Hello wonderful reader! in case you didn't notice I changed the name of the story, this one fits better, you will see how at the end of the chapter. This chapter was edited by my awesome beta. Now you don't have to read my terrible run-on sentences I'm famous for! for future referance, Renesmee's point of view is what most of the story is written in, so if I don't say that it's someone else's it's Nessie's thoughts. Hope you enjoy!

Renesmee

The sun cast shadows of the trees on the wall of my bedroom. I definitely didn't want to get up yet, but Alice would be up soon to take me shopping. I wish I could spend the day with Jake for my birthday instead of last minute shopping with Alice, but he probably had better things to do than spend a day with me.

After a few minutes of imagining what a day with Jake would be like, I got up and went downstairs to see where she was. Alice was sitting at the breakfast bar glaring at me.

"You foxed Jake into telling you about your party!" she said. Jake looked at me apologetically. "But he's not in the dog house; he didn't give away anything vitally important."

"Foxed?" I asked, to both Jake and Alice.

"Yes, you foxed it right out of him," she teased. "God knows how gullible he is, and you are irresistible.

"UGH!" I surrendered, secretly begging Alice to drop that subject. "Go ahead! Haul me to Port Angeles or Seattle for hours of shopping 'till I literally drop."

Alice smiled a rather evil grin. That can't be good. "We aren't going shopping today. Your party isn't until after school starts so you can have a proper sweet sixteen with half the school invited!"

Even though I looked like I could be closer to seventeen or eighteen, the story we were going with was that I'm turning sixteen so that we can stay here 'till I finish high school.

"Alice you are crazy!" I protested throwing my hands in the air. "Don't you think you should ask before you throw me a huge party? What if I'm a loser that doesn't have any friends?"

"Nessie, you are freaking gorgeous. That's all you need to be popular." I sighed at her ridiculousness. When I glanced at Jake he smiled tentatively. I glared at him. Just because he was out of Alice's doghouse doesn't mean he's out of mine. "High school isn't like the way it's portrayed on TV."

Despite the fact that I wanted to go to school more than I wanted to breathe, I was still nervous about fitting in. My mom said that our family wasn't the most popular group of people on the planet.

"Jacob is taking you captive today so get dressed and come back down." Alice commanded. My heart fluttered at the day! My dream came true I had Jake to myself for a whole day! I shot Jake a questioning look, but he just smiled at me, and Alice scooted me up the stairs. "Edward told me about your surprisingly hard decision about what to wear yesterday, so today I'll help!"

I think it's funny how she doesn't ask, just declares that she is helping me, whether I want her to or not. "Alice you didn't have to do that, I can pick out my own-"

"I have respected your style, I'm secretly just happy you didn't get Bella's terrible wardrobe genes; but I want to help you so bad right now, I'm about to explode! So just be complacent and let me do my magic."

I sighed; there was no stopping my aunt when she wanted something. At least I didn't have to have the major freak-out session I had yesterday about what to wear, and I knew she would do a good job. She picked out two perfect outfits for me to choose from. I sighed, unable to pick. "I'm guessing you know where Jake is taking me today, so I'll let you decide."

Her face lit up like a light bulb and she handed me my outfit with a radiant smile on her face. It was a white shirt with a floral design, a yellow cardigan, light blue jeans, yellow flats and a thick yellow headband. Let's just say it was a very bright outfit.

After getting dressed I walked downstairs to see my mom, dad, Alice and Jake waiting for me. Jake smiled when he saw me, and I smiled back. No blush, no blush, no blush! I thought silently to myself, but I still felt the blood run to my cheeks. Darn human genes! Dad scowled at him, but he stopped when Mom elbowed him in the gut.

"Have a good day with Jake." Mom said shoving me out the door with Jake.

"Jacob!" Dad yelled, exiting the house and following us out onto the lawn. "Please take my car!"

"No, it's okay Eddie," Jake protested. "Me and Renesmee can take the motorcycle, wouldn't want to waste any gas." Dad growled at his response. "Hey, I'm just trying to make the world a cleaner place."

Mom whispered something too low for me to hear in Dad's ear and he grumbled and went back into the house, muttering under his breath. Jake turned to me and smiled. "Okay Nessie, ready to go?"

