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BPOV

Finally we were alone. I had just eaten dinner. We had not spoken to each other. Both of us still in shock scared to voice our thoughts. Esme had cooked me something wonderful but I couldn't for the life of me remember what it was. I had just mechanically fed it to myself while Edward sat motionless staring at my plate lost in his own thoughts. I can imagine how difficult it must be for him to grasp what happened today. To think that Edward had suffered alone for so long.. I felt a searing ache in my heart at his pain.

"Are you ok Edward?"

"I think so Bella… it's just so hard for me to understand. I knew she resented me but I still can't believe how much of it she hid from me."

"What do you mean?"

"I'm hurt Bella… I'm hurt to think that she thought that I was an incompetent male… who… who…" his voice shook. He covered his face with his hands. I hadn't realised how hard this revelation would have been for him. I stood up and went around the table and hugged him to me. He buried his face in my chest and placed his ear to my heart. I knew he drew comfort from the sound of its beating.

"Of course you are not like that."

"Bella do you think that's partly why I didn't want to change you? Do you think I might not be able to satisfy you? I'm scared Bella… I never even had a.. you know an erection before I met you…what if I'm… I'm physically incompetent?" Oh! God he was doubting himself. He was doubting his masculinity because of what that stupid, idiotic… I didn't have words for her… said to him.

"Edward, Edward look at me?" I pulled at his chin trying to lift his face.

He finally looked up. The defeat and helplessness in his eyes twisted like a knife in my chest.

"Edward, you had so many erections when you were with me right? Hell you had so many orgasms! There is no doubt you can satisfy any number of vampire or human females as you like."

"Do I .. do I .. satisfy you Bella?" I was surprised that he had to ask.

"Of course you do Edward! How many times have I had orgasms with you? Ha? All because of you.."

"But I have heard… I mean .. I know females can.. you know…" He was lost for words now.

"Females can what Edward?"

"Females can fake …" Now I was furious! He thought I was faking?

"Oh for the love of god Edward! Don't make me loose my temper with you too! How could you even ask such a question! You know how much a simple look from you can dazzle me. Everything we had together was wonderful I was blissfully satisfied.. non of my fantasies with you ever even came close to how incredible the reality was. You are my every dream come true Edward."

He finally smiled at me. But his eyes did not light up the way they usually did. He was just trying to placate me, still doubting himself. Well I'll show him… I'll show him today. But there was something that kept bothering me.. guess I should ask and get it over with.

"Is Rosalie still in love with you Edward?" I had to ask. I knew Edward didn't want her but still… next to her beauty.. I was… just plain.. it hurt when she said that. I knew I was not beautiful but I had hoped that I was pretty enough for Edward to want me. I felt my own insecurities raise their head again.

"I don't think so Bella."

"Did you… I mean did you ever have feelings for her Edward?"

"Of course not! I could read her mind from the very first moment we met and it was always just filled with her own vanity always comparing her beauty to that of others. All selfish thoughts of her own self-importance. Nothing at all that would even make me give her a second glance." A look of disgust crossed his face.

"Is she still the same as she was when she was human?"

"She has changed. She has learned to care for Emmett and the rest of the family. She even cares for me. I know she wanted me to come back to the family when I left after leaving you."

"Yes. She wanted you back."

"It's just that… it's just that Bella.. I'm confused how could she have thought that I secretly loved her? I wouldn't have behaved in anyway to make her think like that. I'm sure of that."

Did Edward love her? A shadow of a doubt tried to raise its head. No! he never had. I was sure of it. From the way he responded today I could tell that he never loved her that way.

"Did you treat her differently than you treat Alice?"

"Well yes. Alice is sort of my best friend as well as my sister. I share so much with her."

That's it! I think I see it now. How do I phrase it so that I don't offend him…

"Edward….. don't get me wrong.. do you I mean do you ever hold Rosalie and hug her the way you hug Alice or Esme?" Edward was deep in thought.

"No I don't. I don't even remember the last time I kissed her… I think it was the year before last for Christmas."

"Why is that?" I was sounding like a police inquirer but I wanted to get to the bottom of this.

"I guess she never did seem that approachable and didn't really need my comfort anyway. Alice always loves to give hugs as well as get them. Esme is the same. She's so much like my own mother who loved having me close to her."

