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I had to be dreaming. My visions of him finally waking up were always on my mind. I could think of numerous scenarios where I pictured him alive and with me. But now? This was…unreal.
I stood there flabbergasted. It was Sam. He was standing there looking at me, not quite sure what to do. His shirt was off, of course, and he was in those same cut offs from when he first left me. Was this real?
"Mommy?" Liam asked hesitantly. He stood behind my legs and held me tight.
"Li-iam," I breathed out hugging me to him. My eyes couldn't be taken away from Sam. If they did, I was afraid he would disappear. Gazing into his eyes, I saw those same dark chocolate orbs. They were a bit glazed but connected with mine nonetheless.
The door opened again and called for me.
"Hey Bells? Will!" Embry called. Turning to go into the kitchen, he saw the back of a figure, me shell-shocked, and Liam hiding behind my legs.
"Hey who…? Holy Shit!" Embry cussed finding the man to be Sam. He stared at his alpha wide eyed.
"Sam?"
My heart rate increased. Even his name brought me shivers.
"Embry…get the Pack," I spoke shakily.
"I- yea, sure. Be right back," he said rushing out the door.
"Bella," Sam spoke. That simple word had me ready to faint. He was here. Really here.
Liam pulled on my shirt and I broke my stare away from Sam. "Its okay," I told the kid. Running my hand through his hair, I tried to calm both our anxiety. He seemed nervous, not knowing whom the man was and was protective of me.
There was a howl in the air and I knew it was Embry calling everyone here. My eyes went back up to the dark figure. They couldn't leave Sam.
"Will, come here bud," Embry said coming back in the house. Liam seemed hesitant to leave me, but with a pat to his back, he took off running for Embry.
"We'll be in the living room," he said picking up the boy and watching us barely interact. After taking a few deep breaths and blinking numerous times, Sam still didn't vanish and I knew he was real. Launching myself in his arms, I breathed in his scent and let my body melt. His arms came around me. They held me tight and his heat burned me. It felt so good.
"You're here," I croaked out with my legs wrapped around his waist.
"I'm here baby," he said in that deep gruff voice I loved while holding me tight. I sniffled a bit as I buried my head in his neck. I could have died waiting for this day. It was something I had been looking to for such a long time.
The Pack came rushing in through the door, and as Sam turned us a bit, they all gasped.
"Fuck me." Quil spoke in shock.
"No way," Jake said staring at Sam.
"Holy shit," Leah announced.
"I'm dreaming," Jared decided
"Hell…" Seth breathed.
"What the-" Paul shut his lips, stopping himself before letting out a strain of cuss words. They all stared at Sam, finding the sight to be unreal too. But Sam didnt pay much attention to them. He just continued to hug me and run his hands over my body.
"Damn," Collin and Brady both breathed, as they were the last to arrive.
"Guys," Leah said calling over the Pack to join Embry in the living room. I respected the time and space they were trying to give Sam and I.
Sniffing my tears back after all of the guys left the room; I pulled back and looked into Sam's face. My hands ran over his face, down his shoulders and glanced at his arms. There was not a part of him that I could reach that I didn't graze over. His chest was moving up and down, showing he was breathing, I could feel his heart beat against me, and his eyes were open.
Letting out a breath of astonishment, my eyes met his and we leaned in for a hard lustful kiss. His lips were everything against mine. Tears rolled down my cheeks some more but I didn't care. Sam's mouth was on mine. My heart was full and complete.
"I missed you," I spoke as we pulled away panting.
"Missed you too baby, so much," he said bringing his forehead to mine. My body was still in shock. It felt like a dream. My head couldn't wrap around that he was awake and here in Charlie's house. Taking in some more deep breaths, I let my legs unravel and I slid down from him. Bringing my hands up again, I lightly touched his face. It was just unbelievable.
"Why don't…umm…you go join the guys okay?" I said getting my head together, "I am going to call Sue."
