Omg I am soooo sorry this took me almost a month to upload!! I just had soo many things going on and like lots a shit happening at home...so for being such a crappy writer i combined two chapters together.

Thanks to : xbleedinglotusx, AnimeCrazed121, Allen-Musician1245, Lebre de Maio, Qualyn, sugar92, Blue Element, monkeydluffynaruto, ReiLuvsAllen, Kichou, vampirechick810, Lord Makura, mopotter17, ashley12chan, silverXshadow,
For reviewing!! and everyone else who faved this story!! 3

Anyways the story title is from: Boom boom bang by kesha , i dont know if i mention this in earlyer chapters but the songs dont really mean anything about the chapter i just needed a title for the chapters lolz XD

On with the sotry!

Friends...

A lover...

A life...

Mana...

Being mugged, almost killed...

Mana yelling...

The pain...

More yelling...

Mana holding a pipe...

The smell of gasoline...

Mana's tear stained face...

Darkness...

Fire...

Mana dead...

Silence...

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Allen awoke with a jolt, nearly falling out of the bed he was lying on. His face was pale and he was trying to get air into his lungs. The stupid nightmarish dream just wont leave him alone. Will it continue to plague his dreams until he recovers his memories? That is the question he will never know the answer to. Ever.

He lifted his left deformed hand to his scarred eye, the feeling of it paining and going to explode any moment linger there. Sighing a shaky sigh, he lifted his other hand to intertwine into his hair, combing through his snowy white bangs. He hope this would help his splitting headache. He doubted it though.

"What the hell happened?", Allen breathed out as his headache started getting worst. Moving his right hand ever so slightly, it brushed up against the side of his head. That was a bad idea of course as a tremendous amount of pain shot through his body from the slight contact.

Groaning Allen lifted his hand again after he regained from the pain and touched very gently on his wound. His head was wrapped in a gauze but the wound was bleeding through the bandage a bit. The sticky wetness that latched onto is hand proved that.

Allen sighed and put his head into his hands and groaned again from his head. His headache wasn't really helping much with the pain he felt on the outside that was for sure. A couple of minutes passed by before he decided to see exactly where he was.

Probably in a hospital again no doubt. Wouldn't be surprised either. Allen thought as he looked around the room. It was a standard type room with a couple expensive items lingering in it. The bed was fairly large and there looked to be expensive clothing in the closet. The door of the rather medium size room was closed.

Allen blinked a couple of times before looking around the room again. Making sure what he saw was actually there and not a hallucination. After a couple of minutes of looking around this room and concluding that he wasn't crazy, he started to panic.

"This...isn't a hospital room...", Allen said as panic was clearly showing in his voice. Alright Allen calm down...OK. Now what happened? I remember bumping into this guy and he grabbed me saying something about me dropping his sweets or something and he slammed me into the wall. Then he asked me a question and grabbed me by my neck and slammed me into the wall again...and then nothing....Oh. Shit.

Does this mean I'm dead? Or did someone save me? I'd like to think the last option...Agggg! I need answers and I need them now! Allen Frantically yelled in his head as he quickly stood up and walk towards the door. "And the only way to get them is by opening this door...oh please don't let it be the guy who slammed me into the brick wall..."

Allen sighed as he quietly leaned onto the door and pressed his ear to it. He wanted to make sure if anyone was in the house? Or maybe it was an apartment...uge whatever he didn't care right now. After a couple of minutes he heard faint mumbling coming from the opposite side of the door.

"Ok well I guess I'm not dead...I think.", Allen said as he stood up and placed his hand on the door handle. Inhaling deeply, he slowly turned the door handle and opened the door. The hall was dark and the white haired teen could barley see in front of him. He placed one of his hands on the wall and used it as his guide towards the voices.

As he made his way down the dark hallway, the voices started growing louder. Allen concluded that there were at least three male voices. One sounded vaguely familiar to him but he couldn't be sure. He rounded a corner and at the end of the hall that he entered was a light coming from a half closed door. Quietly, Allen made his way to the door and knelt down beside the door.

It seemed the voices where coming from the room but he wanted answers and walking in now probably wouldn't give him any. Quietly he listen on the conversation or rather argument the three males were having.

"You cant be serious...", A deep sounding voice said and then sighed. The faint sound of a chair being moved could be heard after.

