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Chapter 8.

Santana was also lying sleepless on top of the covers on her bed. She had one arm tucked behind her neck and the other draped over her stomach. So many feelings were running through her body and the more she thought about what had happened between them the more messed up the whole situation felt. She knew she had to do something, they were kind of stuck together for another couple of days. Sure Santana had her car so technically she could leave whenever but how would her leaving solve anything? It would probably have the opposite effect and confuse things even more. She sat up and put her feet on the floor and rubbed her hands over her face. Sighing she got up and walked over to the window and gazed out over the lake. The light from the moon reflected down on the dark water and gave the lake a somewhat mysterious glow. It was beautiful... so was Brittany... God she was so beautiful, and sweet and funny and...

"Perfect..." Santana said softly.

She's perfect for me... She's everything I've ever been looking for and she makes me feel things I've never felt before... She's also taken... She has a fiance and is getting married but when she kissed me... Oh God when she kissed me... I know she felt something too...

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Brittany was still lying in bed very much awake when her phone suddenly beeped. Her heart started to beat faster before she even picked it up. She knew it was Santana. She reached for the phone and swallowed hard when she saw she had one new message from Santana Lopez. The intense pounding in her chest echoed in her ears and she threw the phone down on the bed. This wasn't something she was ready to deal with now, no definitely not! Still, a minute later she picked up the phone again and read the message:

Are you awake?

She read those three words over and over again. Then typed back:

Yes.

Santana stared at the phone.

She's awake... Of course she's awake... What do I say next? Gah! Here I was, just a few hours ago, complaining about how my mother always does things before she thinks them through...

She cursed her own stupidity but since she'd made the first move, obviously without thinking about the second, she would have to push through.

So what do I tell her? The truth or what I think she would want me to say?...

Brittany waited impatiently for another message. It was like time stood still. After five very long minutes her phone beeped again:

I know it's wrong in every way but I can't stop thinking about it...

She didn't need to specify 'it', they were both very aware of what she was referring to.
Brittany didn't know how to respond to that. She sat with the phone in her hand and started to reply an answer but then deleted it.

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Santana's heart was beating really fast when she sat with her phone clutched in her hand. Her heart skipped a beat when it suddenly beeped indicating she had a new message.

I can't stop thinking about it either...

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Brittany thought her heart would jump out of her chest at any second, either that or she would have a heart attack because it could not be healthy for the heart to be beating like this. She couldn't believe that she'd just sent that text back to Santana, that she couldn't stop thinking about the kiss either. Well it was definitely true but was it so wise to go there? She could very easily have sent something completely different, a lie. Why didn't she make something up or write that she was tired and that they could talk tomorrow? Why oh why did she write and send that she couldn't stop thinking about it either? Could she actually deal with this tonight? She really had no idea but since they would have to spend the next day together with Santana's mom they had to figure something out. Being all awkward around each other when Anita was present would not go by unnoticed and she was not ready to deal with that.

Her phone beeped again.

I really need to talk to you. Can you come down to the boathouse? Please?

If her heart wasn't beating fast before it sure as hell was now.

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Santana was fidgeting, she was wandering back and forth and her hands were playing with the hem of her t-shirt. She was so nervous and quite frankly scared to death. She had no idea what she was going to say when Brittany came, if she would actually show up...

She must be freaking out, I'm freaking out...

One minute turned to five, fifteen minutes turned to half an hour and Brittany hadn't showed up.

She's not coming... I should have realized that... God what do I do?... she stood by the window and dragged her hands through her hair when the squeaking of the old wooden door caught her attention and she spun around.

"You came... I didn't think you would..." she said softly.

Brittany met her eyes for a split second than had to look away.

"Yeah... I didn't think I would either but then..." the blonde slowly looked up and met Santana's eyes.

They looked at each other for a long time, both could see confusion and something else in the other's eyes. Santana was the first to break the silence.

"You kissed me..." she said softly, that was definitely not what she'd planned to say, it just came out.

Before Santana's mind had registered what she was doing she'd taken a small step closer to the other woman who was still frozen to the spot by the door.

