A/N: For those who were interested in the Lemon Scene and didn't get it I couldn't pm you because it was blocked. Or you didn't have an e-mail to reach you! My apologize! Alot more people wanted to read that thing than I expected. I am in the middle of re-editing that lemon scene as a stand alone piece... and posting it in the mature section on ff dot net. For those who can't wait, just e-mail me on my ff net home page. It seems like the best way.

By the way... anyone see Mila Kunis at SAG awards... just when you think she can't get any hotter... Schawing...

Thanks for the huge support everyone. Keep the fandom growing!

Act V: Closer

The sounds of plastic clothes hangers clinging together woke her. It was definitely different than the usual alarm clock Nina was used to. This morning routine was shook up… kind of like her life was last night in a tumbling and provocative display.

It all started with a kiss and ended in a blur.

Because of that Nina didn't get up right away. Saying she was a bit nervous just didn't do it justice. Her eyes were wide open, her body still coiled up in the warmth of her soft blankets. Nina kept hearing the noises. She knew her ears couldn't have been lying but she still had doubts. The questions of what was real and what was a hallucination still frightened her. The fragrant smell of sex had to mean something. Lily's voice humming had to be a validation. A peak over to her closet and a wet haired and towel wrapped Lily in daylight was the final confirmation she needed.

Yesterday really happened…

"Yay, you're finally awake." Lily ran a towel through her hair as that voice was as calm as ever, shaking off the excess moisture. "I hope you don't mind that I used your shower."

"N-no, not at all." Nina stammered under her breath, not even looking or acting like someone who scored with the "it" girl at her previous job. Of course Nina didn't have a drunken façade to hide her awkwardness anymore, her naked body feeling like some sort of tainted shame that she wasn't ready to share with anyone yet.

"How was last night for you?" Lily on the other hand was expectedly as comfortable and relaxed as can be. "Damn that wine tastes like crap but gets the job done doesn't it?"

This certainly was different then the last time she awoke in bed to find no one there…

Nina tried to remember the previous night, only blushing madly at the flashing thoughts of being intimate with Lily. Once again it was almost like she wasn't herself. Feeding into something deep within that honestly felt detached from her very soul.

She could only conjure a silent nod towards Lily, sitting up in the bed, still coiled up tightly in her bed sheets like she was in a cocoon. Lily waltzed over, going under the bed to dig for something, kneeling over and picking up a pair of panties. A nice little purple and black number which was spilt right down the middle in a shredding tear. Nina partly recalled how that happened and this was surely a cheek burner.

"This is what you did last night…" Lily laughed in amazement at recollection, tossing it around in her hand like a Frisbee. "Pretty intense if you ask me…"

"Oh my God…" Nina was extremely apologetic even with just her facial expressions. "I'm sorry Lily! I… didn't know what got into me last night."

"Cheap wine got into you." Lily made a playful face, really sensing how tense her friend was at the moment soon after. "Hey, relax Nina… we just had sex. It doesn't need to be weird."

Easy for you to say…

"I… I'm sorry…" Nina could only reply with apologetic words for some reason. "It's just... I've never done this kind of thing… before."

Why did I just say that?

"Whoa, whoa, whoa." Lily's eyes seemed to double in size. "Are you telling me… uh… Did I just pop your cherry last night?"

Nina could only nod in embarrassment.

"Wow okay… that's um… totally cool." Lily knew she wanted to be as respectful as she could be. How could someone as beautifully enticing as Nina be a virgin until last night? Her sheltered nature apparently knew no bounds. "Hey Nina, honestly if you didn't tell me just now? I thought you've been doing this for quite a while."

"… R-really?" Nina didn't know whether to feel complimented or to just melt underneath her blankets from discomfort overload.

"Yep, it seems to me that beneath all that properness… there's a little freak waiting to get out." Lily sat down next to her giggling, her suggestive stare cutting right through Nina's embarrassment. "It's always the quiet ones huh?"

Nina could only amusingly let down her guard. Lily really was one of the few if not the only she could trust. How far this relationship has come was just about as amazing as Nina still being alive.

"H-hey!"

All sentimental thought stopped as Lily tossed her panties onto Nina's face.

"You should keep these. So you can think of me when you… know…"

"Lily! Come on…" Nina just glared back at her in disbelief, peeling away the underwear from her confused façade as Lily just amused away.

"Like I said just relax… It's all good." Lily covered her giggly mouth. "Hehe…. Laugh a little."

