Hello people of Earth! ;D

Chapter Twelve! Yay! I promised you two chapters today and guess what! This one is over 3000 words! :o

This chapter was extremely difficult to write, I was getting teary eyed it was so sad. :'( I really recommend you listen to Raise Me Up by Westlife while reading Carlisle's POV and yes, I added someone else's POV, someone new. Many many flowers are also mentioned in this chapter, just search the name on google and you'll find pictures. They all are quite beautiful(:

Thank you to all of the wonderful people who read and all the people who sacrifice 30 seconds of their time to tell me what they think.

One Spanish translation at the end.

Disclaimer: I do not, I repeat, DO NOT own The Twilight Saga.

Enjoy! :D

Jasper's POV

Emotion swept through me like a great tidal wave, engulfing my body and crashing all around me.

Loss, sadness, anger, pain, horror, agony, fury, shock, and rage swirled around me in a blazing inferno of feeling. I couldn't concentrate on any of it.

She's dead.

Maria will die.

That's the last thing I can do to avenge Ali-I winced-her death. The last thing I could do before I finally destroyed the monster within me.

I got to my feet and trained my gaze on the torn up trees. I stalked towards them like a robot, not thinking, just doing. Locking my gaze on my victim, I moved towards Maria slowly, like I would to my prey. She was currently stuck under three or four massive oak trees and her arms were trapped between the branches.

I let out a quiet hiss and kicked a trunk off of her. She had struggled for a bit, that much was clear from the claw marks in the dirt. She growled in slight pain when the branches ripped through her black dress.

I smirked reflexively and grabbed her by the throat, lifting her easily from the ground.

"Any last words?" I whispered coldly and tightened my grip.

She looked up at me with dark red eyes. "Te quiero a mi soldado," she whispered.

I snarled, my eyes blackening in my anger. "Liar!" I roared and moved both my hands to her shoulders. "You love power and territory! I was but a puppet to you." I hissed, shaking her roughly.

Maria didn't answer.

I stared straight into her eyes and held her perfectly still in my grip.

"I hope you go to hell, where you belong." And with that, I leaned in and tore off her head, tossing the disgusting thing into the trees.

I dropped the repulsive twitching body and turned, brushing past Edward, who was now there holding a lighter.

"Carlisle has Alice, he wants to get home as fast as possible in order to assess her injuries," Edward called, over his shoulder.

"Why does it matter?" I muttered, mostly to myself.

I walked back to the clearing and didn't bother looking at each of my family members. My eyes locked on Carlisle, who was lifting a motionless body in his arms.

That's Alice's body you idiot! My mind screamed at me.

I didn't answer.

"Jasper?" It was Esme.

I turned my head slightly towards her to at least pretend to listen.

She didn't say anything else; she only threw herself into my arms.

Dry heaving sobs escaped her lips. But my brain wouldn't assess the situation. I didn't understand what was going on.

"Jasper?" a voice called.

I lifted my head from its spot on Esme's shoulder.

Edward was standing there.

Yes? I could barely even conjure up a simple thought.

"We're ready to leave. We would like to ask if you would like a proper burial for… you know." Edward was radiating nervousness and sadness.

I nodded slightly. She'd want that.

"Yes she would," Edward murmured and touched my shoulder gently.

I stepped back from Esme and just kept my arm around her shoulders.

Rosalie, Emmett, Edward, Bella, Esme, Raphael and Jamie were the only ones who remained in the clearing. I didn't look up to meet their eyes. I just guided Esme forward and ran at a slower pace no matter how much I wanted to be at the house now.

After what felt like running through a never ending forest, we made it home.

I'd already let out most of my emotions, now I was just numb and half my brain still wouldn't accept it.

"Jasper, would you please come up stairs?" I heard Carlisle call from his office.

I kissed Esme on the cheek and flew upstairs.

I entered Carlisle's office without knocking and stopped in the doorway.

Carlisle was standing next to a white hospital bed. The bed was holding a motionless body with dark ebony hair.

I stepped forward slowly, afraid to see the injuries inflicted on that body.

My eyes raked over her form. She had a couple bruises. Her dress was ripped and muddy. The bloody mess on her neck was now a faded pink scar. Her hair was tangled and dirty, random twigs and leaves were stuck in it. Her cheek had an ugly purple and red mark on it. To my eyes, she was beautiful. Yeah, that may be sick, but it's the truth.

"Renesmee is coming home from the reservation soon. I would like to have her aunt looking a little better than this, especially if we are going to have a memorial. Could you please go pick out something you would like her to wear?" Carlisle asked.

