Chapter 13: Scared by reflections

"Hello?" there she stood, in the middle of nothing. Emma was surrounded by an infinite area of white space. And how further she walked, how bigger the white area grew.

"Anybody?" her voice echoed in the blank space, "I guess not…" and she turned around, facing a big mirror. They were all around her now, the blank place was gone and filled itself with mirror walls. Emma could see herself in more than a million times. Slowly she walked to one of the mirror walls, reaching out to the reflecting glass. And even before she could touch the mirror, her reflection grabbed her wrist and broke all the mirror walls.

Emma tried to get out of the reflection's grip, "Who are you?!" she yelled, falling down on the floor with her wrist still caught in the reflection's hand.

"I'm your biggest nightmare Emma Swan." The reflection turned into Mila's.

Emma woke up wide awake, she pulled herself up in one move. She felt her whole body shaking as she pulled herself up, even her forehead felt wet from the sweat she god of the scary memory. Memory? Or dream? Better said: nightmare.

"Swan…" Killian said, jumping off his chair and taking seat on the edge of her bed.

"Where the bloody hell am I." the blonde looked at her boyfriend, scared by death. Her breath was faster than usually and her body didn't stop shivering and shaking.

"Take it easy my darling, you're in the hospital. You better lay down again."

"The… The hospital?" and then she realised it as she was letting herself down on the bed again, the hospital. She threw her gaze at her hands and arms, tubes were going into her veins, leading to an infuse hanging next to her. Emma threw her hands through her hair and held her head for a moment. "I cannot remember why I'm here…"

"You collapsed on the stairs, in our apartment building."

"I did?" she said looking up for a moment, but hiding in her hands again directly. Emma made noises of pain, as she would explode, "For how long have I been here."

"Three days… fully asleep. Emma are you alright?"

"I'm in a freaking hospital and my head is pounding like someone is slamming on my brain, do I sound okay?" the tears ran down her cheeks, Emma never cried, she never wanted to. But she was in so much pain, physically and mental. Her body was hurting so badly, and her brain was begging for mercy. She was about to give up and fall down on her bead, unconscious.

"Hey, look at me." He pulled her body up and held her back with one arm, caressing her almost white looking cheeks which supposed to be rosy and soft. "I'm here with you okay? No one will harm you." Killian pulled her close to his body, hugging her gently so she wouldn't feel any pain.

"You wouldn't let me alone right?" she asked him desperately, as the nightmare rushed through her head.

"Never Swan, not even an option." He said as Emma tried to raise her arms, wanting to place them around his neck. "Here I'll help you dear." And he wrapped her arms around his neck as they hugged each other on the hospital bed.

"Then get me out of here, please. I wanna see Henry and just go back home." She asked him desperately, holding his hands tightly.

"I'll try to get you out as soon as possible, but I can't give you the care at home you really need in here." He said as she let go of his hands.

"Then at least take me outside for a moment…"

Killian asked the front office if she was allowed to go outside, she was if they stayed in the park outside of the building. Killian lifted his girlfriend up and placed her in a wheelchair, as she wasn't allowed to walk yet. Emma watched herself in the window, feeling horrible about the way she looked. So he placed her red jacket on her shoulders, to be a bit more like herself.

He walked her outside, and the blonde needed to squeeze her eyes because of the sunlight stinging in her eyes. "It feels so weird to be outside…"

"You haven't been outside in a few days, you just need to get a bit used to it."

"I feel useless, normally I would walk around with a gun and pepper spray as my shift is in the park."

"Swan, you even take your gun and pepper spray when you aren't working." Killian said as they both laughed.

A few more days had gone by and Emma was allowed to go home, with a bunch of medicines and a journal to keep track of the hours she slept. The lady wasn't allowed to work yet, but it made her feel glorious that she could go home.

"We need to take the elevator Killian… I'm not allowed to walk up the stairs yet."

"That's right… But I am." He lifted her up like a bride, and walked her all the way up to their floor. Killian put her down in front of their apartment door and opened up the door.

"Mommy!" Henry screamed, running up to her and hugging her.

"Be careful kid, I'm not a very strong police woman at the moment."

"You're not a very strong gamer either."

"You little..." and she rushed her hands through his hair as they walked to the kitchen, "What's that?" Emma said, looking at a little box on the counter.

"Henry bought you a little gift." Killian said, giving his girlfriend a wink and hugging the little Henry.

Emma opened up the box, seeing a little cupcake with a candle formed like a blue star. Killian lightened the candle, "Make a wish Em." And she did, as she blew out the candle.

They all went to bed early, Henry was allowed to use his Nintendo DS in bed as it was earlier than usually. Emma was just very tired, and Killian didn't wanna leave her alone.

Emma walked up to their bed, sitting on the edge and letting her legs slowly fall on the matrass, laying her head down on the pillow and breathing in deeply.

Killian too place next to her, "Are you okay dear?"

"It's going okay, I'm just not used to this all… I cannot even get in my freaking bed normally."

"Everyone has a weak moment in their life Em, it's alright." He said as Emma tried to lay on her side. Killian saw her facial expressions, showing the pain she was in. He helped her with a last gentle push and laid his arm around her so she wouldn't fall back.

"You know I love you right?"

"I do… I really do." The blonde said as he pulled her a bit closer, she looked into his bright blue eyes, they were like the pacific sea to swim in. He closed his as she closed hers and kissed each other. He rushed his hand through her hair gently, caressing her now rosy cheeks afterwards.

"Please don't let of me, I'm scared…" It was like Emma was hit by a bullet, that's how scared she was to never wake up again. Killian moved her body on her other side, so he could wrap his arms around her. They both fell asleep as Killian held her body close to his, to wake up in a new morning.