A/N: Well, here it is, the last chapter. It's bittersweet to post this because it means this story is done and I enjoyed writing every part of it. It's sad to let it go. I want to thank everyone who read this story and everyone who reviewed. Thank you for all the encouraging words, thoughts, and everything in between. And I enjoyed being able to talk with several people throughout writing this story while answering reviews ^^ I'll end this authors note here and finish with one last one at the end so I don't spoil anything. That being said, thank you everyone and I hope you enjoy the final chapter of 'When the Lights go Down' ^^
Warnings: Cursing, Lemon, malexmale, some kinky things XD
Disclaimer: I don't own Kuroshitsuji
Fire crackled and popped in the fireplace as Ciel watched the snow fall lightly outside. It was late December and Christmas had already passed, with Ciel having spent the holidays at home with his parents and enjoying everything the holidays had to offer. It had been a good day, filled with presents and food, but there had been one thing missing that would've made the day perfect.
Sebastian.
Despite the offer to come and enjoy Christmas with Ciel and his family, Sebastian had turned the offer down. He said that it wasn't fair to The Undertaker who celebrated Christmas with him every year after Tanaka's death and that now, it was almost a tradition to spend it with the man. Ciel had grumbled and sulked after that until Sebastian promised that they would spend the New Year's together and that, if Ciel wanted, they could have a late Christmas.
The news had perked Ciel up considerably and two days ago, they had enjoyed their first Christmas together. The bag filled with crumpled wrapping paper was still propped against the wall where it had been placed there two days ago and Ciel gazed at it before turning to look out the window once more.
The weatherman had called for several more inches of snow tonight and Ciel wrapped the blanket tighter around his body. They wouldn't be going anywhere tomorrow if the snow kept falling the way it was predicted to. And by all accounts, that was just fine with Ciel. There would be nothing better than spending the day with Sebastian in the man's condominium.
It had been four months since Ciel found Sebastian near his college and in that time, things had progressed slowly to where they were now. Sebastian had been slow to forgive and trust, something Ciel had expected but he worked hard to make sure that Sebastian didn't regret his choice.
Their friendship was strained at first, the betrayal hanging heavily on Sebastian's mind, and the only thing they could do the first few weeks was play chess. It was familiar and soothing, allowing them to talk casually while they played and as time passed, Ciel could see the hesitation and fear slowly easing away until Sebastian was able to look at him again with normal eyes.
It was mid-September by then, and a week and a half before Sebastian's birthday, they shared a kiss in the park behind Sebastian's condo for the first time since July. It had been soft and filled with questions, but after their lips pressed together, those questions had melted away like the snow in spring.
After that, sparks of the Sebastian that Ciel knew came to life before Ciel's eyes. The man was playful, teasing, perverted, and just…Sebastian. Everything that Ciel liked about the man seemed to bloom in front of Ciel as the doubt and hesitation faded away, leaving behind the man that Ciel knew. It was a sign that things were changing and Ciel felt as though a weight had been lifted off his chest.
By the time Sebastian's birthday rolled around in late September, things were back to normal between them, the questions of betrayal no longer floating over their heads. The day had been celebrated at DIE, as it had been every year, with cake and presents. Ciel's present though, was given privately to Sebastian that night in the form of a blow job.
It was something that Ciel had been sure to take slow, as up until that time, the only thing they had done was kiss and innocently touch. But that night had marked the first change of their growing relationship and Ciel was all too happy to because of it. It had been the first time Ciel had seen Sebastian naked and he marveled at the beautiful body underneath him.
In Ciel's mind, Sebastian was lanky and lacking in muscle, almost like a teenager who was going through puberty. That night though, Ciel had been proved wrong and he could only stare down at the lean body, knowing that he had almost lost this, had almost lost Sebastian. And the more Ciel looked at Sebastian, the more he realized that Claude had nothing on Sebastian. They both had well defined bodies but Sebastian was built more like a swimmer with lean muscles compared to Claude who was a little more broad.
That night, Ciel had delighted in licking over the well-defined abs, tracing each one with his tongue until Sebastian was panting his name. Ciel had thoroughly explored Sebastian, touching every part of the older male that he could and memorizing each sensitive patch so he could remember it for next time.
And Sebastian was very sensitive, as Ciel discovered that night. There was a patch of skin right above his left hip bone that could make Sebastian melt in Ciel's arms at the right touch and another spot on the man's neck. But perhaps the place that made Sebastian come undone the quickest were his ears. Ciel had stumbled across that one by accident a few weeks later when they were cooking a new dish together.
In typical fashion, Ciel had found something to mess up and pulled the beaters out of the batter too quickly, resulting in Sebastian's face taking the majority of the mess. Ciel was quick to clean up the mess (with his tongue of course, because who could resist cake batter?) and the moan that had left Sebastian's mouth when Ciel's tongue brushed over the man's ear was absolutely delicious.
The cake batter was pushed to the side as Sebastian let Ciel tease and torture him with the new found erogenous spot while their erections rubbed against each other until the pleasure had peaked and they came in their pants. After that, they simply relaxed against the counter, lazily kissing and touching until Ciel complained about the cum in his pants.
After that, Sebastian was sure to choose recipes that wouldn't make such a big mess if Ciel were to mess up again. And in the end, they never did finish making the cake that day.
That had been early October and by then, it had been a month and a half since Ciel found Sebastian. And if Ciel counted the months they had spent together beforehand, then they had been friends for close to four months. A large part of Ciel longed to ask Sebastian out by then, he knew Sebastian was the one he wanted, but Ciel had promised himself that he would let Sebastian make that first move.
In Ciel's mind, he had lost that right and figured that it was only fair to let Sebastian decide when they were ready to become something more than friends. In a sense, they could already be considered that, as Ciel had the keys to Sebastian's condo and was there enough that he practically lived there. But they weren't officially dating and Ciel had to resign himself to that fact.
