A/N: Sorry this is late, I was in town all day and didn't return home until late, and it was a rush to finish editing, so please ignore any mistakes! ^^ And this will be a short authors note because I'm falling asleep at my desk XD Thank you everyone for reading! I will answer reviews tomorrow, ran out of time today.

Warnings: Fluff

Disclaimer: I don't own Kuroshitsuji

The soft chirping of a phone slowly pulled Ciel from the land of dreams and into the world of the waking. He groaned lowly, not wanting to move but the noise was quickly grating on his nerves and he rolled over to grab the device. It was shut off and with a long sigh, Ciel shifted onto his back and looked up at his ceiling.

Almost two months ago, Ciel had first stumbled across Sebastian sleeping in his bed and in that time, his views on the man had been completely turned around. He was spending more time with Sebastian and had ended up staying the night several times because it was late by the time they finished a lesson.

It had been close to two weeks since the first cooking lesson and Ciel was slowly learning more and more about Sebastian. He knew that Sebastian had an unhealthy obsession with cats and desperately wanted one but the apartment he lived in had a ban on pets. Not only that, Sebastian was aware of his financial situation and didn't want to adopt a kitten when he wasn't sure if he could afford to take care of it.

Ciel had to respect that choice even though it was painfully obvious that Sebastian wanted a kitten and Ciel had thought about buying one for the man but understood Sebastian's point. Pets were expensive and even though they were wonderful to have, Sebastian had to think about not only the kitten's welfare but also his own.

Aside from his love of cats, Sebastian also had a passion for music and had an old iPod that was filled to capacity. It was so well used that it could barely hold a charge and lasted only a few hours before dying. Ciel had scrolled through it one time when Sebastian was still sleeping, finding that the man enjoyed a wide range of songs ranging from instrumental to the current songs that topped the charts. Claude's music, Ciel noted, was nowhere on the device.

It seemed that music was one thing the brothers shared and once or twice, Ciel had heard Sebastian humming a tune to himself while he was cooking. The noise had been unexpected but even more than that, it was a rather pleasant noise that made Ciel long to hear more. It made Ciel wonder about Sebastian's past and if the older male was mute at birth or if something had happened to cause it.

They had classes that helped to recover lost speech and Ciel had entertained the idea on several occasions to pay for Sebastian to take some classes. He wanted to hear Sebastian's voice. In his mind, it was deep and seductive, a mix of Claude's and Master's; because no one could match Master's voice.

But the desire to know what it sounded like was simply that, a desire. Ciel was fine with the silence that came from Sebastian and it somehow made him appreciate the older male even more. It was something Ciel never thought would happen but now that it had happened, Ciel was glad that Sebastian had given him another chance.

Sebastian had given him so much and Ciel knew that. He was teaching him new things, such as cooking and sign language, and was giving up his time to spend it with Ciel. Time that Sebastian could be using to sleep but was instead waking up early so he could play chess or watch a movie with Ciel.

Ciel had seen the bags under Sebastian's eyes and knew that the man did something during the night hours, although Ciel hadn't pushed further to find out if Sebastian worked at DIE or not. Regardless, the man had to come back home around six or seven in the morning and would go straight to bed before waking up at noon, as that was the time Ciel usually met with him.

The older male never complained about the missed sleep but Ciel could still see the tired look on Sebastian's face when he came by early. The times that Ciel had a session with Master, he wouldn't show up until three or four in the afternoon and it gave Sebastian the chance to sleep in more but recently there seemed to be less of those days.

Compared to going every other day as Ciel had in the past, Ciel was now going about two times a week and choosing instead to spend more time with Sebastian. He wasn't needed at work right now as Claude was busy writing new songs for his next album and there wasn't anything to do, leaving him with plenty of time to spend with Sebastian.

But in the end, it kept coming down to the fact that Sebastian was always giving and Ciel was only taking. He wasn't giving anything back in return. Not that Sebastian had asked for something but Ciel still felt bad.

