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BPOV
I was looking forward to seeing Edward again today. To be honest I missed having him with me through the night. But I knew I was not ready for that. As I got down from the cruiser I searched the parking lot for them in their usual place. I was surprised and delighted to see Jasper. I had wanted to talk to him and let him know that I never blamed him for what happened at the party. I knew he must be feeling very guilty about it. I walked eagerly towards them.
"Good morning Bella." Alice ran forward and gave me her usual hug. "Look who came to see you today."
I turned to Edward. I wanted to see that crooked smile he gave me last night.
"Good morning Bella."
He touched my shoulder a little awkwardly and pressed a kiss on my forehead. What? No kisses on the lips? I was feeling very disappointed. I had hoped he would give me one of those passionate kisses at least a kiss on my lips. He smiled at me but it was not the sexy smile I loved. This one was more reserved. Something was up. I knew it. And why was Jasper here? I could only think of one reason. My blood was boiling I was so angry. Stupid vampires and their gifts! I knew Edward would manipulate the situation to his advantage. The two timing…. wait till I get my hands on him.
"Hello Bella, it's really nice to see you again."
I turned to Jasper. He looked very guilty. I really didn't want to take out my anger on him. Jasper held his hands behind his back and gave a small bow. I had to smile at his antics. He's playing the role of a proper Southern gentleman I guess. I couldn't help loving the Cullen's for their little quirks. They try very hard to blend into the modern day and age but their mannerisms sometimes gave them away. I guess it was not that apparent to an outside observer but for me it had always been fun watching their human charade which sometimes was more suited to the late 1800's or the early 1900's.
"It's great to see you too Jasper. So what brings you here today?"
I could see sadness in his eyes. He looked very ashamed. I realized why. I was feeling more and more angry at Edward for putting poor Jasper through all this.
"Bella I came to apologise to you for my behaviour on your previous birthday. I never got to say how sorry I am for all the trouble I caused… I am deeply …."
"Please Jasper. You don't have to say anymore. I never really had any grudge against you I think I forgave you right then and there itself. I know you couldn't help it at that time. I'm sure it will never happen again. So are we cool?"
I knew he could feel what I was feeling and thought about how much I care for him and how much he was like a brother to me.
A huge smile spread across his face. I could feel a lot of relief. I knew it was his feelings getting projected to me.
"Yes Bella we are cool."
"Can I give you a hug Jasper?"
I first looked at Alice and she nodded yes and then at Edward. I could see he looked a bit apprehensive but didn't try to stop me. Jasper was still smiling and he held out his hands. I slowly approached him and gave him a huge hug and a kiss on his cheek.
"That was long over due! Did you know that you are the only Cullen who I didn't get a hug from?"
"Yes I knew Bella."
"Well we have to make up for a lot of hugs then. Well I guess I'd better get to class it's getting late. Shall we?" I looked at Alice and Edward.
Alice bounced forward but Edward hesitated.
"I will just be a minute. I have to talk to Jasper about something. See you in class."
And he waved at me. He seemed distracted. So he wanted to know the feed back of his little research. I was seething inside now. I turned to Alice. She seemed to be in high spirits.
"Alice is something wrong?"
"No Bella something is right. You are going out with him again aren't you? I'm so happy we can be sisters again."
She hugged me and nearly lifted me off the floor in her enthusiasm. I saw several people look our way.
"Alice people are watching. Put me down. You can't lift a heavy person like me."
"Oh sorry I forgot. Anyway I'm so happy and now we ….."
"Alice give me sec. I need to talk to you. And this is very important."
She looked at the serious look on my face and nodded solemnly.
"Are you my friend?"
"Yes of course Bella."
"Will you always tell me the truth?"
"Yes Bella I promise."
"Ok then did you have another vision of Victoria?"
"No I didn't Bella. That's the thing I have these little glimpses of something going on in Seattle. You must have read about the killings there right?"
"Yes I have."