However, Ciel found that he didn't have to wait as long as he thought he would and a week later, Sebastian had casually brought up the question; through a note. While Ciel found the whole thing rather endearing it had only further cemented the proof in Ciel's mind that Claude had caused some lasting damage to Sebastian.
Because even though Sebastian was comfortable with Ciel and seemed to trust him, there were a few times when Sebastian would fall back onto old habits and the hesitation in those crimson eyes returned. Such habits as leaving a note for Ciel when he wasn't comfortable with asking or telling him something.
Ciel knew that Sebastian was strong, both physically and mentally, but emotionally, he was scarred. Ciel could see it in Sebastian's eyes at times, the way the man would stare out the window, pondering everything and no doubt wondering if Ciel would leave him again or if everything was just an elaborate plan. Usually Sebastian would resort to notes when the thoughts grew too strong and it was a silent hint for Ciel to step in to reassure the man.
The notes had decreased in the weeks leading up to Sebastian asking the question and the moment Ciel saw the piece of paper sitting on his pillow that night, elegant writing flowing across the paper, Ciel hunted Sebastian down without thought. He found the man in his office, editing videos for the new release to keep his mind busy.
A kiss had been placed on Sebastian's temple as Ciel drew the man into his arms, silently providing Sebastian the emotional support he needed. No words were needed as Ciel's actions spoke louder than words as Sebastian relaxed in his arms. Crimson eyes searched his face for any malevolence and after finding none, Ciel watched as the remaining doubt that had clung stubbornly to Sebastian, faded away.
They spent the rest of the night indulging themselves in Sebastian's office; or at least as far as Sebastian would allow them to go. They were intimate, but not overly so; there was still a line that hadn't been crossed yet. Things between them would move slowly, Ciel knew that much and was fine with it. Every day that they spent together, Ciel was able to learn something new about Sebastian and that was enough for him.
With each day that passed, Sebastian's eyes grew lighter until The Undertaker claimed that Sebastian was back to his old self, something he hadn't seen after Tanaka's death. And Ciel was determined to keep them that way no matter what. He had been able to convince Sebastian to sing for him several times after that and found that he loved the man's voice. It was deep and sensual, and when Sebastian sang to him softly at night, right in his ear, it was downright arousing.
But all the progress that happened over the months nearly came crashing down around them when they ran into Claude a day before Halloween.
Sebastian needed a specialty food for a meal he wanted to make and his supplier for foreign delicacies was close to Funtom. It had been a risk, but the chances of them running into Claude were low. Or so they thought. They spent nearly an hour inside the store, Sebastian searching the shelves for new spices and ended up picking several curry spices to experiment with.
After paying for everything, they left the shop and made their way to the car, only to run into Claude in the parking lot. Sebastian, for his part, didn't freeze up and stare at Claude with wide eyes, as Ciel thought he would. Instead, he simply inclined his head to Claude and went to climb into the car.
He was stopped by Claude, who placed a hand on Sebastian's arm to keep him from getting into the car and for a moment, Ciel feared there would be a fight. But Claude simply looked over Sebastian and nodded his head before speaking. "You look good, Sebastian and it seems that Ciel chose you over me. How interesting." He leaned in closer. "But you know that he doesn't really love you, he never will, no one ever will."
"Go to hell, Claude," Sebastian spat and knocked his arm away.
Claude chuckled. "You never change, Sebastian. Using your anger to hide your denial, because you know it's true. You know that he'll leave you and come back to me. Everyone you loves ends up leaving you, don't they little brother." He smirked. "Mother, father, Tanaka, and soon Ciel. And then you'll be all alone with nothing. Just. Like. Always."
Ciel pushed Sebastian into the car after that and climbed over the man, trembling with anger. "Drive Sebastian," he snapped as he reached over Sebastian and slammed the door shut. He offered one last glare to Claude as Sebastian started the car and pulled away from the parking spot, leaving Claude behind.
They made it back to the condo without any problems, surprisingly and it made Ciel wonder if Sebastian had even been affected by Claude's words. He was rather surprised they hadn't, considering the man had hit all the right buttons and Ciel kept a close eye on Sebastian for the rest of the day. Sebastian though, had handled the rest of the day with his usual vigor and had cooked a dinner of curry with the spices he bought earlier.
It wasn't until night though that the strong façade Sebastian had been holding throughout the day came crashing down. Claude had impeccable timing. Ciel was due to be at a Halloween Eve release that night for Claude's newest CD and it was something he had been dreading going to but couldn't exactly get out of. He told Sebastian goodbye and as he was giving him a kiss goodbye, felt something press into his hand.
Ciel's heart nearly stopped when he felt that it was a note and quickly realized that the encounter with Claude had affected Sebastian more than he let on. Three words were written on the paper 'you'll be back?' and Ciel felt his anger at Claude bubble to the surface once more.
"I'm sorry, Ciel," Sebastian murmured and Ciel could see that Sebastian was trying to fight the emotions and doubt that were racing through him. His mind was warring with his emotions and it was a struggle that Sebastian would always have to face until the scar that Claude left healed. Sebastian hated it, Ciel knew that; he hated doubting Ciel the way he did and the relapses that happened.
"Sebastian," Ciel muttered softly and pulled the man down for a tender kiss. "It's okay, don't apologize. Listen to me. I'll be back, I promise. Never listen to what Claude says, because he doesn't know anything. I want you, don't doubt that."
Sebastian's eyes closed and he covered Ciel's hands with his own. "I know," he whispered. "I know you do."
"I have to go to this release, my father told me as much," Ciel said. "But I can put an ear piece in if you want, that way you can hear me the whole time I'm gone." It had been the only thing Ciel could think of that would help with the current situation.
But Sebastian shook his head and pressed a kiss to his palm. "No. I…I trust you and I know you'll be back," he said, voice strong and sure. If there was one thing Sebastian didn't like, it was not being in control of things, and Sebastian would fight to get his emotions and trust back in his control.
