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It was an hour before dawn and Jerry was in front of the computer screen. He was making notes as he read over her writings. She hadn't had a chance to finish her newest chapter but he was still going to read what she wrote and offer her advice. She was locked up in their room, where she had went to after their fight in their kitchen. He was frowning and still seething over Giselle and Nickolas trying to ruin his mating.

Her hands suddenly moved across his shoulders to circle his neck. Jerry sighed and closed his eyes. She bend down, tighten her arms around him and rested her chin against his shoulder. Her breath slipped down his neck a second before Winter kissed a spot under his ear. He brought his hands up and took a hold of her arms. He kept his eyes shut as he turned his head to face her. Winter nestled her face into his. A soft purr came from her throat, causing him to start to growl. Their cheeks rubbed together for a few seconds before she shifted, moving so she was in front of him.

Jerry's hands came to rest against her hips as she straddled his lap. Winter's hands move to his neck. Both kept their eyes shut. She brought her face down to him again. She started to purr, triggering his growl once again. He let his hands travel from her hips to her ass were he squeezed her hard. Their cheeks continued to rub against each other.

" I trust you that you won't lie to me." She whispered. Jerry exhaled hard.

" I won't." He breathed out. His left hand went into her hair.

" I was just stunned and a little shocked about the girl." Winter admitted. " I know what you have said about yourself but it's hard for me to see you like that. You have never shown me that side of you."

" I killed a man in the first club we went too." Jerry whispered. Winter pulled away and looked at him. Jerry's dark brown eyes opened and Winter could see the sadness in them. " The man that bothered you at the club, the first night we went out, do you remember him?"

" Yes." Winter said.

" I was angry that he dared to bother you then that he touched you. I followed him to the bathroom while you waited at the table. I broke his neck."

" Why?" She asked. Jerry was playing with the hair that hung against her back.

" Because I am possessive, Winter. I felt like you belonged to me." Jerry pushed himself up and stared hard into her eyes. He brought both hands to her hair. He took a hold of her and brought her forehead against his. " I would do anything for you and I have never felt like that before. Not as a human and not as a vampire. I never cared about anything in either lives. I killed to kill and I liked it. I was, and am, selfish."

" You aren't selfish, Jay." Winter said as she shook her head.

" Yes, Winter, I am. If it was up to me, I'd keep you in this house. I won't allow anyone to see you because you are mine to look at. I do not like knowing other males, vampire or human, look at you. I get angry just thinking they might be thinking sexual thoughts about you. I don't want you to talk to anyone but me, female or male. I was selfish as a human and I am selfish now." Winter frowned as she looked hard at him. " I have never been as I am now. I have never treated anyone as I treat you, you have to understand that. I have never told anyone that I loved them. I have never cared about my partners pleasure in the bedroom. I only cared for myself and my orgasms."

" I just can not see you like that." Winter's hands dropped to his chest were she started to rub him. "Jay, I just can't." He ran his hands through her hair repeatedly.

" Then I need to share my memories with you. You need to see me how I was then you can make a choice about how you think I am." Winter looked from one eye to the next, still frowning. She sighed, seeing how serious he was. That wasn't something she wanted to do. She didn't want to see him that way but he needed it. He needed her to know his past, she could see that.

" How do we do it?" She finally asked.

" Tomorrow night, after you wake, we will come in here, sit close together and hold hands. Through the bond my memories will flow into you." Jerry said. She bit her bottom lip and blinked a few times.

" Okay." She agreed. Her arms moved around his neck again and she snuggled into him. She buried her face into his neck. " But I will still think the same way about you."

" I hope so, Love. I really hope so." He whispered into her hair. He put his arms around her. Winter sighed and squeezed him with her legs.

" I love you. Nothing can change that." She said. " Now, take me to bed and make me sleep all day."

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At the start of the next evening, when she woke, Jerry was standing in the doorway with his hands on his hips. Winter turned over onto her back and sat up. She moved the blankets to the side and smiled at him. Jerry pulled his shirt off then started towards the bed. She was still undressed. He crawled over her, pushed her to lay on her back. He planned on taking her like it was the last time he would ever be with her.

His hands came to her thighs, pushing her legs apart as far as he could get them. He closed his eyes and brought his mouth to her center. He let himself taste her as slowly as he could. He sucked her into his mouth while she arched her back up and moaned. His hands came up to her breasts. He rolled her nipples in between his thumb and index finger. Jerry flatten his tongue and slowly rubbed it against her clit, making her tremble and cry out. When he brought her to the edge, he pulled away. He blew a long, slow breath against her before he pulled completely away.

He moved over her and took her mouth with his. His hands went into her hair while they kissed. She sighed, twisting and turning her tongue with his. When he felt she had come down enough that she won't orgasm at first touch, he brought his hand to her. Her breath hitched and her chest rose up to meet his. That time he stayed away from her clit, choosing instead to rub against her opening. He made slow, sweeping circles around her, feeling her womanhood tremble. Her tongue started to shake when he sank a finger insider her. He rubbed against the inside of her until she was ready for her release again then he pulled away from her. Again he took his time kissing her, massage her breasts and loving her. He waited until she had enough time to calm down then he brought himself to her entrance.

" Are you ready for me?" He whispered. She bit down on her lower lip.

" Please." She begged.

Jerry moved into her, feeling her warmth envelop him, inch by inch. She started to pull his hair and hold her breath. He didn't stop until he was completely inside her. Then...the moving began. The glorious, amazing moving. His thrusts hitting her and taking her over. He moved as slowly as he could, bring her to brink, then pulling her back, over and over again until he couldn't take anymore. He filled her mouth with his tongue while he filled her body with his cock. He flooded her mind with I love you's. He was scared. He was terrified to be more honest. She loved him, she adored him, he knew that much but he wasn't sure if she still would after she learned about his life. When he finally let her cum around him, his thrusts grew shorter and faster until he couldn't kiss her anymore. He squeezed his eyes shut and lost himself inside her. He orgasmed hard and long. He took her moans deep inside him and locked them up tight in a box.

After they were done, Jerry and Winter took a shower together. He hoped it wouldn't be for the last time. He washed her gently, refusing to allow her to do it herself. Then he led her to their bed and dressed her. He brushed her hair for her then held her close as they made their way out to the den. They walked over to the center of the room and sat down, facing each other. Jerry held his hands out, palm side up. Winter smiled and slipped her hands into his.

" What's going to happen?" She asked.

" I'm going to push my memories into you through our bond. You will live through them as if they are your own." He said. " I need you to remember something while this is going on."

" What?" Winter asked. Jerry took a deep breath.

" How much I love you and how much our time together has meant to me."

" You act like when this is over I'm going to leave you." Winter stated with a frown.

" It's a high possibility, Love." He said quietly. " When you are ready, just close your eyes. If it becomes to much for you or if you don't want to do it anymore, simply pull your hands away from mine."

" Okay." She said softly. She was surprised by him. His face was a mask of sadness and fear was coming down their bond. " You know what, maybe this isn't such a good idea."

" No, it has to be done. I won't have Giselle and Nickolas giving you anymore surprises. You will know all of me." Jerry said. She bit into her bottom lip but closed her eyes. Jerry took a shaky breath.

" I love you, too." Winter whispered. Jerry shook his head and closed his eyes. There was no turning back and he knew it. He sighed and the memories began.