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"Edward….. I love you."
I stared in shock at Bella. She was standing still as a statue. Her face showed a mixture of elation, angst, worry, astonishment and love…. Most of all love…her beautiful chocolate eyes churning with emotion…
I made these observations like a computer… but my mind wouldn't let me process the information. All it kept telling me was that everything was at a standstill and I should prepare for the worst. It was encouraging me to accept defeat.. let go…but … but my heart argued… something was missing in Bella's face…. Something vital something I was expecting to see… was missing… what was it ? Something was not right…
I had just killed Victoria and finished off Reily right in front of her eyes and lit a fire burning them.. I had felt so scared of what Bella's reaction would be when she saw me removing limbs of the vampires right in front of her. Creatures like me…..creatures who had been alive.. a moment before… She had in effect witnessed a gruesome sight. I had expected her to go into shock.. I knew this was what would ultimately make Bella finally run away from me. This could be when she would finally understand who and what I was and leave me. I had hoped so much to spare her this type of a memory. I had been scared to even look at Bella while I finished the cleaning. I had watched Bella's face through Seth's eyes. He had also been worried about her and had been looking at her from time to time. She had stood there very still her eyes glued to me watching me. Her face had been blank devoid of all emotion. So I figured it was just a matter of time before she understood what happened and started freaking out. This was too much for even Bella to bear. Much more than what a human should have witnessed.
That was it! that was what was missing in her face.. fear ! … there was absolutely no fear in her face… it was as I made this observation that Bella's face broke into a huge smile…
"Oh Edward.. I love you… I love you … oh I can't believe it… I love you….. I think I always loved you… I …I think my heart never stopped loving you… although my mind refused to acknowledge it…." Her voice shook with emotion. Silent tears ran down her face..
Her whole body was glowing… simply glowing with happiness….
"I love you so much Edward… I'll marry you.. any time you want.. the sooner the better… I really can't live without you…I want to be with you in every way possible… forever"
She was blushing now. She was talking non-stop… while all I could do was look at her. Finally I saw her move towards me… walking slowly….
She stopped right in front of me… her chocolate eyes looking straight into my soul.
"Thank you for saving my life again love." My breath left me at when I heard the word love….I couldn't say a word other than just stand there and stare at her. It was difficult for my mind to process this… she reached a hand up as if she was going to touch my face but put it back down in hesitation…
"Edward… can you hear me… I said I love you…"
I couldn't begin to understand what was happening. My limbs refused to move my mind a blank. That was when I felt a small wet nudge from behind. My instincts kicked in and I immediately turned around prepared to fight crouching down to spring at my enemy….but the little wolf who had nudged me stood his ground facing me and rolled his eyes. "Come on Edward…I'm not going to attack you.. stop being a statue your girl is talking to you…" Finally Seth's words sank in…
My Bella was talking to me.. my Bella had told me she loved me and she would marry me… Oh god!. The final floodgates burst open… letting out all the doubt, angst and fear…. I burst out laughing. The pure unadulterated joy shaking my mind and body alike… I was in heaven… for sure this time it was really heaven….
I heard myself mutter the words.
"Heaven…."
Bella looked a bit puzzled but then she too burst out laughing flinging herself into my arms. I spun her around in my joy.
"Yes heaven Edward…" Bella whispered in my ear.
My Bella loved me!
My Bella wants to marry me!
My Bella wanted to marry me as soon as possible… !
My dead heart nearly started beating… I also heard a growl that sounded more like a laugh from Seth. I hugged her to me kissing her hungrily. My Bella! Even my vampire senses had not prepared me for this unreal feeling of happiness…. I was overwhelmed to such an extent that my poor mind had not been able to really believe it… I had waited so long to hear those words from her sweet lips again.. so long…
I heaved a sigh of relief. She really was mine and only mine. Jacob had tried in the morning to get Bella to give him a kiss saying he knew she loved him and he might not come back from the fight alive. He asked her whether she loved me and she has said that she didn't know. My heart had sunk to the very deepest hell at her words. Then he asked her whether she loved him. Her answer was very clear she told him she only cared for him like a brother or a friend but never like a boyfriend or lover and that she would never love him the way she once loved me. She also told him that she doesn't know whether she'll ever love anyone the way she had loved me those days or trust anyone the way she trusted me. He had tried to persuade her to at least try to kiss him and see whether there was any feelings there telling her that it's her feelings for him that kept her from telling me she loved me. But she flatly refused telling him that I was her boyfriend now and she would never ever cheat on me. I had been glad she had been so honest with him and also me. Before all this I had had to spend a night watching the dog snuggle next to Bella holding her to warm her up. So it had really been a roller coaster ride of emotions for me. And now I didn't have to worry anymore… I had my Bella for an eternity… she was mine and only mine.. my mate. We kissed each other like there was no tomorrow. The happiness radiating from Bella was making me dizzy. I wanted her.. my Bella I wanted to mark her and make her mine right here. I ran my hands under her blouse touching her bra while Bella started to undo my buttons.
