Am sure I've failed all my exams so far. Writing this because I've been on a one tree hill binge and feel inspired somehow. Need sleep.

Update: I didn't completely fail all my exams, and have begun year 12! It is now Christmas Eve eve. I apologise.

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I arrive at school a bundle of nerves and stand with Katniss and Fox and everyone else. I tell them about Cato's message and Fox tells me she received a similar one last night from Thresh, and she has no idea what it means, either. What can Cato possibly have to say? I've already seen his vulnerable side a few times over some late night conversations and even once in person. I can't imagine this is anything similar.

"Attention, gang" Cato announces his presence to the group. "As some of you know, I have some big news." We all look at each other in bewilderment, wondering what the hell is going on.

"The main reason Thresh and I moved here was because swimming was off season, then our coach retired. Now, we've received early entry to Capitol University, on a full scholarship!" We applaud and cheer them, but we are still confused. We still have over a year to go until university applications are even on our minds. Why now?

"We get the scholarship on one condition - we swim for their team and compete in all areas of sporting life" Thresh continues. Of course, we all nod in understanding - it's only logical.

"However," Cato follows, "we aren't eligible until we complete 4 months of swim training under their program this year, and another 6 months of all-around sports training next year"

"So?" Asks a worried Fox.

"So… we're moving back to the city. Next week." Supplies her boyfriend, who can barely look her in the eye without tearing up.

"WHAT?! " We all exclaim.

"When did you guys find out?" Peeta asks

"Almost two months ago. We wanted to wait until everything was finalised before telling you" Cato replies sheepishly. "It's been killing us and we're going to miss you guys so much. But it's only four months" No, no. This can't be happening.

Suddenly, I am filled with an anger and rage like I have only felt a few times in my life.

How could he do this to me? I just storm off. I'm extremely happy for him, this is an amazing opportunity but never before have I felt so…used.

Two months. TWO MONTHS HE KNEW, AND HE NEVER MENTIONED IT.

Cato runs after me.

"Clove, wait up!"

"Why, so you can just kiss me again?!"

"It's not like that" he protests

"You used me"

"Clove, you have to believe me, I never -"

"Why did you tell me this now ? So you can leave next week and pretend it never happened?"

"Pretend what never happened?"

I groan in frustration. "Everything!" I shout. "Every single damn thing that has ever happened between us. I see the way you look at me, why do you do that if you know you're going to leave? Why KISS ME and make me fall for you then leave?!"

"Clove, please, don't do this. I don't want to leave but-"

"'But' nothing. Was it fun? Huh? Leading me on and kissing me when you pleased and taking me to get ice cream and holding my hand in the hallway when you thought nobody was looking or -?"

He leans forward to try and kiss me, and I push him off roughly.

"No! Don't you ever do that again, do you hear me?"

"But, I-"

"If leading girls on and then leaving them is your 'thing', you should have told me because I think that I really liked you, Cato. And I probably could have loved you but you know what, you'll never get to know that. You'll never get to know how many nights I spent awake wondering what to do about you, how many butterflies I get when you look at me with that stupid smile or how I sat around all night waiting for you to message me, but SILLY ME thinking those kisses actually MEANT something to you!" I pause, now almost out of breath. I can feel the others staring at me, but I really don't care. When Cato just stares at me in astonishment, offering nothing in response, I continue.

"People always leave, right?" And I can't help but chuckle because this is all so ridiculous.

"I'm happy for you, Cato, I really am. And I know how much this scholarship means to you because you've worked really hard, you deserve it and you've earned it" I stare him down, waiting for him to say something, anything. "but you certainly haven't earned, nor do you deserve my heart anymore." I turn and walk off, but not before having the group's stunned faces and Cato gaping like a fish out of water burned into my mind,

I somehow manage to avoid him for the rest of the day and week and replay all the things I said to Cato today as I lie in bed that night, and the night after that, and the night after that, and listen to the only song that understands me.

"If there's one thing I have said

Is that the dreams I once had, now lay in bed

As the four winds blow, my wits through the door

It's been the worst day since yesterday"

Oddly enough I don't like the actual song, but the lyrics are pretty cool.

Hope you all have an incredible holiday season, please be careful and RELAX!

Take care, dolls!

xx-S 3