When Charlie and I made our way back over to the Pack, Sam was already waiting for me, pulling me onto his lap as we all sat a ways away on the beach. We took a quick break from everyone else and just stuck with our 'Pack' family.
"What's that?" Sam wondered to my hands.
"A letter from Renee," I said.
"What?" Everyone asked sucking in a breath.
"I don't know, I haven't opened it. Phil said he found it when he was looking for the home movies and stuff."
"It doesn't look to old," Billy commented.
"No, it doesn't," I breathed ridding away that pit in my stomach.
Sam kissed my cheek and then my mark, which caused tingles to run through me. Smiling a bit, I looked up to my husband and found him grinning down at me.
"So Seth, congratulations," I said shifting the attention off me as it went silent. He grinned with a small blush. Imprints weren't really hanging around except for Kim and me. Sarah and Andrea were off with Alice or something.
"Thanks," he smiled.
"So tell us about her dude," Quil said nudging him.
"She's my age," Seth started out, "and uhh, from the Makah res," he said.
"Tell us something we don't know yet Seth," Paul said rolling his eyes.
"Her mom is also an elder on her res. That's how Sam's dad knows Lin."
"She's half Asian?" Jake asked.
"Yea, her dad is Asian and her mom is Quileute."
"How'd that work?" Embry wondered.
"Same as Leah. Her mom was a wolf and her line of people is from 'high' descent. She fell in love with Lin's father Ken and they had Lin."
"So Lin is half Quileute?" Leah said.
"Yea, cool huh?" he asked.
"Does that mean she isn't going to go wolf?" Jared wondered.
"I don't think so. She knows about them and stuff but isn't actually one of them, yet at least. I guess there are a few different things on Makah land that we don't do here."
"What do you mean?" I wondered.
"Well everyone on their land knows the legends are true, so they aren't calling their people a 'cult'. They actually call them by their title- protectors. They don't spread the word either, it's obviously meant to be kept hush hush, and their people know that."
Some of us glanced at Billy with a raised eyebrow. That should be applied to Leah and Cole.
"So she knew you imprinted on her?" Kim asked.
"She had a feeling but wasn't sure. I told her and she said it was worth a shot to try."
"Cute," Collin commented.
"Yea," Seth smiled while thinking of her. "She's really nice."
"Does she know how to cook?" Quil asked thoughtfully.
"She know s how but claims she isn't too good at it. She calls herself more of a bookworm."
"Well that won't work," Quil said.
"Shut it mutt," Leah said slapping him on the back of the head. We laughed.
"I guess she likes to clean and sew a lot though. I laughed when she said she likes to go to bed with a clean bedroom. And sewing or cross stitching things help her to relax," Seth said thoughtfully. We smiled and laughed again as Quil was still rubbing the back of his head.
"Well that's good then. She can definitely help us with all your boys' clothes," Kim commented with a smile.
"She sounds very nice Seth," Sam commented.
"Thank," he blushed again. I let out a small laugh and nuzzled into Sam's neck.
"Bella, Sam, speech time," Sue said coming over to us. Getting up, I jokingly helped Sam up with me and kissed his lips.
"Mmm, I love that," I smiled.
"I love you," he spoke.
"Not as much as I do you."
"Oh-"
"Enough love birds, lets go. I'm up," Leah said rolling her eyes as she went to give her speech.
Chuckling, we walked behind her and grabbed a seat at a table to listen to everyone.
Leah gave her full discourse, this time not hung over. It was beautiful. She talked about her point of view watching us grow and develop as a couple. Then she told us how she believed in love because of us. All the things I didn't know came into view and she made me aware of all of them.
Next came Jared. His speech was funny because he was serious during rehearsal dinner. He made jokes on how he wasn't hung over unlike Leah last time, and he laughed about the insight he knew Sam had given him when they 'worked together'. He told me how he'd complain when he wasn't with me or when our time was cut short. It was cute. And then he told little jokes and lines about me from what Kim had provided him. I was love sick and head over heels. I was going to talk with those to after.
After that, I saw Joshua Uley and Charlie go up on stage. Both had note cards. Sam and I weren't aware they were making speeches so when we turned to each other, we were both highly confused.
"Well, I'm Joshua Uley and beside me here is Charlie Swan," he spoke. "Now I-uhh…just wanted to come up here and say a few words- both the Chief and I did," he said into the microphone. "Well uhh…" Mr. Uley said struggling. Giving a raised eyebrow to Sam, he just shook his head.
