Do you remember that time where I told you to trust me because I know what I'm doing in this story? Well this chapter would be a good time to remember that.
April's POV
Falling asleep wrapped up in her arms truely makes me feel like I'm in paradise. I missed her strong arms wrapped around me as I melted into her frame, the way she holds me makes me feel loved. Especially since it's right after an orgasm and she is glowing, just like every morning after we had a night like last night. I think she is the most beautiful creature ever when she's in a deep sleep that I caused her.. Or whenever really. I just hope maybe last night was all it took for her to realize what she's missing. She's all I ever wanted all I've ever dreamed of when it came to falling in love and I don't want to let her go. All I know is I don't want to leave I want to say here in her arms. Fuck Zack he doesn't understand her and he never will like I do. He might treat her right but he'll never be able to take care of her like I can. Speaking of her where is she? This isn't how I imagined waking up this morning, she is supposed to still be holding me. She couldn't have gone far because this is her room. It's all good maybe she sent me a message.. No just a text from Roni and a few congrats texts. I'm confident she'll come back so I figured I'd check my Twitter to see what's trending this beautiful morning.
As I look through my feed there are a lot of photos from last night. More specifically there are tons of notifications that regard our match last night, and to get more in detail with that I mean everyone is still buzzing about the kiss. Tons of photos in that exact moment some are nice some are mean but I'm use to all the haters. I feed off hate, it's all just people who are jealous they can't have me the way Zivile has me and vice versa. That or they are homophobic religious freaks regardless they love me anyway. It's whatever because I had a good night last night so nothing can bring me down now. It was then that I heard the toilet flush. Well I guess she was in the bathroom and she didn't leave me. A few seconds later she appeared in the room and leaned up against the wall. She's wearing an oversized t-shirt and a pair of shorts.
"Morning beautiful." I smiled. I love her messy bed head she looks so perfect to me.
"Ummm... About last night-"
"What you want to go round two? Of course I'll need something to eat first... but I suppose you'll do." I winked she just sighed and looked at the floor.
"No you don't get it. I nev-"
"Okay well we don't have to do that but come let's watch tv and cuddle beca-"
"It meant nothing. Last night was a mistake I shouldn't have let it go that far." She spoke cutting me off. I couldn't help but giggle. That hit me right in my giggledick she tells the worst jokes.
"Right." I smirked playfully winking at her. "Do you want to go get breakfast beca-"
"No you don't get it what happened last night meant nothing to me. I don't know why I did what I did but it should not have happened. It was all a big mistake." She murmured looking me directly in the eyes.
"That's not what you said last night. Because if I remember correctly you were the one who called me." I stated in my defense.
"I know and I probably shouldn't have done that either. I'm sorry if you think it meant otherwise but to me it was just a quick one night stand." She spoke flatly. Why is she acting like this? I don't like it at all, quite frankly it's kind of annoying to me.
"Oh yeah okay sure it was. There is no way you can tell me when we were laying here you didn't feel anything between us." I argued. She's just in denial... Or do I really mean nothing to her? But she isn't saying anything she's just staring at me. "Alright well that kiss after our match there's nothing you can say to prove to me that you didn't feel that spark we have. I know I felt it then and I sure as hell felt it last night here. If I felt it you had to have felt something." She just shook her head no.
"After the match yea because it was in front of millions, but it was more excitement than a spark. And just like I said last night was probably just lust nothing more nothing less. No emotions just pleasure." She spoke simply. No this can't be happening! We've only been separated for little over five months. She couldn't have gotten over me that quickly...
"This is his fault isn't it?!" I growled.
"What!?"
"Don't play stupid you know exactly what I'm talking about. Come on how long did you think you could date him and not have me find out?!" I snapped. She looks very confused. "God do you not know who I am? I know everything there is to know of what goes on backstage. And it's so cute that the both of you thought that I didn't know.. Hell who did you think got-" No I can't tell her that I'm responsible for having him suspended. "Do you remember that day I shattered the mirror? You know I don't like it when people try to tell me that you aren't mine, and I sure as hell don't like it when you make out with him in the middle of a hallway." I then got out of bed and began looking for my shirt. I gotta go before my mouth talks me into trouble. "All I have to say is you better thank Layla for dragging me off because I would have killed him if it weren't for her. If I would have known you were going to catch feelings for him I would have gotten rid of him a long time ago." I snapped. I should have never let her be friends with him because I knew he would cause problems. And now he brainwashed my girlfriend and she doesn't remember who she loves for real.
