Chapter 12: The News and The Question
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"Auggie, we need to talk..."
Annie looked over at him for any indication that she should continue.
"Yeah, Annie, I've been wanting to talk to you, too." Auggie said, very seriously.
"You have?" she asked, a little scared.
"Yeah. But you can start if you want." He clasped her hand tighter, reassuringly.
"Ok, well..." Annie tried to think of a way to broach the subject. She couldn't just blurt it out. She had to ease into it. "Maybe you should go first..." She chickened out.
Auggie looked at her, curiously, but said, "Well, Annie..."
Just at the same time Auggie began talking, Annie cut in at the same time. They spoke simultaneously.
Annie: "I'm pregnant."
Auggie: "I want you to move in with me."
They both stared, dumbfounded, at the other for a moment. Speaking together again, they both said, "What did you say?!"
Another pause then, "Annie, did you just say that you're... pregnant?" Auggie couldn't help but have a slight grin at the idea.
"Did you just ask me to move in with you?" Annie avoided her own news and focused on his question.
Auggie moved to face her as much as he could, being connected to all the machines. He raised his hand to graze her cheek. "Annie, answer me. Are you pregnant?"
She was starting to break down. Surely pregnancy hormones couldn't be affecting her already? A tear glided down her cheek and hit Auggie's hand. "Yes, Auggie, I'm pregnant," she said, very quietly.
"Wow," was his reply.
Annie backed away from him. "Wow? Wow! That's all you can say?" She could feel herself beginning to panic. Auggie didn't want a baby. They weren't ready. It was too soon. Or worse, he didn't want a baby with her. Her breathing started to come more rapidly and she could feel a swell of tears itching for release. Damnit!
Auggie reached out for her and implored her to understand, "Wait, no, Annie, I didn't mean it that way. It's not a bad wow. I swear. It's a good wow. It was just a shock. That was not at all what I was expecting you to say." He stopped and listened for a second. "I can hear you're breathing from here. Calm down. Please?" His face showed signs of real concern. If only he knew what the doctor had told her and about the attack she'd had after he was taken.
She was still slightly panicked. Tears were flowing freely down her face now but she concentrated on slowing her breathing until it was relatively normal. No matter Auggie's reaction, she still wanted this baby. Slowly, she stepped back over to the bed.
"I have to know how you feel about this, Auggie. Really."
Sensing her closeness, he reached out for her hand. She tentatively grasped it. "Annie, I couldn't be happier. Honest. I'm sorry my reaction scared you." He pulled her closer and wrapped his arms, and therefore several lines and wires, around her. He pressed her face into his shoulder and tried to comfort her. "Walker, you should know by now that only my death would take me from you," he said, lightheartedly.
Annie pulled away, quickly. "Don't even joke about that, Auggie!" The tears starting flowing faster again. "Do you even know how close I was to losing you? How close we were?" This last part she said as she placed his hand on her belly.
Shit! He had almost left her, and their baby, and he never would have known... He gripped her stomach, lighly. "I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking. But seriously, there's nothing you can say or do that would push me away. And, gosh, Annie, a baby?!" A huge, boyish grin spread across his face. "That only makes me want to hold onto you tighter. Come here." Pulling her towards him, he made room for her on the bed.
Annie climbed into bed with him and held onto him, tightly. Auggie rubbed small circles along her arm. "I don't know what I would have done if I had lost you, Auggie. What... we would have done. God, I'm gonna have to get used to saying that."
"Annie, I can't promise that I'll never... leave you and our baby," again, he gripped her stomach with the hand that wasn't rubbing her arm, "but I swear to you, I'll do everything I can to prevent it, ok?"
"Yeah, ok." Annie looked up at his face. "I love you so much. And I already love our baby so much. I want us to do this together. I don't know if I could do it alone. I'm scared, Auggie."
Placing a kiss on the top of her head, he said, "I'm scared too, Walker. But we'll figure it out. Together. I promise."
They lay in silence for a long time after that, both lost in their own thoughts. Both thinking about the future and what it held for them both, and their baby. Auggie thought she had fallen asleep when she startled him by suddenly uttering one word, "Yes."
Auggie craned his neck towards her. "Yes?"
"Yes, I'll move in with you." She looked up at him again and smiled. "Besides, you already have most of my wardrobe in your closet anyway."
Auggie smiled but spoke, "I don't want you to feel like you have to, Annie. You can take your time and decide if that's what you want."
Annie sat up and held his face in her hands. "I have decided, Auggie. I want to, if the offer still stands? I mean you won't just be getting me in a few months..."
"Of course it still stands. Annie, the thought of being able to hold you every night, wake up next to you every morning," he smiled lewdly at her, "more of what created that beautiful creature growing inside you right now... it all just makes me smile. I want all of that. I want you. I want to be there for every crazy craving you might get that I will be more than happy to try and fulfill, for the argument we're bound to have on what to name our little mini-spy, for the first midnight feeding, the diapers, the crying, all of it. I want it all."
Annie couldn't help but smile. "Well, Mr. Anderson, you'd better prepare yourself, because you're about to get it all. And more." Her smile faded, slightly. "But... there's one thing I have to do soon. And I don't think I can do it without you."
"Anything, Walker. Just name it."
Annie sighed, "I really need to talk to Danielle."