With a grunt, Ciel flipped onto his stomach and grabbed his phone, bringing it closer. He looked at the time before unlocking the device so he could check his emails. There were a few new ones and he read through them before setting the phone on the pillow. It was around nine or so in the morning and too early to go see Sebastian but there was nothing else to do.

Above him, the ceiling fan rotated, pushing the air around and Ciel tilted his head so it could rest better on the pillow. His eyes fell on his phone again and they widened slightly as inspiration struck without warning. He sat up in bed and checked the time once more before scrambling out of the bed.

It would take him an hour or so to get ready and look up the information he needed online but it was still enough time to do everything he wanted. He padded towards the bathroom so he could shower and get dressed, humming happily as he went.

An hour and a half later, Ciel found himself standing outside of Sebastian's apartment. The key Sebastian had given him earlier in the month were familiar as he slid it into the door. The lock slid away and Ciel slipped inside the room quietly. The door was locked again and Ciel slipped his shoes off before making his way to Sebastian's bedroom.

The door was closed, keeping the cold air in and Ciel shivered as he stepped inside the room. A floor fan blew in the direction of the bed and the cool air brushed over the thin sheet that covered Sebastian's body. The covers had been kicked off sometime in the early morning and Ciel shifted them back up on the bed, along with the tattered and well-worn black cat plush that had somehow tumbled to the floor.

When Ciel had first seen it, he couldn't help but laugh until Sebastian told him that it was the only thing he had left of his mother. She had bought it for him before he had been born with the hope to give it to him after his birth. But she never had that chance and instead, Claude had given it to him when he was a baby.

It reminded Sebastian of a time when things were better between Claude and him, and Ciel gazed at the plush. Its eyes had been sown back on and the fabric for the fur was matted down. Any other time, Ciel would've mocked Sebastian for keeping such a thing, especially as it had seen its years, but now he wouldn't even think about it.

The plush was placed on the bed next to Sebastian and Ciel reached for Sebastian's phone. A quick search of the old device brought up the alarm clock and Ciel pushed the time back. Sebastian deserved his sleep today and Ciel could wait for the man to wake up. And once he was awake, Ciel had plans to take Sebastian out for a small shopping trip.

They had never been out together in public before, choosing instead to stay inside where they could just be themselves. After the last grocery incident, Sebastian handled the grocery shopping himself for their cooking lessons and Ciel would pay for half of the bill since he was also eating the food.

But this would be their first time out to go together and for the briefest moment, Ciel felt as though he was going on a date with Sebastian. The thought made him smile slightly and unbidden, warmth spread through his chest at the idea. The suddenness of the action surprised him and Ciel quickly set the phone down before leaving the room.

With a small sigh, he plopped down on the couch and gazed around the apartment. Despite the new chess set that still sat on the table, the apartment was still depressing and Ciel wondered how much time Sebastian actually spent in the apartment. It seemed as though the only thing Sebastian used the room for was a place to eat and sleep. There was nothing personal at all in the room and it was rather sad.

Ciel jumped as his phone vibrated in his pocket and he quickly pulled it out, checking the caller ID. A small frown settled on his face as an image of Claude greeted him and Ciel reminded himself to take the picture off sooner rather than later. It had been a while since Ciel had seen Claude, the last time being the video shoot where Sebastian had showed up with clean hair.

After finding out that Ciel knew the real reason for Sebastian's messy hair, Claude had become almost cold and distant, and for the first time, Ciel had seen Claude's true personality. The man had lashed out several times at the crew and if looks could've killed, then Sebastian would've been dead on the spot.

There was something between the two brothers to make Claude act in such a violent way to Sebastian and Ciel was determined to find out what had happened. It was something deeper than Claude hating Sebastian for 'killing' their parents and Ciel had a feeling that that reason was a lie. If Claude honestly hated Sebastian for that, he wouldn't have given Sebastian the plush when they were kids.

