After the trauma of the previous day, i didn't sleep well yet again. I probably looked like a zombie. Extremely attractive i should think. i looked at my watch and saw it was now seven, i groaned and rolled out of bed, i greeted Lissa who was already up and doing her hair,

'Woah you look like a bloody blast ended skrewt on a bad day' she said

'and that makes me feel so much better, i haven't been able to sleep for two nights' i explained, beginning to do my hair too,

'why not?' she asked looking at me curiously

'because when i fall asleep i dream that i'm being murdered horribly' i explained as if it was nothing.

'just hit him over the head with a spoon, or a dragon' she said putting her cloak on

'in the dream or in reality?' i wondered out loud grabbing my cloak and draping it over my arm, i grabbed my bag.

'i dont know, both?' she said walking out of the door, i followed slowly.

'Lissa i need a date for this party' i said as we descended the many stairs to the great hall

'why not ask Regulus, he's pretty good looking, and it may make Sirius jealous' Lissa said turning to me with a massive grin

'I've given up on sirius, Lissa, there is no way he would ever like me, and the one time i get my hopes up it turns out it was all just a laugh' i said with a sigh

'But you're you, you can't even talk in front of him without stuttering or breaking something, or even endangering your life' she said seriously. i grunted. We walked into the crowded great hall, i turned to Lissa.

'I have to give him his wand back, be right back' i said as i took a diversion to where i could see the marauders sitting at the gryffindor table. i took in a long deep breath and stood in front of Sirius.

'Your wand, sirius' i snarled, his wand clattered infront of him, and he stared at it, I turned and walked back to the Ravenclaw table. Once seated i let out the breath i was holding.

'Holy house elf' Lissa said incredulously, 'Were you seriously just normal in front of Sirius black?'

'i think i was' i replied

i looked over to the gryffindor table to see all four marauders staring at me, I turned away and picked up a piece of toast, took a bite, Lissa nudged me.

'James is pointing his wand at you!' she said urgently, i looked up just as the spell hit me, i jolted up yet again into the air by my ankle, only problem was the fact i had had a mouthful of toast, and it was now lodged in my throat, i couldn't breath, brilliant i was dying, i knew it. i was going to die and i had yet to get over Sirius, i tried to cough, but i couldn't, oh Merlin why am i not panicking!

'Freya? why are you turning blue?'

and brilliant i'm looking like a smurf too. There was a shout, no two shouts from the Gryffindor table

'James let her down!' Remus said in a panicked voice

'no' James said, he was looking at his breakfast not even looking up, my vision began to blur

'but she's choking!' Sirius yelled shaking James, James looked up and something flicked in his eyes, Lissa had run to the teachers table. Black dots were floating in front of my eyes, i tried to swat them away before i realised that they were in my actual eyes, Everyone was silently watching me, James stood up pointed his wand at me and i fell to the floor and heard three sets off feet run from the gryffindor table, then everything went black.

I opened my eyes and immediately shut them wincing as i did so, my body ached and my throat was burning as i breathed, I opened my eyes again slowly, Who knew light was so bright?

'Ah Miss Griffin, you're awake' drifted over the voice of Madam Pomfrey, i groaned, i didn't think i could talk to much, my throat was like it was on fire'Here, a glass of water should help' she handed me some water and i gulped it down, my throat still hurt, but it was better. I looked around and saw that i was in the Hospital wing.

'thanks' i croaked, i sat up. as i did so the bell rang.

'Now you may leave after i give you this potion, you fell onto the bench and you have some rather large bruises, this should stop them hurting too much' she said handing me a bright blue potion.

'It's quite pretty really isn't it?' i said, and i could have sworn i heard madam Pomfrey mutter

'Mental that one' as she returned to her room.

i gulped down the potion. Then the door burst open as Lissa and Jake sprinted in, i looked at them.

'Oh Merlin! Freya, i thought you were dying' Lissa said hugging me, i hugged her back,

'i think i was, actually i thought i did' i said truthfully

'What was potter bloody playing at' Jake said outraged

'It's all because i ruined there prank' i said with a sigh

'Morons' Lissa hissed

'So what lesson do we have?' i asked grabbing my cloak from the end of the bed,

'you two have care of magical creatures, i have history of magic' Lissa replied, i nodded and stood up. We walked out of the Hospital wing, and then said good-bye to Lissa as she went to History of magic, i looked at Jake.

'So whats going on between you and Lissa?' i asked him, he turned slightly pink.

'Nothing' he said, as we began to walk into the clock tower

'Do you want there to be something?' i continued, he went redder

'Maybe' he said after a few minutes, i squealed and jumped up and down before realising we were on the bridge, i stopped as it creaked slightly, we walked down the hill,

'You going to ask her out?' i asked him

'I don't think she will like me like that' he explained

'why not?' i persisted, he sighed

'We've been friends since first year, she thinks of me as a friend nothing more, it kills me to be around her all the time and not be able to tell her how i feel' he said sadly, i think there maybe something wrong with me, my eyes began to leak, oh wait i'm crying from how sweet Jake is.

