Axel has loved Roxas for years, but when he finally tells him, he doesn't get an answer back. Months later, and Axel still doesn't get an answer, when he tries to talk to Roxas about it. Axel gets shut down, only to have dire consequences. Xion bashing, Organization High school, completely AU. Some swearing, first FF.

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Kingdom Hearts, and if I did I wouldn't be here writing FanFiction. I would be sorting out my own issues with my own Roxas. But I am not brave enough to do that. So I will just write about my issues

A/N – Heyy guys. In my group of friends, we have all taken nicknames corresponding with Organization XIII. I am Axel, my ex (emphasis on the EX) best friend is Xion, my best friend in the whole wide world (other than my Roxas) is Demyx. And of course my, I don't know what to classify him as, love interest, crush, romantic interest, you guys can pick one, is obviously Roxas. And my Roxas sorta has the same features as Roxas, the cute face, blonde hair, and the most gorgeous blue eyes. I just thought I would point that out. Also I am from Australia, so my Christmas holidays, go for six weeks, from the middle of December to the end of January just thought I would point that out to.

OK enjoy reading this, cause someone should.

Chapter 2 – Christmas

Christmas holidays… the only thing I have been looking forward to. Ever since I told Roxas how I feel about him, we haven't talked about it. But things seem different between us, I don't know how to describe it. It's like we are in a relationship, but not. I just wish the pain in my chest would stop, not knowing what he thinks about me, whether he feels the same way, its tearing me up inside. But I haven't got the time to deal with that at the moment.

Demyx has been having issues at home, his dad has been a complete fuck wit and he hasn't been at home lately. He is trying to organise place to stay, cause when he goes home it ends up in a fight. But he refuses to leave his little brother, who I call Demyx Jr. at home alone with him. I just hope it gets better. But for now I wait for the holidays, I already know what I am going to get for Roxas and I am going to get Dem's present soon. I love Christmas, it's one of my favourite times of the year.

"Axel… what are you staring at?" Roxas' voice brings me out of my thoughts. Whenever I look into his eyes, I am lost, the colour, the way they are and they're one of the things I love the most about him. Unfortunately it gets kinda weird when you are staring into someone's eyes for a long period of time.

"Ah, hey Roxas, I'm just thinking. How are you?" I just keep trying to not look into his eyes.

"I'm good. Although I do have something for you." I whip my head around fast, he has a gift for me. He knows what I am getting him, I had to check he didn't already have it, but no matter how much I would ask and annoy him he wouldn't tell me what he was getting me.

I look at him when he pulls a present out of his bag and hands it to me, "Merry Christmas Axel" "Thanks." I say when I look at him. I open it and see a gift card for my favourite gaming shop, a box of chocolates and a little plastic zip-lock bag. I look at the bag and in it there is a necklace and a bracelet. I open it and look at them closer; on each of them it had an A.

"Ahhh look at that, Roxas got Axel jewellery. That's so cute." Demyx looked at me, and I looked at him through clenched teeth. I turned to face Roxas and say thanks and that they were really nice, and that I loved them. I gave him a hug that I may have held for a little longer than can be considered as a friendly 'thank-you' hug. But hey, if you want fucking sue me. The dude isn't the type of person to be giving hugs at random like me. The bell rings and I let go of him, we start heading off to maths.

"Fuck of Demyx, just cause he got me a nice necklace and a bracelet doesn't mean shit."

"But you want it to mean something, don't you?"

"As I just told you Demyx. !"

Walking through the corridors with Demyx constantly pissing me off was not on my list of things to do at school today. When I hear someone walking behind me I am praying to god that it is not Roxas, I don't want him to hear my argument with Demyx. As I turn around I see it isn't Roxas, but Namine. FUCK. There is one problem with Demyx, Namine and me; we cannot keep one fucking secret from each other. True to my suspicions, I can hear Demyx telling Namine to ask me what Roxas got me for Christmas; all my thoughts were saying please fucking respect my privacy. But of course not, as much as I love these two, nothing is sacred between us. For god fucking damn it!

"So Axel. What did Roxas get you for Christmas?"

"Fuck Namine, can you not sneak up on me like that. One day I will fucking strike back, and trust me it will not end well for you. And you already know what I got for Christmas of Roxas, I am not deaf I could hear you talking to Demyx."

"OH yeah, sorry. But I think it's really cute that he got you jewellery as a present, maybe he does like you. You should talk to him about it, he already knows how you feel so it's about time he told you how he feels."

Placing one arm around her shoulders and giving her a one armed hug I thank her, however much she and Demyx annoy me sometimes they are like my brother and sister. I just hope that everything works out for the best, not only with Roxas, but with Demyx and Demyx Jr. and how his dad is treating them at home. I hope it doesn't get any worse.

By the time we get to maths, Demyx has tortured me about my present a total of 60 times, yes I was counting, come on its maths why should I do my work, my teacher I a dumbass anyway. He should not be teaching the top maths class. But how I am in the top maths class is astounding.

The rest of the day goes much of the same, Demyx annoying me, Namine trying to get him to stop, ohh and my annoyance for Xion skyrockets when she tries to talk to me, as much as I hate her I am not going to be purposely rude, so I HAVE to talk to her. I think she is noticing how much she annoys me, because after a couple of short questions and even shorter answers from me, she walks off and leaves me alone for the rest of the day. YES thank-god.

TBC…

A/N: Sorry if this chapter is short. They will start to get longer, promise. OK guys as I have told you, this story is really close to me and I will not upload the next chapter until I get at least 6 reviews. Please…

On another note, I am sorry if the excessive amount of swearing in this chapter offends anyone but I swear, like a lot. If swearing offends you then I suggest that you get over it if you want to read this cause there is going to be a lot of swearing.

On a better note, I have to thank all the people that have reviewed or added this story to their favourites or alerts. It makes me feel loved that people want to read my story.

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