Disappearing Acts

~The Morning After~

~La Push, Washington~

~Sue~

My daughter and her best friend have been planning their weddings for last six months and in one week she will be saying 'I do' and I couldn't be happier for her. On the other hand, my baby boy Seth has been distancing himself for the last couple of years since his father died and I cannot figure out why. I think I am going to go find him after I head back to the res from Charlie's house.

"Charlie, I am going to head back and spend some time with Seth. I will see you soon okay. Emily will be stopping here and waiting for Leah. Is that okay?"

"Yes its fine, Sue. Say hi to Seth for me."

Walking out the door, I hop into my car and stop by the grocery and pick up some things. Once I am done there, I head to Sam's first because I knew Seth had patrol and might still be there to eat. Pulling into the driveway, I hop out and hear the guys before I even enter the house.

"Hello boys."

"Hello Sue." All the boys reply.

I notice that there are three boys missing and I figure two are on patrol and that my baby is back at home. As I turn to leave, one of the missing boys comes in signifying a change of shifts.

"These are for you all don't eat them all at once." I say placing the snacks I purchased at the store.

Still a little worried about my son, I ask Sam if he is still on patrol.

"No, Sue he left already."

"Okay thanks boys if I don't see you before the rehearsal dinner see you then."

"Bye."

Well, that was odd. He is normally with the rest of the pack. Let me try his cell phone.

"Hello, you have reached Seth I can't come to the phone so leave a message."

Okay getting a little worried. Calm down Sue, he is probably at the house.

Arriving at the house, I notice it is locked and there are no lights on. So I decide to knock on his door.

KNOCK. KNOCK.

"Seth, you in there?"

Silence.

KNOCK. KNOCK.

"Seth honey."

This time when he doesn't answer I open his door but instead of seeing my baby boy there is a letter that is address my family in Seth's handwriting. This cannot be good. Opening the envelope, there is a letter inside and I take it out and sit on his bed and begin to read it.

Dear Family,

This is a hard decision for me to make. The choice was not made easily. However, life has forced my hand a little. Do not fret because it is a good force because it is a great opportunity in which everyone benefits in the end. I am asking that no one come look for me and to understand that if I choose to return I will do so in my own time until then stay away.

Mom: you were the one factor that made me most hesitant because I am now and forever your baby boy and I know that without the kind words and late nights we shared I wouldn't have made it as long as I did. I am grateful to have you as my mother and the opportunity to take your teachings and pass them on to the people whose path I may cross in this life. The only reason, I was able to do this was because I know you will have both Charlie and Leah to keep you strong and to focus on them enough as a distraction to worry about what I am doing. In time, Leah will give you grandkids (who are as crazy as their mother, shh don't tell her I said that) and they will fill your life with happiness and joyfulness. I will always take you wherever I go mother. Love always.

Leah: I know you will be pissed off that I decided to leave now. Don't worry your wedding present will be given to you on the day of. I hope you both enjoy your day and take care of each other always. Love like yours is forever remember that when times don't seem like it. I was able to walk away from you sis because I know you are going to have a protector, friend, and lover throughout your life who will be more than I could ever be. Take comfort in knowing that this opportunity is what I needed to do for myself because if I hadn't the other option was failure. Stand by the family as always with your fierce protectiveness and guard them with loyal heart. Love yah sis.

Charlie: Take care of my family they will need you when I am not there. Thanks for being the man who guided us as one of his own.

The Pack: Brothers, you guys have been my best friends and confidantes for 4 years and I will always remember you all for all of the great things you each have taught me or done for me. Each of you have given me something to take away in this world and I will cherish those memories forever. I love each of you all.

No matter where I go in this life take courage in the fact my home is here with you all and that nowhere else will equal the bonds I have here. So for today we can cry but tomorrow we must start the day we a smile on our faces and continue on as we have every other day. Do not mourn for me but rejoice.