The words had made Ciel smile and he gave another kiss to Sebastian. "Yes," he breathed. "I'll be back. I promise."
They parted after that and Ciel went to the release, making sure to keep his phone on hand at all times just in case Sebastian relapsed again. But his phone stayed silent and Ciel wasn't sure if that was a good or bad thing. The event seemed to drag by and it was close to midnight when Ciel was able to leave.
It didn't take him long to return back to Sebastian's condo, traffic was light and he broke several speed limits along the way but Ciel couldn't bring himself to care. He quickly found Sebastian asleep on the bed, iPod playing quietly and a book open on his lap. Ciel had let out a soft sigh of relief at the sight, knowing that Sebastian's mind had quieted down if he had been able to fall asleep.
The iPod and book were set to the side and Ciel quickly changed into his night clothes before crawling into the bed. The slight dip woke Sebastian up and the older male looked at him, eyes searching for something before drawing Ciel into a tender kiss. They didn't say anything after that, Sebastian simply wrapping his arms around Ciel's waist before falling back asleep.
Ciel had watched him with a triumphant smile, knowing that Sebastian had battled against his demons and won this round. The scar that Claude had left was slowly healing and try as Claude might, Sebastian was stronger than whatever Claude would throw at him.
That had been almost two months ago and Ciel had seen the scar was healing, slowly but surely. There hadn't been anymore notes since then and their relationship had grown all the more. The trust between them was back and Ciel had enjoyed every minute spent with Sebastian. Even their late Christmas had been something wonderful.
Sebastian had cooked them dinner and they had exchanged presents next to the fireplace while a tiny black kitten named Soot watched them with curious eyes. She had delighted in fighting with the wrapping paper and ribbons that littered the floor, and Ciel was temporarily ignored as Sebastian cooed over her.
Ciel had discovered the tiny kitten when he was first invited to Sebastian's condo and could only shake his head at Sebastian, calling him a cat addict. Sebastian had simply hushed him with a wave of his hand and had refused to talk about it again which led to Ciel understand that he would have to accept the kitten if he wanted Sebastian.
Said kitten was currently asleep at the foot of Ciel's blanket while he waited for Sebastian to come back from his shower. A quick glance at the clock showed that Sebastian had been in the shower for nearly two hours and Ciel scowled. He knew Sebastian liked to be clean and enjoyed a long hot shower but two hours was a bit extensive.
With a low growl, Ciel tossed the blanket off his body and ignored Soot's cry as it covered her. He chanced a quick look back over his shoulder to make sure she was okay and once he saw her padding out from under the blanket, Ciel continued down the hallway. Sebastian would have his head if something happened to the kitten.
Ciel had originally thought that Sebastian had been low on money, which was the reason behind the small apartment, but he had been far from the truth. Sebastian had money, almost as much as Claude; something Ciel found ironic and hilarious. DIE was famous and successful, pulling in hefty profits with each release and Sebastian had carefully saved the money away, letting it build and grow until the day he could leave.
That, combined with the large amount of money Tanaka left behind had insured that Sebastian wouldn't be crawling back to Claude anytime soon. Sebastian could easily support himself with his company and had been for the past four years. It was how Sebastian was able to pay Finny for bringing the groceries to his apartment. Such a thing was so low key that it had happened under Claude's nose without the man even knowing.
Now that he was free from Claude's grip, Sebastian had been able to pay for the classes that Finny's brother needed to take. Finny had been able to quit his job at the store and would visit from time to time, bringing his brother on some occasions. Ciel had watched them interact with Sebastian, their hands flying as they talked.
It was memorizing to watch and Ciel made sure to keep his own studies up so he could share another thing with Sebastian. Often times, he would practice with Bard, Finny's brother, as the man was still learning as well. They had both improved over the months and Ciel found that he could hold a conversation for a decent amount of time.
Ciel toyed with the idea of yelling at Sebastian in sign language when he found the man but figured that Sebastian would only find the action endearing. That being said, the thoughts were pushed to the side and Ciel grumbled to himself as he pushed open the bedroom door. Heat washed over him and Ciel grunted slightly at the warmth, wondering why it was so warm in the bedroom.
He opened his mouth to call for Sebastian again as Ciel moved further into the bedroom, his annoyance mounting ever so slightly. There was a noise behind him but before he could turn to see what it was, his eyes were covered with a soft blindfold and knotted tightly behind his head.
"Took you long enough to come back here," a voice murmured, hot breath fanning over his ear.
"Sebastian," Ciel moaned and pushed back into the older male. Hot hands trailed over his body before they pushed up under his shirt, touching skin lightly until gooseflesh spread across the surface. "Don't stop," Ciel whispered.
Behind him, Sebastian shook his head. "I don't plan to. I'll take you to the highest heights of pleasure tonight and mark you as my own. Would you like that Ciel?" He purred lowly. "Would you like me to take you long into the night?"
Ciel shivered harshly at the words, arousal already racing through his veins. Excitement blossomed in his chest at the thought of what they would do tonight and Ciel's eyes slipped closed as he realized what it meant. Sebastian would only let this happen if he trusted him, honestly trusted him, and all sense of doubt was gone.
That thought nearly had Ciel's knees buckling with relief and he murmured Sebastian's name as he was turned around in the man's arms. His arms wound around Sebastian's body, pulling them closer and Ciel nuzzled Sebastian's neck. "Thank you," he said softly, knowing that Sebastian would understand.
With this action, Sebastian was taking the final step in trusting Ciel, putting everything forward and showing Ciel that he wasn't holding back any more. Any fears and doubts were gone, Sebastian had battled his demons over this, and won. No doubt there would be times when the demons would rear their heads again but that was something Sebastian would be able to handle now, and should things be too much, Ciel was always willing to step in.
