A/N: Hello everyone. It's been a very long time since I posted anything seeing as my laptop broke and I was unable to post from my phone as well as personal health issues that put me out of commission. I am so sorry for the long wait. I've been given clearance to do light work with my right arm such as typing and school. Due to this I am so glad that I was update tonight. This is a unedited chapter seeing as I am in the need for a beta. If anyone isable to do so or can recommend someone who can please PM me. I thank those who are still around and have waited patiently for this chapter and the ones that will follow. Also special thanks to those who check in on me while I was away.

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{Paul POV}

Waking up this morning after only getting a few hours of sleep last night, I'm wired and irritable. The lack of time spent with my mate has me on a short fuse. Getting out of bed I head into my bathroom and prepare for the long day ahead. Work has been very busy with this big account we landed building five new apartment buildings in Forks and Port Angeles. Lately, I've been lucky if I am able to see my children and Jake at evening dinner let alone spend time with any of them. However, I need to see him because he has been MIA doing God knows what. I hear two other heartbeats and figure Seth's here as well. I'm happy for them it took them awhile to get to here. I didn't even notice them last night I was so out of it. I enter the kitchen to see Seth finishing off cooking breakfast.

"Hiya, Paul."

"Hey, Seth."

"How are you feeling, Paul? You don't look so good. I want you to come see me at the office when you get a chance."

"Alright. Thanks for making breakfast."

"No problem. I know you guys are busy with the contracts you landed. It's the least I can do for you guys."

Sam enters the room wrapping his arm around Seth's waist causing Seth to blush before placing a gentle kiss on Sam's cheek.

"Seth is having empty nest syndrome. With the kids all away visiting colleges for the summer, I think he is beginning to see what it will be like when they go away to school." Sam laughs when Seth smacks his arm.

"It's just weird that they are leaving when it feels like I haven't had enough time with them. But at least they are coming down tonight to discuss the schools they've seen so far as well as spend time with their families."

Sitting down to the table we all dig into our food and conversation begins to move to plans for the day.

"I've got a long day of deliveries and new patients so I'm gonna head on out." Seth leaves after kissing Sam and patting me on my shoulder.

"You guys seem to being doing better. You guys finally talk about everything?"

"Yeah, that's what we've been doing lately. Spending a few hours sorting things out and figuring where to go from here and what we both want. How about you and Jake?"

At the mention of Jake, I can feel the smile I had slip. I grimace thinking about how distant he has been lately.

"Things were okay until about three weeks ago. Since then he's been distancing himself and refusing to see me or spend time alone. He's been blowing me off saying he's been busy with his new client, but I want to call bullshit you know because you and I have been busy too but I have been still trying to make an effort to see him but it's like he doesn't want to see me. I'm scared Sam, I feel like he's pushing me away because he wants to leave now that the kids are moving on with their lives."

"Oh. Look Paul, things will be okay. You just need to talk to him and tell him about how you feel. Give him a chance to tell you what's going on with him as well. Hey man we gotta get going, but why don't you go and see him at lunch, alright. The best thing to do is talk it out and not wait and see. Fight for him."

He pats my shoulder and I nod my head. Getting up from the table we head into the office. The drive is quiet giving me time to contemplate everything I want to say to Jake. By the time I arrive, I have a plan in place and a list of things I want to say.

My assistant, Jennifer, informs me that there is an Embry Call in my office waiting to meet with me. Walking in I see Embry pacing back and forth in front of my windows. I can feel the nervousness rolling off him. I clear my throat to get his attention and tell him to take a seat.

"What's up, Embry?"

"I'm here to talk to you about some things but we need to wait for Jake. He's on his way."

At the mention of Jake and the fact that he will be here in a few my heart speeds up and I feel anxious myself. I haven't seen him in three weeks and I can't help but feel upset by the fact he can come here for Embry but not even acknowledge my presence. I get up from my desk as I feel that familiar heat of my wolf wanting to break free so that he can release his anger and pain at the fact our mate doesn't want us. If I wasn't sure before, now I am. I decide to leave before Jake gets there. As I tell Embry to catch me up later, I hear Sam's advice from earlier playing in the back in my mind but my wolf is starting to rise to the surface and I feel my control slipping. Seeing as I don't want to go wolf in my office I ignore that little nagging rational voice in my head telling me to stay and force him to talk to me and grab the handle opening the door to leave instead as I open up the door I walk right smack into Jake.

