A/N
Rating and disclaimer from the first chapter apply.
Chapter 13.
Brittany was the first one to wake up the next morning. They had repositioned themselves in their sleep and as Brittany slowly opened her eyes she was lying on her side and was met with Santana's peaceful face just a few inches away from her own. Santana's left arm was still around her waist and Brittany's arms were tucked between their bodies. She lifted her right hand and pushed a few stray strands of brown hair behind Santana's ear then left her hand on the brunette's cheek.
She studied the woman before her, taking in all her features. She was beyond beautiful but that wasn't what she was drawn to. She had the most loving heart, something Brittany was certain she'd inherited from her mother. She was caring and tender and really funny. She loved her sense of humor and she loved how easily Santana could make her laugh. Brittany felt so safe in her arms, she felt like she belonged... Like she belonged there in Santana's arms... She could feel the butterflies in her stomach starting to flutter again and looking at the sleeping woman in front of her she knew...
"I've fallen in love with you..." she whispered.
Saying the words out loud, even though it was only a whisper made her heart beat faster. Did the brunette hear her? Did she want Santana to hear her? It both frightened her and excited her. The hand that was still resting on Santana's cheek was slowly stroking the sleeping woman's face. She grazed her thumb over Santana's soft lips and couldn't resist. She leaned forward and placed a soft lingering kiss on those beautiful lips. As she pulled back she noticed that the brunette had a small smile on her face.
"This is a nice way to wake up." Santana mumbled and slowly opened her eyes.
"Sorry... I didn't mean to wake you, I just couldn't help myself..." Brittany said softly and smiled back as she met Santana's warm gaze.
"Definitely not complaining..." Santana said seriously and looked deep into Brittany's eyes.
The blonde swallowed hard as Santana looked intensely at her and as the brunette leaned in closer her breath caught just before those amazing lips touched hers. Her eyes closed as Santana's lips moved over hers and the hand that rested on Santana's face moved into dark brown hair as Brittany pulled the other woman closer. It was a soft kiss, no tongue and no roaming hands, just the soft touch of their lips moving against each other. Santana placed a single kiss on Brittany's nose before she pulled back and looked at the blonde again.
"I'm so happy you're here..." Santana whispered.
"Me too..." Brittany confessed.
"What happened at the cottage?" Santana wondered while she entangled her fingers in soft blonde curls.
"Well, dad and Nate came back earlier. They had to cancel their trip because the weather forecast had changed and... I didn't know what to do. I didn't know how to face Nathan so I lied and told him I was getting sick and wanted to go back home. He wanted to stay for a couple of days, thank God. Then as I was driving and saw the Chicago sign I don't know... I just needed to see you..." Brittany said softly before she continued.
"I'm really sorry for how I acted when you brought me to Merrill's bay... I was so confused and in denial... and I felt so guilty for betraying Nate... I tried to tell myself that I didn't feel something for you and that what happened between us was a mistake but it didn't work... When I pushed you away... I thought I was doing the right thing and I thought that once I'd get you out of my head everything would go back to normal but I couldn't stop thinking about you..." she whispered that last part.
"The night when Nate was back he started kissing my neck and I knew what his intentions were but I couldn't go through with it... It felt wrong when he touched me and kissed me and I felt so bad for feeling that way cause he's my fiance, you know? He's the guy I'm supposed to marry and there I was, wanting your touch and your kisses..."
Santana swallowed hard as she listened to what Brittany said. She couldn't quite believe what she was hearing, could this really be happening, for real?
"I can't marry him Santana... I can't marry him when... when I'm in love with someone else..."
Santana's breath caught, was she dreaming?
"What?..." she whispered out very confused.
Brittany smiled and leaned forward and placed a soft kiss on Santana's lips.
"Is... is this a dream? Am I dreaming this?" Santana stuttered.
"No... it's very real..." Brittany said softly then kissed her again.
Santana put both her hands on the blonde's face and pulled back slightly so she could look at her.
"Santana I know this doesn't make any sense and I can't explain it but no one has ever made me feel like you do..."
"I've been in love with you from the first day I met you... That night when we talked in the swing... I fell for you faster than I've ever fallen before and I'll have you know I've never believed in this whole 'love-at-first-sight' thing but I think I'll have to start rethink... You took me completely by surprise and it was so hard to pretend that I wasn't insanely attracted to you and so hard to suppress the feelings I had for you cause you were taken and also straight." Santana said and stroked Brittany's hair softly.
"When you kissed me... Everything I had tried to fight, every feeling I had tried to keep inside just poured out of me and there was just no way I could put them back...I didn't want to put them back..." Santana said softly.
Brittany smiled and closed the distance between them with a gentle kiss.
"You know that we're completely crazy right?" Brittany mumbled against Santana's lips.
"Oh I know..." Santana mumbled back and kissed her softly.
When they parted Santana looked a little distant.
"Hey... What are you thinking about?" Brittany asked tentatively and stroked Santana's cheek.
Santana looked down but Brittany tilted the brunette's chin until she met those brown eyes again.
"I don't wanna ruin this..." Santana started.
"And I don't wanna put any pressure on you but... I have to know... Are you really sure about this? Because if there's even a tiny bit of hesitation, tell me now and we can end this..." that last line was killing her.
They'd hardly even begun and thinking about ending whatever they had was awful but she had to be sure. She lifted her hand and caressed Brittany's face gently.
"I wanna be with you... so if you're not sure this is what you want, that Iam what you want just tell me now cause I can't stand the thought of being with you only to lose you..." she finished.
