He will do one of two things
He'll admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
~Feb 18th: How To Save A Life - the Fray
Her head was spinning, she hated feeling like this. It was getting harder and harder to deal with the slightest presence of Derek Morgan. The little things, even his lingering scent drove her crazy after a few days. He would walk into her office and she could still smell him for days after, it was not that he wore an immense amount of cologne, no, it was just his normal intoxicating scent.
When they were away on cases it was a bit easier, but it wasn't. She got to talk to him on the phone, flirt and tease him and he couldn't really tell how rallied up it actually got her, unlike when he was there, he could see her flushed face, her dropping things trying to hide and other cues that the newest of profilers could pick up on. Why hadn't he picked up on it, or did he just not think of her that way? Yea, that had to be it.
She thought long and hard about telling him the truth, she worried it would wreck what they had and she didn't want to do that, she would rather live the rest of her life as a friend, no a best friend, than the rest of her life without him plus a failed relationship to boot.
Seven long years was a lot of time to lust after someone, seven long lonely years. He had people come and go, but really that's all they did. She had a few bad dates and a failed relationship, but everyone had some baggage, right?
After an increasingly hard case, one that she couldn't get out of her head, she called him, she needed him, he was her rock. She was heading to his place. He got her through the hard times, much like she did him, upon dialling the phone, she decided that it was time, she was sick of waiting, sick of not knowing. Worse case, he would do one of two things; he will admit to everything, say he feels the same way I do, or he will say he is just not the same, not worth being loved or loving. Worse case it would leave her feeling that she should have never came.
She knocked on the door and started the conversation right away, she didn't want to chicken out like she had so many times before. He looked at her intently, he smiled as she talked, not really saying anything, nodding and agreeing to all she had to say, when she was done talking, he took her into his arms, held her tight and kissed her forehead. He leaned in close and whispered in her ear.
"You know I love you too, and I always have."
It sent shivers down her spine. They spent the rest of the night admitting to everything and using that as the basis for their new found relationship.