Edward's POV

It was finally time to go to school. I had gone hunting again. I was not thirsty but I wanted to make sure my family didn't get the chance to talk with me. Specially Carlisle and Esme I knew I would have to face the music some time but that didn't keep me from putting it off as much as I possibly could.

I got home just in time to dress for school. Alice had kept a large collection of new underwear very similar to the ones that were in the spring catalogue on my bed with my clothes for the day if you could call them underwear! They looked scandalous! I don't know what special material she used for them but they seemed to be shrunken versions of my definition of underwear. I hid the more daring pieces without even properly looking at them. I decided to wear three pairs of my old normal underwear instead. I put some pairs of Alice's new underwear in my bag though just in case. I thought I could rush to the rest room and put one on if the need arose.

When I went downstairs Alice was shaking her head in disapproval.

"Ok. But you'll be sorry." I glared at her.

We waited in the parking lot for Bella. Charlie dropped her off. She came towards us.

"Bella can I carry your bag for you?"

"Sure, sure"

"So how are you today Bella?" Alice asked her.

"My hand feels much better I think. But I won't be able to take down any notes for sometime. I hope the offer of notes still stands."

"Sure. We'll write everything you want." I told her.

Her first class was with Alice so I reluctantly left them and went my way. I rushed to Bella to help carry her books as soon as the bell rang. She was happy to let me do so. I had the next class with her so we sat together. I was feeling very happy. I had moved my chair a little closer to her but she didn't seem to notice. I felt her warmth radiating from her. I took in her scent breathing deeply from time to time. She looked so beautiful. She wore a lovely green top with a deep neck line. I could see the valley between her breasts. I caught myself pretending to lean over to take a pencil from her to get a better look. I was horrified. What was I doing? I was very aroused. It was very visible. Wearing three pairs of underwear had made it more pronounced. The jeans were getting extremely tight on me. I didn't know how I was going to get up after class. I decided I would hold my books in front of me. I anyway had an extra set of books thanks to Bella. Hopefully they would provide enough cover.

Just then Bella dropped the pen she was using as her book mark. She had been trying to turn the page. I leaned over her to catch it before it fell to the ground. I accidentally brushed my arm over Bella's breasts. I felt her nipples peak. That was all it took for me to explode in my pants. I shuddered. I felt the heat of Bella's blush. She was blushing! Her heart rate also increased then slowed down immediately. I gave her a sideways glance she was focused on the teacher. The blush was almost gone. I on the other hand was breathing heavily. God! Did she know what happened? I looked down to check the damage. Thank god for the extra underwear. I was still safe and the lump was also visibly reduced. I heaved a sigh of relief. I heard a chuckle from the other row. The little pixie was enjoying this.

"I see you are having a nice time Edward."

I sent daggers at her back. She turned and winked at me with a sly grin on her face. The obnoxious little pixie! Bella was smiling at her. She winked at Bella too. Bella blushed at this. Oh! That meant only one thing Bella knew something was up.

Our next class was Spanish and we all had it together again. I was again sitting next to Bella. She stumbled when she tried to sit down. I caught her before she fell. The only problem was I had her pressed against all of me after the rescue. She rubbed against you know who and that was it. He exploded yet again. Bella shook along with me and I barely managed to steady myself before we both fell. I immediately let Bella go. She was blushing. I felt the warmth envelop me. She very carefully sat on her chair and hurriedly got her book opened. I turned around grabbing my bag intending to go and put a pair of Alice's new underwear on. My quick check had showed me that I was safe for now but one more would spell disaster like I already knew from my biking experience. Just then the teacher walked in.

"Going some where Cullen? I suggest you go after class." There was nothing to it. I didn't want to make a scene so I just sat down. I decided I will concentrate on Spanish and not think of anything else for the whole hour. That was my only salvation. I could see Alice giggling none stop.

"I told you! You should have listened to me." I felt myself giving up. I was doomed. Something else was going to happen. She was translating the declaration of independence into Chinese.

I looked at Bella. She was focused as ever on the teacher. I started taking notes. I wrote everything I heard including what the teacher was thinking so that my mind didn't wonder. That was a mistake! She was thinking about her date tonight. She was finally going to …oh for the love of god. Wasn't I going to get a break from this?

