AN – just a note, I may change the rating back to M later on, I'm just not sure about that part of the story later on.

Anyway, please keep the reviews coming, I LOVE reading all of them, and I get super excited every time one pops up, please leave one if you can, tell me how I'm doing or if you are just plain enjoying it so far, suggestions are welcome even though I have a pretty solid outline for the story. FF subscription alerts a exciting, reviews are more exciting.

I noticed a few grammatical errors in the last chapters, and I apologize (insert apologetic bow here) Word processor seems to like to choose "better" words when I type.

For all the faint of heart, I warn you again this is an ANGSTY story, I hope to have you all bawling, lol, well I hope it is a successful enough story to make you feel it. There is still a ways to go with the outline, don't worry the story won't be ending soon.

On with the show!

Emily's POV

The case that came in was urgent, what case wasn't, however this one was simple enough. An unsub in the DC area was kidnapping women and was bludgeoning them to death. There had been 3 victims so far in a span of 2 months. All 3 were female, Caucasian early to mid 30's. It was easy enough tracking him down. He was sloppy, the only reason the local PD even called us was for our resources, and it was close enough to Quantico that would we could offer up our help without it costing too much of the taxpayers dollars.

The case couldn't have come at a better time. I've literally been burning out the past 3 months with trying to make it seem like nothing was getting to me. The news of JJ's pregnancy had tipped me over the edge. Not that I couldn't handle myself, but I could feel it in my body, I was physically exhausted. I just needed a break from all of this, JJ going on maternity leave is maybe just what I needed, even though I wasn't the least bit happy about the situation.

It wasn't hard to convince myself that this was truly the end of any chance for me. When I thought about it, my mind would just tell me 'did you expect any less? Its what you have been telling yourself the last 3 months, you really shouldn't be surprised. You've got a job to do. You make everyone else safer and happier, and she belongs in the same lot with the rest of them.'

'You were meant to do what you are good at and nothing else. A talented and successful daughter to show off at your mother's political functions, a CIA agents who spent years of her life undercover pretending to be someone else for the benefit of her country, and now a friend and colleague to lean on. You can only rely on yourself' I remembered the mantra I used to tell myself when I was younger, when I had no one else, 'You can only rely on yourself' when my mother was busy with her political career to be a mom, when I was undercover, not knowing when the whole operation could go downhill, and now, when I finally thought I was somewhere where I could be myself.

Things never changed, and I SHOULDN'T have expected any less.

We were on route to the suspected unsubs address. Just comparing the victims physical traits, we had suspected a male who had been bludgeoning women who resembled his ex-girlfriend. It was as simple as announcing the geographical and unsub profile to the public. His ex-girlfriend had called the tip line expressing how much the profile fit her stalker ex-boyfriend.

I was sitting alone in the back of the SUV with JJ in the front passenger seat and Morgan driving as usual. It was a quiet ride as the sirens blared and we made the 15 min drive across the city, I risked a glance at JJ, everyone had their game faces on, obviously focused at the task at hand.

Closing my eyes, I unconsciously licked my lips, breathed out and cleared my mind. 'Stop thinking, get the job done, go home, and get some rest'. When I opened my eyes we were arriving on site. We had arrived ahead of Reid, Rossi and Hotch. With it being only one unsub Hotch gave the go ahead over the radio to breach.

Morgan naturally took full control of the situation. "I'll take the back, you and JJ take the front", he hastily ran around the side of the house as me and JJ approached the front steps. I took the lead unholstering my glock and pointing it slightly downwards at the front door as we waited for the signal from Morgan through our earpieces.

"Steady, quick and clean, we should all be back before dinner" Morgan said, I could see him smirking in my mind "GO!" I smashed the window of the door with my elbow, reached in, unlocked the pad and turned the doorknob, it was open in one swift motion.

Firearms at the ready, I saw Morgan across the main hallway, he nodded and started to clear the back area of the house. I quickly checked the top of the staircase just to the right of me, then I scanned both sides before going right, in response JJ moved left as she followed me inside. I waited for her to clear the one room behind me as I scanned the foyer area in front of me. I felt the tap on my shoulder indicating that she had cleared what seemed to be the family room.

I slowly moved forward noticing a decorative mirror on the far wall as I came closer to the French doors to the dining room, I saw a flash of movement in the reflection of the mirror from the left corner. I ducked down quickly as a bat smashed through the glass and felt the air swoosh over my head. A burly man kicked the rest of what was the doors out of the way as he stomped towards us.

I scrambled backwards blindly bumping into JJ's standing form. She fired a shot, it hit the him in the shoulder, surprisingly he seemed unfazed by it. He was already winding up for another swing, my adrenaline was pumping, my body reacted purely on reflexes. "Watch out!" I scream at JJ as I somehow lunged up and pushed her out of the way, the bat smashed into the front door.

As I blinked I saw her frantically trying to prop her upper body up, I started to turn around, half sprawled on the floor, it was too late, he was already set up for another swing. The last thing I heard was the swoosh of the air being cut by the bat, a flash of pain and then everything went black.

JJ's POV

I felt Emily push me over away from the unsubs direction, falling over on my side. I scrambled to recover myself, turning over on my back just in time to see Emily turn towards the him. A deafening crack sounding in the air as the bat made contact with her head, her body instantly going limp. The unsub quickly placing his eyes on me, readying for a downwards swing as I saw the bat coming up over his head, my hands wavered momentarily as I brought my left hand to level my right. Holding my pistol up, setting my sights, I pulled the trigger.

BANG

I watched the suspect flinch, I hit him dead straight on the head. The reflection in his eyes disappearing as he slowly fell backwards, a trickle of red streaming down his face. I blinked a few times, realizing I was holding my breath. I breathed in quickly as my eyes drifted to the body a few feet away from me. I saw a streak of blood splattered across the floor and I starred disbelievingly at Emily's unmoving form.

"no… no, no, NO… EMILY!" I screamed as I frantically crawled up to her. There was a pool of blood growing on the floor around her head. "Emily! EMILY!"