Edward drew in a harsh breath.

"You think she thought that way because I rarely touched her?"

"I don't know Edward. I guess so."

We were both lost in thought.

"Well Jasper and Carlisle never touched her either except for the holiday kisses and farewells or greetings of some kind. Jasper and I are both her brothers and we both treated her the same way."

"Emmett and I both mess around with Alice. I'm more protective while Emmett loves to annoy her and wrestle her to the ground.. mind you that's not that easy with her visions." He had a wistful smile on his face.

"In fact I saved her from Emmett just last week. That reminds me I have a lot to tell you." This time he had a genuine smile on his face.

Edward went on to explain about the mysterious evaluation, air freshener project and lastly about the special underwear he had to wear to protect his modesty. He looked very embarrassed when he mentioned this. It was with great difficulty that I kept myself from laughing when he told me all the trouble he had gone through trying to hide things from his very inquisitive family. From what I heard today's experience was not the most humiliating Edward had faced so far all because of his uncontrollable urges. And I was the cause of that. For once I felt confident. To think I had that much of power over him to make him forget everything else and give into his sexual needs. Wow. Edward finished by saying that so far Emmett and Rosalie didn't know anything about the most embarrassing situations he had faced. At the mention of Rosalie's name the gloom settled over us again. I was scared that we might make some slip and Rosalie would find out the truth about all that Edward wished to keep from her. I vowed to do everything in my power to make sure she never suspected anything. I was sure the other Cullen's will also try to keep Edward's secrets.

"Bella shall we watch a movie?"

"Sure." We moved to the living room and Edward put on a movie. I really didn't even bother to see what it was.

"Bella can I .. can I rest my head on your lap?" It was a strange request. It was usually Edward who held me not the other way around. I sat down and he lay down on the couch resting his head on my lap and curling in a foetal position facing me. His hands went around me hugging me to him. It was odd. He looked so vulnerable. I stroked his hair. His hair was ticklish against my bare thighs. I felt a rush of arousal at the proximity of Edward's face to my core. He inhaled deeply. I was sure he could smell me. He nuzzled deeper into my lap burying his face closer to me. He was driving me crazy. I took a coveted glance at his crotch the position he was curled in didn't show anything. I touched his bare torso he hadn't bothered getting a new shirt and I was wearing his old one. He leaned into my touched. I traced the planes of his back. So perfect. He suddenly turned his face to look at me.

"Bella can I ask you something?"

"Sure. Anything you want." At least he was talking to me. That was good.

"What pleases you?" I was confused.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean when you.. oh Bella this is something very personal to you.. I don't know whether you wish to share it with me.. but I will be grateful if you would."

"Edward.. we've shared a lot. Ask away." I smiled at him trying to reassure him although I was also worried.

"When you….do it what do you do… or think about to bring you pleasure?"

Oh! God he wanted to know what I fantasised about while I masturbated. How embarrassing… what do I do? I guess I'd have to answer.. if I didn't he's sure to draw the wrong conclusions specially today.

"I think about you Edward."

"Doing what?"

"Oh the usual." I know I was blushing now.

"Can you …will you.. tell me how to please you? I don't know how to… I .. I have never done it.. I want to bring you pleasure.. to satisfy you….." I froze. All of a sudden I realised where all this sudden interest in my fantasies came from. It was his own insecurity stemming from the stupid apology Rosalie gave. I wished she hadn't apologised she had created more problems by it than the good it did. The confident playful Edward who was willing to experiment was gone replaced by an insecure bumbling teenager all because of a stupid assumption. I decided to answer him truthfully in detail to put his mind at rest.

"Edward…I know why you are asking all these questions… you don't have anything to worry about. Everything you do with me brings me pleasure every touch every word.. even every glance.. In fact what I do is relive every moment I spend with you when I'm on my own and just think that you continue to kiss me then remove our clothes and make love to me… sometimes I don't even have to go that far the thought of your hands removing my clothes is enough to bring me fulfilment. So trust me when I say that you more than satisfy me."

He was still staring at me with a thoughtful expression. I decided to go for broke.