Sebastian's arms tightened around him and Ciel tilted his head to the side to accept the warm kiss Sebastian was offering. His eyes slid shut and Ciel let himself feel as their lips pressed together, unspoken words passing between them. They broke apart after a moment and Ciel felt Sebastian's fingers tracing over the blindfold.
"Are you sure?" The man murmured. "Are you sure you want to throw away a chance at the spotlight where you can shine? It's not too late to go back and you can save yourself from living life in the shadows."
Ciel smirked and he grabbed Sebastian's hand. A soft kiss was placed to the palm and Ciel glanced up at the spot where Sebastian's face was. "I think I like being embraced by the darkness, so long as you're in it as well. Claude can have his spotlight. The shadows are much more fun and they have you."
Sebastian hummed softly and pressed a kiss to Ciel's temple. "You're my fallen star," he muttered, his lips curling into a smile at the thought. "I love you," he whispered softly.
Ciel's grip tightened around Sebastian and he felt his heart race at the words. He had longed to hear those words for months now. He knew Sebastian loved him, could tell every time they kissed. But to hear Sebastian say them finally, had Ciel pressing closer to the man and drawing him in for a passionate kiss; one that let Sebastian know exactly how he felt.
"I love you too," Ciel murmured when they broke apart. "I really, honestly do. I'm just sorry that it took me so long to realize it." Even if it had only been a few short months since they started their relationship, Ciel knew what he was feeling and had been waiting patiently for Sebastian to say the words first. Only then would Ciel be able to answer.
"Hush," Sebastian breathed and his mouth trailed up Ciel's neck. "Will you let me pull you into the shadows?"
Ciel tilted his head to the side, giving Sebastian more room. "You already have," he answered, voice breathless as teeth nipped at his skin. "Now you have to make sure you never let me go."
Sebastian purred low in his chest. "With pleasure."
Ciel gasped as the once gentle teeth bit harshly at his skin, making him jerk in Sebastian's arms. Pleasure sparked throughout his body and Ciel shuddered as another mark was given to his body. He welcomed each mark though and let Sebastian brand him for the entire world to see. Sebastian was his, just as Ciel was Sebastian's. Nothing was going to separate them now.
He grasped Sebastian's arms and pulled him closer until their bodies were pressed together, letting Ciel feel Sebastian's arousal. He reached down to cup the bulge in the man's pants and chuckled lowly. "Someone is anxious," he murmured, rubbing the cock through Sebastian's pants. Lust raced through Ciel's body at the moan that left Sebastian's throat and he could feel his own length twitching in interest.
"You've been teasing me since you dragged into my office that very first day," Sebastian answered and took a step back towards the bed. "So many things that I wanted to do and I've had months now to think about them. To perfect my technique."
Ciel cocked his head. "What do you mean?" He asked.
A low chuckle left Sebastian's mouth. "Come now, Ciel," he purred. "I run a porn company and write the scripts for each season. You don't think I sit back and watch everything do you? I'm always an eager student when it comes to learning new techniques and I've picked up several since I started running DIE."
"You haven't been intimate with others I hope," Ciel stated, giving a sharp tug at the shirt Sebastian wore.
Sebastian grunted. "Recently, no. But there were times in the past when I was." He gave a small shove to Ciel's shoulder. "But now isn't the time to be talking about that, not when you flushed and sprawled out on my bed like this."
Ciel shivered and looked up to where he thought Sebastian was. "And what are you going to do?" He purred.
"First I'm going to take off your clothes," Sebastian answered, his fingers finding the bottom of Ciel's shirt. "And then I'm going to make you forget everything."
The shirt was slipped slowly from Ciel's torso, the warmth in the room wrapping around him and making Ciel realize how warm it was. He didn't bother to question why though as a hot mouth descended onto the exposed skin, sucking at a spot above his collarbone. Sebastian's mouth moved down slowly, his tongue tracing a path down to Ciel's nipple and Ciel moaned as Sebastian lapped at it lightly.
Ciel's fingers laced through dark hair, his anchor to Sebastian. He couldn't see anything and was at the man's mercy. He could only guess what Sebastian was going to do next and it made all the nerves in his body alert for anything that could happen. It made the whole situation all the more arousing and Ciel's hips bucked as Sebastian nipped at his nipple.
"More," Ciel demanded, his fingers tugging at Sebastian's hair as he tried to guide him to the neglected nipple. He panted as Sebastian pulled away from him, small beads of sweat trickling down Ciel's body from the heat in the room. His body was already covered in a fine layer of sweat and Ciel licked away the sweat that had gathered on his upper lip. "Sebastian," he moaned, holding out his hand for the older male.
A shout left Ciel's mouth as something cold and wet dripped onto his chest, making him jerk on the bed. He went to wipe the offending liquid away but his hands were batted away and equally cold fingers pinched his nipple. Ciel's eyes shot open under the blindfold and he screamed Sebastian's name as another cold object rubbed over his other nipple.
"What the fuck is that?" Ciel shouted, his back arching off the bed at the sensation. It was so cold on his hot body and the heat in the room only made him that much more sensitive to the cold touch. His body felt conflicted and he didn't know whether to pull away or push into Sebastian's touch.
"An ice cube," Sebastian answered and the small cube on Ciel's nipple was spun around. "I purposely made the room hot for this reason. The two extremes will make you sensitive to every touch on your body and have you craving more."
Ciel tossed his head back and forth as Sebastian's cold fingers slowly moved down his torso. He didn't know what to think of the difference in temperatures, but he found that his body was arching into the touch, asking for more. The cool fingers felt wonderful on his overheated skin and his nerves screamed for more.
The simple touches alone were enough to have Ciel's hips bucking off the bed as he sought more pleasure. He jerked as Sebastian's mouth started to follow the path his fingers made, making the sensation of hot to cold double even more until Ciel was pulling harshly at Sebastian's hair, trying to make him stop before he came early.
His pants weren't even off and already Ciel could feel the pleasure mounting. "Sebastian, please," Ciel moaned, tugging again at Sebastian's hair. "Stop teasing."
