White Horse
Sisters Grimm Fan Fiction
Chapter 3
Sabrina's POV:
I leaned back on my bed, fighting the tears that I refused to let Puck see-I absolutely refused to let Puck see how upset he'd made me. Sure, it might hurt him to know he'd broken me like this, but I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of knowing he could affect me like this. I pulled my knees towards my chin and buried my face in my thighs, wrapping my arms around my legs. "Well?" I mumbled.
"Sabrina...the first time I met you...I didn't want Jack to be your hero. I wanted you to turn to me to save your family and protect you. I didn't want you to think some...well, some other guy would do a better job of protecting you," He sighed. "And then...well you were leaving to go to school and I just knew I'd lose you. So I set up the trap and used to spider to get you to come barging in. I figured if your hair was like that, the Old Lady wouldn't send you there. But she did. And then I found out I had a chance to impress you! I got to follow you around and be by your side all day without you being able to stop it. And I ruined it all because I thought girls liked bad boys. So I didn't want you to think of my as anything but a villain. And when I found out what you really thought of me-I dropped you into the river," He paused and I snuck a little peek at him. He seemed to be deep in thought, studying a picture me at age twelve that was hanging besides the door. "And then you were so worried about me and I yelled at you-because I didn't want to admit I loved you. Because admitting it would make it real."
"So why'd you kiss me?" I asked and immediately hated myself for saying it. How could I let him know that I still remembered that moment? I'd rather he think I hated him and blocked out any memory of him that could be considered as good. I wanted myself to remember the pranks and the insults-because I really wanted to hate him. But half of my heart would also belong to him-no matter what happened.
"Because I couldn't stand it anymore!" He shouted, jumping to his feet. "Don't you get the affect you have on me? I was so afraid you were dead after that night in the barn! And I had my chance to tell you how I felt and I let it slip because I was just so surprised you were letting me hold you and trusted me enough to keep you safe! Sabrina, I've loved you forever-against my better judgement.I risked my life to save you from that stupid Jabborwocky and...and then I chose you over my kingdom. I had a fight with my brother about how I didn't want to stay in Faerie-and I how I was in love with a human!" He shook his head as he started to pace at the foot of the bed, arms locked behind his arms and head down.
"That's what you and Mustardseed were talking about?" I whispered. "That day at the funeral?" Darn it! I'd let another happy-Puck moment out. A moment that was filled with his sweetness and the quality that made me realize how amazing he could be-if I'd just let him. I shook my head as I thought that.
"Oh and the funeral? Yes, I was a little amazed you let me tell you what I really thought of my father, but I knew you'd care. I knew you'd understand...sort of. But I didn't think you'd say how my father was wrong and how I wasn't a failure of a loser or any of those things he called me. And then I could have kissed you again-told you I loved you. And I couldn't because of that stupid fight with Tony Fats and Hamstead! And then you disappeared...you and Charming and Daphne-all gone. I didn't know what to do. So I went looking. I looked everywhere. And then you wouldn't tell me where you'd been. I knew you were lying," He stopped and faced me, his eyes filling with tears. "But I didn't care...I was so happy because you were safe!" He gave a weak little smile.
"But...Puck...I couldn't-"
"I don't care anymore," He held up his hand to stop me. "I got that security team to keep you safe, did you know that? Just you," He shrugged. "And you snuck through it like you didn't believe I could do anything to keep you safe. And when I asked you if you thought I could, you said no. So I handcuffed us together to prove to you that I could keep you safe," He glared at me. "And then...or then your parents woke up and I was going to-"
"You're time is up." I said finally, looking up at him, my eyes narrowed and my expression hard. I didn't want to deal with him today. I didn't want to deal with him and his heartfelt apologies and sweet gestures. I didn't want to see him or talk to him. I didn't want to deal with him-ever. "Get out of my room,"
"But...Sabrina-"
"I don't care about why you did all that! I want to know why you left! Why, Puck, why?"
"I can't tell you,"
"You can't tell me? You love me so much that you can't tell me something? Newsflash? The war is over. Nobody's going to-"
"I was trying to kill the dragon that killed you, okay? I went to the future with Daphne and Charming-right after we fixed Snow White's story in the book? You were dead. Because a dragon had killed you. I just didn't know what dragon it was. So I swore I'd kill every single one. Charming was helping me find them. He told me a few days ago that he couldn't track anymore. So I came back. Daphne told me I'd fixed everything. With is clear, since you're still here-but it could have happened later, I suppose...it's all very confusing. All you need to know is that I saved your life. Happy now?" He snapped as he turned on his heel and stalked out of the room, slamming the door behind him. He left me sitting there in complete shock, stuck to wonder what was going on with my life.