I focused back on Bella. If I was going to be doomed anyway, I might as well enjoy while doing it. Bella was grimacing again stroking her hand over her injured wrist.

I wrote in her note pad.

"Do you want me to hold your hand for you to cool it to reduce the pain? I can be a cold compress."

She smiled at me and offered her hand. I whispered in vampire speed to Alice to take down notes and held her hand with both of mine, lowering our joined hands to my lap so that the others wouldn't see it. I wasn't sure whether Bella wanted them to know she was holding hands with me or not. It was only when her hand rested on my lap that I realized my mistake. Edward junior was very very happy at the proximity. I was helpless to do anything. If I moved her hand it would still not do any good since I would have to keep our hands on Bella's lap which would be worse than the present situation or hold them mid air which would be look very awkward and might be uncomfortable for Bella.

I some how managed to sit through the period without aggravating the problem. But I was very aroused now. I was about to explode at any time. I sat frozen in place so that I didn't make any unnecessary movements which might trigger the release. I wasn't even breathing. The bell finally rang and I heaved a sigh of relief. Just then Bella quickly tried to take her hand back and in her hurry she brushed over the bulge in my jeans and that did it.

I shuddered and immediately exploded shaking uncontrollably. Bella looked at me and I at her. I felt so much love and desire for her. I was too far gone in my ecstasy to notice how humiliating the whole situation was. She blushed beet red and looked at her hand still held tightly in mine. I saw the moment she noticed the wet stain in my jeans. My embarrassment was acute. This was so inappropriate. I was so ashamed. I looked down at the floor. I had behaved like a cad in front of a lady. My birth mother would have had a heart attack if she knew. Bella slowly removed her hand from mine.

I heard a squeal of laughter and then a little pixie ran out of the class room in a big hurry.

"I told you, I told you to wear the new underwear. You didn't listen. Let's see you get out of this one."

I was really going to kill her this time. I couldn't get up and run after her. I could try to run past the humans. I was very fast. But still I might be seen. They might look for me. All of them knew I was in class thanks to the teacher's remark at the start of the class. I sat there helplessly. My only option was to try to hold the books in front of me. But it would be very risky. To make matters worse the little pixie had dressed me in very tight fitting clothes. My T-shirt was also short it wouldn't cover anything. I sat there lost in thought going through every escape plan I could think of when I heard Bella's voice.

"Edward…"

She was still sitting next to me. I couldn't believe she was still here.

I couldn't look up. I couldn't look into her eyes. I couldn't bear to see the shock and disgust that was sure to be in her face. I had behaved deplorably even if I had had no control over it. So ungentlemanly. I didn't deserve to be with polite company. I was so ashamed of myself.

I whispered. "Y..Yes Bella? My voice cracked.

"Edward can you take me home? I feel tired."

What? she wants me… me to take her home after all this? I slowly looked up but couldn't still meet her eyes.

"Ok."

I couldn't refuse my Bella anything she asked me to do for her. I sighed. This was an impossible situation. I was trying very hard to think of a way to get out of school without anyone noticing me.

"I feel a bit faint can you hold me against you in front of you while you walk me to the car?" Her voice was low but I heard her clearly.

It took a moment for me to understand what she was saying. Why would she want me to hold her against me? I mean why specify in front! Then it struck me...She was offering me a way to cover up the glaring stain!

I finally found the courage to look up at her. What I saw in her eyes took my breath away. She was blushing bright red but she also looked excited and proud? There was understanding in her eyes. I quickly looked down.

I tried to wrap my head around the totally unexpected conflicting expressions in her lovely face. Her face had been devoid of any emotion for so long. I could understand her embarrassment and excitement, but what was she proud of? Her heart rate was going through the roof. She was proud that I …wet my pants? She surely knows that vampires don't need to pee ….so she would know the only way I could have managed to do it would be through….my ..release and she was proud of it?

I gave her another side ways glance; she was smiling to herself. A very proud smile! Wait! Was she proud of me…. for ..for… releasing? I have read that giving a man pleasure makes a women proud. It was obvious from this situation that she was the reason for my little problem….so does it mean she's proud that she was able to …make me loose control? My sweet Bella was happy about something so… so.. The answer was obvious. Yes she was. I remembered the times she questioned me whether I really wanted her the way she wanted me. I had reassured her so many times that I did. I remembered what Alice said.