He nodded, still watching me. His eyes said so much. There was wonder, lust, love, and curiosity. Smiling at the sight of him again, I hugged myself close to him and slid my hand around the back of his neck. He was still here. Setting our foreheads against each other, I just enjoyed the moment. He was really here.
"Okay," I breathed trying to get my fix of my newly woken up boyfriend. Opening my eyes, I let out a teary laugh. He just stared at me with so much love and compassion.
"I love you," he said with simplicity.
"I love you too," I mumbled as his lips crashed against mine again. Trying not to get too carried away since we still had company, I pulled away and smiled. Moving out of his arms, I started to drift away. Our hands were still entwined though, not sure if they were ready to go. I was just leaving his grasp when my heart clenched all over again and Sam had me reeling back to him.
"Can't let you go just yet," he said in that husky voice. He took a deep whiff of my scent.
"Good," I breathed with relief. I was afraid to leave him from my sight. Laying my head on his chest, we stood there together in each other's arms.
"I'm really here," he said trying to reassure me. I smiled against him as he ran a hand up and down my back. With a few more touches, I tried to pull myself away from him but it was just too hard. So he came further into the kitchen with me so I could call Sue.
She picked up on the second ring and I couldn't help but smile as Sam hugged me from behind. He kissed the side of my face and played with my long hair.
"Sue's Diner," the woman said with a cheery voice.
"Hey Sue," I smiled.
"Bella! What can I do for you?" she wondered.
"Are you sitting down?" I wondered lightly.
"No, why? Should I be? Is everything okay?" she asked.
"Just…sit down," I warned her with a small laugh. She huffed and then spoke again, "alright, let me have it. Are Seth and Leah all right? Did something happen with Will? Is he okay? What about Paul? And the rest of the boys?" she wondered.
"Sue…Sam woke up," I said with a small emotional chuckle. My boyfriend brought his lips to my temple for just a bit longer and squeezed me tight. Glancing up, I smiled at the man and snuggled in his chest. Arms wrapped around me and I swear I had melted in place. Just that little gesture had such an effect on me.
"How?-….when? Is he alright? What happened? How- and-" she was forming random and somewhat incoherent sentences.
"I'm not sure how yet, or really anything," I said with a laugh. "But he's here," I sniffled. Sam brushed my tears away and touched our foreheads together.
"Oh Bella, this is wonderful."
"I'm sure you will inform everyone?" I joked.
"Of course, already on it. You two just get reacquainted with each other. I know there is so much to catch up on. We'll talk later yes?"
"Absolutely," I smiled over the phone, "bye Sue."
"Bye Bella, tell Sam I said hello, even though I'm sure he can hear me."
Sam chuckled and nodded, "Yea, he can, and he says hello too. Thanks again Sue. Bye."
Hanging up the phone, I let out a breath and tried to pull it together. It was like my brain and my heart were on a track of their own.
"You okay?" Sam wondered to me softly.
"I should be asking you that," I said tearing up again as I turned back to face him. Damn emotions.
"I'm perfect baby," he said kissing me again. Sparks shot through my body and I melted against him.
"You ever do this to me again Sam Uley…" I said, my voice full of emotion as I started an empty threat.
"Never baby. Never ever again," he said cupping my face in his hands. "Never," he said staring straight into my eyes.
Nodding, I let my tears fall and my heart to crumble from exhaustion. I had tried to be strong for so long after Rose talked to me. It was so tiring and now that he was here, it was like a huge gap had been filled in my heart, soul, and life.
"Why is Mommy crying?" Will asked Paul.
"Mommy?" Paul said stunned to silence.
"Auntie Elley daddy. Why is she crying?" Will asked panicked. No one could understand his ball of emotions. Sniffling a bit I wiped my tears and took Sam's hand from my face to lead him to his Pack.
"I'm okay little man," I said coming to kneel down and catch him in my arms. Liam snuggled in my shoulder and comforted me.
"I'm so happy," I said hugging his small frame tightly.
"People don't cry when they are happy," he mumbled with his face smooched against my shoulder.
"I do, cause I'm extremely happy. Happier than you at the candy store," I said poking his side. He let out a giggle and I grinned.