I nodded and hopped on the back of Jake's bike, wrapping my arms around his stomach. I'm happy Jake couldn't see my face because it was beet red. It was getting colder and colder by the second here in Washington and Jake was warm and welcoming.

"Hold on." Jake cautioned me.

Let's just say I didn't think it would go that fast.

I yelped a little when he jerked the motorcycle into sixty miles per hour, and clung to Jake like a crazy person.

Jake laughed at me. "I told you to hold on."

I caught a glimpse of Dad scowling from the window. Geez, who peed in his cereal this morning? Jake flashed him one last smile, turned the corner and we were out of sight.

I rested my check on Jake's warm back, and wiggled myself closer to him. Even with nothing but a T-shirt on he was still burning up in the frigid winter air, at sixty miles per hour.

"So…where are we going?" I asked.

"You'll see, wouldn't want to ruin the surprise, but I'll give you a hint: It's a pretty long drive so relax, but don't fall asleep. We wouldn't want you to fall off."

That definitely didn't help the nerves.

We were driving down a dirt road when Jake pulled over. "I'm going to have to blindfold you Nessie."

I sighed and let him tie it around my head. "Is all this really necessary?" I protested.

"Yes, I wouldn't want to ruin the surprise." He chuckled.

"But it doesn't match my outfit! What will Alice do when she finds out?" He laughed and slowly drove the motorcycle for about five minutes before he stopped and helped me off, leading me along a dirt road.

I could smell old dirty fabrics, rust, and oil. I heard something creak and then close, probably a gate. The ground was uneven and very easy to trip on, and inheriting my mother's clumsiness didn't make that any easier. I held Jake's hand tightly, but I stumbled and of course he caught me.

"It's okay I won't let you fall." he reassured me. I felt safe with him, not in the same way I felt safe with my family of vampires ready to kill anyone or anything that even thinks about hurting me. It wasn't the same protective, almost suffocating way I felt with my family; it was just different but still safe.

"Close your eyes," Jake whispered in my ear before taking off the blindfold. I felt the sunlight hit the lids of my closed eyes, and I was tempted to open them to make sure I wasn't sparkling like the rest of my family does.

When I was little, Quil and Seth told me that I would turn out splotchy in the sunlight when I grew up. I would have sparkly patches and normal patches. I was so upset, I didn't want to look like a patchwork quilt, I ran straight Jake and cried my eyes out. That was the day that Leah truly became my friend, she saw me with Jake and went to yell at Seth and Quil. Let's just say they never said anything of that sort ever again.

"Okay, you can open them."

When I opened my eyes I was a little startled, and not exactly sure what to think. Before me was a junk yard full of old cars.

"Let me explain in case you're wondering what we're here for." I nodded. "You know I don't make as much money as the rest of your family, but I still wanted to get you something special for your fourth/sixteenth birthday. So I'll buy a car here and we can fix it up together."

I was stunned at how much thought he put into this. It was perfect! I couldn't technically drive yet, but I would probably be able to by the time Jake fixes the car.

I smiled. "Thanks Jake, that's really thoughtful of you. I'm actually pretty happy that someone isn't getting me something expensive for my birthday this year."

"Tell me if you see a car that you like, but make sure you don't pick one too messed up." We walked down the aisles of cars till I found a cute little car with splotchy gray and dark blue paint. It only had one headlight and the passenger side window was broken. There were just three tires and the fabric convertible roof was torn and tattered.

"Hey Jake," I said pulling him away from an old, gray, jeep. "What about this one?"

"Wow Renesmee," Jake said examining the car. "You found an old 1957 Ford Thunderbird. It doesn't have a lot of exterior damage, which is good, do you want it?"

"Yes please," I begged, beaming at him.

"Your wish is my command." Jake smiled, and I hurled myself into his arms. He held me close and I could felt his heart beat next to mine. Without thinking I blurted out probably the most embarrassing thing ever.

"I love you Jake!" Oh my gosh! I hope he didn't take that seriously, I pulled away from him carful to keep the worry off my face.

He just smiled at me. "I love you too, Nessie."

Then he called over the guy sitting in a small building by the gate. Jake talked to him about getting it towed back to the house, but I wasn't paying attention. The poor car looked so sad sitting here in the junk yard, but Jake will take it home and fix it.

