Vlog #18
Today was kind of odd. Gwen spoke to me for the first time in weeks. She didn't yell at me like I expected. She didn't forgive me either.
The way I sort of stumbled upon her outside of school must have caught her off guard. She looked ready to cry. Once she noticed me, she visibly became defensive. Gwen looked me up and down and asked what I wanted. I couldn't speak. I had no idea what to say to her.
She told me to leave her alone. For some reason I took forever to take in what she had said. When I managed to move my feet, however, she told me to stop and stay. She had her hand out towards me. I looked at her, waiting for her to say why she changed her mind.
After her lips trembled for a while, she weakly pushed me with her hand and mumbled for me to leave. She said it louder when I didn't go right away. Slowly, I turned and took a few steps forward. My gut told me that I should stay. I looked over my shoulder to meet her glare. Underneath it I could tell that something was troubling her, besides our breakup I think.
I knew that she didn't want me there so I left. There's not much that I could've done. I can't help but wonder what she was going to tell me. She wanted to say something, I know it.
You know, I feel like I'm really failing my friends. All I've been able to do lately is walk away. I try to listen and I try to talk, but they need an actual change. I don't know if Harry or Gwen is more likely to listen to me at this point. At least MJ has her life in order, as far as I know.
Spider-man has been taking down a lot of baddies lately. That's a plus. Well, Doc Oc still eludes Spider-woman and I, but we'll get him eventually. Come to think of it, what would we do with him if we caught him? I don't think a normal prison cell would work for a man with metal octopus arms. Great, we have a villain on the loose that we have no way of containing even if we manage to catch him. Maybe the Spider-man side of my life isn't as wonderful as I thought it was.