Sorry it's been a while guys! I've been writing this on my phone whilst my laptop is down, I can't believe how many more follows/ fav's Lenny has gotten in my absence though. So a massive thank you to all you guys for your patience and hopefully this makes up for it. Leave me a review with what you think! I own nothing except Lenny !

Back on The Map

Jax had sent his mother and the Club back home after taking advantage of Karl's hospitality for one night, the boys had enjoyed the company of another MC but it was time for them to head back to Charming and give Jax the space he needed to get his head together before getting his girls back.

Obviously Gemma had gone reluctantly and not before making it clear to Jax that Erin was to come back with him to Charming, with or without Lenny-Ray.

Cleaning up the living area he had been using a bed Jax heard the soft cries of a waking baby and turned his attention to the baby monitor left at the side on the table. He instinctively went to find the nursery to calm his baby girls cries when he heard Lenny in her nursery, grabbing the monitor he slumped back onto the sofa to listen to a his girls mother softly coo words of comfort.

"Morning Gorgeous," Jax could practically hear Lenny smiling, she had taken to being a mother like a duck to water. He wasn't stupid enough to believe the last few months had been easy for Lenny but anyone could see she was born to be a Mother, even after all the shit of leaving Charming and being pregnant alone Lenny still adored and idolised Erin.

" why are you so grumpy? Do you wanna go get some breakfast? Do ya?" Lenny was obviously grabbing various bits from around the nursery and was signing softly to Erin, it had been so long since Jax heard Lenny sing and he realised how much he had missed it. She was singing a lullaby of sorts but it was calming Erin down.

Lenny padded down the stairs with Erin perched on her hips whilst she held a handful of clothes and diapers in the other hand ready to get her daughter ready for the day. She wasn't expecting to see a shirtless Jax sprawled out on the sofa and her breath caught halting her steps.

"Morning," she managed bringing her presence to his attention, she was fully aware that Jax would know his state of undress would get Lenny's attention. They hadn't gotten this far without knowing what pushed the others buttons. "Coffee?" Lenny asked as she settled Erin into a high chair before making her morning bottle.

Jax took over the task of feeding Erin as Lenny made their coffees listening to him ramble on about how cold it was here compared to Charming but Lenny couldn't have cared any less.

"What's been happening in Charming since I left?" Lenny cut straight to business and could see by Jax's reaction he wasn't expecting the conversation to change so swiftly.

"Not a lot, got a few new prospects down at TM. A new Sheriff, couple new coffee shops that's about it," Jax lifted Erin out of her high chair cradling her close as he tried to work out what Lenny was angling at.

"When have I ever cared about the law enforcement or availability of a latte Jax?" Lenny swallowed her pride " I want to know what crow eaters have been hanging around,"

Jax was taken back by how forward Lenny had been, he hadn't thought she would be bothered about the social attendees of Teller Morrow's parties but she clearly was by the insistent look on her face.

"No one special," Jax watched Lenny as she leant against the kitchen counter like she had so many times in the past, he had seen that look on her face before. Doubt. "Lenny, darling, I swear,"

As if the tiny babe could sense the tension in the room Erin began to cry before Jax could assure Lenny there had been no once of any importance since she walked away from him. He couldn't lie and say that his bed had been completely cold but he could barely remember any of their names, they had all paled into insignificance.

Lenny pushed away from the counter to take a distressed Erin from Jax and was surprised when he stood from the chair and turned away from her keeping Erin in his clutches, "I can deal with this Len," holding her hands up in surrender Lenny backed off to fill up her coffee cup as Jax laid Erin on her changing mat to change her diaper. Lenny couldn't help but watch, she instinctively waited for him to mess it up as she sipped at her coffee but was pleasantly surprised Jax Teller could add changer of soiled diapers to his resume. She knew it was harsh to expect disappointment from Jax but she also knew you can't put all your faith in a Son, let alone a Teller.

" You mind if I go grab a shower seeing as you're apparently the next Super Nanny?" Lenny tried to hide behind her sarcasm as she rinsed out her coffee cup. Apparently Jax had learnt how to actually care for the infants he produced. The cutting tone didn't go unnoticed by Jax as he glared at Lenny's back whilst she dropped her things in the sink,

"Take your time," he smiled at Erin who beamed right back, the little babe didn't even bat an eyelid as her mother left the room with a heavy heart and a tightening in her chest.

Lenny felt much better after standing under the warm spray of the shower, the noise of everything else was drowned out allowing her time to ignore everything little thought going through her head. She had so many mixed emotions about what had transpired down in the kitchen, on one hand she was beyond happy that Jax seemed insistent on being involved with Erin but then on the other she was terrified about what that actually meant. She had only pictured Jax in their future several times since she had Given birth to Erin, so it seemed so alien.

Walking into her room she found Kelsey laying on her bed who explained she had come in looking for Erin but Lenny knew she had probably been in her room looking for cigarettes to bum. The kid was like looking into a mirror of the past for Lenny-Ray.

Sitting on the edge of the bed as Kelsey went to the window Lenny began to dry her long dark hair before it curled with the damp.

" You still love him?" Kelsey folded her arms over her chest as she looked down into the courtyard where Jax was helping her Daddy off load beer barrels from the delivery. He had taken his shirt off showing off his lithe muscular tattooed body which got her teenage heart racing, she could see why Lenny had jumped his bones.

"What?!" Lenny was used to Kelsey's random questioning but this one had her thrown, they had barely discussed how Lenny had felt about Jax's return let alone whether she still loved him.

"Jax." Kelsey said simply as she settled down on the window seat turning her back on the glorious sight that was Lenny's half naked ex. "It's obvious Len, even my Mom has noticed the sexual tension you too and the way you both look at each other is sickening! But the way he looks at Erin, now that's adorable!"

" what do you mean?" Lenny couldn't believe an 18 year old was laying down the law to her.

" I mean you need to get your shit together Lenny! I would give anything just to have Johnny look at me the way Jax looks at you one last time," Kelsey was still pretty torn up about the fact Johnny had bailed on her. " you love him Lenny and he loves you!"

"Kelsey its not always that simple, there's other things to consider," Lenny sighed.

"Bullshit! You're terrified because someone else can break your heart and tough old Lenny-Ray Sawyer don't do heart break, but guess what? It ain't all about you this time, Len. You really wanna deny Erin her Daddy?" Lenny felt like a child again, Kelsey was right for once though. She was terrified.

" don't throw something beautiful away because you're scared! You and Jax are gonna be like my Mom and Dad, together forever." Kelsey walked away from the window before hugging Lenny-Ray tight. "Don't fuck it up this time, Len,"

Lenny couldn't quite believe her wake up call had come from Kelsey, as she pulled her jeans on and slipped a plaid shirt on over bra she rolled the sleeves up gazing at out at Jax as he hauled the empty barrels up onto the van. She watched every muscle in his back move and had flashbacks to their nights together in Charming and it hit her like lightening, she had never stopped loving Jackson Teller. Not really , sure she had hated him at times and that drove her crazy but she did love him. Lenny just wasn't sure if she was strong enough to let him back in after all the walls she had built around her and Erin it was hard to know he could make her so vulnerable and crazy in a heart beat.