"Stop?" Sebastian breathed, his breath ghosting across Ciel's neck. "But I haven't even touched down here yet," he said and slipped his fingers past the waistband of Ciel's sweats.
Chilly fingers curled around the hard length and Ciel howled at the touch. "You're going to make me cum," he shouted in frustration.
"That's the point," Sebastian answered before lowering his head once more.
There was a small pause before lips touched Ciel's skin again and he jerked as he realized that Sebastian was holding an ice cube between his lips as he moved down. Hot and cold, the feelings warred for each other as Ciel thrashed on the bed until at last, Sebastian reached his pants. Curious fingers traced along the edges before Sebastian slowly slipped the material down Ciel's legs until they caught at his knees.
Ciel held his breath as he felt a finger trace the thick vein on the underside of his cock until it reached the tip. It circled around the head before cool breath fanned over it, making Ciel twitch on the bed. "Sebastian," he moaned, his eyes fluttering shut as his hazy mind supplied him exactly what Sebastian was going to do next.
It still didn't stop the shout of surprise that left his throat as Sebastian took him into his mouth, still cool from the ice cube. It was a new sensation and Ciel found that it drove him crazy. Sebastian's fingers stroked his sides as he slowly bobbed his head, pressing a cool tongue against his cock. Ciel could only imagine how Sebastian looked, lips red and stretched around his cock as the older male moved up and down slowly.
A shiver worked through Ciel's body as Sebastian's tongue pressed into the slit before the older male gave a small suck to the swollen head. Ciel's hips arched off the bed at the feeling and he brought his hand to his mouth, pressing it against his lips to hold back all the sounds leaving his mouth.
Sebastian's mouth was warming up and Ciel bucked into the warm mouth as Sebastian continued to tease him more. The older male let him roll his hips up and Ciel thrust into the sinful mouth without any thought. His eyes rolled back into his head as Sebastian started to bob his head slightly, his cheeks hollow as Ciel continued to thrust.
Heat and pleasure built up and just as Ciel thought he was going to come, Sebastian pulled away with a small pop. Ciel whined with frustration at the loss and went to glare at Sebastian, only to remember that he was blindfolded. "Tease," he moaned instead and felt Sebastian pull the pants off until Ciel was lying bare on the bed.
Hands brushed over his body before the settled on his hips. "I think you're just as much a tease as I am," Sebastian said, voice thick with want and desire. He tugged at Ciel's hips, sliding him off the bed until only his torso remained. "Roll over and put your feet on the floor," he ordered.
Ciel grunted but listened anyway, finding that it was easier said than done, especially blindfolded. But once he was on his stomach, he glanced over his shoulder to look at Sebastian and gave his ass a small shake. "Do I arouse you?" He purred.
"Very much so," Sebastian answered. "It'll arouse me more if you push your hips back a little more."
Ciel flushed and did as Sebastian suggested. "That only makes my ass stick out more. Is that what you wanted? To see it bare and exposed before you?"
Sebastian chuckled and ran a hand over the skin. "Something like that," he answered.
Eyebrows furrowed and Ciel ran the words over in his mind, wanting to ask what Sebastian meant but was stopped by a harsh smack to his bare skin. His head shot up and Ciel squawked. "What the hell was that for?" He shouted, the skin on his ass stinging.
"For all the months that you put me through torture," Sebastian whispered into his ear before smacking Ciel's ass again. "I want to say that it was close to twelve, but my mind is a bit hazy right now. Maybe you should keep count for me so I don't forget and go over."
Ciel moaned as another blow landed on his bottom and his fingers clenched the sheets. If he had been any more aware, he would've laughed at Sebastian for removing the comforter so it wouldn't get dirty. Instead, he could only gasp out 'three' before two more were given in quick succession.
"F-five," Ciel panted and squeezed his eyes. As Sebastian continued, he found that it was harder to keep track of what number they were on and Ciel had to shift his feet as they approached ten. His skin was on fire and was sensitive to each blow, making Ciel feel them all the more. By the time they reached twelve, he was sobbing from the mix of pain and pleasure and nearly collapsed to the floor the moment the number left his mouth.
He trembled as Sebastian pressed a soft kiss to the small of his back and Ciel could feel his cock, hard and jutting out from his groin while precum beaded at the tip. Ciel's face flushed with embarrassment at having been so turned on by such a thing and he buried his face in the sheets as Sebastian pressed up against him.
"Don't be embarrassed," Sebastian murmured. "That was very arousing, watching you take all those."
Hands brushed lightly over the red skin and Ciel shivered at the touch, his body still sensitive. But the soft touches were a welcoming gesture after the harsh ones and Ciel moaned lowly. He felt a hand travel around his hip until it came around to the front of his body and fingers brushed ever so lightly against his straining dick.
Ciel's body bucked and jerked as his orgasm raced over him without warning, the simple touch being just enough to send him over the edge. He shouted Sebastian's name as wave after wave of pleasure washed over him until Ciel could only slump against the side of the bed when he was done.
His legs trembled on the floor and Ciel could barely move when Sebastian scooped him off the carpet, placing him gently on the bed. Ciel hissed as his sore bottom touched the sheets but a soft kiss cut off further complaints while Sebastian worked to untie the blindfold. When it came off, Ciel blinked several times until the room came into focus.
Blue eyes settled on Sebastian hovering over him and Ciel reached up to brush over the man's cheek. "You're really good at this," he murmured.
"Would you like me to continue all the way or would it be better to stop now?" Sebastian asked, turning his head to press a kiss to the inside of Ciel's wrist.
Ciel tugged at Sebastian's hand. "If you stop now, I'll turn you around and fuck you myself."
Crimson eyes glowed with delight. "That sounds promising," he answered but reached forward to pin Ciel's hands to the bed. "But for now, your ass is mine," he purred.
