A/N: Okay, another chapter! Hopefully I didn't make you guys wait too long, I'm not sure when I last updated. But I just wanted to let you guys know that the title of this chapter is a song that I thought really fit what happens in this chapter. So you can go to Youtube and type in the title and listen to it. I suggest listening to it afterword's because, idk, it might say some spoilers, but yeah I just thought I'd let you know.

Warning: Megan curses a lot

Chapter 17

Shake It Out

"See Sammy, I told you I would take you to Disney World," Dean said as they all appeared in the park, almost immediately getting crushed by a crowd of people.

"Dean, you told me we you were going to take me when I was nine. You're a little late," Sam said with a scoff.

"Details," Dean said and clapped with hands together. "So, where to first? Where are all the intense roller coasters?"

"In Universal Studios and Islands of Adventure. In Disney Land you get some good rides, some dudes in costumes, and deep fried sugar," Megan said, soaking in the Florida sun.

"You just described a motel we stayed at once," Dean said.

"Let's get cotton candy," Megan said, trying not to be somewhat grossed out by Dean's vulgar comment.

"What we need is the Fire Tablet," Oro said.

"Who hid it here anyway? I know it's not one of you guys," Megan asked.

"A different Angel. I would rather not talk about it," Oro said and started walking straight.

"Should we follow him?" Jinx asked.

Megan shrugged and followed, swiping some cotton candy from a cart while the vendor wasn't looking.

"You know that's stealing, right?" Exarp said with a smile as he trotted up next to Megan.

"So? It's not like we paid to get in here, so why should we pay for delicious candy made from sugar and air?" Megan said, taking a bite.

Exarp was silent for a few moments before he shrugged and ripped off a piece of cotton candy for himself. Which was when Megan got an idea…

"Hey Oro, I dare you to try some cotton candy," she said, sticking the stick of fluff in his face.

"I'd rather not," the grouchy Angel said, pushing the cotton candy away from his face.

"Come on!" Megan whined.

"Fine," Oro said, which he seemed to say a lot, and grabbed a small piece of the sugary treat. He took a cautious bite before throwing the rest on the ground, his face looking like he was confused by the candy's very existence.

"How do you know like cotton candy? Do you like anything?" Megan yelled, wanting to stab him with the pointy end of her cotton candy cone.

Oro didn't say anything, he just shot an annoyed look at her and kept on leading them through Disney Land. Megan pouted but it quickly turned into a smile when Exarp took her hand, intertwining their fingers.

For the first time in a while, Megan felt truly happy. The pure, lucid happiness that made you think that nothing could possibly ever ruin that perfect moment. Where the past was left behind and turned to rubble, where the future held nothing but hope and a great big field of grass that hid everything bad from you.

That's when she first knew that something was wrong. And then everything around her fell apart.

There was no more cotton candy in her hand and she felt the absentness of Exarp on her right. He was gone. And so was the rest of her group. Disney Land started to melt around her into darkness, leaving her standing in what she thought was oblivion. That's when she realized her great fear. It wasn't death, it wasn't spiders, and it wasn't losing everything dear to her.

It was never having anything close to her to begin with. It was what she was trapped in at that very moment: stuck in the vast darkness of oblivion, nothing ever existing around her life at all. That her life was one big lie and she would have to live out her immortal life with nothing but blackness and air particles.

"Got you good, didn't I?" Megan spun around to see Lucifer. He stood in front of her with a smug little grin and she clenched her fists. She'd been fooled by the Devil.

"Now, let's wake up from this dream," he said and snapped his fingers.

Megan awoke with a start. She was in her bed, clenching her sheets in fear, the moon shinning in flows of light through her window. Lucifer sat next to her.

She had to catch her breath as she let reality set in again. She didn't like it. "So, all of that, it was just a dream?"

Lucifer nodded. "Do you remember what really happened?"

Megan had to think for a moment before answering. "Exarp told me his story about his old job in Heaven. I fell asleep by the end of it. He woke me up a few hours later, along with the rest of the gang, when The Powers showed up. They told us that Rylie got the Fire Tablet. Oro blamed me. There was a lot of arguing, especially between Exarp and Oro, and then The Powers disappeared. Dean told me to go to bed while they talked about what to do next."