Apparently Nina wasn't so ready for the pantie humor, Lily calming herself quite quickly.

On a more sensual note, Lily's hands began to stroke Nina's hair, fingers caressing her like a fine comb. Nina couldn't even react at what happened next as Lily gently pressed her lips against hers, a little innocent peck the apparent exclamation point on what happened last night. Nina may have been quiet with a glazed gaze but inside her emotions were on a roller coaster that was careening off its tracks. She'd lost her virginity. She'd made love with her rival. She'd had sex… with her friend.

Unlike her, Lily was so calm. Were things any different now?

"Hey speaking of panties, I need to talk to you about your wardrobe." Lily adjusted her towel, making sure they rode on that budding chest. "We need to get you some clothes."

"W-what?" Nina blinked. "But… I have plenty of clothes…"

"Yes you do… but hmm… how can I put this lightly…" Lily had to think, subtlety wasn't one of her strong points. "Ah, okay. I think a Nun has a better chance of giving a guy a hard-on than the stuff you wear dear."

Nina gasped. "I-it… it can't be that bad."

"Nina, you're a sexy woman and we need to get you to dress the part." Lily got up walking to the bathroom, grabbing the hairdryer. "Are you free later on tonight?"

Nina actually paused a bit in mocking thought. Without ballet Nina was sure she could've have made some time… who was she kidding?

"Yes… I'm free."

"Alright then. After practice today we'll meet back here. This is going to be too much fun!" Lily had a sparkle to her smile, one of a childish excitement. "Okay, I gotta head to the studio now and a get a head start. Don't you have that therapy session to go to?"

"… A head start?" Nina just stared at her as if she was a psycho. "Okay, where's the real Lily I know and what have you done with her?"

"Aw, you got me! I'm an alien and I sucked her brains out and took her body. Now go get ready." Lily patted her head and leapt up off the bed, having a hop to her step again. Nina just smiled as she disappeared into the closet to change.

Nina took a glance to the closet door, waiting for it to close before let out a deep breath, the moment really hitting her like a sack of bricks. She crumpled back into bed spreading herself in complete relaxation, staring dreamily at the ceiling. She couldn't deny it anymore. For the first time in so long… she felt…

Happy.

- B – B – B -

To the naked eye it seemed just like a normal practice. Thomas was in his usual spot, that eagle eye examining position next to the pianist, making sure the music flowed alongside the choreography he laid out like a sonic blueprint. The ballet dancers did not seem out of sync at all, everyone doing their part quite well from muscle memory. Sure, fatigue was setting in as it would after a long grueling practice but all in all this was a grand effort. For Thomas he was locked in one source of the smooth practice. The one ballerina that needed to step up was certainly elevating the rest.

"Thomas, I've brought the Black Swan outfit variation Lily wanted."

Thomas peaked over to his old costume designer of many years Georgina, one of the few he trusted to not be so hands on with that area of his production. Georgina's expertise let the busy man have one less thing to worry about. He glances at the variation Lily wished to have on the Black Swan outfit with a quick gaze and nods. She had wanted something different than what Nina had to distinguish herself. As long as Lily would dance the part correctly he didn't mind at all.

"I made it more 'slutty' as Lily wished…" Georgina laughed, holding it up for Thomas to see. "That girl is ball of laughter let me tell you…"

"It looks fine to me. Thank you Georgina." Thomas quickly peered back to his dancers, watching Lily attack the practice like it was show time.

"Good heavens, what's gotten into our Swan Queen today?" Georgina also took notice of the notched up intensity, leaning on the piano, admiring God's athletes at work.

"I am not sure…" Thomas tapped a finger on his chin to the beat, watching as Lily never missed a step. "I found her this morning… the first ballet dancer here. And she's been going at it like this since the beginning of practice."

"Did you give her the usual Thomas Leroy pep talk?"

"… I don't know what I said…" Thomas grinned. "But whatever I said? I should do so more often."

The differences were dramatic. She wasn't coasting like usual. It was like Lily was channeling a certain perfect someone through her dance. Almost like she was dancing for more than herself. Like she was dancing for two.

"Yes! That's more I like it." Lily gave a little fist bump as the last note sounded in final pose, letting out a deep breath as she couldn't remember the last time she pushed her body this far just in one practice session.

"Bravo Lily!" Thomas clapped as he walked towards his dancers. "And that is how it should be done every time."