"Then you better fix this problem," Ciel stated, gesturing to his flaccid cock. "Can't do anything when it's like this."
Sebastian chuckled and rolled away from Ciel. "Would you like me to strip for you?" He teased as he climbed off the bed and his fingers came up to slip the buttons through their holes.
Ciel watched with rapt attention as more pale skin was slowly revealed and he licked his lips as the last button was undone. The shirt hung on Sebastian's shoulders and Ciel watched as the man practically slunk up to the bed, placing his hands on the bed and trapping Ciel with his arms. Ciel's breath hitched as Sebastian leaned in close, as though he was going to kiss his cheek and Ciel's eyes closed, waiting for the touch.
It never came and instead the bed dipped around Ciel, making his eyes snap open to see Sebastian kneeling over his legs on the bed. Ciel reached forward to grab Sebastian's hips but his hands were brushed away and the man slowly lowered his body until he was sitting on Ciel's lap.
"I think I need help with the button on my pants," Sebastian whispered huskily, his lips brushing over Ciel's ear. "Will you help me?"
Ciel nodded absentmindedly and reached forward, fingers brushing over the fabric of Sebastian's pants. They found the button without any problem and slipped it through the hole before drifting down to rub lightly over the bulge in the pants. His wrist was caught just before they could touch and like a dancer, Sebastian fluidly slipped away.
Sebastian rolled his shoulders, the shirt sliding down to catch in the crook of his arms while his hands trailed up his torso. They stopped at his exposed nipples, pausing to tweak and tease them until they were hard and standing at attention. Soft pants and noises fell from Sebastian's mouth as he rubbed small circles over them and Ciel shifted on the bed, trying hard to keep still.
"Sebastian," he moaned and his fingers twitched on the bed, holding back from touching himself.
The nipples were abandoned and Sebastian's hands started to move back down his body, the shirt slowly sliding further down Sebastian's back. Ciel watched the shirt carefully, wanting it to fall to the floor so Sebastian's torso would be bare to him. But it seemed that Sebastian was content to keep it on his body for a while longer.
Sebastian moaned loudly as his hand palmed his covered cock, hips bucking into the touch. "Ciel," he groaned and rolled his hips forward.
"Oh fuck," Ciel hissed and before he could stop himself, his hand was around his cock and he was surprised to find it hard already. He stroked himself, bringing himself back to full hardness as he continued to watch Sebastian.
The man had hooked his fingers in the waistband of his pants and was slowly rocking his hips to a beat in his head while the pants were pulled down at an agonizingly slow pace. They finally dropped to the ground, leaving Sebastian in nothing but his boxers and a shirt that needed to come off now, in Ciel's opinion.
Ciel raised his hand and cocked his finger, calling Sebastian over with a small smirk. Sebastian chuckled lowly and glided over to the bed, hips rocking slightly until he reached Ciel. "Yes?" He purred.
"Let me help you with that," Ciel stated and ungracefully yanked the boxers off. They pooled around Sebastian's feet before they were kicked away and Ciel eyed the shirt. "The shirt," he stated.
Sebastian slipped it off and held it up. "I'm rather proud of myself," he said. "No buttons were lost." The shirt was tossed aside and Sebastian leaned forward again, trapping Ciel on the bed. "I think that calls for an award."
Ciel smirked and reached up to loop his arms around Sebastian's neck, pulling him down for a kiss. He tumbled back onto the bed, dragging Sebastian down with him. His legs parted, letting the older male rest between them and he hissed as their erections brushed against each other. "I think the time for foreplay is over," he murmured. "You can't strip twice."
"I could," Sebastian answered but rolled away regardless.
Ciel moved further up the bed as Sebastian grabbed the lube and he watched as the man coated his fingers with the slippery substance. He laughed as the scent of cinnamon assaulted his nose and found that it helped to take away the edge that had filled his body earlier. This was something he had been waiting for. The trust that Sebastian was giving showed that he forgave him and was willing to trust him full heartedly.
That knowledge had Ciel relaxing against the bedding as Sebastian hovered over him. "Come here," he murmured lowly and pressed his lips to Sebastian's mouth as soon as the man was close enough. They kissed slowly and tenderly, sharing emotions and feelings with the seemingly simple action until they parted ever so slightly to look at each other.
A warm finger nudged Ciel's entrance and slowly pushed in as Ciel drew Sebastian into another kiss. The first finger didn't hurt and Ciel draped his arms around Sebastian's shoulders once more. He wanted to feel the man all around and in him, to have that constant feeling so he could appreciate all that Sebastian had to offer.
Because at one point, he had almost lost all this. Had almost lost everything that Sebastian was and everything Sebastian was giving him now. But it wasn't about the sex now, it was about trust, feeling, and so much more. It was about everything they had to offer each other and never taking it for granted.
It was about everything they shared and what they would share in the future. Emotions, words, touches, and trust. Those things that people take advantage of because they had never come close to losing them. But Ciel had and he knew just how important they were, how important Sebastian was.
Three fingers thrust in and out of Ciel and he couldn't even remember when Sebastian had added the last two. He moaned into the kiss, silently pleading with Sebastian to hurry. His hips rocked down to meet Sebastian's fingers as the stretched and teased him. The older male was purposely missing his prostate and Ciel could feel the smirk on Sebastian's lips.
"Se—Sebastian," he growled, only to have the words leave his mouth in an embarrassing groan.
"Yes?" Sebastian asked, breath fanning across his face. A kiss was given to the tip of his nose before the fingers were removed. "I should make you beg," he purred, reaching for the lube.
Ciel glared at him. "You would get off on something like that, wouldn't you," he stated. His eyes watched Sebastian's hand as it moved over the swollen flesh and Ciel found himself licking his lips.
Sebastian smirked and settled himself in between Ciel's legs again. "Perhaps," he murmured and drew pale legs to wrap around his waist. "Will you let me take you like this? I want to see your face."