"But there is nothing solid. I would tell you as soon as I get a good vision. Trust me on this Bella. I have learnt my lesson. I will not hide anything from you ever again and I promise to be the best friend and sister you ever had. I will not let Edward get in the way of our friendship again."
"It's good to hear that Alice because I am going to ask you to do something for me."
"Whatever you want Bella."
"I want you to promise that you will not interfere in my relationship with Edward and that you will never ever lie to me."
"Of course I won't Bella. I love it that you are back together again."
"I mean Alice I don't want you to tell him of future visions you have of the two of us together; the way our relationship will progress ok?"
"Oh you mean you want me to keep him in the dark about what is going to happen between you two?"
"Yes Alice. I don't want his decisions to be based on your visions. For example let's say he wanted to take me out to dinner and wanted to see which restaurant I would prefer. I don't want you to help him if he asked you to scan visions of how I would react to each one so that he can select the best. I want his decisions to be based on what he knows of me and what he thinks I would like. Not everyone has psychic sisters to guide them and I want our relationship to be a normal one as much as possible."
"I understand Bella. No more psychic help! He's going to hate it but what the hell he should learn to make his own mistakes."
"I'm glad you agree. But I do want you to still keep a look out on security issues. If you have a vision of us getting into trouble you have to interfere and stop it ok? I mean not only in the case of Victoria but other trouble like your mud bath."
"Ok. Sure I'll help."
"And I want you to get the same promise from Jasper."
"Why would you say that?"
"Alice I know why Jasper came here today. He didn't come here to apologise to me. He came because Edward wanted to know what I feel for him. Am I right? Don't start lying to me now Alice, remember your promise?"
Her face fell. I could tell I was right. That two timing…..idiotic vampire. I was furious. She gave me a small nod to say yes.
"I'm sorry Bella. I promise you this is the last time any of us will interfere in things."
"Ok I believe you Alice. Now I need some security help. Which broom closet is the safest today after lunch?"
I saw a small smile spread across her face.
"I know you know Alice. And I know you've made use of them. I may be human but I do notice things like you and Jasper pulling off disappearing acts now and then."
"The one near the ladies room should be ok right after lunch. And Mr. Banner will be late today for his class. You should have at least 10 minutes of free time between lunch and the start of the class."
She was grinning like an idiot.
"Remember your promise Alice no warnings. And please do let Edward know if there are any…. I mean security breeches you foresee during the course of the … mission. But anything before that you can inform me, got it?"
"Sure Bella." She was beaming and looked really excited. I really hoped she wouldn't get any visions!
"And don't look at any visions you see ok? I know you can't help getting them but Edward told me once that you can sort of ignore the ones you didn't really want to see."
"Sure Bella. I will give you privacy. I'm not a voyeur and I really do not want to see my brother in action again! I saw enough yesterday." She gave me a sly grin.
The little pixie! I felt myself blush a deep hue of red.
Edward's POV
I had been surprised by what happened yesterday night and happy too. Bella had agreed to let me court her. She had looked so beautiful in that night dress. I could just make out her figure in the loose fitting garment. I had itched to pull at the little belt at her waist holding her overcoat together. I wondered what she wore underneath. I had seen a bit of lace peeking out of her neck line. How I loved the scent in her neck….. so soft.
I had been mortified when she told me that it was the sound of me moaning that broke through her consciousness and made her stop the kiss. I hoped none of the other students had heard it. They had not thought about it at least so hopefully they didn't hear anything. She had actually told me that she would like me to kiss her again without the audience. Someone had immediately stood at attention upon hearing that invitation. I had quickly shifted my legs and hugged them to me covering my erection from her. I felt ashamed at my immediate reaction to her words. Then she had apologized for it. It was so sweet. I knew my Bella would feel embarrassed at her slip of tongue and I had admitted my feelings to her in an attempt at easing the awkwardness.