"Of course I'm serious! You've known me for what? Three years and you think I joke about this? You must be more stupid then I thought. Or maybe your hanging around the Bake Usagi to much.", Another voiced said in an angry tone. The sound of another chair moving could be heard.

"But Yuu...you really think it's the moyashi-chan? We haven't seen him for years. What makes you think it's him?"

Moyashi-chan? I wounder who there talking about. Allen thought he listen onto their conversation some more.

"Because I do! I just know it's him...and stop calling me Yuu! Or I'll cut your head off and feed it to the dogs!"

"Kanda enough. Now I don't know this 'Moyahi-Chan' you talk about but from the way Lavi tells me he's been gone along time and you haven't heard of him in what? Seven years ago? I would think you would have let him go now. For all we know he could be dea-"

Lavi? Where have i heard that before...OH! Lavi from work! But whats he doing here?

"He's not dead! I know he's not...and for your information Mikk I wouldn't give up on him. Besides that white haired kid in the bedroom is indeed Allen! I know it. From his looks to his fragile looking figure and his scent, it's defiantly him."

"Kanda I don't want to see you get your hopes up but don't you think I would of recognized him when I met him at the restaurant he works at? I just don't want to see you hurt is all. I mean he didn't even recognized me, and if you say it's the same Allen I'm pretty sure he would of remembered me and Lenalee."

"Shut up I know what see and it's Allen...it has to be..."

The room was silent for a few moments and Allen didn't know what to say. He just wanted to know where he was not know if the people who saved him think hes someone that they knew a long time ago. Allen didn't know what to do. Maybe it's time I leave this place. Yes that seems like the best decision. Allen thought as he slowly stood up and turned around to try and find the door.

The three males started talking again and Allen tried to be as quiet as possible. When he started walking he didn't see the small table in the hall and he bumped into it. Holding his breath he listen for any sign that males heard him. He heard someone say something and then the voices got quiet.

He heard footsteps and then the light in the hall got bigger as the door open wider. Allen cursed as he saw a tall dark haired man with golden eyes look at him and smiled. "Well good of you to join us boy.", The man said as he walked into the hall and rooked Allen's hand and led him into the room.

When he walked in he saw Lavi sitting on a couch and a navy haired man, whom Allen remembered bumping into one night, sitting on a chair at a table. Allen didn't know what to do. He was trapped now, no way of escaping and now trying to get out of this apartment seemed nearly impossible now. Nearly.

The golden eyed man lead Allen to an arm chair on the opposite side of the room. He smiled at Allen and once he made sure Allen sat down in the arm chair, he walked over to where Lavi was sitting and sat next to him.

Silence. Complete and total silence. That's what the atmosphere of the room was at this moment and frankly Allen was getting tired of the silence. He could feel many pairs of eyes looking at him, right through him. Either because of his appearance or what they were arguing about over this other 'Allen' or maybe it was both. All he knew was that he was tired, in pain and just needed to get back to Cross' apartment before he got into even more trouble then what he was already in.

Allen sighed as he leaned back into the chair, crossed his legs and leaned on his right hand. He then started looking around the room. Again another room that was modern size. This sitting room with all its fancy and expensive things. Whoever owns this apartment certainly is rich, Allen thought as he looked at Lavi who was kind of fidgeting on the couch next to the golden eyed man.

Allen smirked abit at seeing the Portuguese man, who seemed to be bored out of his mind but eyeing a deck of cards on the table where the navy haired man sat. The man that was constantly staring at Allen, never looking anywhere else.

A couple of times their eyes met, and Allen quickly looked away. Not wanting to look into those dark blue eyes that seemed to long for him, and Allen didn't know why. Oh wait yes he did because this samurai like man, with his navy blue hair and fine masculine body, thought he was someone he once knew and Allen doubt he knew him.

Allen sighed again. He was getting fed up over the silence that had lasted for almost forty minutes. As much as he hated it he needed to get back to the apartment or Cross would probably hurt him and send him to the hospital. Again.

Allen opened his mouth and was about to say something when Lavi yelled "I cant take it anymore!", got up off the couch and jumped on Allen, giving him a bone crushing hug. Allen was surprised to say the least and didn't know what to do. After a few moments Allen slowly patted Lavi's back with his right hand.

