's. A smile crossed her lips and she listened to Maura's even breathing; her body softly moving up and down. She opened her eyes and saw that Maura had put her arm across Jane's stomach, the tip of her fingers touching the bare skin of her stomach. Her leg was somehow intertwined; her head on Jane's shoulder. She smiled at herself and asked herself how they ended up like this, she definitely didn't remember that but she'd lie saying that she didn't like it. She didn't want to wake her but there was no way in getting out of the embrace without doing so. She inhaled slowly and felt like she was trying not to be caught when she remembered that this wasn't some random morning when you wake up in the arms of someone you wish wasn't there after a night you had never wanted to happen. She wanted Maura to wake up because she wanted to look into her eyes and listen to her soft voice.
She slowly turned and Maura started to wake up when she did so; she was watching her just like she did the previous night before she surrendered to sleep though there was less distance between their bodies now. She placed a soft kiss on Maura's lips and before she had a chance to draw back she felt warm hands snaking up her neck to keep her close. Without opening her eyes she kissed Jane softly for a little while.
"I could get used to that," she whispered after their lips parted.
"You better do so," Jane told her and smiled. Maura couldn't come up with a memory of the last time someone had woken her up so tenderly. It was usually her alarm clock or her phone in the middle of the night that made her leave her bed; the other side of it was usually cold and abandoned.
"Good morning," Maura said and smiled at Jane.
"Are we gonna do this every morning now?" she asked and laughed.
"I'm afraid..." Maura said and propped herself up on her elbows. "That we'll be constantly late for work then..."
"Yeah, people might be suspicious..."
"Don't you think we've been suspicious enough already?" Maura asked and Jane let herself fall on her back, staring at the ceiling.
"Really?" she asked and Maura nodded.
"I'm afraid so," she said and Jane remembered Frost's words before she left for Washington. "What are you smiling at?"
"Frost told me to tell you that the password for your computer was far too predictable..." Jane said and cleared her throat; smiling while she waited for a reaction.
"What?" Maura wanted to know and turned on her side. "Why..."
"I needed you are..." Jane said and smiled at her as innocent as possible. "I'm sorry, love."
"What... oh..." she said and started to understand. "Did he... please tell me he didn't tell you which one it was..." she said and didn't know whether to laugh or be ashamed of herself; she buried her face into Jane's shoulder while she waited for a reaction.
"No..." Jane said. "But not that we're talking about it... what was it?"
"No... no way I'm telling you," she said and laid flat on her back just like Jane.
"Fine," Jane said after a few seconds. "Then I'll force him to tell me so!"
"Jane!" Maura said and laughed. "Leave him alone!"
"He knows it," Jane said and stopped laughing.
"Knows what?"
"Well... he thinks he knows something," Jane said and tried to explain. "About us..."
"Yeah?" Maura asked quietly and put her arms across Jane's stomach again; this time brushing the bare skin of her stomach on purpose and she didn't miss Jane's reaction at this touch. "What is it about us?" she asked, teasing her a little.
"It's... it's... " Jane said and shook her head; she failed in finding the right words to describe what they had and what they slowly started to develop. Right now, there weren't any words to express her feelings.
"Tell me what he said."
"He... he said," Jane explained and tried to focus again. "He said that it was about time. I asked him to help me get the address of the hotel."
"Yes, you asked him to hack into my personal computer to access my private details..." Maura threw in only to tease Jane a little but she ignored her.
"And when I had what I needed, I told him that I'll leave for a few days and he said that it was about time..." Jane told her.
"Remember me to thank him when we get back."
"You're not mad at me for the computer thing?" Jane asked.
"You want me to be?" Maura said and laughed. "I would be... with anyone else. But considering that you're here with me now..."
For a few seconds, both retreated to thoughtful silence until Jane remembered that this wasn't some fun trip but Maura was still attending a conference.
"You have to work today?" Jane asked and turned her head toward Maura.
"I'm supposed to attend a lecture..."
"Which means?"
"No one might actually notice when I'm gone," she said and laughed.
"I'm a bad influence for you, Dr. Isles," Jane said. "Skipping your lectures like that."
"I have to talk to Abby," Maura said and her voice was calmer again. "I can't leave without doing so. And I guess I won't get away from there so easily. The others might be around too."
"You want me to come with you?"
"I'd love you to," Maura told her and they spent a bit more time in silence; holding hands until it was time to get ready.
A/N: I've settled with the fact that the password 'JaneIsles' Just sayin'