"Did she actually get confirmation of it?" "Physical evidence?" No. Bella had never got any confirmation of physical evidence. She had never felt my arousal. I had made sure of it. Now she had all the proof she wanted. The extent of her power to arouse me was demonstrated beyond any doubt. As embarrassing as it was to me, I had to admit that to my Bella it was proof that I did in fact desire her the way a man wanted a women. I felt very shy. I was walking on a very fine line between being happy that she finally knew how much I wanted her and my utter mortification at the thought that she knew. Does it mean she still cared? Cared that I wanted her that way? Cared that I loved her so much that I didn't have any control when it came to her? I felt a slow smile spread across my face at this thought. I also felt shy and ashamed by my improper thoughts.

"Edward are you alright?" Bella sounded worried.

I realized that I had been sitting there for a while lost in my epiphany and forgotten that my Bella had wanted me to take her home.

I was still smiling like an idiot when I offered her my arm and helped her to stand up. I still couldn't look her in the eye. I gathered all our books. I lovingly put one arm around her waist and gently held her in front of me while holding the book bags as a cover on the other side. There was no space left between us and the stain was not visible to any onlookers. I focused all my energy on not crushing her to me and hurting her. My length was hard already and pressed against her because of our proximity.

Then I smelt it! The unmistakable scent of her arousal! The urge to make love to her then and there and make her mine was so overwhelming that I was shaking all over. Electricity was running through my veins. Bella leaned into me backwards. Her heart was beating at a rapid pace. I walked her very slowly to the Volvo and carefully helped her into the passenger seat and then quickly got into the driving seat. I don't know how I managed to get to the car without any further mishap. I guess it was my need to protect my Bella that gave me enough control to hold on to my uncontrollable libido.

"Thank you Bella." I didn't know what else to say.

I gave her another sideways glance under my lashes. She didn't raise her head. She was smiling while looking down at her hands. She was twisting her fingers. She looked very nervous and shy. A delightful blush was on her face. She must have also realized what we had just shared. Did she connect it to last Saturday? I had to admit to myself that I wanted her to know even though it had been a very embarrassing moment for me. I wanted her to know that she was responsible for that first amazing moment I shared with her. I vowed to myself that if she ever got back together again with me I would tell her about that special moment that would forever be etched in my heart.

We got to the house and I was debating on what to do next. I had to get rid of my underwear and then the smell on my jeans. I didn't have any soap with me. The pixie was not going to help. I was doomed. Even a jump in the river as I already knew would not be much help. I rested my head on the steering wheel, trying to work up the courage to go home.

"Edward, what's wrong?"

"I'm trying to work up the courage to go home to face my family like this. There is no way out of it."

"Will washing your clothes help?" Her voice sounded tentative.

"I.. I don't have any soap or deodorizers."

"Come inside with me and I'll wash your clothes for you."

Oh! Thank god. "Thank you Bella. It would mean so much to me. You are saving me from an eternity of humiliation…."

She was once again saving me from certain humiliation. I still couldn't work up the courage to look at her but I quickly got down from the car and helped her into the house.

She went upstairs and handed me a towel and a bed sheet. I looked at the bed sheet questioningly.

"I … I don't have anything that would fit you. And I don't think you should wear Charlie's stuff he's sure to notice your … s…smell. You can take a shower while I wash your clothes."

Oh! So she can smell me too….. I didn't know whether to feel mortified or exultant.

"Bella I'll put them in the wash. Just give me a moment to change in the laundry."

She blushed and walked away to the kitchen. I quickly changed into the bed sheet and put my jeans and underwear in the wash with a lot of laundry detergent and started the wash.

"Ahem… Bella I'm going to take that shower now."

I grabbed my bag and went upstairs and washed myself very thoroughly with soap and also Bella's body wash. Then I put on one of Alice's new underwear. I felt really embarrassed doing it but there was nothing to it I was not going to risk another catastrophe. My ego should be able to stand the scandal in the face of possibly more devastating results if I didn't take precautions.