"Sorry." I mumble as I step aside to let him in.

"It's okay. You going somewhere?" I nod.

"I thought he wanted to talk to us both." I nod again."

"Something's come up, I've gotta go and take care of it. Bry can fill me in later." I rush out my response so that I can leave before my mask falls and they can see the pain in my eyes.

Turning to leave again, I feel a hand on my shoulder and look up to see Embry standing before me with pleading eyes.

"I NEED to talk to you at the same time, Paul, please."

The look is his eyes is very familiar and I can't help but sympathize and my will is breaking as I realize that this is not about me or Jake but Embry and our son. The thought of Zeke has me closing the door and walking past both of them to sit down at my desk again waiting to hear what he has to say about Zeke seeing as that's the only reason he would need to speak to us both. Jake and Bry take seats opposite me and we wait in silence as he gets his thoughts together. The silence is beginning to get to me as it's the only time that my depressing thoughts grip me and rise to the forefront of my mind and I begin to sink into the darkness. Just as I'm about to succumb to it, Embry clears his throat, stands up, and begins to pace around my office. Finally, he stops by the window and glances out to the forest that surrounds my office building. Sighing he begins speaking.

"I've been trying to find a way to tell you both that not only am I in love with Hezekiah but I can't see my life without him in it. I want to spend my life with him but I know that you will say he's too young to be married or us getting our own place. In the end, I chose to come to you anyway because not only are you his parents but you're some of my closest friends. Jake you've been there since the beginning. Paul you took a stance against those who chose to attack me for the wrongdoings of my mother and father. You are my family. I understand your fears about Zeke and I taking that next step seeing as I feel the same fear about not only your kids but my nieces and nephews that Sam and Seth gave me. We have forever to be together but I only wish to begin that part of our forever now. Go to college with him or near him. Get the education I have yet to get due to the honorable duties of being a shape shifter. If you say no to either of my questions, know that I will still go but separately so that I can still respect the bond we have as family. But I figure with him moving away, I know that my heart and soul can't take watching him walk away from me and that it was time to get your permission. From there my options are limitless. I have faith that you will say yes and grant me the opportunity to spend the time learning about who he is and acting like teenagers without the stresses of the supernatural."

After he has finished speaking, he takes a deep breath and turns away from the window to look at us both yet no one in particular. I can feel his emotions as if they were leaking out like sweat off his body. The fear and determination are there but the most powerful one is love. He loves our son enough to come to us despite the fear that we may deny his request.

"What about waiting until he graduates college? I'm not saying no Bry but just give us time. I know that you two will end up being married with kids but I want my son to finish his education first because going to school with little kids is very hard. I don't want that for Zeke or you." Jake responds.

"I guess that's fair. So, if I wait until he graduates to ask, you will give me your permission?"

As Jake says yes, they both realize I have yet to speak one word since the conversation started. They turn to me expectantly and i just nod my head in agreement. I honestly can't handle being in the room with him. Now that Embry is finished and no longer distracting me I can feel Jake in my pores and the ache of not being able to touch him while he is so close is too much. Getting up, I pat Embry on his shoulder, and walk out.

"Jennifer, reschedule all my appointments for the day that can be and those that can't have them meet with Grant or Sam. Then call Dr. Clearwater's office and schedule an appointment for this afternoon, please. Once that's all done, send the information to my blackberry and then take off the rest of the day."

"Certainly, sir. Do you need me to call you a car?"

"That won't be necessary. Thank you."

With that final word, I make my way towards the elevators that lead to the parking garage.

{Jacob POV}

I stare in the direction Paul just left. What's going on with him? He doesn't look too well. Fear and worry pour into me as I run through all the possibilities of sicknesses that could take Paul away from me. As the fear begins to overwhelm me a smack on my head reminds me of Embry's presence.

"What the hell man?"

"What's going on between you two?"

"Huh."

"Paul was fine until I mentioned you then it look like he was gonna phase on the spot."