It was a strange question but no one knew Al-her like I did.

I nodded and was down the hallway and in the closet in less than a second. I ran my hands over the excessive amount of clothing and found my favourite outfit. It was a simple yellow halter dress that came down to just above her knees. She looked absolutely stunning in it.

I smiled slightly at the memory and grabbed the silver flats she always wore with it.

I entered Carlisle's office with them and saw that Rosalie and Bella were there now.

I could feel their pain and sadness like great ocean waves, but it still didn't break my wall of disbelief and denial.

I passed the dress and shoes to Rosalie and exited the room with Carlisle. I could hear Renesmee and Jacob downstairs.

"But Dad I want to show Aunt Ali my new shoes!"

"Renesmee…" Edward was having trouble keeping it together.

"What? Why can't I? I can smell her upstairs!"

I winced and turned, moving towards the staircase.

"Ness, calm down a second, I think your dad wants to say something," Jacob whispered to her.

She ignored him. "Uncle Jazz! Can I please go show Aunt Alice these shoes? Please, please, please!" Even at sixteen it was hard to deny her anything.

I shot Edward a glance and nodded. Renesmee smiled brightly and grabbed a shopping bag.

"Nessie, let Jasper take you up," Edward insisted. I nodded again and turned back to the stairs. Nessie happily followed me.

I knocked on Carlisle's office door. "I have Renesmee with me, is everythin' fine in there?"

The door opened and I walked in and off to the side. Renesmee entered and froze in the doorway.

"Renesmee," Bella whispered and moved towards her daughter.

"Auntie A-Ali?" Renesmee whispered as tears filled her chocolate brown eyes.

Both Rosalie and Bella broke down and enveloped Nessie in a tight embrace.

Even at the strong moment and infinite amount of feelings hitting me repeatedly, I could not accept it.

She was coming back. She had to.

I backed out of the room, not wanting to feel anymore of the fake depression. I slipped out the back door and into the trees.

Eventually, I found it. It's our favourite tree, our special spot.

Climbing to the top branch, I kept my eyes on the sky. It was twilight. As I sat all I could think was she'll see me here and come. We'll sit here and watch the sun go down, just enjoying each other's company.

Carlisle's POV

My family was in shambles.

I'm one moment away from breaking down.

But I have to stay strong. For Esme, for Jasper, for my family.

I was moving like a robot, a piece of machinery that had no thoughts or reactions to feelings.

By the next day I had some sort of memorial organized. Everyone was dressed in bright colours to represent my energetic daughter. The stone was to come in during the week. The hole was already dug by Edward and Emmett, right beside Esme's white lilies. The Denali clan was to be expected any minute.

Everyone was downstairs, waiting.

I hadn't seen Jasper all night but Edward said he was still near home, so I didn't worry too much. I had a chat with Jamie and found out some stuff about Jasper's long lost brother. I wasn't mad at Jamie and neither was anyone else, except maybe Rosalie. Raphael had agreed in staying in the family, in order to help Jasper through this loss, he had said. I was starting to like him.

I wrapped my arm around Esme's waist, to support her as she cried her dry tears. Bella was leaning into Edward, both rigid and upset. Emmett had Rosalie locked in a tight hug, engulfing her body. Jacob had Renesmee on his lap as he sat on the couch. Jamie had her head on Raphael's shoulder, his arm around her. Jasper was no where to be seen.

"Edward, where's Jasper?" I was still worrying.

"He's coming soon. The Denali's are here." Just then a car turned onto our driveway.

A couple moments later, the doorbell rang. I was the only one that moved.

Eleazar, Carmen, Tanya, Kate, and Garrett were standing there. Carmen and Kate were leaning into their mates and Tanya was silently mourning.

"Please come in," I murmured and stepped back.

"Jasper is back and ready. Shall we go outside?" Edward asked quietly, his voice weak.

We all traveled into the backyard, everyone but Emmett, Edward and Jasper. Silently we stood around the hole in a loose semi-circle.

We used the birds' morning song as music as Edward and Emmett walked out carrying the small elaborately carved casket with Jasper trailing behind. The wood was dark and glossy; Emmett and Edward had ordered it last night using a ridiculously large amount of money. I didn't even care. Today was slightly sunny and the scene was sparkling hypnotically from our skin.

The slow pace the boys' walked seemed longer than normal. But eventually the box was lowered into the ground and covered with dirt.

I was to go first with a small speech. I walked up closer to the dirt pile which now held my dear daughter.