But for now, Ciel had been avoiding Claude, not in the mood to talk to the older male. He was annoyed at Claude's actions and since that day, Claude had barely crossed Ciel's mind. The man would call every few days but something kept Ciel from picking up the phone to talk to him. Ciel didn't want to tell Claude that he was spending time with Sebastian; that would only make things worse for Sebastian.

Glancing at his phone, Ciel noted that the device had finally stopped ringing and Claude had left a voice message. It was saved for later and Ciel pulled up his settings so he could delete the picture of the man before saving everything. Editing his contacts list made Ciel realize that he still didn't have Sebastian's phone number. Even though the man couldn't talk, he could still text and that was enough for Ciel.

The thought was tucked away in his mind and Ciel leaned back on the couch, letting his eyes slide shut. Eventually he would have to contact Claude to see what he wanted and despite everything, Ciel would be lying if he said he wasn't curious about what Claude had to say. Just because he was annoyed with the man and barely thought about him didn't mean that Ciel had forgotten about him.

Because underneath it all, there was still that underlying feeling that Ciel had always had for Claude. It wouldn't just vanish because of the new people that had entered his life. But if anything, the new people had made things all the more confusing for Ciel. His feelings for each warred against each other until Ciel didn't know what to think at times.

A low groan left Ciel's throat; he needed to talk to someone about this.

He glanced at the clock, noting the time before stretching out on the couch. It wouldn't do him any good to keep pondering the thoughts himself; he wouldn't get anywhere with them. For now, the best thing to do would be to sleep until Sebastian woke up so he would be well rested for their outing.

The sound of cabinets slamming shut pulled Ciel from his sleep and he rubbed at his eyes as he sat up. It took a moment or two to remember where he was before Ciel focused on Sebastian. The older male was moving around the kitchen, putting away the dishes while listening to music. A quick glance at the clock had Ciel off the couch and he trotted to the kitchen.

"What are you doing up already?" He asked. "It's still noon."

Sebastian chuckled lowly as he set a stack of dishes in the cabinets before gesturing to a piece of paper that was waiting for Ciel. He reached for it and skimmed over the words. 'I have an internal clock that wakes me up around this time, even if you changed my alarm. Should I ask why you did such a thing? If you didn't want to spend the afternoon with me, a note would've worked just fine.'

Ciel shook his head. "I want to spend the afternoon with you, but I wanted you to get enough sleep. You always look so tired so I was hoping to let you sleep in. Especially since you only get up that early because that's when I come over."

The older male waved his hand as though he was brushing the comment aside, silently telling Ciel that it was okay. The last of the dishes were put away and Sebastian leaned against the counter, waiting for Ciel to tell him what they were going to do today.

Sighing slightly, Ciel ran a hand through his hair. "We're going out today," he stated. "It's a nice day out and I think we should do something different from our normal lessons that we have."

Sebastian blinked at him and quickly wrote out a question. 'And where do you plan on going?'

There was a sense of curiosity that flowed from the words and Ciel could see the emotion clearly in Sebastian's eyes. Worry and hesitation were there as well, no doubt stemming from the fact that they never left the apartment and were never seen together outside. Ciel could see the unasked question on Sebastian's face, wondering if Ciel would be embarrassed about being seen with him and would change his mind.

Ciel shook his head and tugged on Sebastian's wrist gently. "It's a surprise. But go get changed so we can head out. We can take my car so we don't have to walk all the way to the mall." He paused as his stomach growled. "And maybe get some food too while we're at it."

Still looking unsure, Sebastian headed towards his bedroom to change from his sleep clothes and Ciel waited patiently for the man to emerge again. A part of Ciel was tempted to stop by a clothing store first to buy some new clothes for Sebastian but knew that the older male wouldn't accept them; probably because of the thing between him and Claude.

The door opened and Ciel glanced over Sebastian as the man padded out, wearing his familiar baggy jacket. "It's too hot outside for a jacket," Ciel stated and waved his hand. "Take it off or you'll pass out in this heat. And I won't take no for an answer."