"Apparently he's not one to public speak," Sam said in my ear. I let out a laugh and hit his chest as I sat on his lap.
"Both Charlie and I have walked out of our children's life. Some reasons being that we didn't have a choice, while others being, we did it to save ourselves, and for our children. Our kids, who have met each other through the coincidence of living in this small area, have brought us together again, labeling us as a family," Mr. Uley said. "They have grown up to be such strong individuals that make us as fathers want to be better."
Sam's dad stepped away and Charlie now stepped up.
"It's great to see our kids so happy and loved. Parents like us, who haven't always been there enjoy seeing their kids fall in love and get to know their significant other," Charlie said clearing his voice, "and we just want to thank them. These two are such a strong amazing couple and everyone can agree they have brought so much to us."
Mr. Uley was standing beside Charlie nodding.
"So here's to Sam and Bella, may all be well for now and the future."
Everyone raised their glasses again and we all cheered, taking a sip.
As people started to leave and we said our goodbyes, music came on through the radio and all of us had the opportunity to dance. Sam pulled me in for a few slow songs, Collin too, and even Jake did for one. Leah and Cole dance together mostly, while Cole let Seth take over for one song. Paul had a chance to dance with Lin, while Quil had a chance to dance with Joey.
"Can I cut in?" Embry asked Paul.
"Sure," he said giving me a kiss on the cheek as he left me to my other friend.
"Long time no talk," I said wrapping my arms around Embry's neck.
"Yea, sorry," he said.
"Remember when things were so much different?" I asked. The last time I had really been with Embry was when I sang for the first time without an instrument and spent the day with him while Jake went on patrol. Both of those times I wasn't with Sam and was still avoiding him and he imprint.
"Crazy right?" Embry said thinking my exact thoughts.
"Very," I said breaking out of my daydream.
"Its good though, that we are still close without needing to be," he said trying to make sense of his words.
"It's what friends can do," I spoke with a smile.
"Its what family does," he corrected.
"Thanks for always being around Em," I said looking up to him with a small blush.
"I'll always take care of you," he said. "Things change and time passes but we'll always have each other right?"
"Yea," I smiled.
"Good," he said kissing my nose.
"Watch were you plant your lips Embry," Sam warned with a low growl as he came to cut in.
"Yea yea," Embry said rolling his eyes as he gave my side a squeeze to leave.
"Miss me?" Sam joked.
"Of course," I smiled kissing his lips as he bent down to my level.
"The kids still playing with our puppy?" I wondered.
"Of course," he said. "I think that pup will be tired for a while."
"Are we leaving him here?" I wondered to Sam. We were going to drive to Port Angeles late tonight and jump on the opportunity for our honeymoon.
"We could take him if you want," Sam said.
"Can we?" I smiled sweetly. He let out a chuckle and kissed my forehead- yes.
"We need to give him a name," Sam reminded me.
"I don't know," I said clueless.
"Me either," Sam chuckled.
"Mommy!" Liam said. "Dance! Dance!"
"Better go find another dance partner," Sam chuckled, kissing me briefly as he left Liam with me.
"Hi buddy," I smiled, "I thought you were with the pup."
"I wanted to be with you," he said pushing some hair away from my face. Smiling at the gesture, I kissed his cheek.
"Can I come with you tonight?" Liam wondered.
"Sorry buddy," I chuckled, "this vacation is just for Sam and I."
"What about the doggy?" he wondered.
"And him too."
"But I don't want you to go," he whined.
"I'm just going to Port Angeles Liam, I wont be too far away if you need something."
"Promise?" he asked.
I nodded, "absolutely."
"I love you mommy," Liam sighed in content as he laid his head on my shoulder.
"I love you too buddy, always," I said back gently.
When the party was finally over, we said our goodbyes to everyone and headed back to our car. Thanks to Alice and Rose, our things had been packed in the truck and all we needed to do was leave. With a quick change of clothes and picking the puppy up in our hands, Sam opened my car door for me and shut it, jogging back to his side to take off.
"Ready to spend some time as husband and wife?" Sam asked with a smile.
"Lets go," I replied, kissing the fur ball in my hands as we waved goodbye to everyone on the beach.
Our hotel room was amazing. It was nice and big, with a comfy white lounge chair and a huge circular white-sheeted bed. The windows were one huge wall, showing us a great view of Port Angeles. They had silky white and dark blue drapes that coincided with the painted walls and pillows. Everything was so crisp and clean; especially the mini kitchen off to our right when we first stepped in was perfect and sparkly.
