* Please Review! Won't be updating much today with my other stories, sorry. We are having our son's birthday party today.*
Jerry was driving his truck as fast as he dared back to their house. Winter was sitting with her arms crossed over her chest as she stared out of the passenger's window. She had shut their bond down so he couldn't get a read on what she was feeling but he knew she was upset. She only shut their bond down when she was writing or upset. He could also tell by her body language something was wrong. They pulled down the long dirt driveway and had almost reached the house before she turned towards him.
" What happen to me back there? I wanted to rip her apart." She said. Jerry sighed and took a hold of the steering wheel with his right hand as he leaned towards his left.
" What I told you about mated males is true for females as well." He said.
" And you just never thought I should know that?" Winter asked, slightly annoyed. " Don't you think I should know that there might be a chance my fangs would come out on their own like that?"
" I didn't think it would happen to you." He said.
" Why the hell not?" She snapped. He shook his head as he pulled up to their house. He shut the truck off and looked at his mate. He put his right arm across the back of his seat.
" Because, Winter, you have held onto so much of your humanity that I thought the your reaction wouldn't be so vampire. Last night I told you about my past with Giselle and you did not have that reaction. I thought your humanity would prevail." He said. Winter frowned and shook her head.
" Yeah, you told me about Giselle but you sure as hell didn't tell me about fucking other girls in front of her." She snapped before she left the truck. Jerry sighed as she slammed the door shut.
" Shit." He muttered. He watched as she stormed up to their door. " Fucking bitch." He cursed Giselle before he left his truck.
Winter unlocked their door while listening to the truck door slam shut. She didn't have to turn around to know he was coming towards her. She didn't really understand why she was so mad at him. She knew he had been wild. She knew he had other lovers but the thought of him being intimate or performing oral sex on someone while others watched, sent her over the edge. Hearing Giselle make comments on his sexual performance was driving her insane. Winter shook her head and threw open their door. Her fangs were out again.
" Fuck." She cursed as she moved through the house. Jerry shook his head and shut their door again. He slid the lock into place then followed after her.
" It is the mated female in you that is making you feel this way." He said. By the time he reached the stairs, she was at the bottom. Winter whipped around and glared up at him.
" Oh really? Is it that? Or maybe it's the fact that I'm just learning that you like an audience when you fuck!" She yelled.
" You said it yourself, you knew I wasn't a virgin. You know I had other lovers." He said.
" Having other lovers is not like engaging in group sex, Jay!" She yelled before she turned and started towards their bedroom. " You went down on girls in front of people so did you get sucked off in front of them?" He sighed as he walked down the steps. When he didn't answer her, Winter turned and looked up at him. Her shoulders dropped.
" You did, didn't you?" She asked softly. Jerry sat down on the steps and clasped his hands together.
" Giselle likes having people watch her play." He said softly. " Often times she had Nickolas watch while she sucked me off. Sometimes she brought girls in with us. Her mouth would be on me while my mouth was on the other girl." Winter paled and for a minute looked like she wanted to cry.
" You have done a lot with her that you haven't done with me." She said. He nodded.
" That is because I have no desire to share you. I have no desire for another man or woman to see you in an intimate setting. I didn't care who saw Giselle." He said.
" And if I wanted that? If I wanted to bring others into the bedroom to watch us or play with us?" She asked in a snap. His hands tighten and his eyebrows came together.
" Then I would find the right male or female for us. It isn't what I want but if it's what you want then we do it. Denying you something you want is not within my power." She closed her eyes a second before she slipped down to the floor. Her back was against their bedroom door.
" I just feel like she knows you better then I do. Like she knows this whole other side of you that I know nothing about." She said. Jerry slipped down to the floor and started to crawl towards her. She had drawn her knees up to her chest.
" She does not know me better then you do. She does know a different side of me." He said. He reached out and lightly touched her legs. " She knows my wild side, my animal side, but you know the better side of me." When she didn't respond to him, Jerry pulled himself against her. He put his legs on either side of her body. His hands came to rest against the outside of her hips. " Open our bond, Love. Open it and see the truth. Please."
A rush of feelings and emotions hit him hard when she let the wall down. She was angry, hurt, confused and sad. Besides the hungry, Winter hadn't taken on any of the normal vampire traits. She could still pass for human in turns of emotions and feelings. She sighed and her body relaxed when his truth came to her. He did believe that Winter knew the better side of him. He didn't want to be the man and vampire he had been with Giselle. He was more happy with Winter then he ever had been without her. He had seen Giselle as only a sex object. He saw Winter as his true lover, mate, and wife. She was giving him what he needed inside and outside of the bedroom. Jerry moved forward and rested his forehead against hers. Her hands came up to lightly touch his face.
" I'm sorry I was so upset." She whispered.
" It's okay." He whispered. He tilted his head and kissed her quickly. He drew her bottom lip into his mouth and nibbled it, making her moan softly. " There is something we can do about her knowing me better then you."
" Kill her?" Winter asked, making Jerry chuckle. He pulled away and looked at her.