Brittany looked down. So many thoughts were running through her mind and not one of them made any sense. She didn't know what to say, yes I kissed you and it was amazing and all I can think about is kissing you again. No she couldn't say that, she wasn't brave enough to say that. She looked up again and instantly met Santana's warm brown gaze. She was slowly closing the distance between them and Brittany was so nervous she could hardly breathe.

Santana couldn't stop moving closer to the blonde, she was drawn to her, she wanted to touch her, to feel her close... She stopped right before she would invade the blonde's personal space and continued gazing at her. She could tell the blonde was nervous, she was breathing short and rapidly and her chest was heaving. Santana slowly raised her right hand and softly touched the side of Brittany's face with her fingertips. The blonde closed her eyes at the touch and Santana moved closer tilting her head forward until her forehead touched Brittany's.

Brittany thought she would faint, she couldn't feel this way...she couldn't... When Santana's nose gently brushed against her own and her lips were trying to seek out Brittany's again she pushed the other woman away gently and walked pass her over to the window.

She rubbed her hands over her face trying desperately to make sense out of something. She shouldn't be here, she had a fiance who was a great guy and she was getting married... She shouldn't be here... but she didn't want to leave...

Santana observed the blonde for a minute then slowly walked over to her, coming up behind her she tentatively put her hands on Brittany's waist and slowly leant down to nuzzle her nose against her shoulder. Santana had no idea what she was doing, it was as if all rational thoughts had vaporized the second Brittany walked into the boathouse. Santana placed another soft kiss on the side of Brittany's neck and that made the blonde's whole body shiver and she could feel goose bumps all over her arms. Her eyes closed involuntary and she breathed heavily.

"Santana please... We can't do this...we shouldn't do this... we..." she whispered and stepped out of Santana's embrace.

Taking a step back she turned and looked at the brunette.

"Our parents are going to get married and we'll be sisters, well stepsisters, and I'm getting married, we shouldn't-"

Santana didn't buy that excuse for one minute, she knew there was something between them, she could feel it. She took a step closer.

"I don't want us to be referred to as 'sisters' because everything about that sounds wrong, and I don't think you want that either... " she challenged.

Brittany didn't speak but the answer was written all over her face.

"You kissed me Brittany..." she continued and took another step closer.

Brittany swallowed hard but still didn't say anything so Santana continued talking.

"I know we've just known each other for a couple of days and that this is absolutely crazy but ever since last weekend, since the engagement party... I haven't been able to stop thinking about you..." she whispered the last past and moved even closer, definitely invading the blonde's personal space.

"I think about you all the time, you're the last thing on my mind when I go to sleep at night and the first thing I think about when I open my eyes and when I sleep I dream about you..." she raised her hand and touched Brittany's face gently as she looked deep into her blue eyes, seeing what she was feeling mirrored in those deep blue orbs.

Brittany could feel Santana's breath coming out in small puffs on her face and suddenly her heart raced even more, how that even was possible she had no idea. The way Santana looked at her made all her defenses come tumbling down and before she realized what she was doing she closed the small distance between them. When Santana's lips touched hers for the second time it was like everything fell into place. She knew somewhere in the back of her mind that later she would deny ever confessing to that but right now all she could feel was Santana's lips moving together with hers and then, nothing else mattered.

Santana cupped her face with both hands and pulled her in even closer. Tilting her head to the side she deepened the kiss, flicking the tip of her tongue against Brittany's upper lip and was instantly met with Brittany's warm soft tongue that desperately searched out hers. Santana moved her hands down from Brittany's face and slowly down the front, squeezing her breasts lightly as she passed. The blonde gasped at the brief touch and instantly craved more. Santana was on fire, she had never felt like this before and she couldn't get enough of the woman in her arms. She moved her hands under the hem of Brittany's hoodie and then under her t-shirt and moved quickly up her torso till she reached her goal. Santana was surprised to find that the blonde wasn't wearing a bra and moaned into Brittany's mouth when her hands touched bare skin.