"Wow is that my new costume?" Lily peered over, almost disregarding praise from Thomas. "Oh my God it looks great even from here! Thanks Georgina!" She blew her kisses.

"You're welcome dear. Keep up the good work. You're amazing."

Lily gave her a wink as she began to walk around in circles in a rounding patrol, almost thinking to herself, seemingly analyzing her steps, shaking off her tense muscles. Thomas smirked at the changes in his Swan Queen. The role of a lifetime deserved this. Lily was beginning to let it all seep into her soul. This role was becoming hers slowly but surely.

"I think we can end practice early. The last two runs were pretty much flawless."

"One more time…"

All the ballerinas and ballerinos blinked in disbelief, turning on a dime, staring at the person that said it like an elephant in the room. That was something they all expected from the previous Swan Queen, not Ms. Laid Back girl from San Francisco. Lily took a peak around and turned to Thomas as if she didn't understand the situation.

"Did I stutter?" Lily pointed one finger in the air. "I said one… more…. time."

"Heh… you heard her everyone." Thomas smiled to himself, walking to his position next to the piano, preparing the background music. He clapped his hands. "One more time! Let's go!"

"Aw man…" Terry sighed, slumping over as he was really hoping for an early night.

"Oh come on big boy. You can handle it." Lily teased as she suddenly gave him a nice firm tap in his crotch area, making him jump up in a grimace.

"Gah! Lily!"

- B – B – B –

After practice the main make up area for the girls as always was gossip city, the girls buzzing away at rumors and deprecating anyone else that wasn't in the room. Gailana and Madeline were probably the two guiltiest of this. They were known as the loud mouths of this production for sure. The gossip girls of Swan Lake.

"My God what got into Lily today?" Gailana packed her kit into her bag. "She was impressive no?"

"Yeah, really impressive at making us all look bad." Madeline took her shot as she was combing her hair in the lit up mirrors. "I thought we were done with that shit when Nina left. She's supposed to be one of the girls."

"True but, it's nice to see her do well! She seems like a level headed girl." Gailana appeared to be the softer of the two.

"For now..." Madeline corrected. "They're all the same. Beth went big headed and that lasted for a downward spiral of a couple years. Look where she's at now."

"It's freaking ridiculous." Veronica suddenly stepped in from the darkness of the entrance, smirking to herself. "But Madeline you're so right. I'm counting down the days when Lily finally cracks. She's from a small fry dancing area. She won't last at this rate."

Gailana blinked, grabbing some gum and popping it in her mouth. "I guess I'm the only one rooting for Lily?"

"Why are you rooting for someone who's a job stealing whore?" Veronica skewed at her peer. "She waltzes in here like hot shit from nowhere and backed each and everyone of us back a couple years. That's not fucking fair!"

"Uh, I guess that makes sense…" Gailana shrugged.

"You bet your ass it makes sense." Veronica hisses, taking a seat in frustration. "Well at least Nina's out of the picture now so it evens out a bit. Poor little girl. She's talented but she just couldn't hang with big players. The pressure drove Little Ms. Perfect crazy…"

"Ahem…"

Like a disturbance in the air, everyone peaked over to see the Swan Queen they had been talking about standing in the doorway not all that amused. Madeline was wondering how long she had been listening in. Gailana felt bad just being in this type of conversation as her bubble she was blowing popped on cue. And Veronica was just looking at her so innocent, not really giving a crap what Lily heard or didn't hear.

"Well ladies, I just came by to pick up a hair dryer I let someone borrow…" Lily waltzed in very casually all smiles.

"Oh…r-right... here ya go Lily." Madeline grinned a false smile, placing the blow dryer in her hand.

"Thank you…" Lily said it firmly, pulling it away, strutting out the door as the girls just looked at one another like they dodged a bullet.

"Oh darn,I forgot to mention something…" Lily timely poked her head back in. "Talk all the shit about me behind my back you want because that's your cowardly problem. But if any of you mention Nina again? I'm going to have to shove your ballerina slippers down your throats."

The girls gulped.

"Hah, what are you now? Her protector?" Veronica giggled, apparently the only openly defiant one.

"How could you talk down to someone who gave it all on stage like that?" Lily was so disappointed, crossing her arms.

"Oh don't get me wrong. She's a great dancer! Much better than the current Queen I must say." Veronica rolled her eyes in the insult. Gailana and Madeline just looked at one another with faces that screamed that they didn't like where this was going.