Letting down the pup and dropping our bags, I ran for the bed with laughter.
"We should never ever leave here," I spoke in content. Even the light fixtures, lamps and whatever else that were designed in the room were interesting to look at. They were odd shaped and appealing things to marvel at.
"We wont have to for a while," Sam said coming to hover over me.
"Good," I smiled, gazing into his deep brown eyes.
Before the romance could start though, a little guy came jumping up on us, licking my face and wagging his tail in front of Sam. Letting out a giggle, Sam rolled off to the side of me while I sat up.
"I like being here husband," I smiled, still enjoying the word roll of my tongue.
"I like having you with me wife," he said with his own little grin. Kissing my lips, we started a mini make out session, ending with us panting for air and our foreheads together.
(A/N: Hey guys, so this story is coming to a close as you are all starting to see. I am sorry to say but I'm going to be skipping the lemons, maybe adding them later or something. So time is going to pass quickly, but I will add an epilogue to sum up everything. Hope you enjoy the last chapters of the story!)
Because it was late by the time we arrived in Port Angeles, we called it a night early, and snuggled up against each other with the puppy curled up in a ball on the big white comfy lounge chair.
It felt so much different to be held in the arms of my husband and I knew it was my imagination. Just because we added titles to our lives didn't mean it would really change us physically or whatever, but it did feel different. Sam was warmer and cozier. If possible, I thought we fit together even more perfectly. It was like; finally, after all of this time, both him and his wolf were in sync with me.
I guess this rambling doesn't make any sense, and I'm not sure how to explain it. It was like, as I laid with him, doodling little pictures on his warm skin, I couldn't help but feel like this was where I belonged. My thoughts were silenced and I was encased in happiness and peace. I didn't need his wolf to be silent and nuzzle against me to keep me warm and comforted, and I didn't need to be encased, listening to the rhythmic breathing of Sam to make sure I wasn't dreaming or in love. It all came naturally now, and I chalk that up to being his wife.
"What is making all those gears turn in your head?" Sam grumbled to me as he kept his eyes closed.
"Huh?" I asked confused.
"I can practically hear you thinking Bella," he spoke, letting his eyes flutter open.
Raising an eyebrow, I gave a silly smile, "actually for once, I'm not thinking at all. I think you might be losing your touch," I joked. Giving my side a tickle, I squirmed against him and laughed as he kissed my nose.
"Never," he spoke getting comfy against me again.
"I'm really happy Sam," I breathed out in a whisper to the silent darkness. "Thanks for making me happy."
"You don't have to thank me Bella," he said taking a whiff of my scent, "you're doing the same for me."
Melting at his sweet words, I snuggled in closer to that chest of his I loved and fell asleep.
Our honeymoon was full of sex. Not to be blunt or anything, but it was. For the first few days we ordered room service, staying in for the mornings and evenings. We went from the shower, to the bath, on the bed and even a few other places too. I loved it all though. Staying in with Sam and not having to worry about anything made life seem so simple. It was peaceful and relaxing too. We were in our own little world of love.
Since we had about a week in Port Angeles, by the middle of our honeymoon, we spent it going out and shopping around. We hit up the bookstore and coffee shop we talked at long ago and even snagged a few new purchases, many for our new animal with us. We talked about the past and the present, bringing it all together as one, and we even touched based on the future again. The tranquility of our lives together, being just the beginning, had me thinking that all of the drama before getting married was well worth it.
Stopping by the music studio on the second to last day we had to leave, I checked up on everything while Sam made sure patrols were going smoothly and still no sighting of any vampires. We meet up around one o'clock near some café and had lunch together, filling in each other on what was going on.
Seth and Scott had the studio down pat. Scott was a real pro I guess at running things, which made Seth wonder if he was ever in business management. With the extra hand, it was like Seth was free. He now he spent most of his free time with his new imprint instead of being around music. It was good for him though, and great for Scott too, he really enjoyed being in charge. Brady and Collin were both out too, doing their own thing. I was glad everything was shaping up for my guys.
Sam had filled me in that there were no sightings of any bloodsucker around, which had me relieved, and that everyone was doing great like us. Leah and Cole were okay, now living in a place closer to La Push. Seth wasn't too happy with helping the both of them move now, but they got it done (getting rid of some of Leah's excess things in the process). Alongside that, everyone was also happy that Seth had found someone. It was like a miracle, to him and everyone else.
