Santana has always told her girls even gentlemen have dicks. So don't hate me just yet, it'll get better I promise.

"So what are you going to do about college in the fall?" Ruby asked handing her another turkey club.

"Well the baby should be here in September. So I'll just wait until he or she is a year old and then start." she said trying to eat her sandwich.

"Well you've only got four month left. How does it feel - the baby moving around?"

She took a huge bite of her sandwich then made a thinking face.

"It feels like nothing sometimes. Then other days it feels like a worm is in there."

Ruby just thought of how it felt to have a worm in her hands.

"Well tomorrow you figure out if it's a boy or a girl. Which do you want?"

She shrugged her shoulders then took a bite of Ruby's sandwich.

"I want a girl." she swallowed thickly "I think I want a girl. Cause having a son - would just remind me how much I hate Andy." her voice had lost the cheer it was filled with moments ago.

"Well if you keep hating him, your baby is bound to look like him." she joked making her sister crack a faint smile.

Santana came home and found Levi banging on the table and Go Diego Go blasting from the tv. Brittany was in the kitchen getting dinner ready, her girls were at the table looking through a baby book. She peeked over their shoulders the pointed to a name.

"I like that one."

This was the first time she had really had an input on anything involving Valerie's pregnancy.

"If it's a girl name her that."

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"Mom?"

"What?" he was a bit taken back in how she answered him.

"Are you angry with me?"

She pulled her paper from her eyes so he could see she was serious.

"I'm not mad at you - I'm furious how could you tell her to get an abortion? That is the most disrespectful thing I've ever been told about you. Me and your mother tries to raise you the right way but I see we failed." she told him picking the paper back up.

"Mom Valerie isn't as innocent as everybody thinks. She gets drunk and turns into a different person. She was the one who said she didn't want to keep it - then she said she wanted it - once I had already made up my mind about not wanting it." he ran his hands through his hair harshly. "She told me when she first found out that she wasn't sure if it was my baby. Valerie isn't as innocent as she seems." Andy never spoke bad about Valerie, but sometimes he wanted to tell people about the real her.

Rachel didn't know who to believe now. Andy told her one thing and Valerie had told her another.

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"So do you think your having a boy or a girl?"

"Well I'm not sure. I'm wishing for a girl, but everyone seems to think it's a boy."

Her face cringed as the cold gel touched her stomach. She could hear the heart beat and some swishing sounds.

"That is your daughter right there." she put her hands over her heart, as it silently broke.

"It's a girl, I'm having a daughter. I'm gonna be a mommy soon."

Linda (the ultrasound technician) had yet to tell Valerie the bad news about her pregnancy.

"Valerie, are your parents or anyone here with you?" Val shook her head, her moms were in the waiting room.

"Yeah my moms are out there. I can go get them if you'd like." she told her that'd be best.

Another doctor entered the room with Linda holding a chart.

"Valerie, you have preeclampsia. It's normally discovered around the twentieth week, as you are. As I'm sure you know this could kill both you and your baby." Valerie had been on cloud nine a few minutes ago and now she felt like her world was being crushes by a single hand. "Will schedule a date for you to come in and have an emergency c-section." he rubbed Valerie's shoulder for comfort "Don't worry your in good hands, and your little girl will get the best care."

The car ride home was silent. Santana felt her daughters pain but more than anyone Brittany felt her daughters pain she knew what it felt like to have your body betray you and turn you into a baron cave.

Val had been in her room crying for sometime until Brittany came into to talk to her.

"Val, I know exactly what your going through."

"You do?" she asked

"Yes I do. Before me and your mom adopted you I was pregnant several times. The last time I carried the baby until I was almost seven months, then one day I kept bleeding. The doctors said my stomach had filled up with an extensive amount of blood and the baby drowned. Yes it's terrible and it takes a while to get over."

"Mom I never knew that." Brittany shook her head, and hugged her daughter.

"Four months and you'll be a momma. Are you nervous?"

"No, I'm more scared than anything. What if there's something wrong with her, or she dies, or I die - than what?" Brittany had thought about those things just as Santana and Valerie had thought about them, everything from this moment on was a what if.

Okay guys I know Valerie's pregnancy is moving fast and I might have done a terrible job at summarizing what happened between her and Andy please forgive me.

My nerves are going haywire. I tried out for this new basketball team and I think I blew it, so I'm out of whack a little bit. I also got offered a scholarship to Cal state and everything is just moving to fast for me. I just want to stay a kid and have no responsibilities ever. I have to choose between seven colleges in the next five months, I just want time to stop for a day so I can gather my thoughts. I need something to take them edge off, it's an athletic thing.

Sorry for the rambling, I just need some guidance right now and being 17 I thought I knew the right answers but I don't. Nayalove your right I'm a kid ;)

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