Ciel nodded and ran his hands down Sebastian's chest, feeling the hard muscle under his fingers. "I would like that," he said shyly, feeling the hard length nudge against his stretched entrance. He tugged Sebastian closer as the man started to push in, feeling his muscles burn and stretch around Sebastian.
Tears pricked at his eyes and Ciel felt Sebastian lick away the wetness before trailing soft kisses over his face and neck. It helped to distract Ciel from the pain and he bucked slightly as Sebastian took his flagging erection in his hand, slowly stroking it back to hardness. Ciel's nails dug into Sebastian's back and he shouted as Sebastian's teeth found his skin.
"Ba-bastard," he hissed. "You said you d-don't bite."
Sebastian trembled above him. "Hush," he said and rolled his hips forward slightly, trying to quell the urge to start thrusting into the tight heat around him.
Ciel's head tipped back on the bed, exposing more of his neck for Sebastian, something the older male eagerly took. Teeth nipped and lips sucked before Ciel started to rock his hips against Sebastian, slowly meeting the small thrusts that Sebastian was giving. "Move," he gasped and nearly groaned when Sebastian listened, pulling back slowly until only the tip remained.
A cry left his mouth as Sebastian's hips snapped forward and Ciel's nails dug even more into Sebastian's skin. Pleasure raced through his body and Ciel's toes curled slightly at the feeling. His eyes slipped shut and his mouth opened as Sebastian started a steady pace, and for a moment, all Ciel could do was clutch at Sebastian.
He could feel Sebastian all around him and Ciel grasped at Sebastian's arms while his legs pulled the man closer. He wanted to feel all that Sebastian to offer; needed to know that this wasn't a dream.
Ciel gasped as pleasure made his eyes snap open. "There," he gasped and pushed back to meet Sebastian's thrusts.
They rocked together, the sweat on their bodies making them slide against each other easier until Ciel was starting to meet Sebastian's thrusts with his own, drawing the built up pleasure to an even higher peak that threatened to wash over them at any minute. It was too much all at once and Ciel trembled on the bed as he could feel the heat coiling.
Sebastian's teeth nipped along Ciel's neck as Ciel continued to rock against him and he groaned lowly at the feeling. Ciel's name fell from his mouth as the younger male clenched around him and he caught the teasing look in Ciel's eyes. A smirk crossed Sebastian's face, knowing that Ciel was egging him on.
Blue eyes widened as Sebastian slowed down, his thrusts long and drawn out, keeping Ciel's orgasm at bay. Ciel tossed his head from side to side and bucked his hips up, urging Sebastian to continue the same fast pace as before. "Se-Sebastian!" Ciel cried in frustration. His nails raked at Sebastian's arms, drawing red lines down the pale skin.
"You beg so nicely," Sebastian purred and slipped out, drawing a disappointed whine from Ciel. "Scoot down to the edge of the bed," he murmured.
Ciel eyed Sebastian curiously but slowly wiggled his way to the side of the bed until his shoulders brushed the edge of the mattress. Sebastian's hands grabbed his hips, keeping him from going any further and Ciel moaned lowly as the older male pressed his body up against his. The intimacy from before was back and Ciel went to reach for Sebastian, only to have the man drape his body over him.
Ciel's legs moved to wrap around Sebastian's waist again, drawing them closer and he could feel the hard cock slipping and rubbing against his ass. He whined at the feeling, wanting more.
"Head back," Sebastian muttered next to his ear and nibbled at it. "And arms back. Relax them so they're limp against the floor."
Hesitantly, Ciel tilted his head back and relaxed his arms as Sebastian suggested, feeling a bit silly in the current position. All thoughts of that fled from his mind as Sebastian thrust back in suddenly and Ciel felt all the blood rush to his head; making him moan loudly. Lips attacked his exposed neck as Sebastian started a fast pace that had Ciel seeing stars with each brush over his prostate.
Sebastian's arms cradled around him, pressing against his chest and giving him perfect access to lick and nip at his neck and collar bone. "Yes, fuck yes," Ciel moaned and his eyes closed as pleasure raced through his body, toes and fingertips tingling. His hips bucked and rolled to meet Sebastian's thrusts while his dick rubbed against Sebastian's stomach, providing delicious friction that had Ciel panting heavily.
He could feel Sebastian's eyes on him and Ciel tilted his head up slightly, eyes opening to see crimson eyes staring at him. They were dark and filled with lust, emotion swimming deep within them. Emotions that were only for Ciel and no one else. Ciel reached up, his fingers shaking slightly as he tugged on Sebastian's hair, drawing him into a kiss while they continued to rock towards completion.
Sebastian's arm came up to support his back and Ciel felt the world spin as the blood rush slowly left his head while they kissed, tongues slipping and curling around each other. Sweat trickled down his face and Ciel's bangs were plastered to his forehead as the heat in the room continued to mount. The kiss broke and Ciel found his head tipped back over the edge of the bed.
His hips were lifted as Sebastian shifted them higher until all of Ciel's body was dangling over the bed and the only thing keeping him from falling was the tight grip around Sebastian's waist. There was a new sense of trust in the act and it washed over Ciel's body as Sebastian started to move again, pushing in deeper than before and making Ciel cry out all the louder for it.
He nearly screamed in pleasure as one hand left his hip to circle around his throbbing cock. Sebastian stroked him in time to their thrusts, his thumb swirling over the tip and running over the slit until Ciel could feel his whole body thrumming with pleasure. Ciel's hips jerked into Sebastian's hand as the man gave a small squeeze to the tip of his cock, sending Ciel over the edge.
Garbled words, a mix of Sebastian's name and curse words, fell from Ciel's mouth as he came. Hips bucked and jerked as cum covered Sebastian's hand and Ciel was left gasping and panting for breath as Sebastian continued to thrust into him. Blood rushed to his head, making Ciel feel lightheaded and he watched through his eyelashes as Sebastian came undone before him.