"Auntie Elley, that's really happy," he stated while pulling away to look at me.
"Yea, it is," I said with light eyes. Kissing his nose, I ruffled his hair.
"Liam, this is Sam. Sam, this is William Matthew Lahote."
Sam crouched down to the kid and then stared up at me in confusion. Lahote?
"Yea Sam, I got myself a kid," Paul said impressed.
"Have a kid daddy," Liam corrected. I let out a small chuckle along with the rest of the Pack. I had taught him pretty nice grammar.
"Well…its nice to meet you," the alpha said sticking out his hand. Matty grabbed it and shook it firmly. "You too."
"Bella…did my son call you mommy?" Paul asked.
"Yea, about that, we should talk," I told the man. Smiling down at Liam, I whispered in his ear. Eyes going wide, he immediately nodded and ran off.
"What did you just tell my son?" Paul asked with narrowed eyes.
"Nothing," I said angelically. The Pack all laughed and Sam just grabbed my arms to hug me to him. We stood in the doorway for a while before the questions just had to be answered.
"Dude, how long have you been up?" Quil wondered.
"What was it like?" Seth wondered.
"Are you sure you're okay?" Leah asked.
"How did you know Bella would be here anyways?" Collin wondered.
"Okay, slow it down guys," I said hugging Sam's waist. He smiled down at me and kissed my lips. Turing back to look at the boys he took in a deep breath. "I woke up around 4:10? I think that's when I looked at the clock. I was surprised to be at the Cullen's house, and not having their company nonetheless. Their house is empty?" he wondered.
Everyone nodded, "they're half way across the world right now. We didn't want them sticking around for too long incase they would trigger the wolf gene," Jared explained. Sam nodded, "good idea."
"It was actually Bella's," Brady said. Sam raised an eyebrow at me surprised and I shrugged.
"Moving on," Quil said still waiting for the whole story.
"Anyways, I woke up and went to find Bella. I don't know what you guys want exactly."
"Sam, you've been in coma for over like…a year dude. We were thinking of answers, like what the fuck happened," Jake said.
"Language," Paul scolded.
"They all swore like potty mouths when they walked in the door and saw Sam," I said bluntly to Paul, "I think you are going to have to deal with that rather than what Jake just said." The father rolled his eyes at my logic reasoning.
"So come on, tell us more details," Leah said.
"There isn't much to say," Sam said hugging me. "I just…woke up. It was odd. I felt…funny I guess. It's been a long time since I moved my muscles and phased."
"Did you ever hear our voices?" Jared wondered. "We all stopped by a lot."
"I…I don't really remember guys, I'm sorry."
They all shrugged and tried to think of what else to ask him. His story was very anticlimactic.
"Got them!" Liam said coming in the room with a bunch of boxes of Girl Scout Cookies in hands.
"Awesome," I said helping him take some out of his little arms. Opening some Samoa's, I stuck one in my mouth and enjoyed the deliciousness.
"What happened to dinner?" Paul protested, not liking the chaos of all the guys diving for cookies and his son grabbing the package of Thin Mints.
"Hey, it's a special occasion, it will be fine," I said.
"Yea dad, its just once," Liam agreed calmly while going over to sit on Leah's lap. Everyone knew Leah had a soft spot for the kid and she hated when Paul scolded the youngster just as much as me. Only difference was Leah was not afraid to voice her opinion and scold Paul right back.
As we all shared the boxes, I turned in Sam's arms and smiled up at him. "So, I suggest that you go wolf with one of the other guys at a time, to catch up and all."
"Why just one?" he asked.
"Cause you've missed a lot," I said. "And if you go with more than one guy at a time…it will drive you crazy. You definitely wont be able to keep up with all of the scenes in their heads."
"Hey! I'm offended by that," Embry said.
"You'll get over it bedroom boy," I teased. Embry continued to grumble while we all laughed. Jared and I had come up with the nickname after the temporary Alpha had complained of all of the scenes he was witnessing. It was like Embry couldn't (or wouldn't) shut the mini movie off.