Lavi looked at the white haired boy and smiled. "Oh Allen! I was worried sick about you! I didn't think you would pull through, from that head wound and all and also from that big gorilla that was slamming ya into the wall.", The red head said as he let go of Allen and sat back down next to the golden eyed man, who snaked an arm around Lavi's shoulders.

Allen stared at the two. This must be who Lenalee was talking about when she said Lavi had a boyfriend, Allen thought as he looked away from them. Its not that he couldn't stand them showing affection for each, it was the fact that he never had anyone show him affection since Mana died four years ago.

Cross certainly didn't show it, some of his co-workers cared but that wasn't enough for Allen and he never had any friends until recently and even then he didn't know if they cared enough. No Allen wanted something more. Someone to love HIM. Like the boy from his memory.

"Look I'm grateful for you saving me and all but where am I?", Allen asked to no one in particular. He just wanted his answers and he was sure they wanted theirs and then maybe he could leave before he got into more trouble then what he was already in.

"Your at mine and Tyki's apartment. We brought you here instead of the hospital because we thought it was better that way and Kanda carried you here.", Lavi said with a wide grin on his face. The man sitting next to Lavi nodded in response. Allen assumed that he was "Tyki". The man with the navy hair is probably Kanda then, Allen thought as he looked towards Kanda who was still staring at Allen.

Allen's eye twitched at Kanda. All night all Kanda did was stare at Allen, never saying anything. It was starting to freak him out. That and he was getting annoyed. God this is taking to long, Allen thought as he rubbed his temples and closed his eyes. His headache growing larger by the minute.

"Thank you for helping me...but-"

"How much did you hear?"

Allen slowly moved his eyes to the sound of the voice. He was surprised when the navy hair man spoke. His voice was deep but it had a soft tone to it, making it hard for Allen to stop staring at him. Allen tried to form words but nothing came out. He was like a fish out of water.

"Excuses me?", Allen said when he finally got over his shock. Kanda smirked at the white haired teen. But it quickly vanished when Lavi turned to look at him.

"I said how much did you hear?"

"Oh...I only heard the parts when you were talking about some Allen guy you knew when you were younger and that you think its me.", Allen said as he un-crossed his legs and leaned on his knees. Hands blocking half his face and all you could see was his piercing silver eyes. Eyes that longed answers.

Kanda looked into those eyes, those sliver starry eyes. They were like the bean sprouts but they seemed to have a sort of lonely, lifeless feeling to them. This sadden kanda a great deal. To know that his love was hurting mad him angry and want to hurt whoever hurt his moyashi.

"And?", He asked silently hoping that his answer was what he wanted. Allen looked at Kanda and sighed.

"And what? That I'm the person your looking for? Sorry but my answer is no...I don't know you, except for a couple of days ago when i accidentally banged into you.", Allen told the occupants of the room, hoping it satisfied them enough so he could leave.

Kanda's heart sank after he heard what Allen said. His head lowered abit, his bangs covering his midnight blue eyes. Lavi noticed this and sighed. He turned to Allen and was about to open his mouth but Allen beat him to it.

"And I don't know you either. I only remember you from a couple of nights ago with a girl named Lenalee. You came to the restaurant where I work and we supposedly became friends. I'm sorry but I really don't know you people.", Allen said as he stood up. Lavi starred at him and sighed.

He didn't know what to do. Now that he looked at the boy, he did remind him of their Allen but only slightly. He watched as the boy left the room and returned with his stuff. Lavi turned his head towards Kanda who was still kinda zoned out.

"Look Kanda maybe he isn't Allen, just sorta looks like him so lets just give this a rest alright?", Lavi said to the navy haired man as he turned towards Allen who looked like he really wanted to leave. "Hey look Allen I'm sorry for tonight. Yuu just really misses his moyashi."

"It's quite alright but I really must go. Thank you for helping me.", Allen said as he bowed and walked towards the door. He put his shoes,jacket and scarf on, grabbed his bag and grabbed the door handle. The three males came to the door to see the white haired teen off. Tyki had his arm around Lavi and Kanda was still in shock. Allen looked towards the males and smiled before turning the door handle.

"I was wrong to think you were my bean sprout...sorry...", Kanda said as he watched the silver eyed boy walk out of the apartment. Allen turned around and smiled at kanda and nodded before turning away. Bean sprout...sounds kinda familiar...., Allen thought as he walked down the hall towards the stairs, Lavi and Kanda were watching him. Allen was about to go down the stairs when a sharp pain went through his head, sending him to his knees holding his splitting head.