"What the hell do you mean gotten rid of him a long time ago?" She quickly questioned.
"Why does it matter to you? You don't care about me or what I do." I don't give a fuck about him I just need to know what her purpose was last night. I know she had to have called for some reason other than a quick fuck. "But why? Why'd you let me keep going if you knew how I felt about you? Why'd you kiss me if you didn't want me? Why'd you have to take advantage of me like that?" I asked trying not to get emotional. I don't buy for a second that last night meant nothing to her. She just shrugged. I don't know if she doing all this on purpose but she's breaking my heart right now. This could quite possibly be my worst fear coming true right now.
"I dunno.. I guess it was just the heat of the moment. I already feel like shit but I can ask you the same. If you knew I was with Zack why'd you keep going?" She asked seriously.
"Are you serious right now?! You started it! Let's get this straight right now you kissed me so you started it knowing full and well your situation. You know that when I'm horny I won't stop until I'm done no matter the circumstances. And for all I care you could be married to him and I still wouldn't have resisted you. I'm sure if the one person you loved the most came on to you, you wouldn't pull away either." I really can't believe her right now. I'm not sure if I'm mad or sad about this right now.
"You know what you should probably go before someone sees you leaving. I don't feel like having to answer questions." She spoke in a very annoyed tone.
"Well I'm sure it's too late for that if they don't see me leave they sure heard you last night. Ahh fuck Aj!" I mimicked just like how she moaned it last night. "Do you remember that? What about when you said your body belongs to me? Or was that said for your own selfish reasons?"
"Shut up!" She growled angrily.
"What about when you begged me to make you cum, was that just you bitching me then too?" I asked holding my phone. I remember what I did while she wasn't looking. Maybe I can use that to my advantage later... "You know I bet ole Zackie boy will never make you scream his name as you cum all over his fingers the way I can. And I know for a fact that he can't make you cum as hard as I ca-"
"I said shut up!" She growled louder but I just smirked and inched closer to her. Yet at the same time my heart is breaking seeing how defensive she is when it comes to who can make her cum harder. The only way she could be defensive is if she... No I don't want to believe it.
"Wow Zi I can't believe you actually think he could ever replace me. You and I both know nobody can rock your body better than me. So I don't understand why you're getting so upset about this. You don't know what potential he possesses and-"
"I'm quite aware of what he's capable of and he knows exactly what he's doing!" She snapped... That threw me for a loop I wasn't ready for that. Surely I miss heard that.
"Excuse me!"
"That's right you heard me I had sex with Zack and I enjoyed it!" She smirked cockily. No.. No she wouldn't. But she.. We... "Yea and guess what I'm going to go visit him later this month and guess what we're going to do." She smiled. Just the thought of him inside my Zivile brings tears to my eyes. I don't know why but I feel sick to my stomach and my chest hurts.
"No." I whimpered. I can't even think straight I can't get that image out of my head.
"Now you know how it feels to have someone you love stab you in the back. It's a wonderful feeling isn't it." Why is she doing this? What made her turn so nasty to me. No I don't care I just want to go. So I pushed past her and headed for the door. "Awe where are you going I thought you wanted to get-"
"You know after last night you aren't any better than I am. Just like me you are now labeled as a cheater too." I always have to have the last laugh. "It might be a time frame that we can't get back, but who would have guessed you'd have the same downfall as me?" She just squinted her eyes in question. "It's the sweet sounds of your passion towards me." I then held up my phone. "iPhones have really good microphones. And if I were you I wouldn't brag about sleeping with Zack when I just ate you out last night." And with that I left slamming the door behind me. Man I don't even know why I even came over last night. I knew I should have just pushed her off me. Damn it why do I always give in to her and people call me trouble, she is practically the devil in the flesh.
I'm still trying to figure all this shit out. Did she really make me a late night booty call? It's not like I'm complaining... No I am complaining I don't want to be somebody's plaything or in this case just a side bitch. Of all people I would have never guessed it would be Zivile the one to make me feel like this. I feel unimportant, unwanted, used, angry, and most of all I'm heartbroken. I just want to take a very long shower right now. So when I got back to my room I ignored the mess of clothes all over the floor and went into the bathroom. I then turned on the water to the hottest setting I could get. But before that I feel like I need to brush my teeth, I can still taste her on my tongue and it makes me sick to my stomach. Just the thought of her lips anywhere on his body makes me want to hurl. None the less the fact that he put his disgusting smelly sweaty man meat where I put my tongue and it only intensifies the queasy feeling in my stomach. How could she do that to me?