"Who wants to go first?" I asked to the boys.
"What about you?" Sam wondered to me.
"I have to talk with Paul, but don't worry, I'll be around," I smirked up at him. He kissed me quickly, still knowing I wasn't the fondest of PDA in front of the boys.
"I'll go," Seth said getting up. Nodding, I waited for Sam to pull away from me and go in the backyard but he didn't.
"I can't baby, it's just too much," he murmured to me. I would have laughed but I was feeling that exact same way. I didn't have the heart of effort in me to pull away from him.
"Come on, I'll walk you to the backyard so you can go wolf."
Kissing my temple, I took our hands and led us outside. Seth followed along behind us, not waiting for Sam to go wolf.
"Okay," I breathed as we made it outside. Sam was still hugging me tightly. "You should go phase," I muttered as he leaned down to kiss me again.
"One more," I said as he pulled away. Our lips touched briefly, giving each other just little nips and kisses. Finally neither of us could take it and Sam just wrapped his lips in mine. It had been too long since he'd kissed me. I was still getting used to the feeling again. There was a little yip in the air, which I knew was coming from Seth.
"Right," I smiled, filling my lungs with oxygen. "Go, I'll be right here."
Sam nodded, this time actually pulling away. He walked down the steps and looked back at me briefly. My breathing had stopped. A part of me was still thinking he would walk into those woods and never come out. Disappearing from my eyesight, I waited. My heart was pounding in my ears.
A big black wolf came trotting out of the woods and I let my body relax. He came over to me and I ran my hands through his fur. Kissing his muzzle, he rubbed the side of his face against mine. I loved when he did that. It reminded me of when we first met and had a moment out here.
"Bells," Paul said behind me. Looking away from Sam, I nodded. "Go talk with Seth, catch up and when you're ready I'll send another guy out okay?"
Sam's wolfy head nodded and went over to sit by Seth. It wasn't like they had to be by each other, but I wanted to get up and talk with Paul myself.
"So…my son called you mom," he started while we stood near he back door.
"Mother's day is coming up," I said with a sad voice, "he just-…he wants a mom."
Paul looked crushed. "Look, I wish I had the Pack mind and I could show you everything he said to be, but I cant. I don't have that. All I can tell you is that…he wonders why he doesn't have a mom. I know we both talked to him about Lissa but he still doesn't quite understand."
"Paul," I said touching his arm. His eyes were now glassy and I knew he was blaming himself for whatever idea popped into his head.
"I love him calling me mom. And I tried to explain it to him better. Sometimes moms just walk out, and blood doesn't matter; People can make their own family. He is doing that. You should be proud, not sad. He accepts this part of his life."
"I just- I sometimes wonder if I tried harder with Lissa, and if I wasn't who I was…maybe she would have stuck around," he admitted. I sighed.
"Paul, you can't change the past. You were who you were. And if you had changed sooner, William wouldn't have been here. All that matters was you changed- for yourself and your son when the time came. Liam is doing just fine without Lissa, maybe even better. Don't blame yourself. There is nothing you can do about it."
"Sometimes I just wish I imprinted already. I hate the fact that it doesn't happen with every wolf. My son deserves a real family, with a real mom. And…I can't give that to him. I feel like a failure," he said. I bit my lip, feeling for the poor guy. Hugging him, I smiled as he wrapped his arms around me. There was a loud menacing growl that had Paul and I break away from each other.
Paul laughed while giving a hearted chuckle, "is it odd to say I actually miss that sound?"
"No," I laughed along with him. I glanced over to see the wolf Sam watching us with a jealous and territorial growl, "I missed it too."
The wolf's eyes softened and he came over to me. "Its just Paul, I love you." Kissing his head he nuzzled into me. "Are you done with Seth?"
He nodded. Seth trotted away to phase back and Embry came out of the house seconds later. "Don't worry, we heard," Embry said running off to phase. I chuckled and stood back up to finish my talk with Paul.