Jake and I spent the rest of the night in Jake's homemade garage. I was writing down all the parts that we would need to fix the car when Aunt Rose came in. "Renesmee, it's ten o'clock you need to go to bed, you have school tomorrow."

My parents only send Rose when they don't want me to argue, because there is no arguing with Aunt Rose. I sighed, said goodnight to Jake, and followed her out the door. When I got to my bedroom I saw the outfit Alice had already picked out for school tomorrow, and my parents waiting in my room for me.

"Goodnight Aunt Rose, see you tomorrow." I said, giving her a hug, she kissed the top of my head and walked out, leaving me alone with my parents.

"Renesmee, how was your day with Jacob?" Dad asked. I could tell how much he was straining to keep his voice under control and calm.

"It was great, and I love my birthday present." I yawned.

"We can talk tomorrow if you want, you look tired." Mom said, but Dad didn't seem too pleased with that. I nodded and laid down on my bed, instantly falling asleep.

Jacob

When Nessie left I sighed and sat against the wall of my garage. I was very proud of my garage; I built it all by myself. It definitely wasn't the best one in the world but I made it and I was happy.

I was happy I thought of a good present for Nessie. I could spend more time with her, fixing a car just for her, and she loved it.

She said that she loved me today. Just the thought of her loving me brought a smile to my face, I hoped she actually meant it. Even if she didn't mean that she really loves me, like I love her, I was just glad I made her happy. I succeeded in my only goal in life, my reason for existence. Even if I was just making her happy as a friend it was better than nothing. Seeing her smile for one second is worth it, I would walk a million miles and swim oceans to see her smile.

I couldn't stop playing that over and over again in my head. She said that she loved me! I didn't make a big deal out of it, if she didn't mean it I didn't want to make her uncomfortable, and if she did mean it . . . Stop it Jake, if I don't stop Edward might come and kill me.

I was about to walk back to my cabin-or maybe I should walk to the kitchen and see if Esme has any food left, but Bella stepped into my garage.

"Hey Jake, you sure did make Renesmee happy." She smiled at me, and I couldn't help but smile back. "Even though she didn't want to leave she passed out as soon as she got to bed."

I wasn't surprised, she was yawning the whole time she was with me. "Good, she needs her sleep."

"So do you, go to sleep Jake," she demanded.

I sighed. "I just want to finish my list of parts to get tomorrow after school, can you take Nessie's job?"

She sighed, not pleased with me. "Fine, but you better be wide awake tomorrow."

Renesmee

At first it was a wonderful dream. Jake and I were walking on the beach hand in hand, and then we were kissing. Then a few Quileute girls walked by us and he broke away from me and chased after one of them. Not even turning around to explain.

I opened my eyes thinking my dream was over but looking around I saw Jake and the Quileute girl from the beach kissing and embracing at the foot of my bed. Jake broke away from the girl, I thought he was going to look at me, say something, acknowledge my existence, anything. Not even looking at me he got down on one knee and gave the girl the most loving look I've ever seen, and took out a ring.

At that moment he turned to me and said three words that completely broke my heart into a million pieces. "Good-bye Nessie."

I opened my tearful sobbing eyes and dug my nails into my arm to make sure I was awake. Still sobbing, I yanked a tissue out of its box, but after that was soaked I walked down to the bathroom and grabbed a towel to sop up my tears.

I had established two things from that dream. I was in love with my best friend. The feeling I've had for him now made sense, all the warm fuzzy feelings I had whenever he said my name, all the blushing that started when he was close to me. I was in love with him.

I can't love him anymore. Even if he did love me back he would just leave me heart-broken when he imprinted on some random stranger, like Sam left Leah. I did not want to turn out like Leah, even though I was one of the only people in the world she actually likes, I could still feel the bitterness she had for the rest of the world. When Jake imprints on someone will I end up like that? Hating the world?

That will never happen to me, because from now on I won't love him.

Now you probably see why the new title is better, I broke my own heart writting it! I promise that I will post more frequently, was lazy this week and didn't get this chapter to my beta until last night and I got the edit this morning (more awesome points for her!). I am sending the next chapter to her as soon as I finish posting this.