I must have scrubbed my tongue for at least five minutes. I scrubbed it so long I'm sure I messed up my taste buds and I probably won't be able to eat anything for a few hours. I also used up almost my whole bottle of mouthwash. I don't care whatever it takes to make me feel... less dirty. When I felt better about my dental hygiene I stripped down and got in the shower. Now I really really regret letting her give me these hickeys because it feels like a contamination on my skin that I can't get rid of. This damn water isn't hot enough I still feel dirty no matter how hard I scrub. Why? Why would she do that to me? She used me for sex and kicked me out like I was trash. I don't like this feeling of nothingness. To some degree I knew that it wouldn't end pretty but I didn't expect it to end the way it did. And I never thought she would say the things she said to me. It's just I don't think she actually likes him, nobody falls in love with the rebound guy those usually never end well. If it is true how could she look me right in the eyes and say those things? She couldn't have gotten over me that fast I know she still has feelings for me she just has to. I don't want to believe it we all say things we don't mean when we're mad, so maybe she was just saying stuff just to say it.
To be honest thinking about all that happened this morning brought back a little déjà vu from when I did the same to her. I don't know if she did it purposely or not but now I know how she felt that morning. Even though I held my own it still hurt to know the events of last night meant nothing to her when it all meant so much to me. She really made me feel like I was starting to mean something important to her like she cared, but it was for nothing. I just wish we never did it because after this I don't know if I'll be able to look at her the same anymore. Really if anything the more I think about it the more depressed I get so I think I'm gonna lie down now. After getting dressed I closed the curtains and turned off the lights. I'm not in the mood to deal with all that right now. Deep inside I want to cry but at the same time I want to smile because I still have the last laugh after all this is said and done.
If there is one person I know who can cheer me up, I know she's just a phone call away. So that's what I'm going to do until I feel better. After three rings she answered.
"Hey champ how's life living like a queen?" She answered happily.
"To be honest with you I'm not feeling too hot today."I sighed.
"Awe well that's not the answer I expected.. But I don't have anywhere to be for the next two hours so I'm here and ready to listen if you want." She spoke simply. See this is why I like her so much she legit probably stopped what she was doing just to listen to me vent. I guess she wasn't kidding when she told me she likes hearing other people's stories.
"Well I had a great night last night you saw it right?"
"Yea and that dive you did was badass you look good when you're frustrated." For some reason that made me smile a bit.
"Thanks but that match really took a toll on my back. Before you ask no I'm fine I'm use to things like that." I said it because she always worries when I complain about being in pain, you'd think she'd grasp that fact that I've done this for years now and that I'm okay but no. It's okay I don't mind it, it's nice to know someone cares about my well being. "Then I slept rather well last night... It's just I didn't have a good morning today." I pouted.
"Well what happened that made you so sad?" I don't want to tell her everything but she deserves to know how I feel right now.
"I don't exactly want to talk about it but it was a bundle of anger, peacefulness, depression, annoyance, and cockiness in the span of an hour. I just want to go home for a bit relax and get myself together.." I spoke honestly I'm going to talk to Steph when I get to the arena later and ask her for some time off. I've been on the road for a year plus with no days off so I deserve at least a few weeks off. "Ugh who am I kidding I miss you Roni and I want to come see you." I blurted out but it isn't a lie.
"You know I'd be lying if I told you I don't miss you. I didn't want to be the first to say it but these stupid phone call aren't cutting it for me anymore." She said confidently.
"... Well actually later today I was actually thinking about asking the boss lady for some time off. I know she'll say yes because I've been working my ass off for months now. And so maybe I could come visit you?"
"I guess that means I should clean my apartment then huh?" She giggled.
"Well first impressions are everything these days." I chimed.
"I'll have you know my space is always clean.. It's just every now and then Tater loses his toys and we have to look for it. So then clothes end up all over the place and we just didn't have the time to clean it up after the mess was made." She stated matter of factly. I couldn't help but laugh at her nonsense reason.