"I touch myself thinking it's your hands… I don't think I need to explain the technicalities you have far more knowledge about that…in short remember what you did to me today… you brought me pleasure just by touching me over my clothes… you even know exactly how much pressure to put and how to touch me don't tell me you didn't experience it today. In fact you are unintentionally doing it even now.. I'm sure…hmm you know it.." I knew he could smell my arousal.

A slow triumphant smile spread across his face. Finally! My Edward was back.

Today was supposed to be a special evening for us. I remembered the lovely blue night dress I had brought with me along with the matching underwear. I had hoped that we would be able to be free with each other today. Although we were alone in my room at Charlie's there was always the thought that Charlie was just down the hall from us. But today we knew we were alone in his house with no one to interrupt us. Alice had apologised again for failing to see that Rosalie would actually come into the house once she heard my screams of pleasure. Everyone had promised that they would not return until tomorrow afternoon and that we could spend the time left together without fear of interruptions. But all that had happened had ruined our mood.

I was mad. What was I doing? I was letting Rosalie spoil our time together. I decided then and there that I would salvage what was left of the few precious hours alone with Edward. I also felt confident. Our plan to show Rosalie that Edward and I were intimate had succeeded beyond expectations. Everyone now knew without a doubt that Edward and I were intimate. Only Edward, Alice and I knew how 'intimate'. Well it was time to make it more intimate.

"Edward, what are we doing?"

"Watching a movie love?" He smiled at me with raised eyebrows. He was teasing me; a good sign.

"I'm not." He gave me his crooked grin.

"Well, I guess I'm not watching it either love." He kissed my stomach. It tickled. I giggled.

"I have plans for you tonight Cullen.. I suggest we get on with them without wasting our time pretending to watch a movie. I've had enough pretence this afternoon."

"Oh! Really?" More mock surprise and raised eyebrows. He wanted to play dirty now did he? Well let's see.. I struggled out from under him and stood up in front of him with my hands on my hips. I was still in his t-shirt wearing only my underwear underneath it. So I didn't feel that confident although I wanted to appear that way.

"I'm going to change Cullen; I'll be there in your room in half an hour. You'd better be ready for me."

I saw a look of burning desire on his face; all pretence of not understanding melting way under the force of his excitement. Good. I had him right where I wanted him. I turned around and started towards the stairs and of course I had to trip on the carpet and he steadied me. I continued climbing the stairs. I heard a low chuckle from downstairs. He really was enjoying this.

I got to Alice's room where she had taken me to change. I wondered why I wasn't taken to Edward's. I'll get there soon enough. I took my clothes and went into her spacious bathroom. I took a shower washing my hair and blow drying it. I wanted to look good tonight. As I started putting on my clothes I caught my reflection on the floor to ceiling mirrors in Alice's bathroom and froze. I'd never really looked at myself properly in a long time if ever. I didn't have a full length mirror at Charlie's. I decided I should get one. I stared at my reflection. I did look good. I had grown bigger boobs and I also had curvy hips. Wow. I hadn't really realised how I'd filled out during the last couple of years. I had assumed I was still thin with a boyish figure. But to my surprise I had very nice curves. I smiled to myself.

So this was why Edward found me attractive… mmm… he had said I had the most beautiful body he had ever seen. Well I doubted that but hey if he says I'm beautiful who am I to argue? He has better vision than me and I have heard a saying that beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. I felt my confidence slowly returning. Let Rosalie think I'm plain. Only Edward's opinion matters to me. I put on my panties. They had tiny lace edgings but the body of the panty was in silk, so it covered all of me. I had got two panties in Edward's favourite blue but the other one was a bit too sexy… it had only lace for the sides and I was a bit self conscious wearing it. I decided against wearing a bra. Edward had already seen me without my top and the semi transparent night dress made it more sexy when you could see me through the material. I blushed at the thought. I quickly put the matching blue overcoat on. Much better. It only hinted at my curves and covered me.. Let Edward discover what was underneath I wasn't going to blatantly display it. I checked the time. I had four minutes more to walk up the stairs to his room. I slowly climbed up and went to his room. His door was open. My courage was failing me. I was reduced to a bundle of nerves. I took a deep breath and walked towards the door. Edward was waiting for me…

Ok all set for the lemons to begin!... please review and let me know what you think….