"Ouch, I sense some bitterness in this room." Lily clutched her heart mockingly. "You know if you spent as much effort in improving yourself as insulting me maybe you wouldn't be Thomas' little bitch that he's been riding for years and getting nothing out of."

"W-what did you say?" Veronica gritted her teeth, standing up.

"Hmm, I know how you can be helpful since you've clearly lost a step Veronica." Lily mockingly put a finger to her lip. "Why don't you be a baby doll and wake up early tomorrow, straighten up my costume for me, get me a tall glass of Starbucks coffee, and bring me breakfast into my dressing room. Because that's the closest you'll ever be to the lead role…"

"Why you little BITCH!" Veronica suddenly lunged at Lily but was caught my Galiana and Madeline, the angry ballerina struggling to get her hands on Lily.

"Whoa looks like I hit a nerve… can't take what you put out now can you?" Lily laughed at Veronica teasingly, backing away slowly as she waved. "That goes for any of you. Got something to say to me? I'm right down the hallway! I'll gladly play your games."

Lily took off with a victorious strut, satisfied with ruffling Veronica's feathers more so than she ever thought it could gratify. It was official she had her groove back. At this moment in time everyone knew that this wasn't the soft spoken Nina they were dealing with anymore. The Queen's territory was now marked.

- B – B – B –

( Time Square | Shopping Centre )

"Hey come on Nina, you've been in there for like five minutes now!"

"Okay, okay… I'm just making sure everything is on… er…. right…" Nina muttered if not just to appease impatience, tightening the belt around her thin waist with a nice fastening.

"Well hurry your toush up!" Lily huffed cross legged, leaning against the seat, playing a furious game of Angry Birds on her phone to aid her wait.

Nina curled her lip, brushing off the egging voice outside as she brought her attention back onto herself. Self-confidence about her image was never a strength of hers and this was a test. With a slide of cloth over her face, she strapped on the rose toned spaghetti string top Lily picked out for her. Sliding the two straps against her smooth pale shoulders, tugging the top straight so it hugged in the right spots, her outfit was now complete.

Thus began the stare down for the ages.

She couldn't really explain it. It was like looking at someone else, eyeing herself from head to toe. High heels, skintight jeans, and a sexy top was probably a club girl like Lily's nice casual wear. Nina had the strangest feeling inside. Sure, the hip clothes made a difference but there was something different about her beyond the clothes she was wearing.

It was like all the things she had been through. All the pain and suffering. The surviving. The remnants of all that was all written on her face and body. Somewhere and sometime in the past few months she grew up. She wasn't a sweet little girl stuck in a grown up's body anymore. She was a sexy young woman now. A beautiful young woman. Something she never knew she could be…

"Whoa Nina Sayers es muy caliente!" Lily clapped her Spanish flare as Nina walked out of the dressing room stall, still feeling a bit strange about this whole make over ordeal. Granted she was having as much fun as Lily did but in a much quieter manner.

"… So this looks good?" Nina twirled around to get a glimpse from behind, the pants hugging her skinny frame quite perfectly.

"Yep, you are definitely going to break a lot of hearts madam." Lily inspected her friend from behind. "Too bad us ballerinas can't have big asses though." She playfully bopped Nina in the rear.

"Lily!" Nina blushed as she spun back in a defensive sway, looking around if anyone saw.

"What? I'm just sayin'." Lily nodded in approval as she continued her inspection. "It's official. I think this one is a keeper. To me it says like… I'm a nice girl… but my fiery side will burn you… so proceed with caution."

Nina just laughed at her friend's words of wisdom as she continued to look in the mirror. She felt like she was being pampered. Like some sort of fashion model.

"Alright now, here's some of things you picked out which surprised me." Lily, the shopping professional, had an entire rack set up, pulling out a skimpy black number with a short skirt. "How about you try this one out?"

Nina blinked looking at it. "Uh, you know, I only chose that one so you wouldn't make fun of my 'old lady' tastes anymore." She paraphrased Lily quite gracefully.

"That's still no excuse… put it on!" Lily shoo'd Nina into the dressing room, the newest mannequin tumbling into the dresser with yet another outfit to put to the test.

"To make sure that you won't take a century I'll be in here this time."

"Lily!" Nina had an almost horrified look on her face as gasped. Lily kicked the door, the entrance to the dressing room stall locking behind them. "What are you doing?" She whispered aloud.