When Santana's hands cupped her naked breasts, Brittany had to pull away from Santana's amazing lips to catch her breath. Santana grazed her thumbs over Brittany's erect nipples and started to place open mouth kisses on her jaw and then down to her neck where she started to suck on the soft skin. Brittany gasped and took hold of Santana's waist, grasping it tightly. Santana removed her hands and Brittany instantly missed the contact but before she knew what was happening Santana had pulled the hoodie and t-shirt over her head and her mouth was now sucking and licking on Brittany's right nipple. The sensation that filled her body was something the blonde had never experienced before and she'd never in her life been more turned on.

She tried to focus a little, which was extremely hard when Santana's mouth moved to her other breast to give it the same attention. She moved her hands to Santana's hair and pulled her up so she could kiss her again. She pushed her tongue inside Santana's mouth and moaned when Santana's tongue once again found hers. Santana moved one hand to the back of Brittany's neck and the other found her breast again. The blonde fumbled with Santana's t-shirt, wanting it off which Santana noticed and raised her arms to assist. Brittany grabbed the hem of Santana's t-shirt and pulled it over her head and threw the garment on the floor before capturing her lips again. Nervous hands then fumbled with the clasp on Santana's bra and just as Santana was about to assist the blonde succeeded with her mission and slowly pulled the straps down Santana's shoulders until the item fell to the floor.

Santana wrapped her arms around the blonde and pulled their bodies together, she gasped when Brittany's naked chest collided with her own and when their breasts came together Santana didn't know how much more she could take. Turning them slightly she maneuvered them over to the bed, never breaking the kiss that had now escalated into a passionate frenzy. When they reached the bed she lowered Brittany down gently and then covered her body with her own. She kissed the side of her mouth, then her jaw and down to her neck where she sucked and nibbled on the soft skin before she reached Brittany's shoulder where she accidentally left a distinct mark. Maybe that wasn't the most brilliant idea but she really wasn't thinking clearly.

Leaving her shoulder she trailed kisses down her collarbone and then down her chest where she kissed and licked around each nipple before she continued down, kissing Brittany's flat stomach. Looking up she saw the blonde's chest rise and fall with each breath. She grabbed the hem of Brittany's sweat pants and pulled them down her body along with her underwear. Moving back up, she found Brittany's mouth again and kissed her passionately before trailing kisses down her body again.

Brittany was panting violently when Santana's tongue found the wetness between her legs. She grasped the bed sheets and opened her legs wider when she felt the tip of Santana's tongue swirl around her clit and then move down between her folds. Gasping loudly she arched her back and threw her head back at the sensation Santana was giving her.

Santana kissed her way up Brittany's body again, replacing her tongue with her fingers. She just had to kiss her. Brittany moaned into Santana's mouth when she felt Santana slip inside her. Using two fingers she moved in and out of the blonde's core rubbing her clit with the palm of her hand with each stroke. Brittany was so close but she wanted Santana to feel what she was feeling. Reaching down she slipped her hand inside Santana's shorts. She had no idea what she was doing but she found Santana's most sensitive spot and started to rub small circles over the harden nub. Judging from the sound Santana was making she was doing something right, it was hard to focus when Santana's fingers were working inside her and she knew she wouldn't last long.

Santana had a hard time focusing when Brittany touched her like this but she continued to thrust her fingers in and out of Brittany's wet core while she was rocking her own hips hard against Brittany's hand. Feeling her own orgasm starting to build up she picked up the pace and suddenly the blonde's walls tightened around her fingers and she heard her gasp heavily. Seconds later Santana slumped down on top of the blonde as her own orgasm rushed through her. She was panting against Brittany's neck while she placed small open mouth kisses on her skin. Brittany had her eyes closed as she tried to compose herself. She gasped when Santana slowly pulled her fingers out of her core. The brunette continued to place soft kisses along Brittany's jaw and up to the corner of her mouth. She smiled against Brittany's skin when the blonde wrapped her arms around her and held her tight.

After a while of just holding each other they rearranged their positions so Santana was lying behind Brittany with an arm draped over the blonde's stomach, Brittany slowly reached for her hand before they both fell asleep completely spent.