A/N
Thank you so much for all reviews, you guys seriously blow me away! Sorry I haven't replied personally to you on these past two chapters, I've been super busy with school stuff. I'll try to find some time cause I really want to reply personally. With that said, on with the story :)
Rating and disclaimer from the first chapter apply.
Chapter 12.
The closer she got to the big city the more she questioned her own sanity. Had she even thought this through? No she hadn't and she didn't even know where Santana lived. Chicago isn't exactly a small town, how in the hell would she find the woman? She picked up her phone and scrolled down her phone book until she found the number she was looking for. Putting the device against her ear she waited nervously until finally there was a voice answering on the other side of the line.
"Hello?"
"Anita, it's Brittany. Are you alone?" she asked nervously.
"Brittany? Yes, I'm alone. Believe it or not, Jack fixed the boat so he and Nathan have been out fishing the entire afternoon. They came back a while ago with a 4 lb bass which they are now preparing for dinner." Anita said then added:
"Are you okay?"
"Uhm... I don't know what I'm doing... I'm a few miles outside of Chicago and before you ask, no I haven't thought this through but I have to see her..."Brittany answered.
Anita smiled on the other side of the line, she didn't want to say anything to the blonde when they talked earlier but she could see in Brittany's eyes what she felt for her daughter.
"I see... well, I'd be lying if I say I didn't see this coming, but are you really sure about this? I think you need to be really sure Brittany cause I don't think Santana could take another rejection from you. Now I don't know exactly what happened between you two, but I think I have a pretty good guess and though I want you to hear this from Santana I have to tell you this; her feelings for you are very strong. I know you feel something for her as well but I just don't want to see her get hurt, or you too for that matter. So just... are you sure about what you're doing?" Anita asked.
Brittany had listened intently to what Anita had been saying.
"No I'm not, my head is spinning and my mouth feels dry and I have no idea what to tell her but I know my feelings for her are very strong. I don't even know if she wants to see me but I have to talk to her... I just have to see her...Please Anita, can you text me her address? Please?" Brittany pleaded.
"Okay. I'll send you her address. Good luck." Anita said.
"Thank you!" Brittany said and hung up.
Anita really hoped they would work things out but couldn't help but feel a little worried about how their 'reunion' would go. Her daughter deserved happiness and she knew that Brittany could make her happy. She only hoped that the blonde had sorted herself out enough to know what she really want.
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It was almost dark by the time Brittany parked her car outside Santana's condo. She was so nervous but she had to see her, she had to know... Before she got out of the car she called Nate.
"Hey babe! Are you feeling any better?" Nathan asked concerned.
She hated lying to him.
"A little, I just wanted to call you to say I made it back okay. I'm gonna go rest now, I'll call you tomorrow."
"Okay, you just rest and we'll talk more tomorrow. I love you." Nate said.
"Me too, bye." She couldn't even tell him those three words back and she leaned her head against the steering wheel and took a couple of deep breaths before she got out of her car and slowly walked over to Santana's building. Anita had sent her the door code too so she entered the four numbers and stepped inside into the large foyer.
It was quite an impressive building. She walked over to the board and saw Santana's name and apartment number. She lived on the fifth floor so Brittany walked over to the elevators and once inside, pressed 5. When the door closed her heart started to beat faster than ever before. Was she really ready for this?
As ready as I'll ever be...
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She stood outside Santana's door for a good ten minutes at least. She had raised her hand several times but just as she was about to knock she couldn't do it.
God just do it already! You've been outside her door for ten fucking minutes and all you really want is to be inside that door so just knock on the damn door!
She took a deep breath and then knocked on the door very gently.
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Santana sat under a blanket on her couch and watched a game show on TV. Suddenly she thought she heard something so she muted the sound on the TV and listened. Nothing. She shrugged her shoulders and put the sound back on. Then she heard a faint sound again. She turned around and realized someone was knocking on her door. She checked the time.
Who's knocking at my door at this hour?
She got up from the couch and walked over to the door. When she looked through the peephole her heart stopped. Brittany was standing outside her door.
Oh my God what is she doing here?
Should she pretend that she wasn't home? No... she couldn't do that, she had to open the door. Taking a deep breath she removed the safety chain and then turned the lock before she slowly opened the door. Brittany met her eyes and Santana could tell the blonde was very nervous.
"What are you doing here?" Santana asked softly.
Brittany took a deep breath. Seeing Santana again stirred so many feelings inside and just looking into those beautiful brown eyes she knew she'd made the right decision coming here.
"Honestly, I don't know... I just had to see you..." she said softly.
"How did you know-" Santana started but stopped herself realizing her mother probably had something to do with this.
"My mom gave you the address." she continued and the blonde nodded.
"C-can I come in?" Brittany asked tentatively.
Santana looked at her intensely and Brittany found it hard to breathe.
"Yeah, of course." Santana said and stepped aside to let the blonde in.
Their bodies brushed slightly as Brittany walked past the other woman and it instantly ignited something in the both of them.
Santana closed the door and gestured for Brittany to go into the living room. The brunette paused by the entrance to the kitchen.
