Where am I? Its pitch black out here…
Where is everyone? I can't hear anyone…
Why am I alone? There is nothing to feel…
The scent of iron. The smell of blood…
I am so cold, it's like I have been walking for hours for days.
I can't see anyone, even though I have shouted for help many times. I am still lost…
Why am I here?
Although, I can remember something if I try; It was about a man, and an old lady. And she was murdered, a case that I was solving.
I remembered my head hurting, spinning, and aching.
His desperate face so close to mine, all the pain I felt because of him.
Cold eyes, tightened grasp around my neck, wide merciless grin…
I can't breathe…
Help me.
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So sleepy and giddy, everything is a blur…
"Doctor! The patient's heart rate and pressure is rising!"
Help me! Please, can't you hear me screaming?
"Nurse, give her this before she becomes overheated!"
His face is so clear, he is coming to get me… I can feel those hands gripping around my arm!
"Pressures going down, fluid injected. Patient's heart rate declining to normal rate."
I am losing consciousness; he is going to kill me… I don't want to die…
"Wait! She is coming to, hold on!"
I don't want to die, please.
"Utsumi Kaoru -san? Can you hear us?"
Who are you…what do you want from me? Are you going to hurt me too? Why aren't you talking?
"Doctor, the patients family are outside, do you want to bring them in?"
Are you planning something? Where am I?
"No, it is too risky. The patient is not stable. Give her the fluid so that her vitals can stabilize."
What is going on? Why are you coming so close to me? I am so confused, why aren't you replying me? Unless, you are going to hurt me too…!
"Doctor!"
I have to fight! You can't hurt me again! It hurts! I can feel the pain vibrating through my body! I don't want to feel those anymore. Get those things away from me!
"Hold her down! She is pulling the tubes out!"
Let me go!
"Leave me alone!"
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Yukawa and Kusanagi were resting their eyes right outside the ward; it was the second day since their last visit.
Both men seemed to be unable to concentrate well on their work for the whole day. Even for Yukawa sensei whose speciality was not to feel, is becoming increasingly worried for her.
They were told that the doctor in charge was making his routine observations in the ward, and hence the two were shooed out of the room.
Kusanagi puts his hands over his closed eyes and started to speak, "Headquarters is in frenzy, the criminal is going crazy while being interrogated and he kept putting blame on Utsumi –san for what has happened. It is driving us nuts!"
Yukawa did not reply, but looked away from the ceiling and onto the light that was pouring through the windows at the end of the corridor.
"They are talking about sending him to life in prison, for what he had done." Kusanagi stopped short, without thinking he pounded the walls behind him heavily with his fist.
"Only…if she testifies against him…"
Yukawa turned his head back, he peered at Kusanagi calmly. "And if she doesn't?"
"His mental health is an issue here; his lawyer insists that he committed the crime due to his mental instability. If, the reasons of murder are attributed to mental complications, he would be convicted to 6 years or less."
His words trailed away, but their silence was replaced with a scream coming from the ward.
"Leave Me Alone!"
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I had to get those things away from me, and get away from the people who would hurt me! I don't want to die!
"Please go away!"
I could feel my mouth open, and air escaping from my lungs but I can't hear myself at all. Why…
"Hold her down! Get her under control!"
"Don't hurt ME!"
I am sure I am saying something! My throat seemed as though they wanted to burst, but I can't hear anything at all. I am so scared… what is wrong with me!
"Sirs! You aren't supposed to be in here! Please leave the room immediately!"
I could see vague grey shadows moving around me, no matter how much I stared, those things won't get any clearer. Am I dreaming?
"You are scaring her!"
The shadows stopped, nothing is moving. Am I safe?
"Utsumi – san? Can you hear me?"
Someone is very close to me; I feel air hitting the sides of my face. No sound…
"Utsumi – kun."
Someone else is coming closer to me; the shadow is reaching out for my arms… should I fight back? Should I give in? Is it going to harm me too?
It's a grip, a firm but gentle grip… around my shoulders. It was familiar, like a forgotten memory…
"Yukawa…sensei…"
I said his name, and repeated it through my mind endlessly. I never thought he would be here…and especially after the pain I have endured…
Tears were falling; I could feel them sliding down the sides of my cheeks.
"Help me…"