Seth Josiah Clearwater

I read the letter over and over and over. I didn't even recognize that Leah had walked through the door, until she was at Seth's door asking me what was wrong. I had been in the same spot for hours crying and reading and repeating the process because I couldn't believe he was gone. It took another 20 minutes to get me to acknowledge her and hand her the letter because I couldn't seem to find my voice. I guess too much crying does that to a person.

"What is this? A joke? Did he think this would be funny to pull this week? I am stressed as it is, mama. Where is he? Seth! Seth!"

After Leah realized he wasn't in the house she picked me up and told me to get in her car and we were going to get to the bottom of this.

"He isn't gone mama. I swear when I find him I am going to smack him for playing around."

Picking up her phone she calls her fiancé and tells him to get the pack together and get over to Billy's house. Pulling into Billy's driveway, Rachel opened the door for us. She was talking animatedly about the weddings coming up until she looked at our faces and she clammed up immediately. I rush over to Billy and hand him the letter he reads it.

"Rachel, go and get your brother. I need to check something in my room."

~Billy's House~

~Billy~

When Sue runs over to me and I read the letter, I can't shake the feeling that this has to deal with my son as well. So even though I feel it won't matter I ask Rachel to check his room. Something tells me to check my room. Heading to my bedroom, I open the door and I notice a letter on the bed and I begin to cry immediately even before I read it. I gather myself just before my daughter enters my room and confirms what I already knew.

"Dad, he isn't there. What's that in your hand?"

"A letter from your brother and I think we should sit down and read it together."

"No. This has gone too far. They need to get here now."

She pulls out her phone and calls her fiancé and talks to him. I tune them out so that I can read what my son wrote to me to explain his decision to leave.

Hey dad,

I know you would be the one to figure out that Seth wasn't alone and that I went with him. I can picture you in the room reading this calmly looking for me to explain my actions, while Rach is freaking out and Leah is pissed off and Sue is shocked. For the pain and confusion, I am sorry and take full responsibility. I do need you to understand a couple things dad and then you can show the other letter behind this to everyone else. This one is just for you to tell you three things about myself that will not justify but clarify my choice to leave La Push. Firstly, I must admit to you and myself that I am gay dad. I have been going back and forth with these emotions and whether or not to tell you for the last three years. I have known since middle school but after I phased that first time and joined the pack I became afraid to say anything because I was supposed to be this strong Alpha descendant of Ephraim Black. Secondly, I fell in love but with the wrong person because they in turn didn't love me back. I have tried to justify their behavior and continue to push my feelings away and ignore them but the dam finally broke and I realized that I couldn't be in La Push while they are too. Lastly, I have been given a wonderful opportunity to go to college dad and get my education. I cannot promise that I will return but I will try and make an effort and call you when I can and often as possible. Please don't be difficult old man and take care of yourself. I believe the spirits will grant us another moment to join our paths together again where we can meet again.

Folding up his letter, he had realized he was alone in his room which he was grateful for because now he can put his letter away and read the letter meant for all eyes. Secure in his hiding place, Billy opens the second letter and begins to read it.

Hey everybody,

I don't know what to say to you all except that this in fact is not some elaborate scheme to ruin weddings. I have indeed left La Push. To where, I don't know my final destination. I do ask that you not try and look for me because there are many reasons why I have chosen to leave. I will give you some good news and say that this is not a permanent goodbye but farewell for now. Take solace in knowing that our paths shall cross in life again.

Old Man: you are the greatest father a boy could ever ask for. The guidance you have given me as you raised me and prepared me for the world have been instilled in me and I shall carry them onward. Thank you for giving me a reason to be prideful and headstrong because in every sense of the word I am William Black's son. I love you, dad.

Rach: I am sorry for leaving before seeing you walk down the aisle looking as beautiful and graceful as our mom. I love you and wish you all the best in this world. I know I need worry about you which made me all more prepared to let go of this life and embrace the new one that I am running off to. I love you because you were always more than a sister but a confidant and friend.

Charlie and Sue: I know that you both will continue to be a staple in my father's life and for that I am grateful. Thank you for all that you guys do for him. You will always be my second parents who taught me many things in this life. Don't worry I will watch out for him too.