"I know that this has been a great loss and we should all be mourning and grieving but for some reason it feels wrong," I took an unnecessary breath, "Alice was a loud and joyful girl, she was always happy and loved to help people. She wouldn't want us to stand here and be upset.

"We should find strength and be glad for the never fading memories of her and what she's left behind for us. She loved us and we loved her. She had a small part for all of us in her heart, both vampire and human. We will remember her for the rest of eternity and she will always live on with us."

I stepped back into my original spot as Edward stepped forward with Bella by his side. "Alice was like no other…"

"She was always there to help, always stuck in those dang visions…"

"Alice was special, unique and irreplaceable…"

"She always left me smiling. She seemed to give us a bit of her happiness…"

"Alice was unstoppable, once she had an idea in her head…"

"Auntie Ali was the greatest. She was always so joyful and optimistic…"

Jamie even went up. She kept her back to us and stared down at the grave.

"I was never nice to you and I regret that. Today I see all these people who love you and miss you. Everyone keeps telling me none of this is my fault but I know deep down that it really is. I don't know if you will ever forgive me and I know I don't deserve it.

"All I ask is that you keep watch over Jasper and maybe if it's possible, show him a sign. He needs to know you're still out there and that you're alright." The last part was whispered.

She stepped back to her spot beside Raphael and then Jasper had his turn.

He slowly made his way up to the small grave, his feet dragging.

There was an agonizingly long minute where he just stood there, staring down at the dirt and grass.

But then he started, "I'm not sure what I can say right now, the days seem to be unreal and I feel as if you'll come boundin' outside any minute, gigglin' shrilly. You'd grin at me and I'd feel a flash of anger at the sick joke but I can never be mad at you, no longer than a second. It's not possible.

"But as I see my family members' heads lowered, feel the emotions of loss and depression, my mind is finally lowerin' its guard. It's finally seein' the reality of life.

"I won't ever hear your laugh again or see your smile. I won't ever watch you dance again or feel you in my arms. I won't ever gaze into those deep wondrous eyes again or whisper 'I love you' in your ear."

His body started visibly shaking, his emotions hitting all of us greatly.

"And I am so scared. So scared that soon I'll forget what your face looked like with a smile stretched across it. Or how your voice and laugh sounded. I'm frightened that soon I'll forget what you smelled like or what your skin felt like. I'm so very scared that with each passin' decade, you'll disappear and just feel like a dream.

"You were my rock, my support. I feel lost and confused without you. I can't find the words to describe what I feel like. But then again, we never really needed words. One look was all it took, but now we can never have that connection again. I love you, I miss you. I want to see your smile again." His sadness and hurt was so strong now that I felt myself break down and let out a couple strangled sobs. The rest of the family felt it too and they too were crying their tearless cries.

I managed to stand and gently guide Jasper back to where he was previously standing.

We had a couple minutes of sobbing silence and then I stepped forward and placed my flower atop the small hill. It was a Lily of the Valley; it represented sweetness, returning happiness and trust.

Esme came forward next to me and I wrapped an arm around her waist, keeping her standing. She placed her own flower. A pink Carnation, it meant a mother's love.

We both stepped back and next were Renesmee and Jacob. They each had a Bellflower with meant "thinking of you".

Each family member came up and placed a flower on the grave.

Rosalie's was a Cowslip which meant winning grace. Emmett's was a bundle of red and yellow Roses which represented joy, happiness and excitement.

Bella brought up a Pear Blossom which meant lasting friendship. Edward placed a Dahlia on her grave. It meant elegance and dignity.

Eleazar and Carmen both brought up a small bundle of Mullein which represented good-nature.

Hibiscus was placed on the grave by Kate and Garrett. It meant delicate beauty.

A white poppy was carried by Tanya representing peace. And it too was left atop the pile of flowers.

Even Jamie and Raphael went up, each holding an Azalea which meant take care.

Lastly, there was Jasper. He went up holding the biggest group of flowers. Red tulips meaning undying love, Daisies representing innocence and loyal love, Elderflower meaning compassion, Forget-me-nots showing true love, Lavender meaning devotion, white Lilac representing memories, orange Lilies showing passion, Lotus meaning purity and Snowdrop representing hope.

Eventually, the group broke off and some said their murmured goodbyes. The reality of her actually being gone was finally settling in my mind.

How could such an innocent girl, who shone with true happiness and love, be gone? Was the world truly that cruel?

I am so happy with how long this ended up being! ;D Please review and tell me what you think! Thanks!

Te quiero a mi soldado ~ I love you my soldier