I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you
It's not like that at all
There's a girl
That gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walked through it
And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
~Avril Lavigne – Wish You Were Here
I can be tough, I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all
You found a way to pierce my hard exterior, it was something I used to pride myself on having, hiding behind it all, only showing parts of the real me, but with you, it's not like that at all.
You are the only person I have ever truly trusted, you know things about me even my mom doesn't know and she is the only other person I trust in this world. You have seen a different side of me, noticed things no one else ever did.
There's a girl That gives a shit
Behind this wall You just walked through it
You are the only one who truly cares about me unconditionally, in-spite of my flaws, I saw that the day I drove the ambulance and nearly killed myself, that moment I was glad I didn't. That situation showed me a lot, how much you really cared. You walked straight through the wall I had up for all these years.
And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
And when things get to be too much, I relive all the flirty conversations we had ever had and it gets me through, without them, without you, I am not sure I would survive. I am sure there comes a point in this job where if left to do it, this job will consume you, eat you up and swallow it whole. Gideon was a prime example, it consumed him, took over his life until there was nothing left. Elle was another example, it consumed her and she got reckless. I also think it is fair to say it will take Emily next. I am surprised it hasn't yet, after all she had been through, I'm not sure I would have been able to return, not without a solace.
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
I know you are only ever just a phone call away, but sometimes, like right now, I need more. I need to see you, feel you, smell you, taste you...I wish you were here...
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You are so adventurous...as am I, but in a totally different way...you just do and love with your whole heart. You love each and every one of us in our own way. You go out of your way to help us and support us...a friend to both Emily and JJ, a big sister to Reid, a little sister to Hotch, a daughter figure to Rossi and a friend and lover to me. You don't think about it, you don't have to, you just go with it.
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
I don't notice it as much with the short cases, but the long ones, the ones that keep me away for longer, the cases that I want to erase from my memory. I want to replace them with you, my sweet memories of you...you are always there, on my mind...everywhere, but the time apart I certainly wish you were here for no one else, but for me. Thinking about you, my love for you is the only way I get through it.