Reluctantly, Sebastian shed the jacket, revealing clothes that hung loosely on Sebastian's frame but were an improvement from the jacket that Sebastian had been wearing earlier. At least these clothes didn't look as though they would swallow him whole if given the chance. Ciel nodded and stood up before moving towards the door. His stomach was hungry and demanded food.

"Let's go. I think you're going to have fun today." The small grunt that Sebastian gave wasn't very enthusiastic but Ciel didn't let himself worry about it. In time, that nervousness would go away and Sebastian would be able to enjoy himself.

The sun was hot and bright as they made their way to his car and as soon as they climbed inside, Ciel had the windows rolled down. Next to him, Sebastian looked tense and Ciel couldn't help but reach over and grab Sebastian's hand, giving it a small squeeze. "Relax, please. I'm not going to regret this, I promise. I want to do more things with you, despite what people may think. They don't know you like I do and they're just missing out because you're a good person to be around."

He was rewarded with a smile and Ciel returned it with one of his own. Giving Sebastian's hand one more squeeze, Ciel backed out of the parking spot and pulled out onto the road. Sebastian was always spoiling him, even after everything Ciel had done to him in the past. Now it was Ciel's turn to return the favor and spoil Sebastian.

They drove in silence with the windows down and the wind whipping at their faces. There was no need for words and the silence in the car was comfortable, as with each passing minute, Sebastian would relax even more until at last the man had an easy smile on his face. Their first stop was a drive through where they wrestled in the car over who would pay.

It had resulted in the horn blaring a couple times, courtesy of Sebastian's elbow hitting it as he struggled to reach over Ciel to pay but in the end, Ciel had ended up pushing Sebastian away with his foot and was able to pay for the both of them. Even if it had been an awkward stretch to the drive through window. The woman working the window though had been thoroughly amused and had ended up giving them a free ice cream once she had stopped laughing.

It wasn't until they were driving away that Sebastian had scrawled out a reply on the napkin and Ciel glanced at it when the light turned red. 'I'm not a girl and I can pay for myself, Ciel. I'm also not so poor that I can't pay for my own meal either.'

Ciel waved his hand. "It's not about whether or not you have the money, it's about the fact that I wanted to buy you lunch. And anything else that I might pay for today is because I want to, not because I pity you." He popped a fry into his mouth. "I also happen to know that you're not a girl. You leave the toilet seat up for starters."

Sebastian rolled his eyes as he took a bite of his fry and didn't bother to comment as the light changed green. The rest of the drive settled in silence, broken only by the rustle of a bag as an occasional French fry was pulled from the bag. By the time they reached the mall, Ciel's stomach was growling loudly and the moment he parked, he was grabbed the bag of food.

"I still think yours is better," Ciel admitted after a while and he wiped the grease off his fingers. "But you have to admit that getting take out every now and then is a lot easier than making your own dinner all the time."

Sebastian shrugged and tossed his trash into the empty bag. He licked his lips before wiping them off with a napkin and Ciel watched the motions from the corner of his eye. He couldn't understand why Claude called Sebastian disgusting. Everything that Ciel had seen of Sebastian showed that the man was neat and took care of himself despite outward appearances. He really needed to get to the bottom of everything.

But now wasn't the time for that and he tossed his trash away as well before stretching in his seat. "Shall we?" He asked and opened the door. "I need to swing by the electronic store but other than that, we can go anywhere you want." Crimson eyes lit up and a simple word was scribbled on the napkin, making Ciel groan when he read it. "Fine, let's go see the kittens."

Ciel shook his head as they walked towards the large building, ignoring the sun as it beat down on their heads. It would be nice and cool inside, and once they were done with the kittens, they could move on to other things. Maybe go play some arcade games and Ciel could kick Sebastian's ass at air hockey.

Snickering to himself, Ciel walked next to Sebastian as they made their way to the adoption center. The main animal shelter was further away on the outskirts of town, but by placing a small branch in the mall, it was able to receive more publicity and more animals were adopted. As soon as they were inside the store, Sebastian made a beeline to the kittens and Ciel hung back, letting the man fawn over them. Ciel was more of a dog person himself and he wandered over to the dogs who greeted him happily.