"ALLEN!!", Lavi shouted as he and Kanda ran towards the fallen teen who was screaming from the pain.

.....

A brown haired boy was being beaten by some bullies, he was slumped down against the wall. Cuts could be seen across his face as well as a black eye. He was used to this kind of treatment now, he was always being picked on. He always had to endure this kind of treatment from his arm and for his adoptive father being a travelling performer.

But today was the worst. Not ever had he ever been beaten this bad. The kids were laughing at him, teasing him. Calling him a freak. A tear ran down the boy's face and then he started crying. He didn't want to be in pain anymore. Just wanted it to end.

A couple of the boys held the boy down, grabbing him from behind and pressing his face into the ground. Another boy grabbed his hair and held him in place. He could hear them laughing at his pain as their leader walked closer to him. He said something to the other boys and his head was dragged upwards to meet the leaders face.

"Your a freak and a freak should be punished. You disgust me and everyone else in this school, so now were going to teach you what we do to freaks who come to this school. Hold him down.", The boy said as he bent down and grabbed a large rock.

Again his head was shoved down into the dirt. The boy felt like he was getting executed and most likely he was. The boy waited for the blow to come. He could hear the older boy get closer to him, see his feet in front of his face. He closed his eyes tightly and prepared for the blow to come.

"What the hell are you doing?"

The brown haired boy felt a bit of hope form in his soul again. Someone was saving him. He was going to be able to go home to Mana. But then again this boy could want a piece of him as well and that sadden the brown haired boy. The other boys were laughing at the newcomer, their grips tighten on the boy's arms and head.

"What the hell does it look like? Were teaching this freak a lesson and if you don't want one as well i suggest you leave.", The leader said as he walked towards the brown haired boy again and raised the rock. He was about to bring the rock down when the back of his shirt was grabbed and he was thrown backwards. The rock rolled off to the side.

The leader stood up quickly and glared at the older boy who threw him. "What the hell are you doing?!", He yelled as walked towards his group. "Throw him somewhere, knock him unconscious, I don't care! Just help me get rid of this fag!"

The brown haired boy heard the leader yell his orders and he felt someone punch him on his temple and let go of him. The darkness started to slowly take over him and he saw the group of boys start attacking the navy haired kid. He couldn't keep his eyes open. Dark spots were clouding his vision and he could feel something trail down the side of his face.

He slowly closed his eyes. He didn't know how long he had his eyes closed but he could hear shouting and fighting. Someone screamed, another screaming and then many footsteps getting faint with every second. He heaved a sigh of relief as he slowly tried to open his eyes.

He felt a presence next to him as he was struggling to get his eye sight back. Fear rose in his body again. He couldn't take being beaten again, he would surely die this time and he wouldn't be able to go home to Mana. A single tear rolled down his face as he finally looked at the person kneeling next to him.

He felt a hand on his cheek and his eyes grew wide. It was the navy haired kid who helped him out earlier. There wasn't a single scratch or bruise on his body and it made the boy wounder why this kid helped him. A small chuckle came from the older boy, which in turn gave a questioning look from the younger.

"I helped you because i despise people who pick on the weak.", He said flatly. The answer made the boy seem happy but a hint of sadness flash across his silver eyes. He had hoped that this boy had helped him for another reason instead of a personal one.

The brown haired boy suddenly felt a hand around his arm and was yanked into the air. The older boy then put his arm around his neck and started walking. "Tell me where you live so we can get you help.", He said as he walked off the school grounds.

"Oh u-um it's just down the road...T-thank you for helping me!", The brown haired said as he walked with the other. The older boy looked at him and gave a small crooked smirk.

"What's your name bean sprout."

"B-bean sprout?! I'm not a bean sprout! My name is Allen!", The boy named Allen said as he pouted a little.

"Heh Allen hmm...I like bean sprout better. The name is Kanda.", The navy haired male said as they neared Allen's home. Neither knew that this was the start of a long friendship.

.......

"What the hell...was that?", Allen breathed out as he fell to the floor from the amount of pain his head caused. The last thing he heard was his name being called out.

"Allen-chan!"

"Allen!"

So love it? hate it? let me know in a review! even though i left it for a month please give me a review!!!

anyways russia was fantastic! it was sooo warm there and everything was just so extravegant!!

seeya next chapter!