Why would he get upset about me showing up? He was trying to escape my presence earlier. That's why he was so quiet and why he looks so sick. Oh shit! He thinks I don't want him and I'm denying the imprint. I've been so busy with work lately I haven't even taken time out for him or us but then here I show up at his office cause Embry called me. He must feel it was for Embry but in reality I was aching to see him and touch him. I miss his warmth. I need to find him and explain. Then another smack brings me back to the present and I dash out of his office shouting to Embry as I leave.

"Oh shit. I need to go. I'll tell you everything later, man."

I follow Paul's scent and find him just about to get into his car. I slam into him and place my lips on his. After a moment of hesitation he is kissing me back with as much force as I am. We pull away to catch our breath. He looks shocked.

"What the fuck, Jake?"

"I love you, you idiot. You know that right?"

"No, I don't you've been distant Jacob."

"I'm sorry. I wasn't trying to be. I've been busy with things at work for this new client and a side project. However, it seems like I need to be upfront and explain everything so that you won't walk away from me like you did in your office ever again."

"Fine let's go somewhere and talk in private."

I hop in my car and we drive over to my house. I want to surprise him but I think it's best to tell him about the surprise I have been planning for us as a little getaway since the kids are travelling to different schools. We settle on the couch with a beer in each of our hands. Taking his other hand, I take his beer out of his hand and set it down and then force him to look at me.

"Paul, I haven't been pulling away from you. I just wanted to plan something special for you. Ever since we have been getting closer and being a little bit more intimate in our touches, I realized that I wanted an uninterrupted weekend with you so I put into motion my plans to get you alone. It started with taking extra patrols so that while we are away those who cover us will have had time off to spend with their imprints beforehand. I'm sorry that it took time away from us and that it's been weeks since we truly spent any time together."

Before I can go on explaining, Paul is all over me kissing anywhere within reach of his lips until our lips connect in searing kiss that makes me go weak.

"I love you, Jake, so much. I've missed you so much. Don't ever disappear on me again. Though I understand and appreciate what you did and why you did it, it still hurt to be away from you. That can't happen again, Jake. We have to keep constant communication so that we can never lose sight of the love we have or the fact that we want to continue to be together. That takes work. We may have imprinted and have children but we can't just rely on that we have to make sure that we put 110 percent into us as a couple. So know that this weekend you will have to make it up to me."

With a wink he settles back in his spot on the couch as if he hadn't just kissed me within an inch of my life. God I love this man but he can irk my nerves. We settle in to watch tv.

"We need to clear the air. Talk about everything that has been going on in my mind for the past few weeks. I've been hurting Jake. It felt like you were planning on leaving and not returning. My wolf became agitated and fearful. Next time keep in contact with me. I love you but if this happens again, I won't stick around to wait and see."

"That's fair enough. I am truly sorry. I didn't think that was what you thought and felt. It won't happen again. Even if I can't see you or you can't see me every day because we are busy we will make time for us once a week at least. Or maybe you can move in with me and then we would come home to each other every night. Sleep in your arms and have something tangible to prove us that neither of us is leaving." Oh shit did I just blurt that out? That wasn't supposed to happen yet I had it planned. Fuck! Sometimes I need to shut up sometimes.

"The plus side is that we are free for our weekend getaway starting tonight until Sunday. I figured we could sleep in and then head out in the morning after I make breakfast. How does that sound?" I rush out to try and cover up what I just said but by the look on Paul's face and the fact that his beer is still near his lips he heard me.

Placing his beer back down slowly, Paul turns to me fully.

"Are you serious? If you are then I have to be honest and say that it's been on my mind for a while and I have been thinking about asking you but I haven't see you enough to ask. We can discuss it with the children tonight at dinner and see what they say. As for the whole weekend, I will enjoy whatever it is that you have planned as long as you plan your groveling as well." Paul laughs a little at the end and pecks my lips to try and remove the frown that has replaced my smile as I think of the pain I caused him. Seeing the look on my face, he continues to say.

"It sounds good, Jake. I have to call Sam about my client before we leave though because he will be taking care of them until we return. Is that okay?"

I nod my head and get off the couch to pick out a movie. Settling on the Avengers, I curl into Paul's side. He wrapped his arm around my waist and leaned onto the couch arm.

"This is how I picture the rest of our lives, J."

"Is that a proposal?" I laugh.