"Liam doesn't need a perfect family, he just needs you. You're not a failure- look at you. You brought a son into this world who is a perfect gentleman, a kind soul and is so intelligent," I said with compassion. "You aren't doing anything wrong. People can grow up without the modern family. He is doing great."
Paul sighed, "are you sure you don't mind Liam calling you mom?"
I grinned, "not at all."
He chuckled at my response and nodded, "You know I would kiss you to say thanks, but I don't think Sam would really appreciate it."
There was another loud growl and I chuckled as Paul held back a grin, "yea, I know, just go back inside with your son."
Nodding, Paul gave my hand a quick squeeze and then excused himself.
I stayed outside watching Sam interact with the Pack. It took a while for him to comprehend all of the guys' thoughts. It was understandable though. He was gone for over a year- almost two actually. It was still odd to think he was here too. I was just so…mind boggled.
"That's the last of it," Jared said coming out of the woods, being the last one to phase with Sam.
I gave his hair a run through and then giggled when Sam picked me up by the waist and twirled me around. "So how was it?" I asked him. Jared slipped inside the house, smiling as he watched us.
"A lot happened," Sam stated.
"Yea, good thing you have the whole wolf mind thing," I joked while staring up at him. "And just think, I actually found it annoying."
Sam's face broke into a small smile. "You changed," he said staring at me. My eyes furrowed a bit; was that a good thing? And what did he mean by change?
"I'm glad you came back, to the family," he said knowing about my travels. I blushed a bit and nodded. Laying my head on his chest, I entwined our hands, "I couldn't leave them; or us really," I said looking up at him again, "I missed my life."
"I missed you," he said letting go of one of my hands to cup my face. Leaning down, he kissed my lips gently. My hands snaked up around his shoulders and to his neck.
"Do I have time to catch up with you now? I know all of the boys' thoughts but nothing of yours," he said caringly.
"Later," I said with a twinkle in my eye, "dinner is almost ready and you have some new people to get accustomed to."
Leading him back into the house, I enjoyed his hands on my waist. He met Andrea, Embry's imprint, and during dinner he got to get to know William a bit more. The rest of the imprints showed up a while later and he caught up with them too.
"My god Sam," Charlie said coming into the house after pulling a long day at work.
"Hey Chief," he said standing up to shake the man's hand. My dad glanced over to me after acknowledging Sam and I could see the relief in his eyes. He really knew now that his little girl was going to be okay.
After dinner, we all hung around in the living room. Patrols were cancelled and we just all spent time together as a family. I sat on Sam's lap on the couch with Liam's head on my lap. He was fast asleep, snuggling into me as I ran my hands through his hair.
Sam had protected Liam's body with his arm like he was his own. I could tell he really cared about the kid fast too. The alpha's big arms were wrapped around me and set on Liam. It was cute, or so I thought.
Sam had accepted the fact that Paul had a kid, but it didn't stop him from giving him the long lecture I thought my boyfriend would give his brother. Responsibility. Paul needed to be more responsible and blah blah blah. I could tell Sam was catching up on the times, especially with accepting the alpha duty again, which relieved Jared. He then lectured Embry and with almost the same lecture, but this time it was a bit more focused on protection and being careful with his speedy imprint relationship.
After all that was out of the way though, and Sam wound back down, we all had a civil and relaxing conversation. It was nice.
"I should get this little guy home," Paul said getting up from the floor to scoop up his little one.
"Thanks again for watching him Bells," Paul said with a kiss to my cheek.
"Of course," I smiled brightly, leaning over to give Liam a small kiss. From there Embry and Andrea left, and then Kim and Jared.
"Nice to see you up and alive dude," Seth said coming to give his alpha a man hug.
"Yea, good to see you man," Jake said giving Sam another manly hug too.
"Bye guys," I smiled as I pranced over to the front door and watched everyone leave.
"Call me later okay?" Leah said hugging me.
"Will do," I whispered to her as she left. When everyone was gone, I shut the door and sighed. Sam wrapped his arms around me and kissed my head.
"Ready to go home?" Sam asked.