" I can open myself and push all my memories into you. Since we are mated and you are my night child, we can trade memories. I can search through you mind and relive everything you have ever been through. You can do the same with me although my memories are harsh and you will not like what you see." He warned. " Many of my memories are full of blood and death. I have ripped humans apart. I have killed other vampires. I have used people to get what I want. I have been terrifying and fearless." Winter studied his face for a long time. She didn't speak and neither did he. He could see her wrestling with herself. She wanted to know that side of him and she didn't. She wanted to trade memories but was scared. Finally she closed her eyes and shook her head.
" No. I don't want to do that." She said. Winter opened her eyes and looked at him. " I don't want to see those things. I know that side of you is, or was, there but I don't want to see it. I don't need to see it." Jerry nodded.
" The offer will stay on the table forever. I don't want there to be any surprises anymore." He said. She sighed and nodded. " I need to finish up your last chapter. You need to relax. Why don't you go and draw a bath. I only have a few pages left to review. You relax, I'll bring you some wine, go over your chapter then we can watch a movie." He said. She smiled as he took a hold of her arms. He pulled her up to a standing position. He wrapped his arms around her and held her close.
" Are you disappointed in me?" She asked. Jerry pulled away and looked at her.
" Why the hell would I be disappointed in you? You should be disappointed in me." He said.
" Well you said you had hoped my humanity would win out on the mated female vampire stuff. Are you disappointed that it didn't?" Winter asked.
" No, Love. I'm not. It's actually kind of hot to see you wanting to rip out someone's throat for me." He said with a smile. Winter smiled and brought her hands to his chest.
" How much more do you have to read?" She asked. She started rubbing his chest.
" Three more pages then I'll be in you." Jerry said. Winter laughed, making him smile.
" I'd ask if you meant in with me but I know that's not what you meant." He chuckled
" I said what I meant. Go, Love, go relax. It's been a long night already." Jerry said. Winter placed her hands against his neck while his came to rest on her hips. They kissed lightly before they hugged. He rubbed her back before he nestled his face into her neck. " Go, Love, before I bite you and drag you down to floor." Winter laughed and pulled away.
" Hurry up, okay?" She asked before she patted his chest and moved to their bedroom.
She walked through the room, touching their bed as she passed it. She smiled and sighed to herself. She continued on to their bathroom. She pushed open the door then shut it after she walked in. Winter leaned against it and looked around the room. Every where she looked was evidence of her mate and her life with him. His toothbrush was next to hers. His cologne sitting next to her perfume. She sighed again and smiled. In their stand up shower, his soap was sitting on the shelve below hers. She had never lived with a man before but she liked it. She liked seeing his things mixed with hers. She liked washing his clothes and liked how the bathroom smelled after he took a shower or got ready for the night.
' You need to get used to it.' Jerry's thought went through her mind. Winter laughed and started towards the tub. ' My stuff is going to be with yours forever now.'
' I thought you had work to do.' She sent back as she started the water for her bath.
' I do.' He sent.
' Then get to work.' She sent. Winter felt him smile. ' The sooner you get your work done, the sooner you get to come to me.'
' If something were to ever happen to you, I would go into the sun. I won't be here without you.' Jerry reminded her.
Winter smiled. They had made a plan together. Some vampires just got tired of being around so they would go into the sun. Their plan was if one was tired, they would go together. If something happen to one of them, the other would take their own life. Neither one had the desire to live without the other. She sent him an I love you then shut down their bond so he could work.
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She had been relaxing their big tub when she heard the bathroom door open. Winter smiled but didn't open her eyes. She heard a click of the light switch and knew he had turned the lights off. The sound of a match lighting was next. She heard him moving around the room and imaged him lighting the different candles they had. Vampires did not like fire but she had gotten him used to candles.
When she was sure he was done with them, he would undress and join her in the water. She was looking forward to having him inside her and in her vein. She rubbed her legs together under the bubbles and warm water as excitement started to course through her. He chuckled softly and, even though their bond was still closed, she knew he could smell her arousal. Winter heard Jerry slipped down behind her head a second before his hands came to her shoulders. He leaned forward and kissed her head as he started to rub her.
" Aren't you coming in?" She asked softly.
" I will. I just thought I'd like to touch you for a little bit first." Jerry said.
" You can touch me in here." Winter said, making Jerry chuckle again.
" It always comes back to sex with you, doesn't it?" He asked, using the phrase she used to always say to him. Winter tilted her head back and opened her eyes. Jerry grinned down to her.
" I wanted you since I first saw you." She said. Jerry laughed loudly sending it echoing through their bathroom. She smiled and started to laugh too. This was a conversation they had had when she was still human. When their laughter died down, he sighed and brought his mouth to her ear.
" I know what you are." He whispered.
" A man?" She whispered with her eyes closed. She titled her head as he licked a line down her throat.
" No." He whispered.
" A tall man?" She asked and felt him smile against her skin, repeating their first conversation.
" A hot ass, motherfucking sexy vampire." Winter laughed and opened her eyes to look at him.
" I did not say that." She said.
" In my fantasy you did." Jerry said as he continued to rub her shoulders. " Then I rushed you and pushed you to the ground. You let me rip your clothes off then I fucked you hard in the hallway. You came so hard and so good, you screamed and proclaimed me the best lover you have ever had. That is how it should happen." Winter laughed again.
" Will you just get in here with me before the water gets cold?" She asked.