"Do you want something to drink?" she asked.
Brittany turned around.
"Just a glass of water."
"Okay, go take a seat in the living room, I'll be right there." Santana said gently and walked into the kitchen.
She braced herself on her arms against the kitchen counter trying to calm herself down a little. She tried deep breaths, eyes closed but nothing worked. Sighing she filled a glass of water and walked back to the living room. Brittany sat in one corner of the couch looking, well, pretty terrified.
"Thank you." the blonde said when Santana placed the glass on the table in front of her.
Santana took a seat at the opposite corner, casting a glance at the nervous blonde. Brittany looked down at her hands trying to find the courage to start talking. It wasn't easy...
"Why are you here?" Santana broke the silence.
Brittany looked up and met Santana's eyes.
"I just... I just had to see you... I'm so confused and I hate that everything turned into such a mess between us. I'm sorry if I hurt you Santana... I never meant to, you have to know that." the blonde said sincerely.
Santana just looked at her.
"I...uhm.." she sighed and got up from the couch. She walked over to the living room window and wrapped her arms around herself. She peered out the window trying to figure out what to say.
Brittany watched the woman but remained seated.
"Santana... you... you've made me feel something I've never felt before and frankly, it scares the shit out of me..." Brittany started.
"Yesterday Nathan and dad came back to the cottage earlier than planned, and I panicked... I couldn't face Nathan...I couldn't stand to see him hurt because of me..."
Santana blinked back the tears that had started to trickle down her cheek. She didn't want to hear about Nathan coming back, she didn't want to hear anything about Nathan period.
Brittany had left the couch and was slowly making her way over to the brunette who still had her back turned towards the blonde.
"The last thing I want to do is hurt anyone but I realize that someone is going to get hurt no matter what and it's killing me..."
Santana couldn't take it anymore, she couldn't stand and listen to the blonde rejecting her again, cause that was what she was doing right? She turned around and came face to face with the blonde not caring that she had tears running down her cheeks.
"Look, if you've come all this way to just reject me again, you might as well leave now. I get it. You're marrying Nathan, you don't have to rub it in." Santana said starting to get slightly upset.
"What? That's not what-" Brittany started but Santana interrupted her.
"Don't you get it by now? I want you! And I know it's crazy, I know that but I wanna be with you... I wanna be with you so badly but I get it, really I do. You're with someone else, you're not mine and you never will be mine and...God..." Santana looked down feeling completely devastated.
Brittany stepped closer and took one of Santana's hands in her own.
"But I am... I am yours... I was yours from the moment I met you but I didn't realize it then. Santana... " Brittany moved closer and cupped the brunette's cheek. Santana met her eyes and saw nothing but pure honesty in those deep blue eyes.
"I want you too... I know everything is a mess right now but the only thing I'm sure of is my feelings for you... " she moved even closer and captured Santana's lips in a soft kiss.
"This is new to me and so scary but when I look at you I feel butterflies dancing around in my stomach and my heart beat so fast that sometimes I think I'm having a heart attack. I know we've only just met and that this is completely crazy but I want you, I want this..." the blonde said and gestured between them.
"I'm yours Santana... " she whispered before she kissed her again.
Santana wrapped her arms around Brittany's waist. It felt like a huge stone had been lifted from her chest hearing the blonde say that she wanted her too. She pulled her closer as she deepened the kiss and her whole body felt as if it was on fire. Brittany moaned into Santana's mouth when their tongues met and she tilted her head so she could kiss her even deeper. The brunette moved her hands down to the hem of Brittany's t-shirt and pulled it over her head quickly then captured her lips again. Brittany copied the brunette's move and pulled Santana's tank top over her head then quickly started to work on removing her bra. Their hands were roaming all over each other's bodies, pulling and jerking at clothes, both desperate to feel the others skin against their own again.
Their kisses were heated with tongues and teeth clashing together and as they started to move towards the couch they left trails of discarded clothes on the floor behind them, finally leaving them in only their underwear. When they reached the couch they stumbled down upon it. Santana landed on top of the blonde and left her mouth as she started to trail soft kisses down the incredibly soft skin on Brittany's neck. She nibbled the skin on the blonde's shoulder before she continued to kiss down to Brittany's breast.
"Oh God..." Brittany moaned as she felt Santana's lips close around her nipple.
She pulled the brunette up again and captured her mouth in a heated kiss, Brittany's tongue instantly found its way into Santana's mouth.
"I want you..." Brittany mumbled against Santana's lips as she continued to kiss the brunette passionately.
She moved to sit up making Santana follow her movement, never breaking the kiss. The blonde left Santana's mouth and placed hot, open mouth kisses on the brunette's cheek, along her jawline and towards her ear. She panted heavily into Santana's ear which made the brunette shiver with want. When Brittany took Santana's earlobe between her teeth and nibbled lightly Santana felt an almost unbearable aching between her thighs and she grasped Brittany's waist hard as the blonde continue to suck on her insanely soft lobe. When those delicious lips moved down to the side of her neck and started sucking gently, Santana moved her hands up to cup the blonde's breasts and gave them a gentle squeeze. Brittany gasped and bit down on Santana's shoulder when she felt the brunette's thumbs rub over her nipples. Santana searched out Brittany's mouth again and kissed her deeply. Her left hand left Brittany's breast and moved down until she reached the hem of the blonde's underwear. Brittany kissed her harder, encouraging her to continue with her movements and Santana obliged. Slipping her hand inside Brittany's underwear she was shocked by how wet the blonde was.