It was an erotic sight, to see Sebastian lose his composure in the throes of passion. Crimson eyes closing in pleasure while that sinful mouth fell open as Sebastian's orgasm washed over his body. Sebastian's hands tightened on his hips, nails digging into his skin slightly but the feeling was easily dismissed as Ciel watched a fine tremble work its way through Sebastian's body.
"Beautiful," Ciel murmured, feeling Sebastian's hips rolling slowly as he rode out the last of his orgasm.
Slowly, Sebastian lowered their bodies to the bed and shifted back so Ciel's head was once more resting on the mattress. They panted in each other's arms, bodies shaking and trembling as they came down from their high and remembered how to feel once more. Ciel could feel his fingers again and he reached up to stroke Sebastian's cheek, feeling the soft skin under the pads of his finger.
"That was amazing," he said lowly. "You were…wow."
Sebastian chuckled and caught Ciel's wrist, pressing a kiss to his fingertips. "I'll take that as a compliment," he said, eyes bright and alert despite the sated feeling in his body.
Ciel smirked and playfully pushed at Sebastian's shoulder. "You're shaking," he stated and let his fingers trail down Sebastian's shoulder before moving to cross his back.
"So are you," Sebastian murmured and started to lay soft kisses to Ciel's neck and collarbone. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah," Ciel answered breathlessly and his eyes lazily watched as Sebastian littered more kisses across his body. It seemed as though the older male was practically worshiping his body and couldn't get enough. The thought had Ciel relaxing underneath Sebastian and he let the man explore his body, touching and kissing it as he pleased.
The touches were simple but they conveyed a message filled with emotions that Ciel could practically feel. This was Sebastian, everything about him was spread out now before Ciel for him to see. All of Sebastian's guards were dropped and he was exposing himself freely, giving Ciel the chance to embrace or break him. Was giving Ciel that power.
It was something Ciel had known going into the act of having sex with Sebastian. He knew that it was the final bridge to cross in terms of trust, because Sebastian wouldn't offer this chance if he didn't trust Ciel just yet. But seeing Sebastian handle his body this way and lay everything bare before him made Ciel realize just how much Sebastian cared about him.
Because despite everything, if Ciel hadn't wanted this in the end, Sebastian would let him go if it meant that Ciel would be happy with someone else. It would kill Sebastian to do so, but the love he held for Ciel would make him smile and wish him luck, even if he was dying inside.
Ciel choked on the emotions welling up in his throat and felt hot tears prickle at his eyes. "Sebastian," he called, his voice cracking slightly. The older male looked up at him in concern at his voice and slid up his body, ready to sooth whatever was hurting him. But Ciel cut him off quickly as he cupped Sebastian's cheeks and pulled him down for a kiss.
This person.
He was offering Ciel a chance to leave. Had offered it before and was offering again, not to test him, but to let Ciel know that he wouldn't hold him back if it wasn't what Ciel wanted. Because more than anything, he just wanted Ciel happy.
This man.
Had given him chance after chance to make things right and to give them one last shot at happiness. Had waited and hoped when all others would have left Ciel and given up; would never have given him that second chance.
This amazing and talented person.
Had hidden his talents and person, all for the sake of Ciel. He had chosen to suffer when he could've vanished years ago, with the hope that eventually, Ciel would see him and something would happen between them.
This…this…
Sebastian.
"Sebastian," Ciel moaned softly as their lips parted and he dove in again for another one, his mouth pressing tight against Sebastian's, wanting to feel and taste everything that was Sebastian. Because it was Sebastian and no one else.
It was Sebastian who had given Ciel everything. Not just a relationship or trust, but his body and heart.
And Ciel had almost thrown it all away. Had almost thrown away this person. This man who was offering him everything while others only offered a fraction. This amazing, talented, and beautiful person.
Had almost thrown away Sebastian, the man Ciel had come to love more than he thought possible.
"Sebastian," Ciel murmured when they broke apart again. His hands held Sebastian's head in place as he gazed into crimson eyes. "Don't let me go, Sebastian. Ever."
Sebastian blinked at him before his eyes softened. "I won't, I promise," he said, a soft smile on his face.
Ciel pulled Sebastian closer until their foreheads were pressed together. "Good, because I would be miserable if you did." He smiled and his fingers rubbed small circles over Sebastian's temple. "I love you, so much."
Sebastian's eyes closed and a content hum left his throat as he leaned into the touch. "Say it again," he whispered as Ciel started to place small kisses on his face.
"I love you," Ciel murmured, his lips brushing over Sebastian's skin. It was repeated with a kiss following each one until Sebastian was practically limp in his arms. He would've been content to stay that way, but Sebastian shifted at the last moment, drawing them further back on the bed and pulling the sheets over their bodies.
Ciel drew Sebastian back to him as he rested against the pillows, letting the man wrap his arms around his chest. There was an overwhelming urge to hold Sebastian and Ciel gave into it without though, his fingers tracing random patterns over Sebastian's skin. He buried his nose in the damp hair, inhaling the scent of cinnamon and let out a soft sigh. He would never let Sebastian go again.
It was a lesson that had to be learned the hard way but one that Ciel took to heart. He had almost lost Sebastian due to his actions and Ciel didn't even want to think about a future without Sebastian.
Because this was where he wanted to be, in Sebastian's embrace and he never wanted to let go.
Last A/N: I'll give my last thanks again here. Thank you everyone for reading! There's a chance that I might return to this story to write a few short side stories to touch on things not covered in this chapter but I'm not 100% sure about that just yet. But if I do, I will continue to post them on this story instead of creating a new story for them.
As for any future stories, because I had a few people ask, I can say with full confidence that there will be something new, very soon. It was briefly mentioned in the first chapter in the authors note and that's all I can say about it, haha XD
One last thanks for everyone, thank you so much! I feel very honored to have this story receive so much attention and I'm glad that y'all enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it. Thank you, everyone! ^_^