A/N – hey sorry for being gone for so long, I hope there are people who are still going to read this and didn't just leave because I took too long to post. I kind of hit a bump in the story and ended up putting it on the backburner, I still have solid plans for this story but I also have unplanned ones as well T_T.

THANK YOU for your patience, I am back in school now and can't promise regular updates, but I am determined to not give up. ^_^

JJ POV

The couple of weeks leading to the delivery was awkward, Will offered to stay around until the baby was born, he continued to stay at my house but we lived together more like roommates than a couple, he said he still wanted to somehow be a part of his child's life, part of me was grateful for this. As we had come closer to the delivery date he adapted to the situation and just focused on the baby, our friendship grew even stronger if anything.

The baby arrived early, but my son was healthy and beautiful and I was one day away from full recovery. Will was in the process of getting his life back home, he said he was offered his old job back and was trying to settle other matters before moving back. Maybe it was the fact that I was the one bearing that child that made him second guess the gravity of the situation, sometimes I suspected that he was almost trying to win me back. Either way I was glad that the awkwardness subsided.

My parents came down and were disappointed by the situation, but soon forgot about the dilemma the moment they saw their grandson. Thankfully they offered to help take care of Henry as well. Being retired had its benefits for being able to up and leave for an extended amount of time.

It was midday and I lay restless in the hospital bed starring out the window. Hearing the door open I averted my head to the visitor. "Hey," Will half-heartedly walked into the room, a forced smile on his face as he approached my bedside. He shifted awkwardly on the balls of his feet. "How are you feeling?" I genuinely smiled back, "I'm doing good, getting rested", "…I got this for you" he pulled a small velvet box out of his jacket pocket "…even though we aren't together anymore, I hoped you would wear it, I believe Henry is still a product of a love we once had" he sounded a little unsure about his last statement however I nodded encouragingly at it.

Accepting the outreached box I slowly opened it, it was a ring, simple in design with an orange coloured stone. "It's citrine, Henry's birthstone I have one too" I glanced at his hand to see a more masculine designed ring with the same stone. "Will… thank you….for everything…for understanding" he responded quickly "I'm still a little hurt over it, but it wouldn't be fair to either of us in the long run, I see that now…a part of me will always love you JJ" he drawled with his

southern accent. I took his hand as I reciprocated the feelings in silent agreement.

He stayed around the rest of the day and we talked of our plans for the next step after all of this. He made sure to help get me anything I needed throughout the day. Doctors and nurses came in to check on me, and we spent the good amount of the day with Henry, my parents; after visiting took most of the day to settle down at my place.

The next two days were the same, it was like the breakup had not happened between me and Will, and I almost even forgot about the BAU at times, I didn't realize that Henry would have such an effect on me, I didn't realize how much I wanted this child, I fell completely in love with him, we share a connection, a bond only a mother would have with their child.

It wasn't until Garcia showed up with the Derek and Spencer that a large feeling of conflict hit me. On one hand I had Henry and my parents and to an extent a friend in Will, and on the other I had my family at the BAU, which I had felt slightly guilty for not calling the past couple days. I was disappointed to not see Emily with the crowd. However I didn't have much time to think about that as a rush of concerns started to make their way in my mind. I was still to be on maternity leave for another couple months before coming back to the BAU, I would have to organize time for Henry, eventually a babysitter and then eventually daycare when he got old enough.

I was brought back as I looked at my 'family' holding Henry, he had all their attention it seemed. Leaning back I tried to relax as they took turns holding him and talking to him. Will had excused himself at some point when the gang had entered, more than likely to take a break and make some space in the room. I sadly smiled as I realized how much they didn't know about what was happening with me, my mind ran a mile a minute as I debated on whether I should tell them now…probably not.

Penelope seemed to notice my silence and sat on the edge of the bed as Derek and Spencer argued about which university was best for Henry to go to. "Hey, how are you doing?" Penelope looked at me with genuine concern. I forced a smile back, sighing I replied back "You know… alright. How are you guys holding up without me? Are you missing me yet?" I was intensely curious and almost insecure about what the answer may be. "Of course we miss you! I think Jordan can't wait for you to come back, not that she isn't doing a decent job holding down the fort, but she's admitted on more than one occasion about how godly your skills must be to do your job" she smiled back assuring me of her words. I couldn't help but smile wider at this comment. "Where's everyone else?" of course I meant Emily, it was understandable that Hotch was probably busy with Jack, and Rossi was probably taking advantage of what time off he could get at his cabin. "We finally got the day off after quite a few back to back cases. Both Hotch and Rossi hurried home of course, Emily offered to help Jordan with some backed up paperwork,…" I couldn't help but feel a pang of jealousy, Penelope had continued to say something else, but I didn't hear it.

Seconds after however the little debate that was happening between Spencer and Derek seemed to have increased in decibals as Penelope suddenly joined in the screaming match. The last thoughts in my mind dissipated as I watched and smiled silently at the scene in front of me.

A/N - Sorry the chapter wasn't groundbreaking in the story, but I FINALLY got past this point ^_^. I'll try to update before school goes on break, if not look forward to seeing more during the holidays at least.