That's when we heard a howl from near by and again a huge wet nose shoved it's way nudging us apart.
"Dude please give me a break.. I'm not supposed to see any adult stuff. And I certainly don't want the whole wolf pack to see a vampire human love scene, besides Alice wants me to tell you that the Volturi are almost here." I turned around annoyed at Seth but he only just hung his tongue out laughing at us.
"Oh god Edward! We forgot Seth.. please Seth don't think about this when you are doing the wolf sharing thing ok?" She looked mortified.
The wolf laughed louder. "Too late I already saw it and the others saw it along with me."
"Shit.. it's too late isn't it?" She really was good at communicating with these wolves I guess she knew them well after being with them practically her whole life, specially Seth and Jacob.
Seth nodded his head yes.
Bella hid her head in embarrassment in my chest. I was still laughing. The sheer joy I was feeling at this moment… oh… I really had no words…
"You've got it bad dude. I think we should go Alice is demanding that someone be sent to fetch you."
Oh right! The Volturi! I forgot all about them again. As I turned to go I heard the most heart shattering growls reverberate through the forest. Oh god no! No Jacob. I ran as fast as I could with Bella on my back with Seth following us. We barely made it there when the other wolves now in human form carried Jacob away. Sam asked Carlisle to come to La push to treat Jacob. I readily agreed to go with him. It was as if a new understanding was born between the two sides. I could sense that the wolves no longer held much animosity towards us. I wanted so much to go immediately with the wolves to treat Jacob. I knew he needed quick attention before the bones set in and healed but we had to wait for the Volturi and we didn't want them to know about the wolves. Although once I had considered Jacob my competition and feared that he would take my girl away from me I no longer feared that. Bella's declaration of her love to me made me realise that Bella would always love only me.
When we finally made it to La push Charlie had been there with Billy. He had been surprised to see Carlisle there to treat Jacob and worried about why Billy hadn't taken him to hospital. He had also been surprised at my concern for Jacob. I was worried about the poor wolf and concerned for his welfare. I was also seeing how much pain he was in through his mind. We really had a difficult time treating him. And my mind reading helped a lot when Jacob became unconscious. I was more determined to become a doctor than ever before. I could tell that the tribe and also Charlie had a much better opinion of us after the whole incident.
It was sometime later that I found myself alone with my Bella at our house. Everyone had left to have some alone time with each other and do some hunting after the battle. Jacob had got wounded and Carlisle and I had finally been able to visit LaPush.
Oh dear god what had I got myself into? I'd pushed everything to a side when I concentrated on the battle but now I had to face reality. I was alone with a teenage girl my fiancée who was really eager to see me naked and I don't think I could face it. A hundred something man dreading this was actually hilarious, compared to facing death with Victoria and the Volturi. But I was overcome with fear and embarrassment. How was I ever going to do this? And I'd promised her that I would be hers tonight.
"Edward, I'm really full. I can't eat anymore. Jesus you are worse than Esme!" She had in fact eaten much more than she usually did. I'd made her pasta. I even took a long time making pasta sauce from scratch hoping she would be too sleepy to do anything after eating.
"Ok. I'll clean up then. Shall we watch pride and prejudice again?" I've watched it many times but I knew Bella loved the movie and hoped it would keep her busy for a while longer and then make her sleepy.
"No I'm not in the mood for a movie Edward. Let's go upstairs." I could tell she remembered my promise there was a glimmer in her eyes….a secret happiness. Oh shit! She really was looking forward to this.
"What about dessert? I was desperate now.
"Edward didn't you hear me? I really have no room in my tummy."
"Do you need to take a wash?"
"I already did while you were cooking and before you tell me you don't have to take one I know you took a wash before me."
"Well I do have to wash off the smell of food so I'd better take another wash." She looked at me as if I had grown two heads. I avoided her eyes.
That was it. I saw understanding dawn on her face.
"Edward… are you scared? I mean are you scared about today? And what we agreed to do?"
I slowly nodded my head. She got down from the stool and walked to me.
"Oh Edward. It's ok we don't need to rush things if you are uncomfortable….I understand love… I just only wanted to see you….nothing else..." I looked into her eyes and all I could see was love and care for me although there was disappointment there as well. I couldn't bear that. I kissed her sweet lips… the smell of her arousal hit me like a ton of bricks and I forgot all about my embarrassment. All I wanted to do was to take all her clothes off and worship her with kisses.
"Let's do it love." I picked her up and ran upstairs. All of a sudden I felt very eager. I wanted so much to see her…. my sweet little angel.
So how do you think this is going to go? Will the Victorian teenager win or the hundred year old horny vampire win? Please review and let me know… looking forward to your answer… :)