"So you're telling me Tater-Tot who may I remind you only has three legs, and I highly doubt he is big enough to even pick up an article of clothing helped you make a mess?" I asked sarcastically about her baby kitten. She recently adopted him two weeks ago. Apparently she was jogging and saw him in an alley abandoned next to a trash bin, so she took him to the nearest vet and treated him. He was too cute for her to just leave him so she took him home with her.
"Well he might be missing a leg but he gets around pretty swiftly. When I go to work I sometimes leave the tv on and he likes to watch action movies, so I guess I gotta stop letting him watch all these violent movies."
"You're so weird I can't with you!" I laughed. She does the weirdest things.
"Hear that Tater Aj says you aren't allowed to watch action movies anymore because you make messes. 'Meow' Yea well stop making messes." She cooed away from the phone a bit. I assume Tater must be laying with her being I heard him meow.
"You're so mean blaming your mess on a poor innocent kitten."
"Well when you come over you'll see for yourself what I mean. Don't let his adorable face trick you he's a wild one." The more I talk to her the more this morning becomes a distant memory. I don't know what it is about her but she makes me smile and I like that about her. I'm still upset about this morning but it's all in the past I won that battle and now it's time to move on. I'm just looking forward to seeing Roni and hopefully we will go paintballing again because I have a lot of anger to release. I also can't wait to meet Tater-Tot I've only seen him in photos and he is the most adorable ball of fluff ever.
Later that day Raw
I figured I'd show up a bit earlier to the arena so I can talk to Steph or Hunter... Or both of them I don't care who I just need time off. So after deciding on what I want to say I knocked on the door.
"Come in." I heard from the other side. So I opened it and closed it behind myself. To my luck both Hunter and Steph were in there. "If it isn't our Divas Champion in the flesh!" Smiled Hunter.
"I will only be a minute I need to ask a favor of you two." I spoke softly.
"Well come have a seat talk to us." Smiled Steph as she pointed to the sofa.
"No it's okay I'm fine standing." I murmured.
"Okay well what's on your mind champ?" Asked Hunter as he sat on the corner of the desk.
"Well you both know how much I love the WWE Universe, and you know how much they love Aj Lee.. But as of late I haven't been too happy." I spoke not looking at them.
"April if this is about the storyline there's noth-" Steph started but I quickly cut her off.
"No it's not about the storyline. I've accepted the fact I can't escape it, it's just I've been traveling on the road nonstop for probably over two years now busting my butt for this company. And well I just new a few weeks at home to get myself together. I'm not feeling like myself and the fans deserve to see me at my best not to see me hide behind fake smiles." I spoke honestly I deserve at least two weeks off. They then looked at each other and whispered back and forth.
"Well how long are we talking?" Asked Hunter.
"About a month give or take." They then whispered among themselves.
"That's a tough favor you're our champion and that belt can't just go m.i.a. for a month." Spoke Steph.
"None to mention you can't just wrestle a match later tonight and just randomly disappear when you're in the middle of a heated rivalry." Added Hunter.
"I know but it's what's best for me. I really need this right now." I begged.
"The only way that could happen is if you weren't champion anymore then it would give us something to lead off from." Steph stated simply rearranging papers on her desk.
"Okay I'll do it! Pick a diva and I'll make it happen." I said quickly. I can always just win my baby back when I return.
"It's not that easy there aren't any plans of you dropping the belt until the next PPV." Argued Steph.
"Well just like always the night after Wrestlemania is always the craziest and most unexpected night of the year so what a better surprising moment than the Psycho chick losing her title after a huge win 24-hours ago." I suggested. The both of them just stared at me. "What about we make tonight the night that Paige debuts finally. I've been seeing her hanging around backstage for a while now so why don't we just make all her dreams come true in one night?" They then looked at each other and murmured things.
"Again you're missing the big picture here, what about the Aj Aksana feud. I'm pretty sure she's still a bit mad about how the match ended last night." Hunter stated nonchalantly. Fuck I forgot about her...
"Well she's my assistant so I guess she can cause me to lose or something I dunno." Damn it everything always loops back around to her.
"Here I'll leave you like this. If you can somehow figure out a way to drop that title before the show ends you can take the rest of the month off. But Aksana has to be involved in it somehow and I don't want anymore injuries. But you still have a match to wrestle tonight." Steph spoke as she looked up at me. All I heard was I'm homeward bound as of tomorrow. I gotta start looking for plane tickets back down to Tampa then up to Minnesota.