Minutes passed and bled into an hour before Ciel had finally made his way through the line of dogs. There was one that he kept going back to and he picked up her information for later, hoping that perhaps he could convince his parents to adopt. He found Sebastian reclining on a chair with a kitten curled in his lap while he read a book. The small animal seemed content to sleep the day away and Ciel looked at Sebastian sadly.

"We should get going," he said softly. Sebastian sighed heavily and set the book aside before scooping up the tiny kitten. It gave a small noise of protest as Sebastian placed it back with its littermates and Ciel winced slightly, wondering if it was a bad to let Sebastian play with the animals. But as they walked away, Sebastian's face was happy and Ciel felt some of the weight lift off his chest.

The phone was passed to him and Ciel read the message that Sebastian had typed. 'Even though I couldn't get her, it was still nice to indulge for just a little while. Thank you. What now?'

Ciel passed the phone back and glanced at Sebastian with a small smirk on his face. "You up for some arcade games?" He asked, feeling excited. He would often play them with Elizabeth and she could play a mean game of DDR and pinball, but he was looking forward to playing them with Sebastian.

Sebastian looked at him and a smile crept on his face. 'Bring it on,' he mouthed as they stepped onto the escalator, crimson eyes defiant and challenging.

"With pleasure," Ciel purred. "You're going down, Sebastian. I will kick your butt on the air hockey table. I'm unbeatable."

A message was typed out quickly and passed over. 'Loser has to buy winner another ice cream cone."

"Deal," Ciel said and darted off for the arcade as soon they reached the proper floor. Sebastian followed at a more leisurely pace but the smirk on his face was still present when he took his place across from Ciel at the air hockey table. The plastic puck was placed on the table and Ciel watched as Sebastian grabbed his mallet. "Ready?" He asked.

Sebastian nodded and Ciel's arm shot forward as he hit the puck with his paddle. It flew across the table and was returned by Sebastian, and Ciel felt a familiar feeling of adrenaline race through his veins. This was his game, he loved to play it and whenever they would come to the mall, he would play at least one game with Elizabeth. Next to chess, it was his favorite game to play.

He smirked as Sebastian missed the puck and it sunk into the goal, a number one flashing on Ciel's side. A new puck was dispensed and Ciel placed it on the table, watching Sebastian carefully. He wouldn't become cocky as that only led to defeat and Ciel forced himself to stay calm. The puck was put into play and they continued again, skillfully dancing at the end of the table as they defended their goals.

The next point went to Sebastian and they were tied at 1-1, making Ciel nod his head. Sebastian was also good at the game and that skill would only make things more interesting. Ciel liked the challenge and he quickly blocked the puck as it shot towards his goal. "You're good," Ciel stated and bounced the puck off the edge of the table so it moved in a ziz-zag shape. "But that ice cream cone is mine."

Sebastian didn't answer but the smirk on his face grew as they continued to play and it seemed as though Ciel wasn't the only one enjoying himself. They continued to play, silence settling over them as they focused and Ciel was barely aware of the people that passed by them; he was too focused on the game to pay them any attention.

His focus was rewarded when another puck landed in Sebastian's goal and Ciel's smirk grew. If he made one more goal, there was no way Sebastian would be able to win. The only thing Ciel had to do was make sure that he kept his own goal defended and made a goal before Sebastian.

Across from him, Sebastian's face was set and determined as he focused; the urge to win was strong in them both and Ciel knew that Sebastian wouldn't go down without a fight. The game was on the line now and they were both going to give it everything they had. The puck clinked loudly against their mallets and Ciel watched it fly across the table, his eyes never leaving it for a second.

He blocked the puck as it neared his goal, sucking in a deep breath as it almost ricocheted back into his goal. It was diverted last minute and caught Sebastian off guard as it sunk into his goal. The table turned off as Ciel was pronounced the winner and Ciel pushed his mallet to the side. "Looks like you're paying for ice cream," he stated.