"No. You will know when I do, baby."

Something about the way he says that makes me think he is planning something but I don't make any more comments.

Dinner is a rambunctious affair as all four of our kids and their mates attend dinner with us. I am so proud of them and their accomplishments, but I can't help but feel anxious at the thought of not having them by my side anymore. A rush of images pass through my head as I watch Paul and Will talk about Princeton and NYU. I see a baby in Paul's arm and I can't help but think of having more kids and sharing this experience with him since he missed the first time. As I pass around dessert, I glance at Paul and he understands that I wish to discuss him moving in now. Standing up, he comes next to me and clears his throat.

"Kids, we have something to discuss with you. We want you to be honest with us. Lately I have been so busy that I haven't had time to see your father or spend time with him." I begin as soon as I have everyone's attention.

"These past three weeks while you were travelling, you didn't see what the distance and lack of visits did to both of us. I was hurting and listless. Today we discuss things and spent some time coming up with solutions. We finally came up with the idea of me moving in here with you guys. How does that sound to you?"

"It's about time pop. You and dad love each other and need each other. Why keep living apart? You're lucky to have each other. Don't waste time worry about us and how we will feel seeing as in a few weeks we will be living on our own. So it's fine with me. In fact, I say get your ass packed tonight pop and move into tonight, while you have some young muscle to help you two old folks."

"I agree with Will. It's fine." Sarah says.

Zeke hugs us both and whispers he's fine with it. Halley nods her head in agreement with her siblings while scarfing down the coconut cream pie I had made for dessert. With their approval we finished dessert and set up Paul's move to my house and by the end of the night we were officially living together.

(The Next Morning)

We fell asleep on the couch and when I woke I started making breakfast for us. Just as the last of the eggs were made Paul came up behind me.

"Mornin'"

"Mornin'"

"Smells good. Thanks baby."

Paul kisses me before stepping away to place our plates down so that we can sit down to eat. Breakfast is a quiet affair as we are both lost in our thoughts. I can't wait 'til we are in Seattle I'm ready for a getaway.

After breakfast, Paul and I clean up the dishes and he heads up to shower while I head upstairs to pack away my last minute things and go over my checklist again. As I am finishing up packing up our bags to take them downstairs, Paul enters the room in only a towel while he dries his hair with another. Paul still looks delicious and I am too stunned to speak as I take in all the hard lines that make up his body. I head out of the room after regaining my composure and a little smirk from Paul. I'm just glad he kept the comments to himself. By the time I'm finished packing up the trunk, Paul comes down with his last bag and puts in the trunk as well. Getting in the car, Paul grabs my hand as I pull out of the garage.

"What do you have planned babe? You gonna fill me in?"

"Nope it's all a surprise, but I can promise you'll enjoy it." At least I hope so.

"How's the new contract going?"
"It's going good. We will be done on schedule which I didn't think was possible given the time constraints. How's the new car line planning? Have you found the right group of engineers to work alongside you? Or are you still looking to hire outside your company?"

"Right now, I'm still looking within the company but I want to know that whoever choose will be able to hold onto the information without sharing it all so that the competition doesn't get wind of my new engine. It's gonna change the industry if I pull it off."

"Well, take your time, babe and focus on every little detail. Even though we both know when it comes to planning your completely detail oriented. Trust in yourself and those whom you choose to work on the project." Just with those words he calms my nerves completely. I love this man so much it scares me.

"I love you." I blurt out abruptly causing Paul to look over at me in confusion.

"I love you too. What's going on in that head of yours?"

"..." Do I tell him? Will he think of me differently? Will he understand my fears or will he be offended?

"Whatever you say won't change anything Jake? Open lines of communication from now on, remember?" He turned to look me in the eye again briefly, to convey what I'm not sure, before turning his attention back to the road but his hand continue to rub mine in comfort.