I shyly walked back downstairs to face Bella wearing the bed sheet in sarong fashion. She was in the sitting room munching on something and reading our notes from today. She was laughing to herself. Ooops! I had had no time to rewrite the Spanish notes without the teacher's thoughts as I'd planned to do before giving them to Bella.

"Bella, I'm sorry. I was going to remove the teacher's thoughts before giving them to you. I didn't get to do it. I'll do it now."

"No I'm enjoying this. Just let me keep this set."

I took a seat on the far side of the living room. I wasn't risking sitting near Bella.

Bella didn't make anymore conversation with me and continued to read the notes while I stared at the floor. I felt very awkward. I didn't know what to talk about either so I was relieved. When the wash finished I transferred my clothes to the dryer and was waiting for the cycle to end when I heard Charlie's thoughts, he was on his way home.

"Bella, Charlie's about to come home." Then I remembered the Volvo parked outside. Oh shit! He'd see it. I have to move it.

"Hide in my closet. You can't go out in the bed sheet. I'll bring your clothes to you when they are finished."

"I'll first hide the Volvo and then get to your room."

I quickly went out and moved the car, it was difficult to run around in a bed sheet and I snagged it against the tree in the front lawn in my hurry when I jumped back inside through Bella's window. I barely made it when Charlie's cruiser pulled up in front of the house. I saw Charlie notice the flutter of white against all the greenery and look up and in his thoughts wonder what a bed sheet was doing up the tree. He was also surprised to see Bella home. She explained that her wrist had started hurting and that she had decided to come home. She told him that I had given her a lift for which Charlie just grunted. I could tell he was not very happy with this piece of information.

He then asked her the unavoidable question.

"Bella what is a bed sheet doing up in the tree in front?

Bella choked on her munchies. I saw her blush and splatter for a long moment through Charlie's eyes before she finally answered Charlie.

"I just hung it out to air."

Charlie thought it odd but didn't pursue the matter. He was too hungry. So he went straight to the kitchen to eat something.

I had the new underwear on protecting my modesty along with my jacket and t-shirt but felt very under dressed. I was now very glad I had put the underwear on. I hid deep in Bella's closet and took one of her Jackets and spread it across my lap.

I heard Bella's door close and lock. Then I heard her open the closet door. I held on tightly to the jacket.

She was looking away while blushing deeply. She quickly handed over my clothes and closed the closet door. Oh! shit, she must be thinking I'm half naked. I wanted to correct her but then realized it would mean that she would get to know about what exactly I was wearing. I decided 'naked' was better than explaining why I had extra underwear so I didn't say anything. I quickly put my clothes on. They smelt fresh, no unwanted substances affecting the smell. I heaved a sigh of relief. I came out of the closet.

"Bella, thanks for everything. I… I don't know what to say…"

"It's ok Edward. Let's pretend this didn't happen. You don't have to talk to me about it…."

I got down on my knees in front of her and took her hands in mine as she sat on the bed.

"I… I.. just wanted you to know how much I appreciate what you did for me today….you… you saved me from an eternity of disgrace. I am much ashamed of my very ungentlemanly conduct and beg your forgiveness if it offended your sensibilities in anyway. Please accept my humble apology. I assure you that what happened was unintentional and beyond my control. Please forgive me."

There I said it. I basically told her that I had no control over the whole shameful incident. I felt so vulnerable to expose myself like this to her but I wanted her to know the truth. I had promised myself that I would never lie to her again. I finally found the courage to look into her eyes.

They were glittering with tears….and so much emotion.. and care? Was it love….? I didn't dare to hope. She smiled through her tears and nodded her head in acceptance. I kissed her hand.

"I'll go home now, or… may be I should go back to school…I guess I'll go to school. Then I'll be able to take the rest of the notes for you. Do you want to come?"

"N..No.." Her voice was shaking.

I smiled at her with all the love in my heart. I hoped it would convey what I was helpless to utter….that I loved her….I was afraid to say the words aloud.. I was scared to spoil this precious moment.

"Take care Bella. Just call if you need anything."

It was with a very relieved heart and a lot of hope for the future that I jumped out of the window and ran to the Volvo.

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