"So I can drop the title to whoever I wasn't as long as I keep Aksana involved?" I questioned making sure I got the objective of tonight.
"As long as it's within reason and we can pick up with the Leeana rivalry when you come back no problem." Steph responded.
"Yea so no running each other over with cars. No more kidnapping or breaking vending machines. Let's take the bar and lower it down some." Chimed Hunter.
"Okay got it nothing extreme, keep Aksana involved, lose the belt, then I'm home free." I smiled. "Well I gotta go plot but I promise you guys are going to be grateful you gave me time off. A happy April means a crazier Aj Lee!" And with that I left. Well this is going to be super fun tonight. There's nothing better than going out with a bang. But first thing first I need to find that angsty Brit and have a chat with her.
It didn't take long for me to find her. And it was quite the site to watch her eyes glow with excitement when I told her to suit up because she is debuting tonight. It was trying to calm her down long enough to tell her not to tell anyone about tonight's plan that was stressful. I didn't tell her my whole plan for tonight but I just hope she is good at improv mostly because I'm making this up as I go. But all that was an hour ago I have roughly fifteen minutes before I need to be at the gorilla. What's weird about tonight is I haven't seen Zivile since this morning. I didn't even catch a glimpse of her as I was walking around backstage. Maybe it's for my own good that this is happening because just thinking about her makes me sorta depressed, yet at the same time it fills me with rage. I just want to break things when I think of her now. What is she doing to me? I've never had such nasty thoughts about violence... Ever.
By the time I finished stretching and doing what I usually do before matches it was almost time to go. When I got there Paige was already there pacing back and forth mumbling words under her breath. I'd go over to her but I think she is trying to figure out what she's going to say when she comes out. I already gave her a basic outline of what she is to say all she has to do is do what I told her and she should be fine. It was then that Zivile showed up in her ring gear only she was wearing a black t-shirt that read 'Aj's b*tch' on the front in big pink letters and then on the back it had the number one on it. I like it because one I designed it and two it's a one of a kind jersey she has on. I gotta say I'm going to have a lot of fun with this storyline if I get to keep designing what she wears down to the ring. Plus I love bossing people around. Looking at her annoys me to some degree it meant nothing my ass, I know she-
"Aj Aksana, ten seconds!" Yelled one of the stage hands. With that I put on my belt and walked up to her.
"Don't dilly-dally too far behind I want people to know who the better woman is here." I smirked before pushing her out my way and I approached the curtain. Really I'm just trying to make her mad the more pissed off she is at me the better.
"Showtime Aj!" Spoke the stagehand before grabbing the curtain and holding it open for me. Let's just hope Zi catches on to what my plan is here. I then slipped into my Aj Lee persona and skipped out onto the stage. Here goes nothing.
I know WTF JOZ! I'm sorry if this chapter royally pissed you off but it's like I said you have to withstand the storm before you see rainbows. But I dunno about you but I caught the feels for Aj when Sana said those things to Aj. I mean I'm sure I'd cry if I was in the same situation as she was. How she held it together I will never know but I'd turn into a little mcbitch and breakdown in tears blowing snort bubbles and shit. Yea I am a very emotional person when it comes to certain things like in life or death situations. I panic a lot and then I can't decide and I panic even more and I strt crying it's just not good to but me on the spot like that. Anywhore I guess we are going to have more Aj/Roni in the future so that's going to be fun. I ship them... But I wonder what Aj is planning to do to drop the title.
On a different note can we take a minute to acknowledge a departure that really made me type sad? I know it's a bit late... but why'd Zayn have to leave 1D? :( Now who's going to hit those high note in the songs? I can't be he really left us. Why Zayn why!? It's okay because Niall is my favorite I dunno I have a weird thing for Irish men. It's the accents for sure.
Also Because I know you are all wondering how I feel about Aj leaving. To be honest I didn't cry about it but it made me wonder. How poorly are those Divas being treated that it made Aj quit? Yea I know we don't know the reason she did what she did, but something serious had to have happened to her that made her leave. Think about it she prided herself on how hard she worked from nothing to something. All her life she wanted to become a Diva and she made it hell it's safe to say she was on top of the world living out her dream. All that just thrown away for what? I dunno but I'm interested in seeing what happens next with the Divas. Now will they give the Divas a chance? ~Joz #FuckITup