"Oh come on, no one's going to catch us… well, unless you want to be caught that is." Lily purred quietly, suddenly pushing Nina gently against the wall, leaning her weight on her in the most seductive pin Nina had only seen in movies.

"A-are you really doing this right now?" Nina blinked as the unpredictability of Lily still was an amazing thing, the black winged babe pinning her there with naughty ideas written all over her facial expressions.

"Oh come on… it'll be fun…." Lily reached down and began unbuckling her belt. "Think adventure… think action…."

"B-but in here? Right now?" Nina gasped as she stood there like a helpless little damsel.

"What… you don't want to…?" Lily gently pulled down those jeans.

Of… course… I want to…

Nina didn't reply just letting Lily undress her, silently staring at her. Lily smirked as her perky little body pressed up against Nina's. She could even feel her old rivals increased heartbeat.

"Wow you really want to do this in a public place…" Lily giggled to herself suddenly backing off. "Isn't that just cute? Sorry but… I'm just not comfortable doing it here… I'm just so… proper you know."

"Ugh…" Nina's face grew into a scowl as crossed her arms ashamed. It was a sad truth but Lily had her wrapped around her little finger. She was like some sort of puppet master to the animal inside her. And whenever she felt like it she could coy it to come out. Just like last night…

"W-we're not going to talk about it anymore soon are we?" Nina began to change into her other outfit.

"Talk about what sweet lips?" Lily sat down on the bench built into the dresser.

"Last night…"

"Oh… I didn't know that we were supposed to talk about it." Lily shrugged. "I liked it. Did you like it?"

"Uh… yes but-"

"Then what's there to talk about?"

"Well I don't know…" Nina began sliding the black dress over her. "Maybe about our-"

Ring Tone: Can't read my! Can't read my! He can't read my Poker Face!

"Hold onto that thought dear." Lily grabbed at her phone much to the chagrin of Nina, reading her text with much enthusiasm.

"You look really excited about something…" Nina adjusted her dress pulling it down as she once again was doing mirror inspection. The only thing her mind was fixated on was that she showing off a little more leg than she was more comfortable to do. It wasn't right for her to do this. She couldn't get it into her head. She was actually… sexy.

"Oh dear God! Okay we gotta get out of here quick." Lily bounced up and down.

"What?" Nina blinked. "Why?"

"Have you ever been to a Nine Inch Nails concert?" Lily could have been foaming at the mouth as rabid as she was acting.

"No… is it like some sort of Rock Band?"

"Some sort of Rock Band?" Lily shivered. "You poor deprived child only listening to that violin music." She stroked her cheek. "Don't you worry my little ballet fiend. Lily will give you your music fix. My friend just texted me about a concert happening tonight across the MTV lot. I even got some ear plugs if it gets too loud for you. You up for it?"

"I guess so… why not?" Nina smiled.

"Alright!" Lily grabbed her hand like an excited child on Christmas Day. "Let's get this stuff paid for and get out of here. We're gonna be late!" She took a gander at Nina again smirking at how the dress fit her. "Huh, well at least I know I have the hottest friend date for the concert."

"You're just saying that because I agreed to go…"

Lily only winked in reply.

- B – B – B -

Tossing the tip to the less than polite taxi driver Lily and Nina scrambled down the Time Square crowd to beat the jam. High heeling it all the way down with the grace of ballerinas Nina was surprised when Lily caused them to stop putting on the breaks as she sniffed the air. Nina groaned as she almost twisted her ankle overstepping the sidewalk.

"Before we walk in, follow me." Lily pulled her over to an alley way, smiling as she reached into her purse, pulling out a plastic bag with what looked to be grass clumps in it. She opened it taking a whiff. "Ah thank God I found some legit dealers yesterday. They were hanging outside my nearest convenient store."

"I… see." Nina blinked as she watched a professional blunt wrapper at work.

"Yeah they were from Jersey. One of them was this thin guy dressed like a little kid. He kept hitting on me and didn't know when to shut up." Lily took out a paper licking it. "The other one was this kind of cute pudgy one with a beard… really quiet though…" She laid it flat, placing some of the clumps in a clean line, wrapping it up as neat as possible.

"This is, weed right?" Nina looked like she was dialed into the Discovery Channel.

"Yes dear, nothing you'd be interested in." Lily smirked mischievously, finishing her blunt, grabbing her lighter and lighting it up. The pungent smell hit Nina's nostrils right away, the smell of marijuana as distinct as any in the world. A puff later and Lily was all smiles feeling the smoothness.