I had finally got to hold her to me again. I couldn't believe it when she let me kiss her good night. The feeling of kissing Bella again was amazing. I had been unable to stop myself from declaring my love for her and she had immediately pulled back. I was so scared that she would retreat to her shell again but she had listened to what I wanted. I think this is the first time we really communicated out feelings for each other in an open manner since my return. I couldn't believe it when she said that she didn't love me anymore. I was sure that it was a lie. She was just punishing me for all that I put her through. I decided the best way to know for sure was to have Jasper read her emotions. I was angry at myself for not thinking of this before. I should have brought him on to the scene right after we returned. It would have saved me a lot of anxiety for Bella's wellbeing.
Bella looked happy to see me at school. I could tell she was surprised to see Jasper. I knew Bella would forgive him but I was stunned and scared when she decided to hug him. But Jasper assured me he was in control so I let her hug him. She had just gone off to class. Jasper's mind was a jumble of emotions so I really couldn't get what he was feeling from Bella so I decided to stay behind and ask him what she felt. He gave me a sly grin.
"Impatient aren't we? Well, she definitely felt desire. It was obvious she lusted after you."
"What about her feelings? Did she feel the same love she used to feel for me when she was around me those days?"
"She cares about you. She really loves and cares about Alice I could tell it when she hugged her. She was also very happy to see me. I think she loves me a little too. She was scared that I would feel guilty and she had feelings of forgiveness and sisterly love in her mind towards me."
"But what about love for me?"
"I don't know how to tell you this…. But I guess I should be honest with you. Her love for you would be about the same she felt for Alice. She felt protective towards both of you and cared about you. She was also feeling a lot more lust for you than she had before. The way she looked at you when she got here confirms it. But as for love….. no Edward. The over whelming love she felt for you those days was definitely not there."
I felt myself crumpling….. the hole in my heart opening up…I held on to my chest. I felt a hand around my shoulders and calm and brotherly love surrounded me.
"I'm sorry Edward….. I didn't want to lie to you. Her feelings for you might still be there…. Buried deep but I can't recognize them unless she shows them. She still cares about you and is friends with you. That should count for a lot right? You can win back her love Edward. You both fell in love at first sight last time so you never went through the slow build up of love did you? May be this time you can take your time to court her and win her hand. You have another advantage she definitely wants you. And from what I read of your feelings and the things that have been happening to you, you also want her in ways you have never wanted her before. Don't give up Edward."
"I'll try" I heard myself promising.
"I'm sorry Edward. All this is my fault if I hadn't…" I stopped him there. I knew how deeply he regretted his loss of control. He had apologized to me so many times for it.
"It was my fault Jasper. What happened was a natural reaction for our kind. But I shouldn't have used that as an excuse and broken up with her. I should have valued and treasured and trusted in her love. Not thrown it back at her. She's my mate Jasper and I am going to do everything I can to make her mine again.
When I got to class Bella ignored me. I looked at Alice.
"Edward she knows why you brought Jasper to school. She figured it out. And don't ask me anymore questions. I have made a promise to her not tell you of any visions I have of your relationship and I plan to keep that promise. So you are on your own."
Holy shit! What am I going to do now? She really looks angry. Should I apologise? That will only make her more angry. Guess I should try to act normal. I slowly put my hand under the desk and touched her hand. She didn't pull it away but kept her eyes on the teacher. Her heart rate also didn't increase. This is really puzzling. Well I will just have to play it by ear. I felt really helpless. I held her hand when we walked to our next three classes. She still didn't speak with me. At lunch she completely ignored me. I still had my hand around her shoulders and she didn't remove it but didn't acknowledge it either. I guess it's time to apologise.
"Bella I'm sorry about bringing Jasper to school. I just had to know."
"Fine. Just don't do things like that again. So did you learn anything new?" She looked angry.
"Actually no. He just confirmed what you said last night. I'm so sorry Bella."
"It's ok. If you want this to work you have to learn to trust me. I have been truthful about my feelings for you. And I expect the same courtesy from you. I'm having a hard time trying to learn to trust you again Edward. You are making it more and more difficult with your little schemes. Please don't do that to me."
"I won't Bella. I promise."
"Ok fine." We were now walking past the girls rest rooms.
