Sorry for not updating. I had school all this week. But it felt amazing outside so I guess I'll live. I thought that I'd try something different this chapter- I'm starting out with Gaara. I don't think that I show his side of the story enough. So here it goes.

I don't own Naruto or any characters that go with the show.

- Kurenai Cakes

Chapter 4: Hurtful Realizations

Gaara was lying in his bed on his back staring at the ceiling. His breathing was slow and quiet. Actually, it was a little too quiet. The only way to make sure he was even alive was by checking his pulse, watching him blink or watching his chest rise and fall- neither of which happened often. He ran a hand through his hair revealing his red love kanji symbol that he'd talked his parents into letting him get for his 12th birthday.

He was listening to his ipod. It was a gift from Hinata for his 11th birthday. All he was doing was listening to her favorite song, All About Us by t.A.T.u, repeatedly. He was trying to figure out why she loves this song so much. To him it wasn't special. It was just a mushy-lovey-dovey song to him. He didn't realize that she loved the song because it was their unofficial love theme song, until the song started over for the tenth time.

No one trusted them to be together. He was too bold and controlling. She was a shy, misunderstood angel who was always in the shadow of her older, smarter cousin and her strong-willed little sister. She was a misfit in the family made of her business savvy father, her prodigy of a cousin, and her spoiled daddy's girl of a sister. She was one of the heirs of Hyuga Inc. He was the deadly calm youngest of the one of the families who rivaled Hyuga Inc. He was one of the heirs to the Sabaku Industries, a future cold -hearted businessman. Everyone who doubted them had to watch as they proved them wrong.

Their love story was a classic good girl falls for bad boy scenario. One where the boy only realizes how much she means to him after he breaks her already fragile heart. Yet their story was so much more complicated and went so much deeper. Hinata had a power over him that no one else could have- not his parents or siblings. Whatever she needed at the moment he would be. He loves her so much that it hurt to be away from her. That's what scared him. He was as dependent on her as she was to him. He wanted some of his power back, so he made the biggest, dumbest mistake that he could ever make. Matsuri.

Gaara thought about all this as he listened to the song. He was learning his lessons, but a little too late. Hinata gave him everything and he broke her in the worse way possible. He broke the promises that he'd ever made to her.

All the Things He Said He would Never Do

1. He would never hurt her.

2. He'd never cheat on her.

3. She was the only one he had or ever would sex with.

4. He would never lie to her.

5. They would always be together.

6. He would never go back on a promise.

7. He would never break her heart.

This one mistake caused him to break all his promises and make her leave. At this very moment, he saw the error of his ways. However, one thing remained constant: he was in love with her. Only now she was already gone there was no way to stop her from leaving. They weren't another teenage couple from the movies. She was a woman scorned, one that could never hate anyone. She was running away from those that she despised. Him.

During these moments of contemplation, he figured out some thing else. After getting her heart broken, she didn't cry the rest of it out(she did, but he doesn't know that). Instead, she left him and her home without a second thought. In a way, he was actually proud of her. It's because she'd never felt the need to hold back with him in any way. She was always Supergirl in his eyes not Louis Lane. He was just lucky to see the "S" on her chest before any one of her friends. She saved him first. Too bad he was the reason that she went into 'retirement'.

He sat up on his bed and cradled his head in his hands." I am such an idiot. Oh, God. What did I do to you? I didn't realize how much I love you. I'm such an idiot. Hinata, I wish I could see your face. Baby, I love you. Please be okay. Please be okay so I can tell you that I'm sorry for the rest of our lives."

Temari coming into his room interrupted Gaara's thinking aloud. "Lil bro? You okay?"

Gaara just looked at her. His turquoise-sea foam green eyes were so dull and lifeless. It scared her. He still was listening to his ipod, so he didn't hear her. Not that he wanted to hear her voice anyway. He wanted to be alone and sulk in his room until Hinata came back to him. Temari would just make him angry because all she would do is make him feel worse about hurting Hinata. She and Temari had developed a sisterly bond over the years.

He thought that he could just ignore her until she went away. Closing his eyes, he laid back down onto the bed, willing her 'telepathically' to leave. Apparently his plan to ignore her until she left didn't work. She sat on the bed and pulled out one of his earphones.