Sebastian rolled his eyes but nodded before gesturing to the table, silently asking for another game. Ciel smirked and pulled out a handful of quarters, slipping them into the game. The table turned on again, the mallets seemingly floating on the surface as a puck was deposited in the dispenser. Round two was about to begin.

Two hours later, they left the arcade with Ciel holding an inflatable hammer that he was able to purchase from the winner's corner, thanks to the tickets Sebastian had won at skeeball. Turned out that Sebastian was rather good at the game and had quickly racked up tickets. It wasn't an ideal prize but Ciel had plans to give it to Elizabeth. Her dog would love playing with something like this and would provide hours of entertainment when she came back.

It was getting late in the day and they needed to head back soon. Sebastian hadn't mentioned staying home from work today but Ciel had promised dinner with his parents tonight and wouldn't be able to back out of it anytime soon. "I have one more place that I want to stop at before we go back," he stated, steering Sebastian in the direction of the electronic store.

Sebastian nodded and followed lazily. His eyes scanned the store when they entered, taking everything in before moving over to the computers while Ciel walked to the other side of the store. He eyed the music devices that were on display, pondering which one would be best to get. A quick look over his shoulder showed that Sebastian was currently engaged with a computer, scanning through the settings and Ciel focused once more.

He needed a new iPod, one that would hold more than his previous and Ciel searched the line of devices on display before finding one that caught his eye. It was smaller than the old one that Ciel was looking to replace but would hold more music and in the end that was all that mattered. He glanced at the colors available and found himself hesitating; torn between two colors.

It would be easy enough to get black, it was simple and wasn't really personal. But there was also a blue color that stood up amongst the rest and Ciel couldn't help but be drawn towards it. The color matched his eyes and made things more meaningful. With a small sigh, Ciel reached for the blue device and plucked it from the shelf.

He made his way over to Sebastian and tapped him on the head with the toy hammer, feeling slightly playful. "Ready?" He asked as Sebastian turned around and made a face at him. "I just have to pay for this and we can head back. But first, you owe me ice cream. Don't think I forgot about that."

Sebastian smirked and rolled his eyes, a sign that he had hoped Ciel would've forgotten and Ciel snickered lowly. The device was set on the checkout counter and was quickly bagged as Ciel paid for it. Once it was passed off to him, they made their way out of the store and Ciel hummed lowly as they walked to the car.

The bag in his hand felt heavy and his heart raced with nervousness over what he had just done. The iPod in the bag wasn't for him but instead for Sebastian. He had just paid more than a hundred dollars for a new iPod that wasn't even for himself. It wasn't even for someone in his family but for Sebastian. Sebastian. The man who, not too long ago, was invisible to Ciel and wasn't worth a shred of his time. The person who Ciel thought was a social outcast, a nobody, and was simply someone who wasn't fit to walk in society.

And now…now he was person who Ciel spent most of his time with. He was the one on Ciel's thoughts the majority of the time and the one Ciel wanted to see smile.

He jumped as a soft hand touched his shoulder, pulling him from his thoughts. Ciel turned around to look at Sebastian, seeing worry etched into Sebastian's face, no doubt wondering what was going through Ciel's mind. "I'm fine," Ciel said quickly and smirked at Sebastian. "Just thinking about what flavor ice cream I want."

Sebastian chuckled but still looked unsure as they climbed into the car. Ciel wasn't sure when the best time to give the gift to Sebastian would be but he figured the opportune moment would present itself soon enough. The car purred to life underneath them and Ciel backed out of the parking spot, making his way to the road.

There was an ice cream shop down the road that served the best ice cream in town and Ciel made his way there, feeling the urge for some chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. His sweet tooth was calling and within minutes, they were in the drive through. The line was short and it didn't take long to get the ice cream they wanted. Sebastian paid, ignoring the smug look on Ciel's face as the money was passed off and Ciel chuckled lowly as they drove away.

