So here is the next chapter. Sanata has to deal with the consequences of her outburst.

Hope you like it!

Chapter 9: Life without you

Santana stood in front of the Pierce-House and rang the bell. She had tried to call Brittany several times, but she didn't answer. Santana went to their place in the woods, where they normally hang out together. But she wasn't there. And now, Santana went to her home.

The door opened and Brittany's mother stood in front of Santana.

"Oh hallo", she greeted friendly.

"Hi. Is Brittany at home?", Santana asked straight.

Mrs Pierce shook the head. "No, I'm sorry"

"Do you know where she is?", Santana continued to ask.

Again the mother shook the head.

"Why don't you know that?", she snapped at her.

Mrs Pierce frowned. "Excuse me?"

"She is your daughter. Why don't you know where she is? Do you even care?", she yelled. She knew she was way out of line, but she was so angry. She just wanted to talk to Brittany. She wanted to apologize to her.

Mrs Pierce looked at her blankly.

"She told me once, that she can come home whenever she wants and that nobody cares...". Santana added. She had to let off steam somehow and she wouldn't have been surprised if she has said too much and Mrs Pierce would have slapped her. Her parents would.

But instead, she took a step aside and let Santana in.

"Yes, but that's not because we don't care about her", she explained in a calm voice and looked at Santana, "We simply trust her. Brittany can do what she wants and she doesn't do anything bad. We don't put her on a leash because she won't run away anyways."

"But for me it totally seems like you gave up on her. Everything is always about Deanna in this family. Why? Just because she is smarter then Britt? Because Britt is not stupid! She isn't", Santana was still raging. Deanna was Brittany's sister and she was highly talented with a IQ over 140. She was in a special school and on the weekends her parents often took her to any spelling bees or the like.

"It's not like that. Of course, Deanna is smart. Smarter then any of us. But she is so insecure and needs so much guidance. We didn't give up on Brittany. She simply doesn't need us. She isn't the brightest star on the sky, but she knows what she wants and she almost ever manages to get want she wants. All she needs from us, is love and trust and that's what she gets", she paused for a few seconds, "But Santana, I'm pretty sure you already know that and I'm also sure that I'm not really the person you're mad at.", she looked searchingly, but gently at Santana, 'What happened?"

Santana avoided Mrs. Pierce eyes and sighed. "I screwed up! Bad!"

"What did you do?", Julia Pierce asked.

Santana hesitated for a few seconds. "I..i called her stupid", she admitted, looking at her feet.

"And why would you do that?", Julia's voice was free from any blame.

"I don't know. I was jealous and I was hurt and I wanted to hurt back..i guess", Santana had no glue why she was talking about her feelings with this woman. Normally she didn't talk about her feelings with anybody. Normally she didn't even admit that she had such things as feelings. But Brittany's mom was special. Santana trusted this woman. She had the kindness of Brittany but at the same time the authority of a parent.

"So she hurt you first?", Julia asked a little confused.

Santana shook her head quickly. "No, it wasn't her fault. It's just that she is so...and I am so..", she started to ramble. What was going on? Santana never rumbled!

"I... always thought she needs me, but she doesn't..I guess that scared me. It's exactly like you said. She simply is herself and she is so...perfect in this way"

Julia looked at her warmly and smiled.

"What?", Santana asked a little insecure.

"Nothing Santana", Julia's voice was as warm as her look, "Listen honey, I don't fully understand what happened but I'm pretty sure my daughter will forgive you. She might be offended for a few days but she'll give you the chance to apologize because, believe me, she needs you more than you might think"

Santana frowned. "What do you mean by that?"

"Just trust me", Julia simply stated, "I'll tell Brittany that you were looking for her, when she comes home okay?"

"Okay, thanks Mrs P...Julia", she corrected herself with a slightly smile, "See you"

As she arrived at home, her phone told her that she got a message. She quickly pulled the phone out of her pocket and glanced at it, hoping it was from Brittany.

She was confused and disappointed as she saw it was from Darren.

"Hey, I know it's last-minute but wanna go to Breadstix with me tonight?", the text said.

Santana frowned. What was this supposed to mean? She thought that he asked Brittany for a date and now he asked her. Did Brittany said no? But if so, why?

She was curious, so she texted him a "Yes" back.

"So what's the deal here?", Santana asked straight after they sat down, "I know you asked Brittany and I know she said yes at first, so what happened?"

Darren blushed and made a face. "Shit! I didn't know you know that", he admitted sheepish, "To be honest, I don't know. She said yes and a few hours ago she texted me that she changed her mind. Without any reasons. I already made the reservation and so I thought...", she looked apologetically, "I'm sorry. Please don't get this wrong. You're great and I would have totally asked you first..I just dig blondes.."

She rolled her eyes, but she wasn't really mad at him. In fact she didn't care about it anymore. Brittany was all she could think about. Why did she change her mind?

Did she do it for Santana? Or was she too sad to go on a date?

"So...are you mad?", he asked shyly and ripped Santana out of her thoughts.

"No, it's okay", she paused, "So Brittany just texted you, I changed my mind?"

"Yes", he shrugged his shoulders, "Do you know what's going on?"

She shook her head. "No, not really", it wasn't a lie but also not the full truth.

"So we're having this date?", he asked a little insecure, "Or you just came to ask me that?"

Santana took her time to answer the question. She liked Darren, but she didn't want Brittany make even sadder than she already was. On the other hand, Brittany had canceled the date, so it was somehow her fault and Darren would give Santana's reputation a big boost. She would date the most popular guy at school and that would most likely make her the most popular girl at school.

She smiled and nodded. "It's a date"

"Hey Gorgeous", Darren greeted and leaned down to kiss Santana, "What you doing at the parking lot?"

"Nothing", she lied and put on a face smile, "Let's go to class. Do you call us a limousine?"

He rolled his eyes, smirked, wrapped his arm around her shoulders and walked with her towards the school building, "You're probably never got tired of the rich-jokes are you?"

It's been two weeks since the date. A date that Santana actually pretty much enjoyed. Darren wasn't just the rich, popular, quarterback guy. He was smart and funny and fun to be around with. So after that date, a second date followed, and a third one and now there were officially a couple.

And as expected Santana's popularity was gone up. Things could be wonderful if there weren't the fact, that Brittany still wasn't speaking with Santana. Well, she was speaking to her. About School. About the cheerleading-club. About all the stuff they must talk, but they weren't talking about personal tings and every time Santana tried to apologize, Brittany blocked and walked away. They were like to girls who were in the same grade and in the same club, but nothing more. And this situation was killing Santana.

Every morning Santana went to the parking lot, their usual meeting point, in hope Brittany would show up, but she never did. In classes they still sat next to each other but it was nothing like before. No exchanged looks, no giggling, no conversation through paper pieces. Nothing!