Brittany could see fear and so much vulnerability in those beautiful brown eyes she'd completely fallen in love with. Hearing Santana say that they could end this thing that had happened between them if Brittany wasn't sure, made the blonde's heart ache. She slowly leaned forward and captured Santana's lips in a tender kiss. The second her lips touched Santana's she knew without a doubt what she wanted. Not that she hadn't known before, but there was still this little voice in the back of her head that had planted a seed of doubt about all of this. Ending this thing with Santana and go back to Nathan would without a doubt be the easiest thing. They would get married and probably have kids and life would be simple. It was as if it was already decided, her and Nathan had been together for so long so everybody around them expected them to get married and start a family. That was just how it was and it would probably have happened too if she hadn't met Santana... The woman whose lips were moving tenderly against her own had stolen her heart so completely and she knew without a doubt she didn't want it back.
"I am sure..." the blonde mumbled against Santana's lips.
As they slowly parted Brittany looked deep into Santana's eyes and hoped the woman could see the sincerity of those three words reflected in her eyes.
"I couldn't bear losing you..." Santana whispered.
"You won't... I wanna be with you... I want you Santana... but honestly I'm terrified..." the blonde said softly.
"I don't even want to think about how I'm gonna have to deal with everything cause I know so many people are going to get hurt because of me... I'm terrified of telling Nate..." she whispered that last line.
"He's gonna be so hurt Santana..." she continued softly.
Santana swallowed hard, she couldn't help but feel like maybe the blonde wasn't so sure after all. Brittany noticed the change in Santana's face.
"Santana, I wanna be with you..." she said again looking straight into uncertain brown eyes.
"I've never felt this strong about anyone ever before...I just... I just need some time to fix things okay? Please say you'll wait for me?..." she whispered that last line and looked pleadingly into Santana's eyes.
Santana felt her heart fill with love for this woman beside her, she would wait an eternity if she had to. Slightly overwhelmed with emotions she could only nod. Brittany smiled sweetly and pulled Santana in for a hug. Santana nuzzled her nose against Brittany's shoulder and placed a tender kiss on her soft skin. When they pulled back Santana kissed the blonde gently.
"Please stay with me today..." Santana asked gently.
She knew the blonde would have to go back before Nate would get home but she didn't want her to leave. Brittany kissed her tenderly.
"I really really want to... but... I don't know when Nate is planning to leave the cottage and I have to get home before he will... I'm sorry..." Brittany said and stroked Santana's cheek.
"I understand. It's okay." Santana said meekly.
Brittany kissed her gently again.
"Do you want to take a shower before you leave? There's fresh towels and everything else you need in the bathroom." Santana said gently.
"Yeah that would be nice." Brittany replied.
"If you go and take a shower I can make us some breakfast in the meantime." Santana said sweetly.
"Okay." Brittany said softly and smiled.
Santana got up from the bed and put on a t-shirt and a pair of sweatpants. Brittany sat on the edge of the bed and watched the other woman get dressed. She had a bed sheet wrapped around her naked body. She couldn't help but smile as she watched the brunette, she was so beautiful and sweet and the blonde's heart started to beat faster just by looking at her.
Santana didn't noticed she was being watched until she was about to open the door to the bedroom. She turned around and met Brittany's gaze.
"What?" the brunette asked puzzled with a small smile.
"You're beautiful..." Brittany said softly.
Santana felt her cheeks flush by that comment and she looked down. Brittany got up from the bed and walked over to the brunette. She tilted Santana's chin so she could meet her eyes again.
"You're so beautiful..." she whispered before she kissed her.
Santana wrapped her arms around the smaller woman's waist and gasped as Brittany deepened the kiss. Their tongues met and as Brittany tilted her head to the side so she could kiss Santana even deeper the brunette felt a pool of wetness between her legs. She couldn't believe the effect Brittany had on her, no one had ever made her so turned on in just a matter of seconds.
Lips moving together and tongues swirling around in a very heated kiss made the blonde's head spin. She entangled her hands in Santana's hair and pulled the other woman even closer. Slowly she let her hands wander down over Santana's chest where she gently squeezed her breast through the fabric of Santana's t-shirt. The way the brunette moaned into her mouth encouraged the blonde to continue her exploration. She quickly grabbed the hem of Santana's t-shirt and pulled it over her head and mimicked Santana's actions from their night in the boathouse.
Santana gasped loudly when the blonde's lips closed around her nipple. She closed her eyes and breathed heavily as Brittany's hand found her other breast and squeezed it gently. Trying to compose herself before she would lose control, Santana pulled Brittany's head up and kissed her deeply, their tongues met instantly and Santana felt her knees go weak. She started to move them over back to the bed and pulled the bed sheet from Brittany's body as they moved slowly towards the bed.
Her hands started to wander all over the blonde's naked body the second the sheet hit the floor and as they reached the bed she nudged Brittany down on the bed then quickly removed her last piece of clothing before she climbed on top of the other woman.
Brittany breathed heavily as Santana's lips started to place hot open mouth kisses all over her body. She let her own hands roam over Santana's body, she couldn't get enough of her. As Santana's mouth trailed a path of kisses down between Brittany's breast and continued south Brittany couldn't breathe. When she felt the brunette gently nudge her legs apart she willingly obliged and as Santana's mouth found the heat between the legs for the second time she gasped violently. Brittany grabbed the bed sheets and threw her head back as she felt Santana's tongue swirl around her clit. It was like nothing she'd ever experienced before. Santana certainly knew what she was doing and it felt amazing.
The blonde breathed heavily as Santana continued to please her with her tongue and didn't think she would last much longer. Suddenly Santana slipped two fingers inside and as she altered between sucking and flicking her tongue against Brittany's harden nub the blonde exploded in the most intense orgasm she'd ever had.
Santana removed her fingers slowly which made the other woman shiver, then kissed her way up the blonde's body until she found her lips again. Brittany was still trying to catch her breath but when Santana kissed her and she could taste herself on Santana's lips she instantly kissed her back with everything she had.