The ice cream was almost gone by the time they arrived back at Sebastian's apartment and Ciel crunched on the cone as he walked up the steps, the bag from the store bumping into his leg. "I had a lot of fun," he said, waiting patiently as Sebastian unlocked the door before letting him in. "We should go out like that more often."

Sebastian nodded and ran a hand through his hair, pushing it back from his face and making it stick up in places. With a loud sigh, Sebastian settled on the couch, stretching out against the cushions and letting his eyes slip shut. Ciel chuckled at the sight and popped the last part of the cone into his mouth before moving over to Sebastian's side.

He clicked his tongue and took a seat next to Sebastian, the dip in the couch making a crimson eye open slightly to look at him. "You're a mess," Ciel stated and reached forward to smooth out the pieces of hair that refused to fall properly into place. The hair was soft under his touch and Ciel's fingers lingered as he brushed the digits through the hair, simply feeling.

It was such a change, now that Sebastian's hair was clean and Ciel couldn't help but marvel at the sight before him. Sebastian's eyes were closed again and he was leaning into his touch, silently asking for more. Lips were parted slightly, soft breaths falling from them as Ciel's fingers trailed lower on the man's face.

They skimmed over a smooth cheek, the action making Sebastian hum lightly in pleasure and Ciel hesitated only for a moment before his thumb brushed against Sebastian's lower lip. It was cool from the ice cream and Ciel sucked in a sharp breath at the soft feeling underneath his finger. Ciel's heart raced almost painfully against his chest and his fingers shook slightly as he pulled away from Sebastian's lips.

Sebastian was practically asleep against him, his body relaxed and limp on the couch. Ciel reached forward again, running his fingers through soft locks before trailing down slowly until his hands cupped Sebastian's face. His eyes fell on the older male's lips once more and he was vaguely aware that Sebastian was awake now, watching him through lidded eyes.

"I want…" Ciel murmured as he leaned in closer, feeling Sebastian's breath fan over his face. It smelt like vanilla from the ice cream they had just moments before coming back. His eyes darted over Sebastian's face, taking in every feature with clear eyes.

Crimson eyes were dark in the dim room and they watched his every move but didn't make a point to stop him as Ciel continued his exploration. Ciel watched as Sebastian's tongue darted out to wet his lips, making them damp, and Ciel found himself mimicking the action. "I want," Ciel whispered softly, unable to finish the words.

But words weren't needed as Ciel's body finished the sentence for him and before he knew what was happening, Ciel was leaning forward and closing the gap between himself and Sebastian. Lips pressed against each other in an awkward and curious kiss, one that took both of them by surprise.

It was unexpected and as soon as the realization of what he had just done worked its way through Ciel's mind, he jerked back quickly. He stared down at Sebastian, noting that crimson eyes were staring back up at him, emotions racing through his eyes too quickly to read. "I…I need to go," Ciel said, the words falling from his mouth before he could stop them.

He knew how Sebastian would take them, believing that Ciel regretted what he had just done even if it wasn't the case. Ciel couldn't bring himself to regret his actions but instead was wholly confused. His emotions raced and warred against each other, trying to sort out what exactly he was feeling but Ciel couldn't do that in front of Sebastian. He needed to think, needed to get away.

Without another word, Ciel stood up from the couch and would've bolted away if a quick hand hadn't grabbed his wrist. It stopped him in his tracks and Ciel looked back at Sebastian, feeling his stomach clench and flutter at the same time while his head spun. "Sebastian," he muttered and trembled where he stood.

They stared at each other for another minute before Sebastian gave his arm a gentle tug, bringing him back towards the couch. Ciel went willingly and nearly collapsed next to the older male, his legs shaking too much to keep him from standing up. He closed his eyes as Sebastian reached forward, hands cupping his cheek and Ciel shivered at the action.

He didn't know what was going through Sebastian's mind, but the one thought that Ciel dreaded the most was that Sebastian would turn him away now. Would be disgusted at his actions and never want to see him again.