"Wait here." She rushed into it to have a human moment. I waited for her near the door.
She came running out a moment later. "I need your help Edward. It's an emergency. I need some cleaning liquid from the cleaning closet over there. Can you help me get it?"
"Sure Bella." Her heart rate was up. She looked really agitated.
"Can you hear anyone? I don't want anyone to see us going in there." We had just turned into the adjoining hallway leading to the broom closet.
"No Bella no one's here." I quickly opened the closet and switched the light on so that Bella could see.
Just then I heard the door close behind us and Bella grabbed hold of me and pushed me against the wall. And started to kiss me!
Good god. She got me in here for this… I couldn't believe it. My first instinct was to rush out. What if someone caught us? I didn't want another visit with Mr. Morgan the Vice Principal.
Bella was now pressing against me. Her softness against my hardness. I felt myself hardening immediately. I couldn't resist her. I kissed her back ardently. Her soft lips felt heavenly. I stroked her silky hair…. She felt so soft. She was sucking at my bottom lip. I took deep breathes while holding her tightly to me. I felt intoxicated by the smell of her arousal. Her hands were roaming on my chest. She was feeling me. It felt so nice to have her warm hands on me. The heat radiating through her body to mine warmed me all over. I rubbed my check against her hair giving her a moment to breath. Then I felt it; a tiny shock running through my right nipple. I looked down. She was squeezing my nipple. Oh good lord. Was it ok? Was it improper? She bit my other nipple through the t-shirt. I couldn't help the moan that escaped my lips at the pleasure coursing through me. I couldn't think anymore. I could only feel. I could feel wetness from her mouth creeping through the t-shirt. I was going to loose control if she continued with this torture. I pulled her head back up and ravaged her lips. I touched her derriere and squeezed it pulling her closer to my need. I couldn't help it. I knew it was improper to do that to a lady but I had wanted to do that to Bella for so long. She had a very enticing firm behind and I had only ever lightly caressed it.
My nipples were now aching for her touch. I could feel hers very erect against my t-shirt. Would it be ok if I touched Bella's breast? I was debating whether to do this or not while running my hands against her back when I heard Alice yelling at me in my head.
"Edward, Edward…. Jessica and Mike are heading for the closet"
For a moment I was distracted. Then I realized what she meant. I had been so engrossed with Bella I hadn't heard their thoughts. Should we move? I really didn't want to. What would they think if they caught us like this? I realized that I really did want them to see that Bella and I were together. I wanted Mike Newton to know that Bella was mine and I wanted Jessica to stop having her offensive thoughts about me. We were decent. We had not removed any clothes and the wet stains on my chest could not be seen that well since I wore black today. I decided to stay where we were and enjoy some more of Bella's kisses. I lightly traced the line of her bra on her back. I knew she always wore one. In fact she wore one to bed. Was that normal? I knew other women didn't from the thoughts I'd heard. Hers closed in the back….. would I ever dare to unclasp it? May be some day…..
"Oh sorry! We didn't know it was occupied. Sorry if we interrupted anything." It was Jessica. She was looking wide eyed at both Bella and me.
I felt Bella blush deeply beside me. She looked questioningly at me. I shrugged. She must be wondering why I didn't hear them approaching.
"My god they are doing it for sure. They both look as if they have just finished having sex. Her lips are swollen. She looks flushed and very sexy. Wish I could do that to her."
Mike was thinking.
"He's really going at it with her. Wonder whether I can catch another glance at his… Lauren said it was huge."
Jessica really had a vulgar mind. I quickly pulled Bella in front of me before she could look down. I knew what she would find there and I didn't want her to see me like that. I wanted to share that part of me only with my Bella and I didn't want anyone else to have any speculations.
"Ahem.. we just finished you can have the closet. See you in class."
Bella quickly pulled me and started walking towards class. I didn't really want to leave the sanctuary of the closet. I didn't want our little interlude to end…. But I followed Bella to class. There are always other closets and other places that I could take my Bella to… my mind was going through all the possibilities.