White Horse
A Sisters Grimm Fan-fiction
Chapter 5

"PUCK!" Sabrina screamed, jumping to her feet and storming after him. "Puck, you stop right now and listen to me!" She said angrily, reaching out and grabbing his arm. He paused, just long enough for her to yank his arm hard enough to turn him around to face her. "You need to be fair to me. You knew what you were doing and you knew it would hurt me. But somehow...that didn't stop you. So I'm sorry if I thought you just didn't care but what else was I supposed to think?" She said bitterly. "I needed to do something to move on. I'm not an Everafter. I'm human. I'm mortal. And my life is too short to wait on someone to love you the way you love them." She whispered, lowering her head. "I thought you just didn't love me anymore..."She trailed over.

"Sabrina," He sighed, pulling his arm away from her and running a hand through his hair. "You don't just stop loving somebody. You either always will or you never did," He sighed. "I may act brave but I'm not. I'm afraid of admitting I'm in love with you because I'm afraid of not being loved back. The most painful thing in the world is to love somebody and never have the courage to tell them how you feel," He shook his head. "But you need to realize something. I didn't just walk away. You let me walk away." He lowered his head, not wanting to say anything more for fear of crying. That was one thing he refused to do.

Sabrina stared at him in shock. She refused to let him close enough to hurt her. She wouldn't let him have this power over her. "Next time you say forever, I'm punching you in the face," She shot back, her tone full of venom. It seemed like all it took was him blaming her for everything to get her to get over him. But she still loved him. She still wanted him. She couldn't believe he'd just desert her like that, but he had. And while she didn't want to keep loving him, she had to. Because he was her life.

Puck swore, turning and punching the wall. He walked off quickly and turned back around, walking back towards her. "You know what? If you were to ask me what was more important to me-your life or my life? I'd say my life. Because your life is my life now. I'm in too deep. You jump, I jump. That's how it is now. I can't turn away without knowing you'll be okay. I want to be with you forever. I will love you forever. It's not going to change. You're always going to be the most important part of my life-forever. And go ahead and punch me-it won't hurt as much as knowing I can't have you anymore! It won't hurt as much as the image of you and Peter together." He snapped angrily, punching the wall again.

"Nothing lasts forever," Sabrina muttered.

"If nothing lasts forever," He said slowly turning calm. "Then I want to be your nothing. I know that I was wrong. I'm sorry I hurt you," He whispered. "Once in a while...in the middle of ordinary, everyday life...love gives us a miracle. And that's what fairytales are made out of. Sabrina, you're a Grimm. You're surrounded by magic and miracles...happy endings and princesses that ride into the sunset with their own prince on a white stallion. How can you now believe in love?" He asked, walking towards her and putting a hand on her shoulder.

"It isn't hard. Snow White left Charming at the alter and then he divorced Cinderella, Briar, and Rapunzel-while he was never in love with any of them in the first place. Think about all those supposedly happily ever afters, Puck. None of them really worked out. So why shouldn't I believe that it isn't real? Why shouldn't I believe that you're not as important to me as I want to believe you are?" She asked, automatically pulling down the sleeve of her shirt as she heard the door open downstairs.

"Kiss me," Puck declared, sounding slightly like his old, cocky self. His tone was slightly playful but arrogant at the same time. "Kiss me and you'll see just how important I am," He countered to her. Sabrina took a tentative step backwards. "You're afraid to do it. You know I'm right and you're afraid to admit it." He smirked.

"I'm afraid of getting hurt again," She shook her head.

"You jump, I jump, remember? I can't hurt you without hurting myself Sabrina. It's physically impossible. I'm in over my head here and I don't know what else to do. So just kiss me and then tell me you want nothing to do with you can do that, then I'll walk away and never bother you again. If you can honestly look me in the eyes and say you're over me and you never want to see me again, then I'll say my goodbyes and never bother you ever again," He said, his eyes full of pain at the thought of it.

Sabrina took a small step forward. She looked up and locked eyes with him before shaking her head. Puck sighed in defeat, knowing this would be the end of it all. But then she raced towards him, running into his arms and kissing him right on the mouth. It was different from any other kiss they'd ever had. She seemed so needy-so confused. It was full of a new passion. It made her seem so young and insecure. It made her seem like she needed to be protected.

Of course, Puck was different as well. He seemed so...thankful for the kiss. As if everything he'd ever wanted was given to him by this one moment. He didn't seem sure of himself or arrogant. His strong exterior was cracked and he was clinging to her as if she was his lifeline.

"I can't do this," Sabrina gasped as she pulled back. Puck looked down at her and grabbed her sleeve, pulling it up and studying the cuts.

"No," He said strongly. "You can't do this," He said. "You're so stupid, Sabrina," He chuckled slightly, kissing her again-and she let him, clinging to him tightly. "Why did you do that Sabrina?" He asked, still studying her wrists. He kissed her again, pulling her close to him, as if that was the only way to confirm that this was real.

"You're no good for me," Sabrina said suddenly, pushing him away and backing up. Puck locked eyes with her and smiled.

"You're no good for me either," He shrugged. "But, maybe we're so wrong that it's right," He said carelessly.

"I can't do this Puck. You've hurt me one too many times. I need to think. I need to clear my head. I need...I need space." She said, struggling to get the words out. Puck nodded and Sabrina hated the defeat behind his eyes. But she couldn't turn back now. She couldn't let him have this much power over her. She needed to figure things out before she went running to him.