Warning: Much seriousness. Sad stuff. Bleh. Read it. It's what happens when I listen to intense rock songs. T_T
Vlog #13
Gwen still won't talk to me, BUT she will bump me in the hallways at school so that all of my books spill out of my hands everywhere. No amount of "I'm sorry" will get to her. She seems to get angrier when she sees Mary Jane and me together. She'll glare, pout, or just straight up leave the area.
I don't hate her and I definitely don't want her to hate me. Seeing MJ while I was in a relationship with her was a dumb move on my part. It just concerns me that she hasn't gotten over me yet. Not even a little bit. She's also not dating Flash anymore. I'm not really sure what's happening with her anymore. I hope she moves on.
A couple days ago I fought Electro. As per usual, his plan sucked and I took him down pretty quickly. When he was hauled off to prison I noticed the Green Goblin. He just looked down at me from a nearby building. I swung up to approach him, but he left instantly. After many twists and turns, I lost him.
I still don't know if Harry is Harry when he's the goblin. He obviously doesn't like becoming this creature. He hasn't told me about it since that dinner at his house. Maybe he's in denial. I know I am.
Well, I tutored him again. When I came to his house Louis was injecting him with something with a needle in the living room. My gut feeling told me that was suspicious. I asked him what it was and he assured me that it was a flu shot. Louis isn't a doctor, but he's a good person. He wouldn't endanger Harry.
Besides, Harry willingly let him inject him. He wouldn't do that if he didn't trust Louis at least a little. Then again, that image of his mess of crying and claims of someone wronging him hasn't left me. I wish that he would have been clearer. I'm afraid of asking him about it.
The last time I asked him about something troubling him, he yelled at me and didn't talk to me for a few days. He wasn't even at school. Then he suddenly showed up again, gave a brief apology, and we acted like it never happened. There has been this air of knowing that it happened, but neither of us acknowledges it. I had just wanted to know why he ripped his report card to shreds when he got a B- instead of his usual C.
I don't want him to shut me out again. If he doesn't talk about his problems with me, then he won't talk about them at all. I hate to think about what would happen if he kept every thought of hate, envy, or helplessness inside. His drinking doesn't help. All those girls he has over don't make him feel better overall.
He's doing cocaine now. It scares me, but I can't scold him for it.
I doubt Louis knows any of this. He acts like he knows a lot about Harry, but even he knows that I know more.
I'm sure Harry has a good reason for closing himself up so much. He has to be afraid of getting hurt. He's afraid Louis or Norman will use his weaknesses against him. Harry…feels alone.
The last time he genuinely smiled had to have been ages ago.
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