"I'm scared. I'm worried that I'm gonna lose you again. I don't want to give myself over to these feelings I have completely until I know for sure it's love with a lifetime guarantee. I want it all with you. The life we were denied before, the present we have now, along with the promised future of laughter and love. Not that I don't trust you but with the way fate has played out for us, I'm scared to trust that she doesn't have something waiting in the winds to take you from not only me but our kids. It's not just the young naïve kid who fell in love with his childhood crush but it's the children born of his love for him that are at risk of being hurt." I look over at Paul and notice a tense and pensive look in his eyes. Silence envelops the car as he takes in everything that I've just told him. Fear grips me as he says nothing as we continue on the highway until we get to our exit. My heartbeat picks up as my mind concocts the many different responses that he could give me. Each one worse than the last. I'm lost in thoughts of being single again and him walking away from me because he believes I don't trust him or because he thinks that I'm not worth the risk. A squeeze to my left hand draws me back to the present and I realize that Paul has been trying to gain my attention and that he has pulled over and parked the car. Turning to face him, I prepare for the worse.

"You've got to stop being so negative, Jake."

"I can see it in your eyes." He answers my unspoken question.

"You're worth the risk. I want to walk this road of life with you. I think our past was meant to happen that way so that we could be the men we needed to be for not only each other but our children. We have to let go and have faith that we are worth the love we have for each other. I know we don't really acknowledge that little elephant in the room called imprinting but I think it time to mention that we are mates, Jake. I want you. I want it all. I want to spend every day of forever waking up with you in my arms and spend every night of forever buried deep inside you. Maybe even have more kids but this time I'm there every step of the way to support you. I want to mark you so that the world knows that you are mine and mine alone, not just the supernatural world either. Matching tattoos visible to everyone would do just nicely. I want to walk hand and hand down first, second, and third beach. I want us to have a home that we created together. I want to share your name with mine. Lahote-Black has a nice ring to it. Whatever may be waiting in the wings, Jake, we will face head on so that we can enjoy the ever happy present and plan our continued future. I LOVE YOU Jacob Ephraim Black! I will tell you daily until it finally clicks that I will not be letting you go ever again. YOUR MINE!" He growls as the last words leave his mouth and I can see the flashes of his eye color changing as his wolf briefly takes over.

I sit speechless. In that moment, looking in his eyes, I know that he speaks only truth and that he is full of love for me and I can't help myself. I lunge at him and attach his lips to mine in a bruising kiss. The heady scent of our mutual arousal fills the car and all thoughts of anything else leave as I can only focus on my desire to please him.

"Hotel." I breathe out the one word I need to as we disengage from each other enough for him to drive to our hotel.

Pulling up to the Four Seasons, Paul grabs our bags, hands the keys to the valet, takes my hand and we head into the hotel. After we check in and I take a brief moment to check on my plans for this weekend while Paul is preoccupied with his own thoughts, we head to the room. The moment the doors close, Paul slams me against the door and kisses me with renewed vigor. As if he is trying to erase all my fears and convince me that he loves me.

"MINE!" He growls.

"YOURS!"

Clothes are shredded or find their way to the floor as we make our way to the bed. Taking a moment to breathe, I take in the sight of Paul fully naked and I realize he is even more delicious then he was before. His body is toned and sculpted to perfection and his dick is glistening with pre-cum. I can remember the taste of him as I drop to my knees to see if it's the same or even better because as they say everything gets better with age. I flick the tip with my tongue. Grabbing his base, I slide my mouth up and down his dick and swallow as I reach the base with my mouth and feel his head in my mouth. Only moans and curse words can be heard in our room as I swallow his cum and savor his taste once again. He grabs me into his arms as he slams his mouth on mine.

"That was amazing Jake. Thanks. Now I think I should return the favor."

He lays me down and he sucks my cock into his mouth as he rubs his fingers on my quivering hole. The anticipation is getting to me as I begin to remember the feel of him inside of me. Slowly he prepares me as he brings me to the brink but stops before I can fall over.

"Are you ready? Will you tell me if you are hurting? It's been a while, Jake."

I nod my head unable to speak. I'm ready. He slowly pushes his head into me and I accept him with ease. Slowly he fills me up and I feel complete. The pace is slow as he whispers words that my subconscious absorbs but I can't because he is rendering me speechless and mentally blown. I felt as we climbed the peak together closer and closer to our mutually desirable end. Just as we are about to fall over the edge, I feel the moment his wolf and my wolf take over, sealing our love with a bite. In that moment, I see our past, present, and future. In that moment, I feel a sense of security in us that I have never had before. In a word it is perfection. He is mine and I am his.