"Gaara, you can't ignore me forever. I'll sit here until you talk to me. You can't just hold it in. That's not gonna help anyone." Temari spoke.

"Temari just go away. I don't fucking need this right now just leave me alone okay!" Gaara snapped as he got up. He really didn't need her home relationship therapy. She was sixteen messing with a freaking thirteen, almost 14-year-old boy. She really was in no position to help him in any kind of way.

"Gaara, I'm not going anywhere. You need to talk to someone. Anyone. Talk to me. Mom. Dad. Hell even Kankuro. This kind of behavior isn't healthy. Fine you fucked up. I know that you didn't mean it. You can always make up for it later. What you did probably wasn't that bad. But you are not the reason she left. She left on her own. She left on her own free will. This is not your fault it's hers. She's being a coward. And if you don't talk to someone you're going to be a coward just like her." She retorted loudly. Anger at his un-Gaara like attitude and behavior was evident in her face. Of course, she liked Hinata, but her running away had nothing to do with him or so she thought?

Gaara smiled sadly. Then he looked up into her dark teal eyes. "It's sweet how you can have so much faith in me, when I call you a bitch like everyday. But you're wrong this is my fault. I betrayed her in the worst way possible. She devoted herself to me in the most intimate way possible and I cheated on her. The dumb part is I don't know why. I was just scared to devote myself to her fully. I'm in love with her. And I just realized how much I love her when she's gone. Don't you dare call her a coward she was just doing what she thinks I want. She thinks that I never cared about her. This is her version of hate because we both know that she can't really hate anyone. Not even me when I deserve all of her hatred. I would have her hate me for the rest of our lives if I could just see her beautiful face one more time. I would live like that, but I'm dying like this." Tears started rolling done his face. He didn't even try to hide them.

" I'M THE COWARD. I CHEATED ON HER FOR NO REASON AND LIED FOR NO REASON. WITH HER, I HAD EVERYTHING. NOW THAT SHE'S GONE… THE LOVE OF MY LIFE IS GONE. AND I FEEL LIKE MY HEART IS BEING STOMPED ON. IT HURTS BECAUSE I NEED HER AND SHE'S GONE. BECAUSE OF ME! I'M A TOTAL DICK." Gaara screamed at the top of his lungs. He didn't know how to make Temari understand how much he needed Hinata. Words could never explain the way he felt about her.

He was filled with anger . He was angry with himself for hurting Hinata, Temari for calling Hinata a coward, and at the world for having sunny summer days when his sun was gone. He was left alone to rot in the shadows because of the lack Hinata's natural light. His anger manifested itself into him throwing a lamp at the wall, shattering it on impact. " Dammit! That was so fucking stupid." Gaara yelled at himself. "I'm such a fucking idiot!" He turned around and punched the wall with his right hand. He hit it so hard that his knuckles bled. He was about to hit the wall again when Temari grabbed his fist and pulled him into an embrace. He didn't try to fight her.

"Gaara! Calm down okay. It's going to be okay. Everything's gonna be okay. She's gonna come back okay? She's gonna come back." she stroked his hair like she did when they were younger.

He tried to believe what she said was true in his heart, but his head told him that she was never coming back. Gaara tried to stay strong and not fall to pieces, but the dam behind his tear ducts broke. He started crying like a five-year-old boy who still was trying to be brave. His tears were silent; however, they flowed like a river. They stood like that for almost an eternity. Him crying as she stroked his hair. She was crying too because she hated to see her baby brother in so much pain- self-inflicted emotional pain. And she missed Hinata too. The only thought that rushed through her head was that he really was in love with Hinata.

20 min later

Gaara was in his bed lying down. Temari had left about five minutes ago. He just wanted to sleep and forget everything. He just wanted to wake and find Hinata next to him with a sly smile on her face and to say, "April fools".

He knew that wouldn't happen. April had long since passed and this wasn't a dream or nightmare that he could wake up from. This was cruel reality. Hinata was gone and she left because of him. His eyes closed and he fell asleep from emotional exhaustion. He dreamed about him and Hinata together. A time when she was here and they were happy. One memory in his dream stood out.