Now she felt horrible. It all did seem like her fault. If they hadn't taken a break then they probably would've beat Rylie to the punch. Now the Demon had two Tablets, an even match between them.

"So, going to Disney Land, Dean cooking pancakes, Exarp and I…kissing, none of that happened?" Megan asked, her voice a little shaky.

"Please, did you ever think you would ever get a break like that? You're a dreamer Megan, that's the problem. You believe too much. You're much like my brother that way. Having blind faith," he said.

"Castiel?" she asked.

"Correct. But yes, all of that didn't happen. It was all a trick that I pulled. A pretty good one, if I say so myself." Lucifer cocked a grin, sending an icy look towards her. Megan suddenly remembered back to a few nights ago when Lucifer first appeared to her. It seemed like years ago.

"You…you…you fuckass!" Megan yelled, not caring anymore about anyone hearing her, not caring much about anything really. "That's what you are, a fuckass. Listen, I know you have beef with humanity but I had to give up family and friends and my whole goddamn life to fight a cause that I have taken on as my own! You should know how that feels, Mister Fuckass! Now imagine some fuckass coming in and fucking with your mind while going through all that fucking turmoil? How do you think you would feel?"

That's when Megan realized something. She was broken. She had been kidding herself that she was enjoying her life. Granted she did enjoy something's: not going to school, saving lives, living with her new best friends. But she had buried all those thoughts and emotions about leaving everything behind for the goddamn world and now they were resurfacing through all the anger she felt. Her heart felt heavy in her chest at this realization and she felt like crying. Because the Devil had won.

Lucifer looked a little taken aback by Megan's outburst but that look soon faded and was replaced by a smile when he realized the battle between them was over. He had played her like puppet, knowing exactly which button to press to make her snap.

"I told you about that anger, missy. But you didn't listen. Now do you feel like joining my side? Over here that past doesn't matter and you would feel better than ever, learning how to use that anger to your advantage," he asked, raising an eyebrow at her.

Megan glared at him before getting out of bed to stand up, fists clenched, staring down the Devil himself.

"You're a fucking idiot! You do all that to me and you still expect me to join your side? Well guess what, I would never join you in a million years! And you know what? You're weak. You lead your cause straight to the ground because hatred isn't how you lead a rebellion. Sure, it helps, but you know what you really need to great the message straight to the world? Hope and good! Your cause was a dead end because deep down inside you knew that God would never get rid of his children. My cause is different. I'm saving people not only because it's my job but because I want to. Yeah, my life sucks a lot and I'm…I'm broken, but who isn't?" This felt good. She was just letting everything out.

"And the past does matter. Because you can never forget it. You can never change it. So, get over your goddamn hissy fit and face up to what you did and stop trying to hurt people who are succeeding at what you couldn't!"

This really surprised him. Lucifer stood up and looked down at her, the chosen one, the one who was destined to interfere with his plans, a kid who he thought was a just another spineless mud monkey who was following their destiny just like every other human being on the planet. This kid just told off the Devil. He looked confused and impressed.

"Oh, you're never getting rid of me now," he said and that's when the weight on Megan's shoulders started to feel a little too heavy.

"Just go away!" she yelled and threw the lamp that was on her nightstand at him, ripping the cord out of its socket. Of course, since the Devil wasn't physically there, the lamp phased through him and shattered against the wall. Lucifer just cocked another smile and disappeared.

Megan jerked her head towards her bedroom door as she heard it open. Sam, Dean, Castiel, Jinx, and Balthazar came piling in, looking at her with worry.

"We heard yelling and…," they all looked over at the broken lamp now resting on the floor. "What happened?" he asked.

Megan had no idea what to say. The worlds were caught in her throat and she was breathing heavily and she just didn't feel like doing anything. So she did something that she should've done a long time ago. She cried.

Dean came over and hugged her, Megan crying into his shirt. And at that moment she felt a little better, seeing the dawn start to rise through her window and her world suddenly started to get clearer.

A/N: Thought you were getting a nice, lighthearted chapter didn't you? PSYCH! I hope you enjoyed in anyway though. I thought it was good to see what Megan was really feeling deep down inside…well, anyways, stay tuned for the next chapter. And I hope you liked the song, because I really thought that it fit the chapter. –Insert simile face here-