"You look like you're enjoying yourself. How long does this one last?" Nina asked almost teasingly, feeling a bit of deja-vu come by again.

"Not long enough for me." Lily said with much sad truth, taking another hit, inhaling it all in like the vapor of life. "Why are you thinking about trying this stuff out too?"

"No… I don't have a good history of-"

"Look to be honest, it's not as bad as E… well if you don't do too much of it anyway." Lily smiled reassuringly. "Here just take a little hit… it won't do you any harm." She reached out to hand her the piece, Nina staring at the muse to all her sinful desires. This wasn't like last time she thought to herself.

I trust you…

Nina pulled it up like a cigarette putting it in between those lips, sucking it in and into her lungs. Soon after she gagged coughing a bit as she exhaled, smoke pulsing out as Lily laughed, patting her back.

"Like a pro…" Lily joked, taking the blunt. "Come on baby. You feel anything yet?"

"N-no…" Nina coughed a bit more, shaking it off.

"Hehe… you will soon."

- B – B – B -

You let me violate you…
You let me desecrate you…
You let me penetrate you…
You let me complicate you…

Nina's night out with Lily the first time was like swimming in deep unknown waters. This second time around seemed even more intense even if she was somewhat more prepared. This wasn't the usual dance club. The band's music raged in synthetic pulses but the energy of a live band rumbled the ground they stood. The crowd brought out the freakiest of the freaks.

Mohawks, tattoos, and piercings were the norm. Topless girls were riding the waves of bouncing bodies beneath, while stripper poles had a few ladies dangling in more than comprising positions. Lily called these people 'her people'.

"Fuck I love this song!" Lily yelled out at the top of her lungs as she held onto Nina, bouncing to the exterior and keeping out of the mosh pit that spell doom for these little ballerinas.

Nina only smiled back at Lily with a ginger face of someone feeling the effects of mary jane for the first time. She felt so relaxed. So at peace inside. She wasn't worrying about anything or was she over thinking anything. It was just a pleasant sensitive state, rocking to the music with her friend's ass right on her.

Help me,
I broke apart my insides!
Help me,
I've got no soul to sell!

"You feeling it yet?" Lily had a bit of smokiness in her eyes, a lazy glare as she stroked Nina's hair, checking on her friend with true concern.

"I… think so…" Nina lazily blinked her eyes, feeling woozy.

"You have to be the cutest stoner in the history of baking Nina!" Lily shouted into her ear, pulling her close to her cheek as they rode the sexual wave that was a classic song by NIN. "Nina! Come on! I want you to meet some friends of mine!"

Nina nodded along not really hearing what was said, moving to the beat as they transferred over to the more quiet bar area. A group of young men and women greeted the two, Nina noticing some shot glasses being passed around, everyone downing them with no effort. With all inhibitions aside Nina downed her grey goose shot, getting cheers from a riled up group of young adults.

Help me,
The only thing that works for me
Help me,
Get away from myself!

Nina couldn't even remember how many shots she took but she felt wobbly in her knees. She couldn't help herself anymore as her mind was totally out of it. She had been staring at Lily being her sexy self all night. Drenched in the liquid courage of vodka, she had enough of pussy footing around. Her primal thoughts reigned as she searched for Lily's face, finding it a couple feet away from her.

"What's up Nina sweetie?" Lily drunkenly giggled to not get a reply.

Nina just smirked to herself tilting her head like a predator finding its prey, grabbing her by the head and forcibly pulling them both into a vigorous kiss. Lily's eyes doubled in size as she was caught by surprise, a tongue pushing her mouth open and into a make out session right in public view.

I want to fuck you like an animal!
I want to feel you from the inside!
I want to fuck you like an animal!
My whole existence is flawed!
You get me closer to God!

Their tongues danced as they shoved themselves into the filthiness of the bathroom. Neither of them caring why or where they were doing this at the moment. Nina pushed Lily against the wall a bit harshly.

"Ouch!" Lily whined. "What was that… for… mmmm…"

Nina had enough of the talking. She was not giving her a chance to even breathe as she continued her oral assault.

You can have my isolation…
You can have the hate that it brings…
You can have my absence of faith …
You can have my everything…

"Nina, you really want to do this in here..?" Lily gasped her chest heaving up and down, pushing Nina gently away. Apparently one of them still had their sense about them.

Why the hell not?