Sam: Please understand this was needed. IF at any point you need to reach me for an emergency just call and I will return. When you are ready to retire and spend the rest of your life with your family let me know and I will not even hesitate to return and take up the reigns. Thanks for being a great mentor and friend and an even better brother.

Quil & Embry: You guys have been my best friends since kindergarten. I honestly don't know the right words to say to you two. So I will just thank you guys for being there always. Keep laughing and smiling.

The Pack: I know you all will see this as a betrayal for my decision not to stay but I have not abandoned any of you. Please do not come looking I beg of you. Trust me though it may feel like I am no longer with you I will be in your hearts forever, whenever you feel like the pain gets to be too much remember the good times we shared, and always remember wherever I go in this world I will be taking the parts of each of you because all of you are a part of me forever.

So no more tears, for this is not end, it is the beginning. Love you guys.

Jacob Ephraim Black

Billy closed the letter and rolled into the living room where he saw the many faces of everyone who love and care about his son. Hoping this letter will offer them comfort knowing that he is safe and will always be there for them. He hands the letter to Rachel and allows her to read it and watching his daughter tears at his soul because it reminds him of his beloved who had long since departed this world. The letters from both boys are handed from person to person until everyone has read them. Looking over at two of the boys, I realize why Seth and Jacob both left today and I realize they both better be grateful for the sacrifices that they are making for the sake of not their own happiness but others.

People started filing of the house and I went to bed because I was determined to do what my son asked of me and start tomorrow with no more tears.

~Midnight~

~The Meadow~

~Unknown~

I can't believe he thought leaving was best. Who does he think he is? Why do I even care? I know he has left something here, his scent lingers still. Walking over to the rock we had sex next today, I notice a letter and sit down and read it.

Paul,

I shall keep this brief because if I don't I will cry. I know you will think that I did this to you on purpose, but that is not true. I did it for you not to you. I could not stay here pining and wishing for a chance meeting or secret glances across crowded rooms. You belong to another and I love you too much to let you degrade yourself or hurt yourself. I know you don't feel the same do not worry I have no delusions of grandeur when it comes to you. I do hope one day I can return to La Push and it can be easier but for now I wish you all the happiness in the world with the one who has your heart, my sister.

Love,

Pup

He had read the letter more than once and realized that Jacob gave him the greatest gift but also took something with him, his heart. I'll get you to come back pup.

Across the forest, in another secret location shared between lovers, one lone wolf looks around for the letter he knows is there because he still doesn't understand why and is hoping that in due time he will figure things out in order to figure out how to get his Sethy back. Finding the letter, he phased back to his human self and sits on the grass relishing in the feeling of being naked in this place again.

Sam,

I will always love you. No matter how far I go in this world you will be the only one who had my heart. Remember that I am not doing this in retaliation or to hurt you but it was a necessary evil. It was a better choice than the other one I had been mulling over so I jumped at the chance to go with Jacob today. I wish all the best in life. I hope to see you in the future so that I can see how happy you are and that life has treated you well. I do know you are looking for answers in this letter so let me say this much: I couldn't watch you marry my sister this week and so I had two options. The first was death and the other was to disappear. So look at this as the lesser of two evils. Anyway, I must say goodbye to you now because I can't continue this or I might change my mind and run back to the room where you are sitting and mulling over things.

Your one & only

Sethy

They had left because it was the best option. He sacrificed his life for me. I will always love you, too. He dropped the letter in the river and watched it float away hoping it would reach his lover. I will get you back here and hell I may be selfish but I can't lose you.

~London~

~A week later~

~3rd Person~

They had been pacing back and forth because they were so confused as to how all of this happened. How could both of them be? No there is no way. No chance. Carlisle must be confused and mixed up the test results. For the third time in five minutes they were both running to the bathroom throwing up profusely. Okay just because we keep throwing up it doesn't mean anything they thought as they left their respective bathrooms.

"How about we go phase Jake and see if we feel better after a run?"

"Sounds like a good idea."

After phasing, they glance at each other and are shocked at what they see.

OH MY GOD!

WE'RE PREGNANT!