'You're crying, Freya' he said concerned

'That is the sweetest thing i've ever heard' i sniffed, we were now merging with the rest of the class, i wiped my eyes

'Well, its just the truth' he mumbled back

'I'll talk to her, not about how you feel' i said as he opened his mouth to protest 'No, about boys and see if she likes you or if she ever could, i'll report back' i explained

'Err, ok thanks' he replied hesitantly, i just nodded before looking to the front of the class.

For the last four days i have been avoiding Sirius Black and James Potter, i don't want to see either of them, i spoke to Lissa one night about boys, but she wouldn't let anything slip, again i haven't slept since i was unconscious, which can't be good. So it's Friday, i have announced a quidditch practice, it's all going pretty well, our first match is in two weeks against slytherin, i'm hopeful. but right now, i'm on my way to my death, i mean Herbology.

'Freya, wait up!' i heard James call, wait, why did he want to talk to me for, he almost killed me, i carried on walking

'FREYA' oh god, Sirius Black, i walked faster

'oi, Yappy please wait up' i choked on air, had James really just called me Yappy? like when we were children. Sirius chuckled

'Did you just call her Yappy?' he asked James, the greenhouses were getting nearer,

'No, yes, no' James said quickly

'Why?' sirius asked holding in a laugh

'It was her nickname' james said sadly

'Yeah was, i'd like it to stay that way' i growled at him and then walked into the greenhouse, and over to Sam

'Hey, Sam. How is it going?' i asked her trying to ignore the fact that Sirius and James were lowering themselves into the seats opposite us again.

'Yeah its good, i got on the hufflepuff quidditch team, so we will be playing against eachother, hows everything with you?' she asked

'Eh, i haven't slept in four days, i think the only reason i'm still alive is because i've drugged myself up on sugar, and apart from that i'm good'

'thats good' she replied getting out her book, i just picked my book out of my bag and dropped it onto the desk.

'Yappy pl-' James began

'Don't call me that' i hissed at him. he sighed and placed his head in his hands and watched as the others came into the classroom. i stared at the ceiling, aside from james the only people who ever called me Yappy was Mum and Dad, but since Mum's death dad hasn't talked much, and just calls me Freya, i don't really like people to know my nickname anymore, not even Lissa or Jake know, every time i hear it, it is like a reminder, of a life i can never get back, of the old me. i came out of my daydream when Sam poked me and pointed to Professor Sprout who had just walked into the greenhouse.

I rested my head on the table, I wasn't in the mood to be mauled by a seemingly innocent plant today.

'Venomous Tentacula' Professor Sprout called out to us, i just mumbled into my sleve a few choice swearwords, sam kicked me, i winced and glared at her from the desk.

'Today i would like you to examine the plants, and draw a labelled diagram of it, once that is completed i would like a ten inch essay on its uses'

'Oh thank God' i said muffled into my arms, Sam chuckled, the plant was placed in the middle of our desk, we each got out a piece of parchment, and i went into my bag for a quill.

when i returned to the desk i saw i had two notes sitting ontop of my parchment, i frowned and opened one of them, i read it

'I'm sorry about going to lock you in the shreiking shack and everything, now where did you go after we chased you? Sirius' i sighed and turned the note over and wrote on the back

'We went somewhere, it's a place me and Lissa like to hang out, now i thought i said i didn't want to talk again...'

i threw the note and it bounced off his head and onto the floor half way across the room, i snorted and looked at the other note, i opened it.

'I'm really sorry, i never meant to choke you, its just, when we stopped talking it hurt, You were like a sister to me, and the day you said you didn't want to see me, well i felt like i'd lost a sister. I'm sorry about all the times i hurt you, it was my way of dealing with the pain of loosing a sister, I shouldn't have pranked you so much, but it hurt so bad, i'm sorry, James'

i picked up my quill as Sirius sat down and read the note, i looked at james who was looking at the red leafed devil of a plant, and wrote

'Well i lost a family that day' i threw it at him and it hit his head too and bounced into his lap, as one hit me in the face, i caught it before it hit the floor.

'So, Griffin, going to the slug party with anyone?, S'

'Not yet, F' i replied throwing the note at his pencil, it smudged slightly and i smiled to myslelf, Sam just rolled her eyes, the paper hit me in the eye whan i wasn't expecting it to and i fell sideways off my chair, my hand over my eye, wincing in pain for about five minutes, before reading the note that had come

'Want to take me? S' i growled and wrote back

'Not really, F' Yes so badly, why can you not see that i like you? i pelted the note over his shoulder in annoyance but James caught it and handed it to Sirius, Damn his Chaser abilities, he rolled the note back over

'Come on you know you want to, S' i sighed, getting over him is working like a charm, not...

'it's only because James is going and you want to aswell, F' if only it weren't true... i didn't get a reply from Sirius, i did from James however.

'What do you mean you lost a family?'

'I mean what i said' i replied throwing the note on his half completed essay before i stood up and left as the bell rang, i hadn't even started my diagram or essay...