Paul and Liam were great. Liam was still quick with his words and smart as could be. I think he was getting antsy to see me and his new best friend (our dog). Paul was still balancing the life as a father and a regular guy. Letty was helping him out by babysitting for Liam more and more so Paul could relieve his own stress from work and the Pack.
Quil was same old same old I guess according to Sam too. He didn't have much to say other than that he was glad we were both happy and enjoying our honeymoon. Embry though, he was asking Sam when it would be appropriate to ask Andrea to marry him. Sam was a little freaked out considering they were still young, but he suggested Embry talk it over with his imprint.
I'm pretty sure Jared is going to pop the question to Kim any day now, and both Sam and I are hoping Jake is going to ask Sarah soon too. Both those girls have been itching to take the next step with their men but the two-frady cat males are too chicken to ask their mates. Sam has been egging them both on though, which I find kind of funny.
And that's about it. With our updates from the res of La Push, everyone else was well and moving along in life. Sam and I had been debating about returning a day earlier, but knowing that everyone was fine without us and Jared not having to really be the Alpha, we brushed the thought away and kept the day to ourselves to come home late at night.
As I was packing up and picking up things around our hotel room one afternoon, I stumbled upon Renee's letter. Biting my lip, I flipped it in my hands and sat on the bed. Sam was still out getting us some lunch; did I really want to open it without him? Running my hands over my name in her script, I tried not to feel nervous with not knowing what was inside.
Making a small tear in the seal, I slowly opened in and prepared my hammering heart for whatever it could be. Dipping my hand inside, I retrieved a letter. By the feel of it, it was her favorite stationary.
"Bella?" Sam asked coming in the room.
Glancing up, I saw him watching me confused as he shut our door.
"Hi," I rasped out nervously.
"What are you doing?" he wondered.
"The letter, from my mom," I said with a pit in my stomach.
With his full attention now, he set down our bag of food on the table and came to sit next to me.
"Why didn't you wait for me?" he asked with a hand on my thigh.
"I was going to but, I though I could do this," I said shakily.
Staring at me, he watched as I made my next move. I opened the three-folded long letter and ran my hand over the stationary.
"This was her favorite paper. I think I got it for mothers day one year," I said with some tears. With a light squeeze to my thigh, I shut my eyes and questioned why the heck I was doing this.
Glancing to Sam, I moved a hand up to his cheek, and marveled over his gorgeous face. He was my husband now and with him I could do anything. Feeling his lips slowly descend on mine, I let my eyes flutter closed again and felt everything I could in this moment. His lips were soft against mine, the both of us parting for more. We were aggressive with each other, yet gentle at the same tie, knowing exactly what we each wanted. As we pulled away, I licked my lips and looked back into those brown orbs. They were so calm and loving, all for me. Taking a deep breath, I took a moment for myself and then slowly looked down to read whatever she wrote.
Bella,
I know you can't understand my actions for doing what I am going to do, but please know, I would never want to leave you alone. You've grown into a beautiful girl, with so much heart. This letter isn't supposed to be sad or heartbreaking, but I know it will be for you. You know how much I say sorry, and I always mean it, but this time, I can't say sorry for my actions. I don't know what to say Bella, you're my daughter and if you were ever to leave me, I could never survive, but here I am doing this to you. Please forgive me.
I've learned and experienced that life gets hard, whether you're young or old. And as I've lived through my life, I found it's been exceptionally hard. I can barely get out of bed sometimes. You've been the light to my life and the reason I had carried on, but as you grow, I can't keep you attached to my hip like I used to. I know you will be fine without me. There is no doubt in my mind of that. You're wonderful inside and out, carrying so much beauty and grace. You're future is so bright and I wish I was strong enough to see it. Don't ever give up on things like I have. It may be one of my biggest regrets, but it will be mine and mine only. I love you so much sweetheart and thank you for all of the memories you have given me. Be the best you can be and give Phil all of my love. Please remember, I'll always be watching over you.
Love you crazy mother,
Renee
As my lines read the last few lines, I closed the letter and ran a hand over my face. Why did she have to do this? Why write a stupid letter before she went off to hang herself. Sam's arm came around my body and pulled me close to him. I let out a sob and put a hand over my face ashamed. I wasn't supposed to be like this anymore. I didn't want to crumble over the person who left me. She was gone and that part of me was gone. Wasn't it?
With a kiss to my head, I let the pain wash over me and cried till it could be right again.