His eyes snapped open as Sebastian's fingers brushed over his cheeks and tilted his head down, placing a soft kiss to his forehead. Lips moved down slowly, skimming over his skin and Ciel held still as another kiss was pressed to his temple, and then his cheek before Sebastian stopped all together.

Their foreheads pressed together and only an inch of air separated their lips from each other. Sebastian's hands were comforting as they looked at each other and Ciel felt his eyes falling shut as Sebastian leaned up to close the distance between them.

Slowly, ever so slowly, their lips touched and Ciel's hands reached up to thread through dark locks. It pulled them closer and their lips molded together, drawing the smallest of moans from Ciel. It was tender and chaste, and Ciel felt Sebastian's hand slide from his cheek to cup the back of his neck.

The touch remanded, even after they broke apart and Ciel's eyes opened slightly, his lips tingling. "Sebastian," he murmured, lips moving over Sebastian's as he spoke. He wanted more and Ciel pressed forward gently, almost shyly. Sebastian welcomed the kiss and their eyes fell shut once more as lips molded against each other.

It was a simple kiss; a connection of lips and an exchange of breaths, but the feelings that passed between them during that time were anything but simple. In it, Ciel could feel the passion and desire that came from Sebastian and Ciel's emotions surged forward, wanting to match that same feeling.

He felt as though time had slowed down around them, enveloping them in a cocoon that shielded them from the rest of the world while they shared this tender moment together. There was no need to rush. There was no one there but them. They could just lazily explore each other to their hearts content until they were satisfied.

They pulled apart, a soft sigh escaping their lips and Ciel gazed down at Sebastian, noting that crimson eyes were watching him carefully. Sebastian's cheeks were flushed slightly and Ciel could feel the man's pulse fluttering just below his fingertips. It was a breathtaking sight and for the briefest moment, Ciel could see how truly attractive Sebastian was.

It was a subtle attractive, hidden behind the façade of unneeded glasses and hairspray. But when given the chance, it had come to bloom before Ciel's eyes and he suddenly found it hard to breathe. He couldn't do this, whatever this was. When had these feelings for Sebastian grown and taken hold of him? When had Ciel started to desire not Sebastian's body but his personality?

Ciel pulled back, moving away from Sebastian "I can't…I need, I need to go home," he panted and winced at the hurt that flickered through Sebastian's eyes due to his words. He reached forward before he could stop himself and cupped Sebastian's face. "Not for that reason, not because I regret but because I…" He trailed off.

How could he tell Sebastian that he had to leave because he was scared of the feelings that were racing through his body? Feelings that hadn't been there a few weeks ago.

"I don't regret it," Ciel finally said, his voice soft despite the pounding heartbeat in his ears and he pressed one last tender kiss to Sebastian's lips. They were both trembling; Ciel could feel it and he pulled back slowly. "Please believe me when I say that and that I will be back tomorrow. Just don't think that I hate you now and don't think that this is your fault."

Ciel stood up carefully, knowing that Sebastian still doubted him and he didn't blame the older male. But he couldn't stay here any longer. He needed time to figure out his feelings and talk to someone about them. Everything was too confusing and it was making his head swim. Ciel muttered a quick sorry before bolting to the door.

He chanced one last glance at Sebastian, noting that the older male hadn't moved from the couch and was simply lying there. It made Ciel's heart clench, knowing that he was the one to upset Sebastian but if he stayed any longer, there was a chance that Ciel would only end up hurting Sebastian more. He couldn't do anything until he further examined his feelings and Ciel refused to lead Sebastian on.

He slipped out the door and ran through the apartment, not stopping until he reached his car. Once inside, Ciel slumped against the steering wheel and gasped for breath. His lips tingled and Ciel glanced up at the building he had just left, knowing that Sebastian was still inside, no doubt feeling hurt and confused.

Ciel's eyes clenched shut and he let out a shuddering breath, feeling wetness prick the edges of his eyes. Why did everything have to be so confusing? He didn't know what to do anymore.