Nina gave no verbal answer as she grabbed Lily's top and pulled it down, laying her neck and shoulder full of hard kisses, biting down even, eliciting loud moans that even cut through some of the blasting music outside.

Help me,
Tear down my reason!
Help me,
It's your sex I can smell!

"I've always just wanted to do this to you…" Nina whispered into her ear, nibbling against her chin, pressing kisses around her lips teasingly.

"Y-you could've just asked…." Lily shivered as she felt her pants being unbuttoned.

Help me…
You make me perfect!
Help me become somebody else!

Nina knelt down as she swore her eye sights darken like a lid of black came over her. Lily had a dazed pleasured look at her face, breaths fluttering in anticipation as she leaned against the wall, palms against the tiles for support.

When her mouth reached the spot the ecstasy was only beginning.

I want to fuck you like an animal!
I want to feel you from the inside!
I want to fuck you like an animal!
My whole existence is flawed!
You get me closer to God…

- B – B – B –

Nina felt the climax, closing her eyes as she licked her own lips. She calmly relaxed wiping her mouth, glancing up expecting to see a more then appreciative Lily. What she did see wasn't exactly what she imagined. A beautiful young brunette was there, buckling up her pants and a dreamy stare, yes. The problem was that it wasn't Lily at all. Just some sexy stranger…

"You are amazing baby… but I never caught your name…"

"What the hell?" Nina gagged, standing up and coughing up a storm, leaving the girl puzzled. She turned in disbelief shaking her head as if this was another sick joke. She stormed out towards the restroom, seeing a reflection of herself in the mirror, black make up on and the full deal.

Having fun?

Nina clenched her fist. She shivered more so in anger than fear, pushing the door wide open to the thumping music. She knew she had to get outside… for her own sanity's sake.

- B – B – B –

I wonder what's taking Nina's so long…

Lily was at the bar area chatting up the cute bartender for awhile now, knowing Nina said she needed a bathroom break or something rather. She suddenly felt a tap on her shoulder turning to see an unexpected face.

"Hey Lily! Long time no see…"

"Hmm… yes.. totally long time no see…" Lily was a bit intoxicated, slurring her words slightly. "You must be… Harley Davidson?"

"Tom, remember? We met at a club a few weeks ago? You never returned my calls."

"Ooooh Tom… Yes… Yes! I remember. The guy with the small dick and talks too much." Lily clapped her hands giggling as the entire area cracked up in laughter.

"W-what did you say?" Tom grabbed her hand quite harshly.

"Ow… let go tough guy…"

"I didn't come here to be disrespected by some skinny little whore."

"I'm just explaining why I didn't call back, sheesh." Lily laughed drunkenly. "But I suggest you let go now…"

"Or what? You're going to ballet me to death?"

"Something like that." Lily turned to the bartender as he was about to step in to help her, winking. "They call this a Jette Passe…" She suddenly launched her leg out like a rear mule kick, smashing it right into his groin with perfect precision. The poor fellow lost all the air in his lungs, whining loudly as he dropped Lily's arm. The entire bar was clapping for her as she mockingly bowed.

"Wow, drinks are on me Lily… that was sweet." The Bartended smirked in appreciation.

"Thank you! I think I better split though, might of overstayed my welcome" Lily smiled as she walked off, stepping over a slowly recovering Tom.

- B – B – B -

"Nina!" Lily yelled out as she stepped out of the club, not being able to track her down. She was getting worried sick as she double checked anyone to see if they saw her. After listening for a second outside in a calm breath, she sighed in relief as she heard the soft voice in the alley way. She could only blink as she realized what she was doing though.

"… So you see… the white Swan dies so she can escape the pain of a life where goals cannot be met… where expectations can't be met…"

"Whoa… that's fuckin deep Nina…" A young boy took another of many hits, spewing out the smoke.

"So… you're saying the Black Swan… is sort of like… an evil twin? Or is she like just a sister… that looks a lot like the White Swan?"

"Shit… what if the Black Swan is some sort of devil incarnate… sent by Satan himself?"

"Oh god…" Lily just smacked her forehead as she was staring at a Nina surrounded by a bunch of young stoner kids, sharing blunts together, all apparently sharing their 'wise' wisdom with one another too. A Swan Lake debate is the last thing she'd ever expect the youth of America to be speaking about. No matter how stoned they were.

"Nina! What the hell how long have you been out here?" Lily grabbed her.