"I am home," I said biting my lip.
"Bells," he sighed as I pulled away from him a bit.
"I haven't been able to step back in your place since…the accident. It was just too hard- too many memories without you."
"Well I'm here now," he said, "think we can go back?"
I sighed, feeling slightly nervous. "I haven't been over there for over a year," I whispered.
"Doesn't mean you still can't go back," he said calming me down.
I swallowed hard and listened to his strong heart beat.
"I want us to live together," he said softly, kissing the top of my head. "Waking up and…catching up with everyone, it makes me see how precious time really is. And I haven't been here for a while. I missed so many things. You're birthday for one," he said.
I sighed again, "Sam, I missed my own birthday too. So did the guys, I was in LA working, its not a big deal."
"To me it is," he said.
"Well I missed yours," I said squeezing his waist. He shrugged and continued to hold me. "I don't want to watch my brothers live their lives with the ones they love and for us to hold back."
"We aren't," I said looking up. "I just-…I just got you back that's all. I don't want to lose you again."
"I know," he said kissing my head.
"Come home with me Bells. Last time I remember, you had your stuff at my place and we were moving along towards our future," he said. I blinked a few times, conjuring up all those thoughts. All of those times I was scared of our future and thinking I was too young. There was still a part of me that felt like that but Sam was somewhat right. I watched my entire family move along with their lives and when Sam was gone, I felt like it was hard to do that. They all moved in with each other and wanted to get married, I was just…stuck. I didn't have control of my future, and I didn't like that.
"Alright, I'll grab some stuff and we'll head to your place," I said giving in. kissing him softly on my tiptoes, I went to go upstairs.
"Our place," he said not letting our hands go, "its our place."
My eyebrows furrowed. That was the thing, that house of Sam's was always going to be his. There was just something about it that I couldn't call mine anymore.
"Baby," I said coming back to face him.
"I want a place where you call the home ours. Not mine, not yours but ours," he said watching me carefully.
"I can't call that place mine," I told him honestly. "There are just too many memories that I think of you there. I…" my heart thumped against my chest. "After you were gone…that place…it became yours and yours for good. I think I just…displaced myself from it to try and salvage some of my heart."
Tears welled in my eyes, "and I can't call that place mine. It has to stay yours because…I'm afraid to lose you again," I bit my lips to stop my oncoming sobs but it was hard. "I know you keep telling me that its okay and that I wont lose you again but Sam, I swear, every time I close my eyes, I cant help but think and believe that you're going to disappear. I-"
"okay," he said trying to calm me down.
"I had to live without you for so long. You missed so many things I wished you were here for. And now that I have you…I can't let you go. That house, it just…I cant let myself feel in that place again."
He hushed me silent and swayed us back and forth. Truthfully, I felt like I didn't explain it right. I felt like I left him confused, but in someway, it made complete and perfect sense to me. I couldn't go back and call his home mine. There were so many memories we had together that made my heart clench. They were all in the past, which hurt to think about. But it was also the fact that, that place, was all him. He created his own memories there and I wasn't sure if I could open myself up enough to add myself to the mix.
"We'll find our own place," he said repetitively as he calmed me down.
"Wh-at?" I asked still a bit shook up. I pulled my head away from his chest and glanced up at him. That was a big step too.
"I mean what I said. I want somewhere that we can live together that's ours. If it means selling my place and getting you out of here then so be it. I want the future to be the present," He stared into my eyes, searching for fear or anxiousness. Of course, he did find some but it wasn't like before.
"You sound like you're about ready to ask me to marry you too," I joked.
"Thought about it," he said teasingly. My heart skipped and he smirked, hearing it all too well. "Being in coma is an eye opening experience. No more waiting or touching on the scary subjects. Whatever it is, whenever it happens, I want us to have it all. I want us to be together forever."
"Okay," I breathed trying to take it one step at a time. "No wedding vows yet, just moving in with each other," I clarified.
"I'll take that…for now," he smirked. Rolling my eyes, I leaned up and kissed him.
