Kendall sucked in a shaky breath to try calm himself down, eyes still glued to the window to make sure that James wasn't back yet. " Logan, what do you mean by it's YOUR fault? There is no way you could have known that this could have happened."

" I told him all about you." Logan said on the other end of the phone, Kendall felt himself go numb, surely he was joking. " I told him almost everything there is to know about you."

A lump formed in the blondes throat, eyes welling up with tears as he took that information in. To say that Kendall was upset would have been the understatement of the year. He was gping through a whole wave of emotions, most of them amger at Logan, wishing that his so called best friend was there so that he could ring his neck. " What the hell is WRONG with you?! Why would you do that? Do you understand how fucking scared I am right now?! He could walk in any time and and hurt me or worse!" Kendall managed to rage over the phone, shaking the whole time as his eyes never left the window.

" Kendall I'm sorry! I didn't know this would happen!" Logan called back, "And I doubt very much he will actually hurt you, if you're not dead yet he won't kill you." Logan paused. " Plus he's not all not there."

Kendall was going to yell back at his friend when he had to think about that last statement. What? " What the fuck does mean?" He asked feeling annoyed.

He heard a sigh before, "Yes James was in a mental hospital, but he's not a crazy person... I still remember when he was put in there." Logan trailed off before hearing a throat clear om the other end.

" What was he in there for if he isn't 'crazy'?"

" Well he-"

" Shit." Kendall cursed as he saw James' car pulling up. " I have to go." He then hung up on Logan before he could hear any objections. Before leaving the room Kendall hid the phone in a place he hoped James wouldn't find it before making a beeline for the couch downstairs to seem as if he never left that spot. The front door unlocked and the tall brunette stepped in with a couple bags in his hands, he kicked the door closed with his foot. James went straight to the kitchen to put things away, when he was done he went to find Kendall still on the couch and smiled.

" Hey." James greeted softly as he took a seat by Kendall. " How are you doing?"

" Why were you in there?" Kendall asked not looking at James. James gave him a confused look and raised his eyebrow at the blonde, not understanding what he meant. Kendall sighed, " Why were you in there?"

" The kitchen? "

" No! The mental hospital. " Kendall snapped and faced James who had a surprised look on his face before he made his face nuteral.

" How do you know about that?"

" Logan told me." At the mention of the other brunettes name James eyes got dark. " L-last time w-we talked that is." Kendall half lied as he stammered over his words, those eyes were just so intense.

James siged angrily, " If you MUST know, if he told you I'm not crazy he was telling you the truth... but that doesn't mean that I don't have moments when I lose who I really am." James explained with a frown, sadness clear in his hazel eyes.

" But you were locked up. "

"Only because I took an insanity plea when my trial came around." James paused to look at Kendall who was waoting for him to go on. "I um, was on trial for, a,... murder. " Kendall gasped when he heard that. " But I don't remember killing anyone! Well except for that nurse, but that's a different story." James said with an almost chuckle but it died in his throat when he saw the horrified look on Kendalls face. He swallowed hard, "I'm sorry Kendall." James apologized amd hung his head in shame. In that moment Kendall felt bad for him, James couldn't help what was wrong with him.

As gently as he could, Kendall placed a hand on James' shoulder before he spoke. " James... if you have nothing wrong with you...what was with all those things you said before about? About Logan? Us?"

" Like I said I'm not always who I should be... and Logan really pisses me off, my life is a mess because of him." James said as he lifted his head and looked Kendall in the eyes, his hazel eyes were softer then before and Kendall couldn't help but like this version of them.

" Are you going to let me?" Kendall dared as he took his bottom lip into his mouth, hopping that James was coming to terms with how much trouble he was in.

" No." James said and Kendall felt like he had been punched in the gut. " I'm in too deep already, truth be told I didn't mean to do this... You opened the door and I panicked. "

Kendall rasied an eyebrow at him," You had chloroform with you!"

" Yes, but that was supposed to be plan B, but I already had the cloth to your mouth before I realized what I was doing." James admitted feeling aweful. He then locked eyes with Kendall for what seemed like the millionth time that evening,"Guess we'll have to make the best of this." James then leaned in and closed the gap between them.

Kendalls hands went to his shoulders. He should have pushed James away, he should have fought against him when James put his hands on Kendalls hips to keep him from moving. He also should not have kissed James back and he should not have liked that kiss as much as he did. He should be mad at James, the worst part was he found he didn't just like the way James kissed him.

He loved it.