"H-hey! Everyone! Look! It's the White and Black Swan, Lily!" Nina giggled, taking another puff of her blunt, blowing it at her concerned friend, making a pot smoke cloud around her head.

"Whoa, the Black and White Swan is the same person?" Another Stoner gasped. "That's way out there yo!"

"Maybe it's like… a freaking metaphor… you know… about how we're our own biggest enemy… ya know?"

"That's a great point Larry!" Nina pointed, giggling to herself.

"Okay come on Socrates I think you've had enough for tonight…" Lily had to pull her away, Nina waving at her newly found wake and bake friends.

"Come hang out with us more often Nina!"

"I will if I remember how to get… back here!"

- B – B – B –

Nina was hitting her low as Lily finally got them into a Taxi cab, the young ballerina groaning as her head was torn between drunkenness and fried brain cells. She turned over to Lily who looked a bit guilty, stroking Nina's forehead as she tried to calm her down.

"You are not good at holding your high Nina…"

"Of course… I'm not good at it like you…" Nina giggled. "You're better than me at everything…"

"W-what?" Lily blinked, looking at her confused. "What makes you say that?"

"D-don't b.s. me…" Nina leaned her head back. "You're sexy… you get all the boys… you're so easy going… you are everything a woman is supposed to be…"

"Nina that's not even near everything any woman's supposed to be…" Lily sighed.

"Whatever…" Nina laughed again, stretching her arms, watching as her hands looked like a multitude of them were moving as she waved it front of her. "Now you're going to probably dance the part of the Swan Queen better than I did too…"

"In my dreams maybe…" Lily grabbed at Nina's hands. "Why are you talking like this huh?"

"Eer… m-maybe because I am being honest." Nina slurred. "Maybe my other self is right. And I need to stop being a little chicken and to start taking things for myself!"

"Other… self?" Lily stared peculiarly at her with those words.

"I need to be more like you, right?" Nina made a strange assessment. "Making love, fucking, and then mysteriously disappearing like a ghost! Just like tonight. Just like the other night."

"Gah! Nina not so loud!" Lily covered her mouth with her gloved hand, turning towards the taxi driver. "Hey you! You got any headphones? Put em on now!"

"B-but…"

"PUT THEM ON NOW!" Lily's fury forced the poor driver into grabbing his ear muffs.

"See… Lily's so strong… Nina's so weak…" Nina shrugged, laughing it off.

"Hey quit that! I mean it!" Lily grabbed Nina's shoulders shaking her. "You're not weak alright?"

"You don't know me…" Nina smiled at her with a haunting look. "You barely even know me… how can you pretend you do?"

"I'm your friend aren't I?"

"… I don't know…" Nina crossed her arms, sighing. "Would a friend of mine, be killed in my mind over and over again?"

"Killed over and over again?" Lily gasped. "What are you talking about?"

The playful high was done… a somber voice was here…

"Opening night, my other self-made me think that you were trying to take what was mine… and I killed you…" Nina's voice droned. "And… I dragged you into the bathroom… and I didn't even care…"

Lily was frozen not only in terror but was astonished at the words coming out Nina's voice. This other self. Was this a schizophrenia that caused Nina to totally lose it and stab herself? It looked to be the case…

"The blood was on my hands. And I just cared about the show… about myself…" Nina began tear up uncontrollably. "And, I feel so damn bad! And I am so mad at myself! Sometimes I wished I died I feel so bad!"

"Sshhh don't say that!" Lily was fighting back tears too, clinging onto Nina stroking her head. "It's okay… it's all fake…"

"H-how can you even care about me still after I told you something so horrible?" Nina began to cry on Lily's shoulder, clutching onto her.

"Because I'm your friend…" Lily smiled weakly while clinging onto her tightly. "Please don't tear yourself down. You need to stop or you'll never get better."

Lily never knew it was so bad for Nina but she felt stupid she didn't figure it was that bad. How deep were the scars in her life she would never understand. Tonight though she silently vowed to help Nina beat these demons.

"I'm… sorry Lily…" Nina clutched onto her with every ounce of strength she had, for the first time in her life noticing there was someone there to catch her when she needed the support.

"Don't you ever think of yourself as weak again you hear me?" Lily backed off slowly, waiting for some sort of positive reply. She got a weak nod that satisfied her, slowly bringing Nina's lips to hers in a mending kiss.

Even Nina's toiling self couldn't resist those soft lips' pleasure.