Flashback

After making love for more than two hours, they gave in to their orgasmic bliss. Now they were a tangled mess of sweat soaked bodies. The only thing keeping them from being exposed was his burgundy colored sheets. The sheets were draped over the tops of their bodies; their legs were. They were exhausted. She had her head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat. Strangely enough, it was beating at the pace as hers.

"G-G-Gaara?" she really wanted know what it meant. "What if it means something bad ? I hope that it won't make him not love me any more."

"Yeah?" his said through closed eyes.

" Our hearts are beating at the same pace. Is that a good thing or bad thing?" she sat up and looked at him. Lavender met turquoise-sea foam green.

He wanted to smile at her innocence, but he saw the fear deep in her eyes. She was scared that he'd changed he mind about loving her and wanting to with her. " Why wouldn't she be scared? I'm cheating on her. But that has to end. I'm not gonna have sex with Matsuri anymore. I love Hinata. I WANT HINATA." he saw the look that she had on her round face. That was the look she got when she doubted herself. He hated that he made her doubt herself and their love.

He sat up to look at her. "Hinata, I love you. Okay? The mere fact that our hearts are beating at the same pace shows how we're connected by not only our minds but our hearts and bodies. That is an amazing thing that not that many people get to find in their life time let alone at this young age." he kissed her. Then he smiled a rare smile that only she got to see. " And when we get old enough we're going to get married and have as many babies as we can. So that means that we'll be able to this as much as we want." he started nuzzling her neck with his nose. She laughed because she was very ticklish. " Now tell me what I want to hear."

Her heart fluttered. He had just said that he wanted to be with her forever. " I l-love you-you too, G-G-Gaara."

He stroked the left side of her face with back of one of his hands. "God, your are so beautiful." She blushed and smiled shyly. he kissed her softly on the lips. Her eyes started closing and reopening drowsily. She was fighting her sleep.

" Come on, baby. Let's go to sleep." he pulled her against his chest and wrapped a arm around her. The sheets were draped over them. They slept peacefully in each other's arms.

End of Flashback

The only thought that went through his head. " I should have never had sex with Matsuri. This is my fault. What was I thinking?"

Back in Kingakure

Hinata was in Kurenai's house eating breakfast with her. " I j-j-just want to say thank you again, Ms Yuhi. You really don't have to do th-this." Hinata started only to be interrupted by …

" Sweetheart stop thanking me. And I've told you before stop calling Ms. Yuhi. I'm not that old. But we do need to talk. This would have been your first year in high school. Is that correct?" Hinata nodded. " I think the you need to go take GED classes. You need some form of education. It's the only way that comes to mind will not make that will not alert the Hyuga of you here."

" Sorry K-Kurenai. I don't mind taking the classes. I just don't want force you to anything that you don't want to force you to do anything that you don't want." Hinata answered without stuttering that much. " I know that I'm already taking advantage of your kindness. You shouldn't have to take care of me. This my fault. Now I'm screwing up your life and probably gonna be a horrible mother. What if they hate me? I don't know the first thing about any thing. I can't change diapers. I don't know how to make bottles. " tears had filled her eyes and she bit her lip to try to hold them back.

Kurenai stayed silent. She just went up to Hinata and wrapped her in an awkward hug because Hinata was sitting down. One arm was around her chest. Hinata cried her eyes out. " It' going to be okay. I'll help you okay? We'll just take this one thing at a time. We'll go get you enrolled in a class tomorrow. Then we'll go get some mommy and me classes or something."

Hinata nodded and cried a little more. She didn't stop until four people came in. Two girls and two boys. One girl had shoulder- length sandy brown hair and greenish- hazel eyes. She was taller than the other girl. The other girl had black hair that reached her back. She had a baby boy in her arms. He had spiky black hair and green eyes. Hinata assumed that his father was the tallest boy who had spiky dark brown hair and the unmistakable green eyes. The other boy had the same color hair and eyes as the girl with the baby in her arms. His hair was shorter though. She instantly guessed that they were related.

The girl with the baby interrupted an eerie silence. "Who the hell is she Aunt Kurenai?"

"This is my new house guest Hinata Inoue"

Thanks for reviewing so far. Tell me what you think. Do you guys think that I made Hinata and Gaara OOC? I just think that their emotions need to show a different side of them. Review please.

- Kurenai Cakes