Brittany broke the kiss and gasped loudly as Santana's fingers slipped inside her. She had to put both hands on the brunette's shoulders to steady herself as Santana pushed deeper and she started to rock her hips against Santana's hand to gain even more friction. It didn't take long until Santana pushed her over the edge and she slumped down against her. Santana caught the blonde and held her until she came down from her climax. Brittany breathed heavily against Santana's neck and when she'd composed herself she pulled back and looked into Santana's dark brown eyes. They were filled with emotion and she could only imagine hers was as well.
"You're so beautiful..." the blonde whispered and touched Santana's face.
Santana just looked at her, she still couldn't believe that Brittany was here, in her arms again. The blonde leaned in to kiss her again and slowly pushed her tongue inside Santana's mouth, eager to feel the other woman's tongue against her own. She had to admit, it was becoming addictive. She pushed Santana back against the couch and covered her body with her own as she continued to kiss her deep and very slowly. It was the most erotic kiss she'd ever experienced and she was getting turned on again. Santana's heart was beating uncontrollably fast as Brittany's tongue continued to swirl around with her own and she thought she would come from just kissing the other woman.
The blonde noticed that Santana started to writhe beneath her and figured she was close. Slowly she moved one hand down between their bodies and slipped inside the brunette's underwear. Santana couldn't breathe when Brittany touched her like this again. She had to break the kiss and gasped for air as the other woman found her most sensitive spot and started to move her fingers in small circles. Brittany wanted to touch the woman beneath her more, to make her feel what she had felt when Santana touched her, but felt hindered by Santana's underwear. Pulling her hand out she immediately started to work with removing the interfering object.
Santana breathed heavily as she felt Brittany tug at her underwear and lifted her hips to assist the blonde. As soon as the obstacle was gone Brittany quickly removed her own underwear too before she repositioned herself so she was lying on her side, still half on top of Santana and leaned forward to capture the brunette's lips again. Santana kissed her back hungrily and shivered when Brittany's hand touched her stomach and then continued south till she reached the place that ached to be touched. The blonde moved her fingers slowly through Santana's folds and when Santana gasped loudly she felt encouraged to continue. She started to kiss down the brunette's jawline and licked a path down to the crook in Santana's neck. Her skin was so soft, she let the tip of her tongue trace small patterns on the brunette's shoulder and nibbled the flesh lightly with her teeth all the while her fingers continued to explore. Santana panted and her hips had started to move against the blonde's hand, desperately needing more pressure.
Brittany realized that Santana was close and she wanted to give her release. Moving her fingers further down, she slowly slipped a finger inside Santana's core and moaned by the sensation of being inside her for the first time. Santana started to rock her hips faster and Brittany had never been more aroused in her life. Touching Santana like this and watching the woman writhe in pleasure beneath her made her feel more confident and she slowly added a second finger. Santana gasped violently as she met Brittany's thrusts and the blonde felt an aching need between her own thighs. She moved her mouth up to meet Santana's again and repositioned herself again so she was straddling Santana's thigh.
Santana was so close and when she felt Brittany's wetness on her thigh and those beautiful fingers working inside her she couldn't hold it back anymore. Her walls closed around Brittany's fingers as her body shook in the most powerful orgasm she'd ever had. Brittany was grinding down hard on Santana's thigh and second's later she collapsed on top of the brunette as she reached her second orgasm, her fingers still buried deep inside of Santana.
Both women breathed heavily as they tried to compose themselves. So many emotions were running through the both of them and it was a little overwhelming. Brittany slowly pulled her fingers out of Santana's core which made the other woman gasp loudly. The blonde kissed Santana's neck and smiled against her skin as Santana wrapped her arms around her.
They stayed like that for a long time, Brittany lying half on top of Santana, their legs entangled and Santana's arms around the blonde. Brittany was drawing lazy patterns on one of Santana's arms with her finger and she felt like she was on the verge of falling asleep. Santana noticed that the blonde's breaths were starting to become heavier and her movements stilled.
"Are you awake?" she asked softly.
"Barely..." Brittany mumbled.
"Come on... let's go to bed." Santana suggested and felt the blonde nod against her chest.
Brittany slowly removed herself from Santana and as she sat up on the couch Santana grabbed a blanket and wrapped around the sleepy blonde. Brittany leaned her head against Santana's shoulder as she led them toward her bedroom.
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Once inside Santana quickly pulled the bedspread off of the bed and then the two women crawled beneath the covers. Brittany snuggled up against Santana who wrapped an arm around the blonde and pulled her closer. They fell asleep within minutes in each other's arms and the last thing that Brittany thought about before she fell asleep, was how she never wanted to be in anyone else's arms ever again.